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Hello, Beth. How are you today? I'm good. Episode

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13, is it? Yeah. Oh, lucky

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13. Yeah, I like 13. Good number.

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Discovered in our last holiday that our hotel does

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not have a floor 13. I've heard that about a few

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hotels and our buildings that they don't have floor

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13. I quite like 13, though. I think it's. I like

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13 because it's funny because we sometimes we sit outside and we're, like, counting

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the thing. We're like, the floors don't make sense. Like, we know how many floors

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are in the hotel. Yeah. And we just discovered it, and they were like,

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why isn't there a 13? I was like, oh, do we go down this rabbit

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hole, kids? But I was born on the 14th and my house is 14,

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but I was nearly a 13 baby. My mum went into labor on the 13.

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And so thirteen's always been lucky in our

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family, or things have always happened around the 13th as well. So

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I like it. It's a good number. I like it. Friday the 13th is, like,

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meant to be one of the luckiest days of the year. Not everybody believes

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that. Oh, it's funny, isn't it? As well, a lot of.

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A lot of people who probably believe there is bad luck, like, where did

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that come from? Because do they actually fundamentally believe that, or is it just something

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that they've been. They've learned or has been passed down? And I

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did some research on that, actually. I just want to see when the next Friday

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the 13th is. Because wouldn't it be funny if it's like, when this

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episode launches? I know there's the Friday the 12th is the next

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one, so it might be. Anyway, so I did some research on this because I

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was like, why is why? And this was

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only Internet research, so I don't know how verifiable.

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There's the caveat there. This is not Britannia

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encyclopedia, but apparently the number 13

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represents the 13 moons of the year, and it's said to be the

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number of the divine feminine. And Friday

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is the day is Freya day, and it's the day when the women

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come and they gather. And traditionally, we would do our magic.

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And so when the Friday and the 13th came

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and collided, it was said to be a very powerful, strong day for

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women to conjure up the things that us women

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conjure up when we get together, whatever that might be. And

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there was certainly a time where women gathering was

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shrouded in superstition and

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some bright spark. I can't remember who it was

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or where it. I can't remember where the actual, where it all derived

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from. But it then became the superstition that Friday the 13th is

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unlucky and so we should all stay at home and stay

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behind closed doors in case, I don't know, you get

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some witchy spell. Yeah. Depends what side of the

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fence you're on, whether you're a witch poo or you're not a witch, because unlucky

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for some, but they lucky for really lucky. Not so much for you.

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I love that. So we both got our cards this

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morning. In fact, I've got a whole, like, I was just laying them out

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before you jumped on the call because I think I'm gonna have a, I'm gonna

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have an oracle day, I think. An oracle day. A day of

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cards. Best kind of day. I was doing a guest

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expert session in someone's group last week, and we

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were talking about oracle cards and

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how we can use them in the everyday. And you should have seen my desk

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afterwards. I must have had 15 decks just, just because showing

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them just quite how many different

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vibes you can get and depending on what you like or what you're working on

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or what you're asking or what kind of message, if you want something

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direct to the point, if you want something gentle and fluffy. So

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I've pulled out the Carl gray, angel guide. Oracle.

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I say I've pulled out. They were sitting next to me on the desk just

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as the call was starting, and I thought, let's pull a

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card. What should we pull the card about today's

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discussion? Yeah, let's do that. Let's do that.

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And I'll pull one to add to it.

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Okay. So I'm going to ask what we're going to talk about today

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that is going to benefit the listeners the most.

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Joy and contentment. This

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is a beautiful card of an angelic being

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standing in a field of long grass. And

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she's wearing a kind of

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reddy burnt orangey reds

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dress more like a sari, actually.

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And the sky looks like it's made

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of lavender fields and heather and very

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pretty magic portals. And

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whilst the card says on the bottom, joy and contentment. We

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were talking about this, weren't we, a couple of weeks ago? Yeah, because I literally

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was editing that episode last night. We

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were rolling a boulder up a hill and talking about yellow smarties

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and sunny and melon. She's got the sun there behind her

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and a reddish dress. So this is the joy and the contentment. Right.

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But look at her. She's not bouncing around like a

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jumpy. It is more that if you look at her face, she's

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got, it's not even like a big grin. She just

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looks like, yeah, life's good. Life's

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good. That looks like contentment to me. That looks like I'm comfortable

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here in this moment, stood still in

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my contentment. And

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that can really bring a form of

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joy that I think is more sustainable. I think if you said

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to somebody, oh, it was a joyous occasion, then

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you think of kind of moments of streaking

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delight. Yeah. I think a lot of us, this is what we're aiming

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for, this

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sustainable, stable.

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This sounds really boring, sustainable,

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safe. Just point

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of, like, our equilibrium point comes to

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this. It's like stillness. Yeah. It's like a

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nothingness, but isn't nothing. It's like a

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just, I don't know what. I think contentment is probably the perfect

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word for it. It just being happy in

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our lot, in the cards that we've been dealt in the life that we have,

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in the surroundings that we have, in everything.

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It's an acceptance. I've just looked at the

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dictionary. A state of happiness

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and satisfaction, freedom from worry or

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restlessness, of peaceful satisfaction, free from

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worry. That's part of the Reiki

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principles. Just for today, I will not worry. And I

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think the truth is that we are all human beings

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and worry things happen. We're not sure

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things are out of our control, but get to this space

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of peace. It just makes everything easier to deal

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with. Yeah. If we're able to accept

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that everything is always as it should

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be, then our life can become

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blissful. Yes, everything is as it should be.

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And what am I doing to feed into that, to

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add to that, to continue that, to fuel that

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joy and contentment. I like that. Shall I tell you what card we've pulled? And

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I pulled it, and I thought, we can talk about this when

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we do Oracle card readings, or when you do Oracle card readings, or when anybody's

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doing Oracle card readings, and especially when we start to learn

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how to use them and trust what's coming through, we can sometimes get

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a card and we're like, that's not the card that I want today. I'm

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going to put that back in the day, we might be doing a reading for

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somebody else, and we think that person doesn't want to hear that message. And we're

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really tempted to, like, get another card kind of thing. But we

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have to learn to trust that we're

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just the messenger, we're the channel for the

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message that needs to come through. And I still get surprised today,

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even I've done hundreds and thousands of readings for people now. And

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even now, when I trust

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there might have that first inclination of putting it back in the deck

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and chop another card, a softer card. But when I stick to that

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and read that and that person goes, oh, my goodness. And you're

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like, oh. Then you realize that the magic in it. So when

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just literally, then shove all the cards and this come out, I was like, how

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does this fit? And I was like, no, it does fit. Let's trust the process.

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Let's see what comes, comes through. You'll all be really intrigued to know what the

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card is now. Yes, no doubt.

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So the card that we have got is past

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lives. Wow. Release your past

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life karma. You are an old soul with deep wisdom.

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Healing your past lives will raise your vibration.

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And I'm wondering whether this speaks to

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maybe our listeners today who were talking about joy and contentment, who are maybe

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not feeling joy and contentment, who are not feeling

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that they're in that space, or they maybe feel like that's

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a bit of a stretch right now. And

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when we talk about past lives, there's a lot to unpack there,

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but it also can be part of that healing and

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letting go of things that might be holding us

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back from being joyful and

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content with who we are and where we are. So I don't

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know if anything's come through Mel, as I've been. Can you describe

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the card? I can. So we've got a,

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like a princess, maiden, beautiful,

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long, flowing hair, different colours, and she's

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beside a unicorn. And the unicorn is equally all. The

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unicorn's hair is also flowing, but is

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decorated. And the hair of the horse unicorn is

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very similar to her hair. It's almost like they're one. They're together. So it's a

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very flowy. It is, actually, if you look at her face, you can almost

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say that she has got a similar

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kind of look as the joy and contentment card in that she's not smiling,

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she's not jumping up and down, but she's just holding the unicorn

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and holding on for the ride.

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Yeah, perhaps she is. So

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it's beautiful, card. And for me, past lives

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are a massive subject, and I work with them

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a lot. I teach in the akashic records, and I've done

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many past life readings for others and for self. And there

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is always something in there

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that. That can answer a question or can

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give us more ideas about who we are and who we've been

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and how. What made us, like, what has built us

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into who we are in this present day. We are multidimensional beings,

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and we are so much more than what

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we think we are. And

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past lives, for me, are, yes, we can

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think of them as incidents. Oh, I was a victorian

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whatever, or I was a slave in Egypt, or I was a king or a

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queen or a pauper or whatever. And my truth is that we've

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been all of that. We've been all of that in our existence. There's going

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to be elements of us that have

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experienced all of those things, those whole myriad of things. I think this is part

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of the soul's journey. And within that,

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there's hardship and

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traumas, quite, almost definitely. There's also amazing

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moments of joy and love and strength and

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courage and happy times. And

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we were talking about this, actually in my akashic records training a couple

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of weeks ago, about how I led them all through this

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journey. And part of this journey was to help them discover

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the reason why they have been drawn

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to Kashik records. And actually, the whole

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feeling of it for most of the members were,

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oh, I found life where I was really empowered and

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strong. Yet I think generally when we speak

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about past lives, people think that we're going to pick out all the times where

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we were bludgeoned and betrayed

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and tricked and all of this. But that's

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a really tiny part of actually

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who we are. And I have seen that it can be

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the power moments and the bliss moments and the

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amazing relationships that we've had in the past past and the

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huge amounts of joy and love that we've experienced that can

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actually be as beneficial to relearn

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and remember as some of the. As some of the harder

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things. And one of the members in soul school

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was like, exclaimed on that she's, oh, I always thought that we go in

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and we find the bad stuff, we

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find the good stuff. I love that.

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I think, yeah, maybe we've been conditioned to believe that

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because history, all of the bad stuff that did happen

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and that we are in a more privileged position

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today, hopefully, that it only has to

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be bad or that we must have been less fortunate. But when you think

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about, often, even when we think about the nineties or the eighties,

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or we think of that as in a nostalgic way of actually

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it was easier and nicer and there must be be really

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big magical moments from the

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past where we had joined contentment because life

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was simpler. Like, we could just walk the fields and

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pick the flowers. Like this card, the card that I called,

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that's what she looks like. She could be in any century,

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in any country. She could be anywhere in the

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world in any timeline, because she is just in a field with nothing

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else apart from this quite magical sky.

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Actually, the sky looks quite like the hair on the

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unicorn. Look at the colors on the past

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lives. The hair, the purples, and even the

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sky. It's very similar in its

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mottled. Yeah. And so

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it's all connected. And, yes, we can, if we

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think back to our memories, you know, we talk about how life seems to be

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getting quicker as we get older. You know what that is? That we have less

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defining moments as we get older. When we're younger, we have so many

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firsts. The first time we walk, the first time we eat that certain

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meal. The first time I've been here, the first time I've heard that word.

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The first time I started year

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1234. The first time I went and did

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this move with my body. The first time I fell in love. The

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first time I had a heartbreak. The first time I

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had a best friend. Right? We had all of these first times, and

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they're big moments in our emotional. It's our emotional

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charge that makes a moment very big. And I've seen this in the

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Akashic records as well, that it's not just the incidents that

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happen that are just scored. It's when we have a strong

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emotional experience with it that the

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score turns into a paragraph, a chapter, or a whole book. You have a whole

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book on one day because of how intense it was.

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And so when we look back in our lives, it's those big moments

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that we remember. And as we get older and every

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day, things become very familiar, and we have our

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routines and we're seeing the same thing. Life seems to be going

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quicker because we don't have so many defining moments.

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What if we did? What if every month we went,

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this month, I'm going to have a defining moment. This month I'm going to do

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something. If not for the first time, I'm going to look at it for the

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first time. What if we actually

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decided that we were going to continue to grow

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and learn? Because I think the more we learn, the more we grow. And as

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long as we're still learning, we're still living. Yeah, exactly. There's

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more to learn. There's more to do. I think

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that it's exactly that. It's asking

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ourselves, what do we want to do next? What are those defining moments that we

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want to create for ourselves? Because I think we can get to a certain point

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in life, and we just. We're literally going with the flow. We've

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got the house, we've got the career, we've got the business, maybe to a certain

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point. We've got the friendship circles, we've got the family. And what do we

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want to do next? How do we want to be spending our time? What

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do we want to learn? Who else do we want to meet? What do we

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want to create? And unless we stop and ask ourselves that

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question, then we are just going to go through the motions

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every week. But we literally got a blank canvas at any moment and

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we can twist and change and do whatever we want to do.

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And that's why I love working with visions, but not

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just creating one vision, refining it and re looking at it

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and just checking in and saying, is that actually what you want to do? Because

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often we'll think, oh, I want the big house, and I want to go on

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lots of holidays. But actually, it's finding the joy and contentment, isn't it?

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It's actually, do I just want to go for nice long walks

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in nature? Is that what I want to do more of? Do I want to

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be painting? Do I want to read? Do I want to connect? Do I just

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want to have conversations? Do I want to spend more time with my family?

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Yeah, I suppose there's that

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risk. Is it a risk? I don't know that. If we're

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sitting there and we're just so content now, I'm not going to change anything now.

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Just keep everything the same, just in case it

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all goes away. Life is for growing.

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Now, here's an interesting exercise for us all to

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do. What if we lived our life

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the way that we wanted to remember it? Some of the

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work that I've done through past life

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healing is we think it's when we've been

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bludgeoned and betrayed. Right. That's going to have the big impact.

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Quite often the big impact is when we've made

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a decision that we regret, right? We did

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something. We were this person, we think as everyone else. Then we're like,

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oh, it was me. I made this decision. Look

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who I impacted. Guilt. And

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again, this was something that surprised me when I first discovered it. It was

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like, wow, that is more powerful than forgiving the person

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that hit me over the head. It's actually

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forgiving me for hitting someone else over the head.

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And so every day we make decisions. Sometimes they're

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good, sometimes they're questionable. Sometimes they're done

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in fear or in anger or in

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scarcity or because we don't know we're always doing the best we

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can, always doing the best we can with what we've got. But when we

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start to understand that, okay, maybe one day I'm going to be reviewing this

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life, my next life. If I had to come and review this

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one, what can I just sort out now so I don't have to bring it

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with me in the next time? Oh, I like that. Yeah. What can we

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get rid of right now in this moment? I don't want to come into my

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next life and go, oh, look at, oh, my God. I had all of those

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opportunities and I was just too scared to take

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them. That might be true. I might be scared to take them,

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and it is scary to take them often. But what if

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I could just go, well, you know what? For this once, I'm just going to

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see what happens and I'm going to score that in my record, and that's going

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to be for this week anyway. My truth. I'm going to take a

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risk or I'm going to just find that little bit of courage to have that

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conversation or to put that offer out or to share my

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opinion on something or to wear the outfit that

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I had my eye on for so long, it can

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be those simple moments, but then we continue to

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grow. And then when we come back and review our month or our

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year or our decade, or as I've been doing, we've just had the leap year

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over the last four years. And you think, wow,

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like, I've really done some things now.

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It's interesting. So I've been reviewing these four weeks, these four

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years, and now I'm thinking, what do I want to be reviewing

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in the next four years? How do I

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want that to, what do I want to look at

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in hindsight?

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And do you know what's really interesting? I just got to the chapter of

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Outlander or the section, and it's called

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hindsight. Is it really? Yeah.

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Just flashed before my eyes. I was crying in my bed last

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night reading the book, how do I want to live? And it doesn't mean

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it has to be all of the big moments. It could be just

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the telling my child how special he

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is and holding his little hand and just taking a moment, looking at his little

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fingernails. It can be that there's joy

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and contentment in that and maybe that will

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spur us on to do something and to live a life that is

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great, that we consider great.

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Yeah. It's funny because I had a very similar thought

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about motherhood and just how when you think of what is my purpose and

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actually I think being a really good mum is something

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that brings me such joy and contentment. Just to think that I've done

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a good job or hopefully I've done a good job. But then it was also

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thinking I should really tell my mum that she's also been a really

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good mum because we don't always hear it. We have mother's days coming up, isn't

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it? And we get the card and we get the flowers. But actually

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there's something very special about being a mum and

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knowing that you've done a good job or at least you've tried to do your

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best. And then I was thinking I should definitely tell my mum more

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that she's been a good, good mum because if I want to hear

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it, then I'm sure my mum would want to hear it. Yeah.

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And maybe that's also part of it. Maybe this joy and contentment isn't

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just about me feeling it. How do I

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pass that on to the other people around me? Somebody

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said in a call the other day they were talking about

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me and they were like, when I'm with Melanie, I just feel

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calm and centered. I can just be with her for

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an hour. I'm like, I am so chill and I'm like,

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oh, I love that. Because I remember, I

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distinctly remember when I was a teenager there was this girl that

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I had met. I don't even know

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how we met, but she came part of our circle and whenever I

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was with her and it wasn't just me, whenever people were with

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her, they just came away feeling really good

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and I was just, and I'd look at her and I'd be like, how does

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she make people feel so good? And I was

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like, I want that. I want to do that. I want to be the one

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that when they're with me, I want to feel good. And she was like, we

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were the same age. I think we must have been 18, I don't know, 16

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1718 and I was like, I just,

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and obviously maybe I took that on and it's quite

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easy to forget and it's not

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about putting on a mask and being a wet lettuce or anything.

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She definitely, she had her boundaries. She was awesome. I wonder what she's doing

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now. Making people feel good everywhere she goes, I'm sure.

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But maybe this is it. Maybe it's. How do I. Whether it's a child, a

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partner, a parent, a colleague, a

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client, maybe the person in the

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supermarket. Yeah. I think

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for other people to feel that way, you have to

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be, you have to be that person, you have to

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feel. So she must have felt really good or she must have had those

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values and all of that inside her. Because equally,

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when a second ago we were talking the image

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of, in the colour purple, the original colour purple, when is it?

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Nettie? I always get their characters mix up, but Nettie, the whoopi Goldberg

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character, when she's. She's getting her kind of comeuppance and she's

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saying goodbye to that husband and sending him on his way kind of thing. She

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says, everything you've done to me, I'll paraphrase him, but everything done

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to me, he's already done to you. Like all of the her, all of the

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negative things that he had done ever to her in his

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and her lifetime was done to

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him. So everything that we do, every

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action that we take, if we want to have that

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impactful energy, if we want

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to impact people in really positive ways, then we have

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to also to be that person, we have to feel that. We have to

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be that person inside so that energetically, on the outside,

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people can feel. Right. And that's why we were

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talking another episode ago when we walked down the dark alley

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and we're scanning for danger that if

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we're not incongruent, if we're saying one thing, but we're meaning another thing,

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if we're saying all the nice things, we're being. I get that kind of mean

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girl vibe where you're saying all the right things to make people

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think that you're nice, but underneath you're really seeing that you don't actually like this

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other person. It's that mismatch of energies of who do you want to

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be, actually, and whoever you are being. And sometimes

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it's not who you want to be. Sometimes, if you're not being a nice person,

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you're not being a nice person. Right. If you've been a good person, you're being

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a good person. But, and we're always doing the best we can with what

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we know. We recognize that

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it's often easier to recognize it in someone else. And I started this saying about

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the. When we're in the Akashic records, we think it's when we've been bludgeoned over

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the head. That is an easier

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conversation to have with yourself. I got bludgeoned over the head because,

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blah, blah, blah. And I'm going to forgive him. Probably you did the

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same thing. But in that moment, when you forgive him for doing

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that, you're also forgiving yourself for doing the same thing. Because what you're

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doing is you're understanding it from another point of view,

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and you're understanding it from, we're always doing the best we can with what we've

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got. Now, if I'm being mean to somebody, we've all been through high

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school, and I don't know where you are, but certainly where I was,

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the mean girls was the place to be, and

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you were either in it or out of it. And we've all done

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things that weren't very nice. But what's that

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stemmed from? It stemmed from fear, and it stemmed from the

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fear of not belonging or the dog eat dog world that we're

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told that we is literally our nature.

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When we begin to heal that in us, then suddenly

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what feels better is maybe this girl that I met, maybe

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she taught me that what feels better is making

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somebody feel good than actually

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feeling good by putting somebody else down. Yeah.

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They both make you feel good in the

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moment, right? They do.

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It's like an adrenaline here. But then the other option

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leaves a bad taste in your mouth, and then it leaves you with all of

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the other things, and it starts a whole nother spiral. And so it

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always comes back to, well, what about me? How do I bring that? What is

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in me that feels the need to be mean, to

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say nice things, to have that judgment? I used to be really judgy.

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I used to judge everything. And I heard myself one

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day, and I was doing a lot of my shadow work and a lot of

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stuff on the spiritual, starting to understand myself

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better, and it was something that I just caught myself

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thinking. I wasn't even saying it was going on in my internal language, and I

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was like, wow, Melissa, come on. So

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what? Let them be like, so what? Like, I literally was

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like, oh, my. I didn't even hear it. It was so part of

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that internal dialogue. Yeah. And then I started to recognize it loads in

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other people, and then I was judging them for judging other people. So that was

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a whole fun thing. And anyway. And it still comes up. There's still

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this. Yeah, exactly. We're all human, right? We all capacity to

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be everything we. Do, and we just need

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to not need to. For me, what I found really

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helps is just having that compassion because of

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this steady vibe of this contentment. Like, it's okay. I know

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that I'm not a bad person. I know that no one is.

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What can I do to make it better? What's in me that really

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feels like it needs that

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adrenaline hit, that. It needs that. I can't accept that in me. And

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it always comes back. And you know what? When we do that, that is the

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most empowering thing that we can do for ourselves. It's not

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easy. It helps to have somebody there with you,

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guiding you through. We can do it on our own.

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We can do it with books, some great books out there. But this is it.

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It comes back to. Right, what we were saying at the beginning.

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It's. As long as we're learning, we're growing. Yeah.

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Maybe to close the episode. Maybe

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if we could just give one tip for helping people back

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to contentment and joy. How do we find contentment

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and joy? How do we find. It's like the

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miracle elixir, the Holy Grail.

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Yeah. Or maybe it's not find. It's. Maybe it's just getting back

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to that equilibrium.

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I'm going to give you the stock answer, because this is really what's coming

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in, because it doesn't matter where you are on the vibrational

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scale, on the emotional scale, if you can find one thing that you're

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grateful for, if you can just be there and go, do you know

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what? Life sucks. And all of these horrible

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things are happening to me, and I hate it.

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But I have shoes on my feet

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and they are letting me walk, and this walk is helping me

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even 1% to clear my head. And I am so grateful

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for these healthy feet that I have and these

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lovely shoes, even if they're ripped apart.

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Four. Stick with the four. Right. I am grateful for this

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four because. And really land into that. It

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can be anything. I am grateful for this photograph

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of my child that sits on there smiling at me,

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no matter what it is that's going on, because it reminds me of the

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innocence of childhood and just come into it and it

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will just help to shift

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you. Yes. The stuff's still going on. This is not the

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holy grail that's going to change the whole world, but it will

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change how you see it. For the moment,

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I'd start there, and. You know how I feel about

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gratitude, because it has. It is so impactful, and

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I think some people think it isn't as impactful as it is until

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you start focusing on it. I would just add

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to that that you can, if you can take

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each of the senses and identify

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with each of those senses, something that you can be

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grateful for, something that you might like looking at. Is it the

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sunset? Is it going to an art gallery? Is

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it seeing your favourite people? What smells do you like?

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What really brings that sensation back? Is it the cut grass?

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Is it the sea breeze? Is it your favourite cookies,

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things that you can touch, those different textures. Maybe it's

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having a duvet or that nice, warm,

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cozy coat. What feelings and

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emotions do you really love? Can you really feel it into

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joy and contentment? Do you know what that is? And can you

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conjure up those images in your mind and

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sounds? What sounds do you love

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that bring you that sense of happiness? Is

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it children playing in the school

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playground? Is it the sound of

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a friend that you haven't heard at the end of the phone for a while?

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If you can really hone in on

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gratitude from a sense's point of view, you start to

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ignite even more sensation that pulls you closer to joy

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and contentment. I love that. I just want to ask you

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one thing, because scent is such a

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strong sense of. What

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smell? What scent can someone reach

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for? Do you think, in your opinion,

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that brings you that? Either that joy or that contentment?

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I think it's impossible for me to say that, because

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everybody's sense of smell is different. Some people have got really strong sense of

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smell and some people haven't, and everybody's. If we think

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that smells are connected to memories,

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and it would be impossible for me to pick out a smell for

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somebody else, because who am I to know what amazing

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memories they have had and what that means to them?

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I would say my sense of smell is probably one of my

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weakest for. Isn't it interesting how we experience the world around

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us in any one moment is through any one of our five senses

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or our six intuitive sense as well, right? So

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we have to create

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a similar experience. So for

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me, I love. What smells do I love? I love cut grass.

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I love that smell of cut grass. I love.

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I like lavender. My daughter

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really dislikes lavender, but I love lavender. That's quite calming for

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me. What else do I love? Like

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bacon. Smells like nice bread.

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I'm wondering from a past life whether the honey and the bread smells were

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like, oh, yeah, food or lavender. When we're getting rid of

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illnesses and weird enough, the plague or whatever, lavender was

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used. So, yeah, it's interesting, isn't it?

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I don't know. Do you have a smell sensation?

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Yeah. I cannot be in synthetic smells.

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It makes me literally, my body goes poison.

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It's mad. So I have a very large essential

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oil and candle and incense collection, and they're all

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really yummy. But for the joy and contentment, I'm going to have

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to find what is in that handle. I've got this specific

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candle. It's one from a company called Witch in the wheel.

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She does candles for each of the turning of the wheels. So,

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like, in bulk is the one I've got going on at the moment.

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But there was one that she, she for

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contentment, the yule. She did one for yule.

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And it was like, oh, I just used to come in here in my

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room and just light it and just be like, ah,

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just all my senses. So I will find

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out. Maybe we can put it in the show notes, which in the

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wheel, the yule candle, the

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inbolt one, they're all delicious. The Halloween one, the sewing

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one is gorgeous as well. If I need a

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quick pick me up, I love the citrus grapefruit. It's one of

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grapefruit or orange. Sweet orange. I love that. I often dab a

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bit of orange essential oil, just like on my bra. And it's just there,

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like, keeping me buoyant through

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contentment. I'm gonna say

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something more woody, like

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sandalwood. And it's very exotic. So, yeah,

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there's. I use, I do work with my sense of smell a lot,

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and I find that it really can flip

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my mood quite quick. Yeah, I do love

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an essential oil. Just use them if you're going to use them, just use them

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sensibly and reliably and obviously

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ethically. Yeah. Well, another fascinating

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podcast episode. We should do more of the card pulls

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and seeing where the conversation goes. I enjoyed today's episode,

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listeners, if you. Love the card pools, let us know your favorite decks

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as well. Maybe I'll buy a new one, who knows? Yeah, let

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us know if you like that because we'd love to bring more of that in.

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And I just also want to close this with a huge thank you to all

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the listeners and all the support. It's been amazing

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just seeing you podcast spread around the world.

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And some of you are sharing with your friends and listening

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to every episode when they download on a Friday. And

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it touches my heart to know that these words are hitting

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yours. Yeah. Thank you, guys. Okay, until next

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time. I'll see you soon. Bye bye,

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Melissa.