Hello, and welcome to the Borealis experience. Today,

I'm especially happy to have you here. It's been a very, very

tough day. And I was not gonna record anything you can maybe

hear, still have a snotty nose. But I thought no, I show up for

you every day. And that means that I'm going to be raw, I'm

going to be honest. And I'm not going to put on a show. Because

energetically, I wouldn't make it. If it was a once a week

podcast, you will get the best version of me every week. But

you get the daily Aurora. And Aurora goes through very deep

downs and very high highs. So yeah, it's all good. Everybody's

healthier, everybody's awesome. I just just problems with my

phone, my main device for promoting and recreating and

getting my work here done. That is causing me problems right

now. And it was all about blaming and shaming from my

phone provider and my cell service cellular provider,

however you call it. And now they told me there's a huge

amount of money involved to get things back into order. And they

could have told me six days ago, so huge frustration. So all this

to say I'm not perfect. I'm not living the perfect life. I run

through shitty situations as well. And sometimes I just laugh

because I think, Oh, I should live what I preach. I should

really listen to my podcast today and do a meditation

because it would do me so well. But recording really helps me to

center myself and to feel good again. And I want to show up for

you no matter what. Yes. All right. So let's talk about

feeling stuck. feeling stuck was what we talked about yesterday,

we all feel stuck during COVID confinement, and maybe get

frustrated and maybe get depressed. And we have to find

ways to be more resilient, because this might have not been

the last time we run into a virus crisis. So we have to

unlock our creativity, we have to be there. For other people

without feeling drained afterwards, we have to find ways

to be good with certain things being cut out of our lives. So I

think if we run into problems like I did, and the last couple

of days, we really have to make it discipline practice to be

grateful for what we have, I kept reminding myself of my good

health of my family of my friends and of my animals that I

have around here. And that helps you to go through and to push

through when you really want to throw the towel in and you want

to give up and quit. You have to know that you shouldn't quit and

you can quit. Because we need you out there and you need

yourself to be strong. It is okay to feel desperate and

frustrated and cry and everything. That's not the

point. But you have to show up as soon as possible again,

because again, we need you out there. We will always get

tested. No matter what we do out there, we will get tested,

especially if we want to challenge ourselves with a new

project with a new hobby with

a new partner. There's always going to be tests. Of course if

you stay at home on your couch and binge watch Netflix, there's

going to be lesser of a chance to be tested. But chances are if

you listen to my podcast, you are out there and you want to be

out there you want to be your best version. So once you start

healing Once you start on stucking, on fucking yourself,

you will run into tests. You can call it God is testing you, or

the universe is testing you, Mother Nature's testing you, if

you really want to be on that new path, if you're in it for

the long haul, if you're in 120%, trust me, when I emigrated

to Canada, it was exactly the same thing. Every time I ran

into an obstacle, every time, I knew I had to start the process

all over again, I knew it was testing me and just seeing if I

wanted to immigrate to Canada 120%. So if we know that, I

think we can look at our obstacles at our problems from a

little bit more of a distance, and kind of boil them smaller.

And really know that if we just stick to it, if we don't feel

too discouraged. If we're just in there for 51% instead of 49,

then we can do it, we can really do it. You will be tested, you

will be tested from your coworkers, you will be tested

from your parents, you will be tested. I think you say by and

not from, by the way, you will be tested by your friends, you

will be tested by yourself your resilience, once you start

something new. And it is okay to feel like a failure, it is okay

to compare yourself and feel really shitty for a moment.

Because other out there, others out there might have more

experience and a broader skill set. But you can learn those

skills, you can learn to be your version, your best version and

just shine out there just like the others. Don't feel

discouraged. And know that you will be tested, your

relationships will be tested, your friendships will be tested.

When you came out of an abusive relationship, you will encounter

people who will trigger you again. And you have to count

until 10 then and know is it my trigger reacting now? Or is it

my true self, myself that wants to be my best version of myself

that is acting and living from the heart, you will have to make

these decisions. And it's okay to take your time. You have to

take that time in order to know what is real, and what is just

past pain creeping up on you again. If you are in a romantic

relationship, and you have trust issues, you will be tested. If

you have abandonment issues, you will be tested. And you really

have to be careful to distinguish is that person

hurting me intentionally? Or is it my demons inside of me that

are trying to protect me? Is it my demons inside of me that

creating problems just to have that reality that I'm expecting,

because I'm still not 100% healed. And then meditating and

spending that 1015 minutes of meditation or a reflection

meditate with me each day or a couple times a week, you will

notice what's going on inside of yourself. And you will be out

there as a more authentic person. You will be out there

living from the heart and be okay with yourself. Embrace

yourself and totally accept all your scars. So be okay. being

tested. Don't feel like life is unfair and everything is bad and

you're not meant to be on that path. I think you're meant to be

on their path. You just need to stick to your guns and stick to

it and take a break. But never bought walk backwards.

Thank you so much for listening to today's episode. I'm

shivering a little bit. Because I was sitting outside I needed

the fresh air and I'm still very upset about my couple of days My

precious hours that I wasted on my cell phone trying to fix it

and yeah, that's it. I'm happy that I can be out here serving

You I'm happy that you're listening to me. And I hope you

received my message well, that you will feel stuck at times and

when you unstuck yourself, you will maybe try a new path and it

will feel awesome and right most of the time, but on those days

it's not gonna feel good and it's gonna feel hard. I just

don't want it to give up. All right, until tomorrow again,