1 00:00:01,633 --> 00:00:03,566 well hello family 2 00:00:04,433 --> 00:00:06,366 so good to be with you guys 3 00:00:09,066 --> 00:00:10,133 yeah 4 00:00:10,800 --> 00:00:12,566 it's an honor to be here 5 00:00:25,666 --> 00:00:27,966 well I wrote a book 6 00:00:33,366 --> 00:00:35,066 it only took me 15 years 7 00:00:36,466 --> 00:00:37,566 no it 8 00:00:38,066 --> 00:00:39,133 you know 9 00:00:40,200 --> 00:00:41,300 it's really 10 00:00:42,200 --> 00:00:45,966 it's been it's been my honor and privilege now for uh 11 00:00:45,966 --> 00:00:49,233 20 something years to to walk through people 12 00:00:49,233 --> 00:00:51,933 walk with people through their story through their pain 13 00:00:53,433 --> 00:00:56,433 and so this is really you know 14 00:00:56,433 --> 00:01:04,400 15 20 years of just serving people in the redemption 15 00:01:05,100 --> 00:01:10,200 of walking through the valley of the shadow of death 16 00:01:11,600 --> 00:01:16,466 and having the light of Jesus's face 17 00:01:16,466 --> 00:01:18,666 just shine upon them you know 18 00:01:18,666 --> 00:01:21,800 something really really beautiful is 19 00:01:22,900 --> 00:01:25,466 you are actually wired for attachment 20 00:01:25,900 --> 00:01:28,033 you're wired for attachment with god 21 00:01:28,033 --> 00:01:29,566 yourself and others 22 00:01:30,033 --> 00:01:33,366 and I love it I pray this over my kids almost every 23 00:01:34,100 --> 00:01:35,133 um night 24 00:01:35,366 --> 00:01:39,600 is I say to them may the Lord bless you and keep you 25 00:01:39,600 --> 00:01:42,666 and cause his face to shine upon you 26 00:01:43,400 --> 00:01:47,266 and one of the the greatest ways to walk through pain 27 00:01:47,900 --> 00:01:52,000 is to know you have somebody's face 28 00:01:52,266 --> 00:01:55,966 shining upon every part of you 29 00:01:56,833 --> 00:01:59,933 and so this is a very very practical guide 30 00:02:00,633 --> 00:02:02,300 um the 31 00:02:02,500 --> 00:02:03,466 the first you know 32 00:02:03,466 --> 00:02:05,466 hundred pages or so our 33 00:02:05,466 --> 00:02:09,700 our stories and and just practical uh 34 00:02:09,700 --> 00:02:11,633 tools to help you walk through pain 35 00:02:11,633 --> 00:02:14,133 Jen and I created a framework called soil 36 00:02:14,200 --> 00:02:16,766 which is what we use in our um 37 00:02:16,766 --> 00:02:18,400 aisle internal leadership experience 38 00:02:18,400 --> 00:02:19,700 to help leaders you know 39 00:02:19,700 --> 00:02:22,433 grow in their relationship with themselves 40 00:02:22,433 --> 00:02:23,700 others and god 41 00:02:23,800 --> 00:02:26,000 and so in this is 42 00:02:26,000 --> 00:02:27,200 is some of those frameworks 43 00:02:27,200 --> 00:02:28,800 and then the end is really 44 00:02:28,800 --> 00:02:29,233 actually 45 00:02:29,233 --> 00:02:33,100 the practical place where you get to get your grief 46 00:02:33,666 --> 00:02:34,466 and um 47 00:02:34,466 --> 00:02:38,200 grief is simply the pain that is trapped and stored 48 00:02:38,200 --> 00:02:39,466 within your body 49 00:02:40,400 --> 00:02:43,100 and within your mind and within your heart 50 00:02:43,200 --> 00:02:46,033 you get to get the grief up and out 51 00:02:46,033 --> 00:02:47,966 through this thing we called mourning 52 00:02:48,800 --> 00:02:50,766 and as you do that process 53 00:02:50,766 --> 00:02:53,400 it's amazing what begins to come in 54 00:02:53,866 --> 00:02:55,600 I mean so many people tell me all the time 55 00:02:55,600 --> 00:02:56,366 they're like hey Justin 56 00:02:56,366 --> 00:02:57,666 but I don't have any pain 57 00:02:59,466 --> 00:03:01,366 and I simply look at them and say liar 58 00:03:01,366 --> 00:03:02,400 no I don't say that 59 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:04,966 that would be rude that would that wouldn't be kind 60 00:03:06,200 --> 00:03:07,166 I say I probably 61 00:03:07,166 --> 00:03:10,400 I know because most of us live life numb 62 00:03:12,066 --> 00:03:14,833 we live life detached from our hearts 63 00:03:14,833 --> 00:03:17,300 and we're doing a lot of good things 64 00:03:17,366 --> 00:03:19,366 we're saying a lot of good things 65 00:03:19,366 --> 00:03:22,566 but in here and when our head hits the pillow 66 00:03:22,566 --> 00:03:24,466 we feel lonely we feel lost 67 00:03:24,466 --> 00:03:25,866 and we feel confused 68 00:03:26,400 --> 00:03:28,433 and then we quote scriptures to ourselves like 69 00:03:28,433 --> 00:03:31,533 the joy of the Lord is my strength shouldn't I be okay 70 00:03:33,766 --> 00:03:38,900 and what I found out is there's really 71 00:03:38,900 --> 00:03:41,033 you know three components of this experience 72 00:03:41,033 --> 00:03:42,500 called integration or wholeness 73 00:03:42,500 --> 00:03:45,400 which is bringing all of ourselves into the father 74 00:03:45,566 --> 00:03:47,033 into the son and the Holy Spirit 75 00:03:47,033 --> 00:03:50,866 and what that looks like is 76 00:03:51,600 --> 00:03:55,966 is the three components are um forgiveness repentance 77 00:03:55,966 --> 00:03:56,500 how many of you guys 78 00:03:56,500 --> 00:03:58,933 have ever heard a sermon on forgiveness or repentance 79 00:04:01,466 --> 00:04:03,500 so I knew a lot about those 80 00:04:03,500 --> 00:04:05,366 but the third one was morning 81 00:04:05,500 --> 00:04:07,200 and it was getting this grief up and out 82 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:10,566 and once I found out how to do that 83 00:04:10,566 --> 00:04:13,000 now I've got to walk with hundreds of leaders 84 00:04:13,000 --> 00:04:16,466 through this process of getting their grief up and out 85 00:04:16,566 --> 00:04:21,200 so that all that joy of the Lord that we talk about 86 00:04:21,200 --> 00:04:23,233 all that beauty of the Lord that we talk about 87 00:04:23,233 --> 00:04:25,466 actually gets inside of us 88 00:04:26,266 --> 00:04:29,166 because if your life is so full of pain 89 00:04:29,166 --> 00:04:31,600 and you've never Learned how to process your story 90 00:04:31,600 --> 00:04:35,166 what happens is there's no room for anything ever 91 00:04:35,166 --> 00:04:37,733 there's no room for anything else to enter your soul 92 00:04:38,466 --> 00:04:41,566 and morning allows you to drain out the processes 93 00:04:42,433 --> 00:04:44,366 of your experiences 94 00:04:44,400 --> 00:04:46,633 so that the things that we can believe 95 00:04:46,633 --> 00:04:49,833 can begin to enter this very crucial part of us 96 00:04:49,833 --> 00:04:52,300 as humans and I just want to let you know 97 00:04:52,300 --> 00:04:54,000 god loves your humanity 98 00:04:56,800 --> 00:04:59,000 he loves your humanness 99 00:05:00,100 --> 00:05:02,366 and he wants to walk with you in this 100 00:05:02,433 --> 00:05:04,166 so where did Andy go 101 00:05:05,433 --> 00:05:07,200 I'm gonna fulfill that dream buddy 102 00:05:08,400 --> 00:05:09,366 I wanna just 103 00:05:11,066 --> 00:05:12,233 might as well do it right here right 104 00:05:12,233 --> 00:05:13,466 this is the fulfillment there it is 105 00:05:13,466 --> 00:05:17,000 dreams fulfilled today look at that night dreams 106 00:05:18,833 --> 00:05:19,633 yeah 107 00:05:20,666 --> 00:05:22,433 now now he gets to process pain 108 00:05:22,433 --> 00:05:23,566 what a gift huh 109 00:05:23,566 --> 00:05:24,466 oh literally 110 00:05:24,633 --> 00:05:26,700 you guys the front of the book 111 00:05:26,700 --> 00:05:29,400 you open up the first cover is 112 00:05:29,400 --> 00:05:30,966 you get to give this away to somebody 113 00:05:30,966 --> 00:05:32,233 you could actually write in it 114 00:05:32,233 --> 00:05:33,200 like here 115 00:05:33,300 --> 00:05:35,233 you get to process pain too 116 00:05:35,233 --> 00:05:37,966 and what I love about um uh 117 00:05:38,433 --> 00:05:39,833 just this process of of 118 00:05:39,833 --> 00:05:41,966 of prospering pain it's so funny to watch 119 00:05:41,966 --> 00:05:43,500 just watch people um 120 00:05:43,500 --> 00:05:45,233 when we talk about this but it's a 121 00:05:45,233 --> 00:05:46,400 it's a it's a fun 122 00:05:46,400 --> 00:05:48,166 it's a fun book super fun 123 00:05:48,166 --> 00:05:49,500 you get so much joy I'm teasing 124 00:05:49,500 --> 00:05:51,033 it's not it's really deep 125 00:05:51,033 --> 00:05:52,100 it's actually 126 00:05:52,900 --> 00:05:54,300 yeah but the again 127 00:05:54,300 --> 00:05:56,266 the end result really is joy 128 00:05:56,266 --> 00:05:57,900 the joy of the Lord is your strength 129 00:05:57,900 --> 00:05:59,666 and it gets to undergird you 130 00:05:59,900 --> 00:06:01,633 and so we actually 131 00:06:01,633 --> 00:06:04,100 we had an aisle accelerator lot yesterday here 132 00:06:04,100 --> 00:06:05,466 if you were at that Whoo Whoo 133 00:06:05,466 --> 00:06:09,066 we love you guys and so I had a few of my wife's books 134 00:06:09,066 --> 00:06:10,400 The War on Your Voice 135 00:06:11,000 --> 00:06:14,066 such a good book and I was gonna sell those too 136 00:06:14,066 --> 00:06:16,700 but the challenge is we ran out yesterday 137 00:06:16,966 --> 00:06:18,166 so we have no more of these 138 00:06:18,166 --> 00:06:20,200 but you can get this one on Amazon 139 00:06:20,433 --> 00:06:21,400 yeah um 140 00:06:22,233 --> 00:06:25,300 is there a woman here here 141 00:06:25,300 --> 00:06:26,800 that just got married recently 142 00:06:26,800 --> 00:06:28,166 that does not have this book 143 00:06:28,166 --> 00:06:29,766 that does not have this book 144 00:06:29,833 --> 00:06:30,866 do you have it 145 00:06:31,700 --> 00:06:33,933 come on come yes 146 00:06:41,166 --> 00:06:42,200 I love you 147 00:06:42,800 --> 00:06:45,433 so the war in your voice you can get that on Amazon 148 00:06:45,433 --> 00:06:46,466 it's a great 149 00:06:49,300 --> 00:06:50,266 so uh 150 00:06:52,233 --> 00:06:53,866 we have you know 151 00:06:53,866 --> 00:06:57,500 just Blake and I have something exciting coming up 152 00:06:57,500 --> 00:06:58,600 look on the screen 153 00:07:01,433 --> 00:07:04,566 so we have the veil within podcast coming out 154 00:07:04,566 --> 00:07:06,300 we've already filmed three episodes 155 00:07:06,300 --> 00:07:08,300 we're getting ready to release that 156 00:07:08,300 --> 00:07:10,400 our friendship for the last 13 years 157 00:07:10,400 --> 00:07:12,466 our life is like a podcast together 158 00:07:12,466 --> 00:07:15,066 we're just doing what we've always done 159 00:07:16,566 --> 00:07:18,900 we sit down and we start talking about something 160 00:07:18,900 --> 00:07:20,700 about the Lord and we just go off 161 00:07:20,700 --> 00:07:22,666 and so this is what's happening right now 162 00:07:22,666 --> 00:07:24,000 we have three episodes um 163 00:07:24,266 --> 00:07:26,966 it's not out yet it should be out in the next two weeks 164 00:07:26,966 --> 00:07:30,700 and so I'm just excited about that and wanted to 165 00:07:30,766 --> 00:07:31,700 to give you guys that 166 00:07:31,700 --> 00:07:34,400 so you can just look forward to that 167 00:07:34,700 --> 00:07:36,633 um you'll be able to find it in all the places 168 00:07:36,633 --> 00:07:37,666 that we find everything 169 00:07:39,066 --> 00:07:40,433 and this is something um 170 00:07:40,433 --> 00:07:42,666 I just want to give you guys a gift from Jen and I 171 00:07:42,666 --> 00:07:44,000 today this is our um 172 00:07:44,000 --> 00:07:45,300 this is our aisle assessment 173 00:07:45,300 --> 00:07:47,966 this actually helps you understand where you're at 174 00:07:47,966 --> 00:07:50,700 in your internal leadership experience process 175 00:07:50,800 --> 00:07:51,833 how you're doing with 176 00:07:51,833 --> 00:07:53,766 leading yourself in the way of Jesus 177 00:07:54,000 --> 00:07:54,833 I wanna um 178 00:07:54,833 --> 00:07:56,666 encourage you take a picture of it 179 00:07:56,666 --> 00:07:58,800 cause I don't want you to take the test right now 180 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:02,700 and then you can scan the QR code from that picture 181 00:08:03,166 --> 00:08:03,766 um so 182 00:08:03,766 --> 00:08:04,833 this is just an assessment 183 00:08:04,833 --> 00:08:06,400 that will help you realize 184 00:08:06,400 --> 00:08:09,100 where you're at in your internal leadership journey 185 00:08:09,100 --> 00:08:11,500 and there's something very interesting to me 186 00:08:11,500 --> 00:08:12,866 the greatest commandment is 187 00:08:12,866 --> 00:08:15,100 love the Lord thy god with all thy heart soul 188 00:08:15,100 --> 00:08:17,233 mind and strength and the second is 189 00:08:17,233 --> 00:08:18,800 love your neighbor as 190 00:08:20,566 --> 00:08:22,366 it's been very very interesting 191 00:08:22,366 --> 00:08:24,166 but I hear very very 192 00:08:24,166 --> 00:08:26,900 very few people in the church 193 00:08:27,066 --> 00:08:29,466 that are just madly in love with Jesus 194 00:08:29,466 --> 00:08:30,666 talking about 195 00:08:30,666 --> 00:08:34,000 what does it look like to have healthy self love 196 00:08:36,666 --> 00:08:39,100 and the challenges um I 197 00:08:39,100 --> 00:08:40,200 I look at uh 198 00:08:40,200 --> 00:08:42,900 love in a triad Father God at the top 199 00:08:42,900 --> 00:08:44,733 Father Son Holy Spirit at the top 200 00:08:44,833 --> 00:08:46,033 um others 201 00:08:46,033 --> 00:08:48,466 and then ourselves and the challenges 202 00:08:48,600 --> 00:08:49,766 there's like an Assumption 203 00:08:49,766 --> 00:08:51,666 that you already know how to love yourself 204 00:08:53,466 --> 00:08:55,366 and almost every human I meet 205 00:08:55,366 --> 00:08:57,633 when I begin to hear their story 206 00:08:57,633 --> 00:09:01,266 and when they begin to talk to them about themselves 207 00:09:03,366 --> 00:09:05,366 one of the greatest uh 208 00:09:06,000 --> 00:09:09,400 enemies of themselves isn't the enemy 209 00:09:09,400 --> 00:09:11,400 it's actually their own self talk 210 00:09:12,433 --> 00:09:14,400 it's the way they relate to themselves 211 00:09:14,400 --> 00:09:16,500 it's the way they they talk 212 00:09:16,500 --> 00:09:19,333 so most people don't really know how to love yourself 213 00:09:19,633 --> 00:09:20,266 and yes 214 00:09:20,266 --> 00:09:22,366 we put god first I love um 215 00:09:22,366 --> 00:09:24,600 the Beatitudes I've been reading it almost every day 216 00:09:24,600 --> 00:09:26,500 for the last four years and it says 217 00:09:26,500 --> 00:09:28,233 blessed are the poor in spirit 218 00:09:28,233 --> 00:09:29,833 for theirs is the kingdom of heaven 219 00:09:29,833 --> 00:09:32,233 simply that means to be utterly dependent on god 220 00:09:32,233 --> 00:09:34,433 completely totally dependent on god 221 00:09:34,433 --> 00:09:38,000 so Jesus is all in all the challenge is 222 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:39,366 is we're in him 223 00:09:40,233 --> 00:09:42,800 so in that inness or witness 224 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:45,600 as Ephesians talks about over and over again 225 00:09:45,600 --> 00:09:49,866 we want to know and learn how to actually have a a 226 00:09:49,866 --> 00:09:53,900 a love for ourselves and we say it this way 227 00:09:53,900 --> 00:09:55,366 you want to love yourself 228 00:09:55,400 --> 00:09:57,366 the way that Jesus loves you 229 00:09:57,666 --> 00:09:59,333 you want to be kind to yourself 230 00:09:59,366 --> 00:10:02,533 the way Jesus is kind to you and patient with you 231 00:10:02,866 --> 00:10:04,600 and I love it my wife says it all the time 232 00:10:04,600 --> 00:10:07,600 Jesus is the slowest person she's ever met 233 00:10:08,033 --> 00:10:09,500 he's so patient 234 00:10:11,100 --> 00:10:13,200 can you be that patient with yourself 235 00:10:13,233 --> 00:10:14,700 in your own process 236 00:10:15,466 --> 00:10:17,900 so this test will just help you just kind of 237 00:10:17,900 --> 00:10:20,433 assess where you're at and in that um 238 00:10:20,433 --> 00:10:23,133 you can actually connect with us in other ways 239 00:10:23,233 --> 00:10:26,000 so we'd love you to look at that 240 00:10:26,400 --> 00:10:29,300 and so we're gonna talk about really 241 00:10:29,300 --> 00:10:30,833 something fun this morning 242 00:10:30,833 --> 00:10:33,500 I like to talk about fun subjects like pain 243 00:10:33,500 --> 00:10:35,166 and that's what we're gonna talk about 244 00:10:35,833 --> 00:10:37,400 cause it's what I wrote a book about 245 00:10:37,700 --> 00:10:39,500 so um 246 00:10:39,500 --> 00:10:42,666 I am really passionate about um 247 00:10:42,833 --> 00:10:45,900 leading a soul revolution come on 248 00:10:48,633 --> 00:10:50,266 an apostolic revolution 249 00:10:50,266 --> 00:10:52,300 that really brings heaven to earth 250 00:10:52,300 --> 00:10:54,800 through the process of people 251 00:10:54,800 --> 00:10:57,533 in a healthy way knowing themselves 252 00:10:58,566 --> 00:11:00,333 not in an unhealthy way 253 00:11:00,600 --> 00:11:04,300 we obviously have the perversion that's very loud 254 00:11:04,566 --> 00:11:07,500 you can go anywhere and buy a self help book right now 255 00:11:08,200 --> 00:11:09,933 you can hear a lot about self 256 00:11:10,166 --> 00:11:13,166 the challenge is a lot of it's not sanctified self 257 00:11:13,166 --> 00:11:15,133 it's not in Christ self 258 00:11:15,666 --> 00:11:18,433 and we wanna do everything from the lens 259 00:11:18,433 --> 00:11:20,100 of being in Christ 260 00:11:21,166 --> 00:11:22,333 and so 261 00:11:23,766 --> 00:11:24,800 yeah on this really 262 00:11:24,800 --> 00:11:28,200 this apostolic reformation of just the soul where 263 00:11:28,200 --> 00:11:32,300 where Christians have a healthy spirit 264 00:11:32,300 --> 00:11:34,866 where they know how to take care of their spirit man 265 00:11:35,233 --> 00:11:38,566 but then they also know how to take care of their soul 266 00:11:38,566 --> 00:11:40,200 which our soul is made up of our mind 267 00:11:40,200 --> 00:11:41,166 will and emotions 268 00:11:41,700 --> 00:11:45,300 and so we're gonna explore some of that today 269 00:11:45,766 --> 00:11:47,566 but within this framework 270 00:11:47,566 --> 00:11:48,633 within what we're talking about 271 00:11:48,633 --> 00:11:50,333 I'd really love to 272 00:11:51,000 --> 00:11:53,900 to just think about this right here in 273 00:11:53,900 --> 00:11:58,233 in intimacy intimacy is really into me 274 00:11:58,233 --> 00:12:00,900 you see and we're really 275 00:12:00,900 --> 00:12:02,800 really looking for 276 00:12:03,266 --> 00:12:08,533 intimacy is forged in the fire of vulnerability 277 00:12:10,900 --> 00:12:13,466 it's forged in that fire 278 00:12:14,900 --> 00:12:17,966 and it's one of the reasons Jen and I created aisle 279 00:12:18,033 --> 00:12:21,100 is because we've Learned that people 280 00:12:21,100 --> 00:12:23,100 how they heal best 281 00:12:23,100 --> 00:12:26,000 is when they're seen and known in a real 282 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:29,500 safe way through safety 283 00:12:31,166 --> 00:12:33,700 and because of a lot of our stories 284 00:12:33,700 --> 00:12:35,600 it's why I talk so much about pain 285 00:12:36,233 --> 00:12:41,466 um we a lot of times didn't have that safety 286 00:12:43,566 --> 00:12:46,666 I'm coming from our external world 287 00:12:46,666 --> 00:12:49,466 our culture our family of origin 288 00:12:49,666 --> 00:12:54,900 there was a lot of unsafe experiences that LED us to 289 00:12:57,033 --> 00:13:01,300 to just a a life that was detached on the inside 290 00:13:01,566 --> 00:13:04,033 and so I do want to invite you guys 291 00:13:04,033 --> 00:13:05,400 as you take this assessment 292 00:13:05,400 --> 00:13:06,366 if you look at that I 293 00:13:06,366 --> 00:13:09,366 I really feel like there's there's 294 00:13:09,366 --> 00:13:13,100 there's a mission that we're on for not just Jen and I 295 00:13:13,200 --> 00:13:15,033 and again we're in Bethel Redding right now 296 00:13:15,033 --> 00:13:15,266 I 297 00:13:15,266 --> 00:13:19,400 I'm so excited about seeing that culture impacted just 298 00:13:19,400 --> 00:13:21,500 with Soul Health at a whole new level 299 00:13:21,900 --> 00:13:23,800 and I'm the biggest fan of signs 300 00:13:23,800 --> 00:13:25,166 wonders and miracles uh 301 00:13:25,833 --> 00:13:26,600 my my 302 00:13:26,600 --> 00:13:28,166 my wife my wife 303 00:13:28,166 --> 00:13:29,933 my daughter's boyfriend 304 00:13:31,100 --> 00:13:32,200 um came over yes 305 00:13:32,200 --> 00:13:33,966 both of my my oldest daughters 306 00:13:34,100 --> 00:13:35,566 they're in school ministry 307 00:13:35,666 --> 00:13:37,566 and when you go to school ministry in Redding 308 00:13:37,566 --> 00:13:39,300 if you're not if you're single 309 00:13:39,500 --> 00:13:41,766 you find somebody it's just kind of like the gift 310 00:13:41,766 --> 00:13:43,533 it's kind of like the package deal 311 00:13:43,600 --> 00:13:46,766 school ministry so both of them find somebody and um 312 00:13:47,166 --> 00:13:47,866 my my 313 00:13:47,866 --> 00:13:49,166 my oldest daughter Kylie 314 00:13:49,166 --> 00:13:50,366 her uh 315 00:13:50,366 --> 00:13:52,066 her boyfriend Owen came over 316 00:13:52,066 --> 00:13:52,166 and 317 00:13:52,166 --> 00:13:54,433 it was one of the first or second times he came over 318 00:13:54,433 --> 00:13:56,066 and he was telling us about his life 319 00:13:56,066 --> 00:13:59,300 and it was super fun and he looks at me and he goes 320 00:13:59,300 --> 00:14:00,300 hey Justin 321 00:14:00,833 --> 00:14:03,600 you know I had this friend in high school that told me 322 00:14:03,600 --> 00:14:05,900 if I ever get healed he'd meet Jesus 323 00:14:05,900 --> 00:14:06,433 I said oh 324 00:14:06,433 --> 00:14:07,400 tell me more 325 00:14:07,400 --> 00:14:10,533 and we started to share miracle testimonies and stories 326 00:14:10,833 --> 00:14:12,566 and when he was 9 years old 327 00:14:12,566 --> 00:14:15,033 he broke his arm and he broke it 328 00:14:15,033 --> 00:14:16,866 he had to have surgery and in the surgery 329 00:14:16,866 --> 00:14:19,100 they had to do something with the bone 330 00:14:19,100 --> 00:14:20,233 fuse it back 331 00:14:20,233 --> 00:14:24,566 and so when he put his arms like this on a table 332 00:14:24,700 --> 00:14:26,466 one of his arms was about 333 00:14:26,466 --> 00:14:28,533 that much shorter than the other one 334 00:14:28,833 --> 00:14:31,533 it was a good inch shorter 335 00:14:31,566 --> 00:14:34,200 and he kept on going I've been prayed by so many people 336 00:14:34,200 --> 00:14:35,166 and and we're 337 00:14:35,166 --> 00:14:36,500 we're sitting there sharing testimonies 338 00:14:36,500 --> 00:14:38,966 all the families around I had a big tri tip spread 339 00:14:39,166 --> 00:14:40,733 I love cooking tri tip 340 00:14:41,300 --> 00:14:44,900 and I'm there cooking and so I just got done cutting it 341 00:14:44,900 --> 00:14:46,033 and he he shows it all 342 00:14:46,033 --> 00:14:47,300 he shows it up and he's like 343 00:14:47,300 --> 00:14:49,266 holding like this and I just go 344 00:14:49,266 --> 00:14:50,066 oh wow 345 00:14:50,066 --> 00:14:51,466 okay and 346 00:14:51,466 --> 00:14:53,300 and I look at him and I say 347 00:14:53,300 --> 00:14:55,266 in the name of Jesus grow 348 00:14:55,300 --> 00:14:57,266 and before me and all the girls in general 349 00:14:57,266 --> 00:14:58,466 there it just goes 350 00:15:00,900 --> 00:15:02,433 and it completely lined up 351 00:15:02,433 --> 00:15:04,000 it was a wild experience 352 00:15:04,000 --> 00:15:05,833 I've seen miracles like that before 353 00:15:05,833 --> 00:15:08,200 but this was I've never in that way with the hands 354 00:15:08,200 --> 00:15:10,233 and so the bone either extended or 355 00:15:10,233 --> 00:15:11,400 however that happens however 356 00:15:11,400 --> 00:15:12,433 god did it supernaturally 357 00:15:12,433 --> 00:15:14,133 but it was super fun 358 00:15:15,033 --> 00:15:17,833 so I love miracles I love signs and wonders 359 00:15:17,833 --> 00:15:22,700 I love the now of god but in that 360 00:15:22,700 --> 00:15:27,633 I think at times we've missed the longevity process 361 00:15:27,633 --> 00:15:30,066 it takes for attachment to be formed 362 00:15:30,200 --> 00:15:32,966 because attachment is not a quick process 363 00:15:32,966 --> 00:15:34,766 it's a slow process 364 00:15:39,900 --> 00:15:40,566 again how 365 00:15:40,566 --> 00:15:42,566 how many of you have ever had a Newborn 366 00:15:44,633 --> 00:15:47,300 it wasn't just the one time you picked them up 367 00:15:47,300 --> 00:15:48,166 that they felt oh 368 00:15:48,166 --> 00:15:49,666 now we're we're bonded 369 00:15:50,366 --> 00:15:52,266 how much work did that take ladies 370 00:15:56,633 --> 00:15:59,066 that feeding process that beautiful process 371 00:15:59,066 --> 00:16:00,000 and so 372 00:16:01,033 --> 00:16:02,800 yeah so we're gonna go after that 373 00:16:02,800 --> 00:16:06,566 and this is this is really what we're gonna talk about 374 00:16:07,400 --> 00:16:09,933 so walking through pain 375 00:16:10,633 --> 00:16:11,700 pain pleasure 376 00:16:11,700 --> 00:16:12,733 and presence 377 00:16:13,900 --> 00:16:16,033 and so this is one of my favorite uh 378 00:16:16,033 --> 00:16:16,500 scriptures 379 00:16:16,500 --> 00:16:19,266 that I've been studying now for the last three years 380 00:16:19,266 --> 00:16:20,666 and this is at the end of Matthew 381 00:16:20,666 --> 00:16:21,833 this is right after 382 00:16:21,833 --> 00:16:25,466 one of the most exciting charges from Jesus 383 00:16:25,466 --> 00:16:27,400 which is about loving your enemy 384 00:16:29,600 --> 00:16:31,166 one of the only ways you know 385 00:16:31,166 --> 00:16:34,966 you're actually walking out this attached life 386 00:16:34,966 --> 00:16:37,200 to the Godhead is by loving your enemy 387 00:16:37,366 --> 00:16:38,466 and I wanna let you know 388 00:16:38,466 --> 00:16:42,600 if you don't think you have enemies you're lying 389 00:16:44,300 --> 00:16:46,533 a bunch of Christians don't think they have enemies 390 00:16:46,633 --> 00:16:48,066 we have lots of enemies 391 00:16:49,433 --> 00:16:53,366 there's so much in the world that is an enemy 392 00:16:55,566 --> 00:16:58,466 to what god wants to do in the world 393 00:16:59,566 --> 00:17:01,366 but what we get to do is 394 00:17:01,366 --> 00:17:04,900 we get to counteract the experience 395 00:17:04,900 --> 00:17:07,166 of what an enemy is with love 396 00:17:07,833 --> 00:17:09,533 and this is the beauty of Jesus 397 00:17:11,233 --> 00:17:13,166 and so in this scripture 398 00:17:13,800 --> 00:17:14,700 it's it's like 399 00:17:14,700 --> 00:17:18,266 it's a massive scripture be perfect 400 00:17:18,266 --> 00:17:21,933 therefore as my heavenly father is perfect 401 00:17:22,066 --> 00:17:27,000 and that word within my personality was very tormenting 402 00:17:27,300 --> 00:17:29,466 because that word meant to me 403 00:17:32,666 --> 00:17:33,966 perform 404 00:17:36,400 --> 00:17:38,600 as your heavenly father is perfect 405 00:17:39,500 --> 00:17:41,500 and the Greek word is telios 406 00:17:41,833 --> 00:17:44,733 and telios is a beautiful world word 407 00:17:44,800 --> 00:17:50,033 because a better translation of this word would be 408 00:17:50,033 --> 00:17:52,066 whole therefore 409 00:17:52,066 --> 00:17:56,800 as my father is whole and what holiness is 410 00:17:56,900 --> 00:18:01,733 is wholeness is our ability to bring all of who we are 411 00:18:02,366 --> 00:18:06,900 into the light of the glory and presence of god 412 00:18:08,000 --> 00:18:12,300 all of you and so many of us long to bring 413 00:18:12,300 --> 00:18:14,300 some parts of us 414 00:18:15,366 --> 00:18:18,166 but other parts we don't like to bring 415 00:18:18,966 --> 00:18:21,166 a great test for that before you turn 416 00:18:21,166 --> 00:18:22,466 the TV on 417 00:18:23,100 --> 00:18:24,466 oh thank you so much 418 00:18:24,466 --> 00:18:24,900 Lord 419 00:18:24,900 --> 00:18:28,000 that I get ready to watch a show tonight or a movie 420 00:18:28,200 --> 00:18:30,766 and I thank you that you're gonna be here with me 421 00:18:31,166 --> 00:18:32,833 and where I'm gonna abide with you 422 00:18:32,833 --> 00:18:34,700 as I turn on this TV show 423 00:18:35,766 --> 00:18:39,400 just inviting you in to what I'm watching with you 424 00:18:40,600 --> 00:18:43,533 just bring you into it and just find out what happens 425 00:18:44,233 --> 00:18:46,033 I'm gonna bring you in you know 426 00:18:46,033 --> 00:18:47,866 I don't like to pray for food 427 00:18:47,866 --> 00:18:50,600 just in the the old religious way it felt like 428 00:18:50,600 --> 00:18:53,166 but in the new way of father 429 00:18:53,166 --> 00:18:55,700 thank you for this beautiful meal that's set before me 430 00:18:55,700 --> 00:18:59,233 that's gonna bring nutrition to my body and 431 00:18:59,233 --> 00:19:01,466 and it really helps with overeating 432 00:19:05,000 --> 00:19:07,300 because you when you invite him into things 433 00:19:07,300 --> 00:19:11,333 it's amazing what you will do and won't do anymore 434 00:19:12,100 --> 00:19:14,666 and wholeness is when we're able to bring everything 435 00:19:14,666 --> 00:19:17,700 into the light of who he is 436 00:19:19,366 --> 00:19:22,600 and so one of the things that 437 00:19:22,600 --> 00:19:25,166 that takes us on this journey with Jesus 438 00:19:25,566 --> 00:19:26,600 and you know 439 00:19:26,600 --> 00:19:30,333 Jesus was honest about his pain 440 00:19:31,500 --> 00:19:34,133 and so Jesus walked out wholeness 441 00:19:34,366 --> 00:19:36,066 he didn't walk out with parts of him 442 00:19:36,066 --> 00:19:37,366 that he brought into church 443 00:19:37,366 --> 00:19:39,466 in the temple and different places 444 00:19:39,466 --> 00:19:42,333 and other parts of him that was just for him alone 445 00:19:43,266 --> 00:19:47,100 he brought him whole his whole self everywhere he went 446 00:19:47,266 --> 00:19:48,800 and you know 447 00:19:48,800 --> 00:19:51,266 it really makes me think about the garden of Gethsemane 448 00:19:51,266 --> 00:19:53,266 with Jesus and it's such a 449 00:19:53,266 --> 00:19:57,766 a wild experience of Jesus 450 00:19:57,766 --> 00:20:00,666 processing pain with the father 451 00:20:01,966 --> 00:20:04,566 and so he said to the father he 452 00:20:04,566 --> 00:20:06,766 he goes in this chapter and he says 453 00:20:07,833 --> 00:20:11,100 father take this cup from me 454 00:20:11,400 --> 00:20:13,366 I don't I don't wanna do this 455 00:20:13,366 --> 00:20:15,800 I don't wanna be here and to me 456 00:20:15,800 --> 00:20:20,666 it's reflective of the psalmist David saying god 457 00:20:20,666 --> 00:20:21,866 where are you 458 00:20:23,000 --> 00:20:25,800 god I'm about to do something that's really hard 459 00:20:25,800 --> 00:20:27,400 speaking to his father say 460 00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:30,266 I'm about to do something I don't want to do 461 00:20:32,166 --> 00:20:34,866 this is gonna be really really painful 462 00:20:34,900 --> 00:20:36,666 very very difficult 463 00:20:37,600 --> 00:20:40,366 and then right after he's just 464 00:20:40,366 --> 00:20:42,900 he's expressing his pain to the father 465 00:20:42,900 --> 00:20:45,033 he goes to his friends and these are his 466 00:20:45,033 --> 00:20:47,200 this is this is his vulnerability buddies 467 00:20:48,000 --> 00:20:49,000 these are his friends 468 00:20:49,000 --> 00:20:51,266 that he gets to be seen and known by 469 00:20:51,466 --> 00:20:53,866 his friends that he has intimacy with 470 00:20:54,966 --> 00:20:56,666 James and John and 471 00:20:57,033 --> 00:21:00,533 and he says to them what are you doing 472 00:21:00,633 --> 00:21:03,000 why are you sleeping what did he ask him to do 473 00:21:03,000 --> 00:21:04,333 he said stay up and pray 474 00:21:05,033 --> 00:21:08,700 he does this process three times back and forth 475 00:21:10,033 --> 00:21:13,133 of being honest with his pain 476 00:21:14,366 --> 00:21:15,666 and I I love it 477 00:21:15,666 --> 00:21:18,633 Jesus never sinned yet he still said 478 00:21:18,633 --> 00:21:20,333 take this cup from me 479 00:21:21,600 --> 00:21:27,000 and within our movement I'm very 480 00:21:27,000 --> 00:21:30,600 very proud of us for the way we guard our tongue 481 00:21:31,900 --> 00:21:34,500 it's important to guard your mouth 482 00:21:34,500 --> 00:21:36,200 guard what you say 483 00:21:36,666 --> 00:21:39,000 but one of the things that I've noticed 484 00:21:39,000 --> 00:21:41,733 as people guard what they say 485 00:21:42,200 --> 00:21:45,266 is they lose something very 486 00:21:45,266 --> 00:21:49,000 very important to authenticity which is honesty 487 00:21:50,900 --> 00:21:54,633 they don't actually know how they're doing anymore 488 00:21:54,633 --> 00:21:56,333 in the present moment 489 00:21:56,366 --> 00:21:59,333 they don't know how to be present with themselves 490 00:21:59,700 --> 00:22:03,400 because they're trying to sound a certain way 491 00:22:03,400 --> 00:22:05,500 that they think is protecting them 492 00:22:05,500 --> 00:22:07,766 right and I believe 493 00:22:07,800 --> 00:22:08,466 you know in James 494 00:22:08,466 --> 00:22:09,800 it talks all about guard the tongue 495 00:22:09,800 --> 00:22:11,066 it's the rudder of the our 496 00:22:11,066 --> 00:22:14,100 our life and it's a really important thing to guard 497 00:22:14,300 --> 00:22:16,700 but David modeled that in a very 498 00:22:16,700 --> 00:22:18,366 very unique way yeah 499 00:22:20,500 --> 00:22:23,166 if you had some of this this Ling 500 00:22:23,200 --> 00:22:26,733 this lens on of you're not supposed to say that 501 00:22:28,066 --> 00:22:31,266 almost half of what David wrote in the Psalms 502 00:22:31,266 --> 00:22:34,133 was all him sounding like he was complaining 503 00:22:37,066 --> 00:22:39,000 and you know what god said about David 504 00:22:40,833 --> 00:22:42,266 you're a man after my heart 505 00:22:42,266 --> 00:22:43,700 because he had a heart 506 00:22:44,166 --> 00:22:46,666 he actually knew what to do with his heart 507 00:22:47,766 --> 00:22:49,566 he didn't just stay in the metanoia 508 00:22:49,566 --> 00:22:51,533 in the mind in the brain 509 00:22:51,700 --> 00:22:53,033 and I love uh 510 00:22:53,033 --> 00:22:54,000 first um 511 00:22:54,433 --> 00:22:56,600 first Christians 12 it talks about 512 00:22:56,600 --> 00:22:57,633 you know don't be conformed to this world 513 00:22:57,633 --> 00:22:59,766 be transformed by the renewing of your mind 514 00:22:59,766 --> 00:23:01,633 and I think that we've also forgot 515 00:23:01,633 --> 00:23:03,300 that the renewing of our mind 516 00:23:03,300 --> 00:23:06,066 is also about the capturing of 517 00:23:06,066 --> 00:23:07,500 the renewing of our heart 518 00:23:07,500 --> 00:23:08,933 our our emotions 519 00:23:09,200 --> 00:23:10,900 and what's going on in the inside of us 520 00:23:10,900 --> 00:23:12,966 and so to be in that 521 00:23:14,966 --> 00:23:15,933 you know 522 00:23:17,766 --> 00:23:20,400 telling the truth sets you free 523 00:23:20,433 --> 00:23:23,000 you know it says that the truth will set you free 524 00:23:23,433 --> 00:23:26,566 make sure that you're honest in telling the truth 525 00:23:32,566 --> 00:23:34,600 cause if you forget to be honest 526 00:23:35,266 --> 00:23:37,566 this is what happens in the psychological world 527 00:23:37,566 --> 00:23:39,366 they call it fractures or splits 528 00:23:39,366 --> 00:23:42,300 is our head and our heart begin to split into two 529 00:23:43,300 --> 00:23:45,233 and you don't trust yourself no more 530 00:23:45,233 --> 00:23:47,033 and I don't mean the yucky part of trust yourself 531 00:23:47,033 --> 00:23:49,066 I mean that in in Christ trust yourself 532 00:23:50,400 --> 00:23:52,866 and you then don't have a relationship with you 533 00:23:52,866 --> 00:23:55,066 because you don't know what to do with emotion 534 00:23:55,200 --> 00:23:59,100 you don't know what to do with the heart um life 535 00:24:00,500 --> 00:24:04,766 and so which brings me to the joyous passage of happy 536 00:24:04,766 --> 00:24:07,000 blessed are those who mourn 537 00:24:07,866 --> 00:24:11,533 happy are you who are sad 538 00:24:13,766 --> 00:24:15,000 this is how you could translate 539 00:24:15,000 --> 00:24:16,000 this is literally in the Greek 540 00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:18,600 you could translate this verse as 541 00:24:18,600 --> 00:24:20,600 happy are those who are sad 542 00:24:21,100 --> 00:24:24,300 why are they happy and when they're sad 543 00:24:25,866 --> 00:24:28,866 it's cause they have an expectation of comfort 544 00:24:28,866 --> 00:24:29,866 there it is yeah 545 00:24:30,466 --> 00:24:32,833 that's right they have the expectation of 546 00:24:32,833 --> 00:24:37,066 who is with them in the middle of sadness 547 00:24:37,066 --> 00:24:39,066 this is why David got to be so honest 548 00:24:39,066 --> 00:24:41,566 though I'm in Sheol or hell 549 00:24:42,100 --> 00:24:45,300 the uttermost parts of the earth the depth of pain 550 00:24:46,966 --> 00:24:50,666 I will fear no evil because you're with me 551 00:24:51,066 --> 00:24:54,766 you're with me he cares about you when you're up here 552 00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:57,200 and when you're down here 553 00:24:57,466 --> 00:25:01,066 and if you never go to here or here 554 00:25:01,100 --> 00:25:02,533 you stay here 555 00:25:03,600 --> 00:25:05,966 you know what this is a numb 556 00:25:06,066 --> 00:25:09,400 shallow sad existence 557 00:25:12,033 --> 00:25:14,600 because you don't experience the expanse of 558 00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:16,166 what it means to be human 559 00:25:16,366 --> 00:25:21,266 in the context of witness that he's with you 560 00:25:22,566 --> 00:25:25,566 and so many of us are afraid to go down to heal 561 00:25:25,566 --> 00:25:27,633 we're afraid to go down into our pain 562 00:25:27,633 --> 00:25:29,766 because we're afraid we're gonna get lost in it 563 00:25:30,033 --> 00:25:31,900 guess who already found you 564 00:25:34,666 --> 00:25:36,766 guess who already called you his own 565 00:25:36,966 --> 00:25:40,500 guess whose face is shining upon you all day long 566 00:25:40,500 --> 00:25:41,400 always 567 00:25:43,300 --> 00:25:48,300 he's so happy to be with you where you are 568 00:25:49,433 --> 00:25:51,533 so morning 569 00:25:53,100 --> 00:25:54,800 we experience comfort 570 00:25:55,700 --> 00:25:58,400 which opens an increased door for healing 571 00:25:59,033 --> 00:26:01,966 which leads to this process of joy 572 00:26:03,833 --> 00:26:07,033 when you skip morning and try to go straight to joy 573 00:26:07,033 --> 00:26:08,866 your joy is shallow 574 00:26:10,700 --> 00:26:12,933 it's discontented joy 575 00:26:15,566 --> 00:26:17,200 which Matthew 5 um 576 00:26:17,366 --> 00:26:19,200 6 says blessed are the meek 577 00:26:19,200 --> 00:26:20,166 for they will inherit the earth 578 00:26:20,166 --> 00:26:21,400 a better way to say that is 579 00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:23,900 blessed are those who are content with who they are 580 00:26:23,900 --> 00:26:25,200 no more no less 581 00:26:25,200 --> 00:26:26,800 that's the moment they find themselves 582 00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:30,133 proud owners of everything that cannot be bought 583 00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:31,933 that's what the message says 584 00:26:32,033 --> 00:26:35,000 contentment that I can be good 585 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:36,533 that this is me 586 00:26:37,066 --> 00:26:39,266 I have really good things happen 587 00:26:39,266 --> 00:26:41,666 and I've had really traumatic things happen 588 00:26:41,666 --> 00:26:42,466 wow 589 00:26:42,900 --> 00:26:46,366 and when I can bring all of me to all of him 590 00:26:46,800 --> 00:26:49,366 even though all of me is already in all of him 591 00:26:49,366 --> 00:26:51,866 but when I can wake up to the reality 592 00:26:51,900 --> 00:26:53,900 my soul starts to wake up 593 00:26:53,900 --> 00:26:56,033 my soul starts to be reformed 594 00:26:56,033 --> 00:26:58,000 my soul starts to experience 595 00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:00,200 the glory and the beauty of god 596 00:27:00,200 --> 00:27:03,900 in a whole new way and this is the way you love others 597 00:27:04,266 --> 00:27:07,366 is because you actually are so full inside 598 00:27:07,366 --> 00:27:09,933 with love from god and love for yourself 599 00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:13,100 that love just spills out everywhere you go 600 00:27:13,100 --> 00:27:15,333 just spills all over you 601 00:27:19,866 --> 00:27:21,900 and so pleasure and pain 602 00:27:23,166 --> 00:27:23,866 are are 603 00:27:23,866 --> 00:27:27,666 are some of the the experiences we have that 604 00:27:27,666 --> 00:27:29,300 that we're gonna look at 605 00:27:30,433 --> 00:27:32,666 and so as many of us really 606 00:27:34,233 --> 00:27:36,300 we've Learned to avoid pain 607 00:27:36,633 --> 00:27:40,233 and when pain overwhelms us 608 00:27:40,233 --> 00:27:43,300 these are the things that will happens within our soul 609 00:27:43,600 --> 00:27:46,600 we begin to get numb we begin to perform 610 00:27:46,966 --> 00:27:49,866 we begin to get distracted 611 00:27:51,566 --> 00:27:55,466 we begin to dissociate or disconnect 612 00:27:56,866 --> 00:27:58,933 we begin to walk out control 613 00:28:02,633 --> 00:28:05,333 if you have struggled with control 614 00:28:06,066 --> 00:28:08,766 I promise you there's some pain under that 615 00:28:09,833 --> 00:28:12,700 that needs the light and beauty of Jesus 616 00:28:13,700 --> 00:28:14,533 that's good 617 00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:16,866 anxiety 618 00:28:18,300 --> 00:28:19,366 irritability 619 00:28:20,100 --> 00:28:21,266 exhaustion 620 00:28:22,800 --> 00:28:25,500 blank I feel blank 621 00:28:29,900 --> 00:28:31,466 in his presence is fullness 622 00:28:31,466 --> 00:28:34,166 joy as right hand are pleasures forevermore 623 00:28:34,366 --> 00:28:36,633 and in that place of him 624 00:28:36,633 --> 00:28:38,600 wanting to experience pleasures with us 625 00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:43,600 when our soul is detached from self we feel blank 626 00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:50,066 and ultimately 627 00:28:51,200 --> 00:28:52,800 oh it's supposed to say disconnected 628 00:28:53,900 --> 00:28:55,100 I missed the diss 629 00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:56,900 she's a big but 630 00:28:56,900 --> 00:28:59,400 she's a big big big word to miss there 631 00:29:01,866 --> 00:29:04,666 but I'm I accept myself right where I'm at 632 00:29:04,666 --> 00:29:06,500 and this is what you get within me 633 00:29:08,066 --> 00:29:10,000 and we feel so disconnected 634 00:29:10,466 --> 00:29:12,700 and you want this alive 635 00:29:12,700 --> 00:29:14,533 vibrant connection with yourself 636 00:29:14,766 --> 00:29:18,600 not that seeks its own way or seeks itself 637 00:29:19,266 --> 00:29:21,466 but it's just content with 638 00:29:21,466 --> 00:29:22,900 who you are and guess what 639 00:29:22,900 --> 00:29:25,300 you have weaknesses and strengths 640 00:29:25,700 --> 00:29:28,033 and when you only focus on your strengths 641 00:29:28,033 --> 00:29:30,366 you become blind to who you are 642 00:29:31,966 --> 00:29:34,300 you're not walking out wholeness 643 00:29:37,233 --> 00:29:41,300 which leads to really gross things like narcissism 644 00:29:46,866 --> 00:29:48,900 and so when we're holding pain 645 00:29:50,400 --> 00:29:51,700 we gotta go to pleasure 646 00:29:51,700 --> 00:29:54,166 because anytime you think of pain 647 00:29:54,966 --> 00:29:57,333 what we long for is pleasure 648 00:29:57,400 --> 00:30:01,133 and the challenges is so many of us have cheapened 649 00:30:02,433 --> 00:30:06,700 comfort comfort has become an external reality 650 00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:11,600 it's become something that we look to fill us up 651 00:30:11,600 --> 00:30:14,200 in a temporal very temporary way 652 00:30:14,200 --> 00:30:16,433 and it's so sad because most of these 653 00:30:16,433 --> 00:30:19,533 all of these things are gifts from god right 654 00:30:20,233 --> 00:30:22,100 they're actually so healthy 655 00:30:22,200 --> 00:30:23,866 when they're in the right place 656 00:30:24,566 --> 00:30:26,400 for those that people that mourn 657 00:30:26,833 --> 00:30:28,466 do these things well 658 00:30:29,200 --> 00:30:32,466 people who don't get the grief up and out of them 659 00:30:32,600 --> 00:30:34,533 end up trading this 660 00:30:34,566 --> 00:30:38,233 the comfort of him for the comfort of things 661 00:30:38,233 --> 00:30:41,600 which produces our greatest epidemic of addiction 662 00:30:41,600 --> 00:30:44,000 that we've had in the history of the world 663 00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:45,300 that's happening right now 664 00:30:45,300 --> 00:30:46,033 it's because of 665 00:30:46,033 --> 00:30:48,966 people don't know how to face their pain 666 00:30:48,966 --> 00:30:50,866 they've never been shown how though 667 00:30:50,900 --> 00:30:52,033 they've never been taught how 668 00:30:52,033 --> 00:30:55,866 they've never had somebody walk with them in their pain 669 00:30:56,566 --> 00:30:56,766 oh 670 00:30:56,766 --> 00:31:00,366 so now they walk around stigmatized with all this stuff 671 00:31:00,366 --> 00:31:01,500 like I'm a sex addict 672 00:31:01,500 --> 00:31:03,000 or I'm a drunk I'm 673 00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:04,033 I'm these kind of things 674 00:31:04,033 --> 00:31:06,300 we actually purpose it as their identity 675 00:31:06,300 --> 00:31:08,200 which is never their identity 676 00:31:08,200 --> 00:31:11,066 it's they went for it because they needed to feel good 677 00:31:11,066 --> 00:31:13,533 and god designed them to feel good 678 00:31:13,566 --> 00:31:14,433 I I I 679 00:31:14,433 --> 00:31:16,066 I work with men all the time 680 00:31:16,066 --> 00:31:18,333 and women that have sexual addiction 681 00:31:18,666 --> 00:31:20,266 and most of the time 682 00:31:20,266 --> 00:31:22,966 it's not because they have a giant spirit of lust 683 00:31:22,966 --> 00:31:24,900 demon that's floating over them 684 00:31:25,100 --> 00:31:25,900 there is there are 685 00:31:25,900 --> 00:31:28,400 there is those times and then we just 686 00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:29,966 we get Blake and we go wow 687 00:31:31,400 --> 00:31:37,033 say begone in Jesus name the challenges is when we say 688 00:31:37,033 --> 00:31:39,366 begone in Jesus name 689 00:31:40,200 --> 00:31:42,466 and the demon literally flees 690 00:31:44,266 --> 00:31:49,500 and then they walk around empty for the next two years 691 00:31:50,033 --> 00:31:53,500 because they've never found out what could fill it up 692 00:31:56,433 --> 00:31:59,700 then that enemy goes against a bunch of other enemies 693 00:31:59,900 --> 00:32:01,566 and then they're more tormented 694 00:32:02,266 --> 00:32:04,200 with Deliverance Ministry 695 00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:07,266 without the process of actually loving yourself 696 00:32:07,266 --> 00:32:09,833 and learning how to walk through that process 697 00:32:09,833 --> 00:32:12,300 creates a bunch of more broken people 698 00:32:13,033 --> 00:32:17,866 that's why discipleship formation is such a big process 699 00:32:18,800 --> 00:32:19,633 sanctification 700 00:32:19,633 --> 00:32:22,666 the process of growing from glory to glory 701 00:32:22,700 --> 00:32:24,733 being holy set apart 702 00:32:25,366 --> 00:32:31,700 and so it's such a big deal that we walk with people 703 00:32:31,700 --> 00:32:35,266 we walk with ourselves with the Godhead 704 00:32:36,700 --> 00:32:39,600 through these processes and for most of us 705 00:32:39,600 --> 00:32:42,066 we're not in deep addiction over here 706 00:32:42,066 --> 00:32:45,400 but these things rather than being blessings from god 707 00:32:45,400 --> 00:32:51,333 they're numbing experiences that just mute our soul 708 00:32:52,600 --> 00:32:56,900 where we have shallow experience on the inside of us 709 00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:01,400 and we feel sad but we don't know why 710 00:33:01,900 --> 00:33:02,833 and most of the time 711 00:33:02,833 --> 00:33:08,300 it's because we've never faced the pain inside of us 712 00:33:10,066 --> 00:33:13,333 we've never got that grief up and out 713 00:33:13,600 --> 00:33:16,400 and so our our soul is so full 714 00:33:19,900 --> 00:33:22,566 and so I love that these are blessings 715 00:33:23,100 --> 00:33:25,766 and as believers we need to see them as blessings 716 00:33:32,033 --> 00:33:33,166 when spirit soul 717 00:33:33,166 --> 00:33:35,900 and body fall out of alignment 718 00:33:36,100 --> 00:33:39,400 this is what happens we fracture internally 719 00:33:40,233 --> 00:33:41,700 we disconnect there it is 720 00:33:41,700 --> 00:33:43,933 you see that I got the dis in there guys 721 00:33:43,966 --> 00:33:46,933 to connect we disconnect from ourselves 722 00:33:48,600 --> 00:33:50,133 we lose peace 723 00:33:52,500 --> 00:33:56,600 so this is one of the ways to restore 724 00:33:56,833 --> 00:33:58,466 this is actually 725 00:33:58,466 --> 00:34:00,700 a healthy relationship with these puppies 726 00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:07,366 how many of you have a healthy relationship with fear 727 00:34:07,366 --> 00:34:09,600 in here I sure do 728 00:34:11,066 --> 00:34:12,200 I'm serious 729 00:34:14,466 --> 00:34:15,533 I'm like 730 00:34:16,466 --> 00:34:20,566 so confused about our streams relationship with fear 731 00:34:29,700 --> 00:34:31,166 get that last one out there 732 00:34:31,600 --> 00:34:34,500 so if you notice about these eight core emotions 733 00:34:34,700 --> 00:34:37,500 there's only one that's like that's the good one 734 00:34:39,900 --> 00:34:41,833 all those other ones are bad 735 00:34:41,833 --> 00:34:43,900 those are all those are all demons 736 00:34:44,366 --> 00:34:45,766 look at all those demons 737 00:34:46,433 --> 00:34:47,733 those aren't emotions 738 00:34:50,366 --> 00:34:51,766 Blake get him 739 00:34:55,966 --> 00:35:00,000 and what happens is when we don't realize 740 00:35:00,000 --> 00:35:02,700 the difference between the three pathways 741 00:35:02,700 --> 00:35:05,466 to actually become tormented 742 00:35:05,466 --> 00:35:08,766 is emotions are simply a physiological response 743 00:35:08,766 --> 00:35:10,466 to something happening in the moment 744 00:35:10,466 --> 00:35:13,333 an attitude is a state of being 745 00:35:14,000 --> 00:35:16,500 when you invite an attitude of sadness 746 00:35:16,500 --> 00:35:20,266 or an attitude of fear that opens up the demon of fear 747 00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:21,966 it opens up the 748 00:35:22,166 --> 00:35:23,866 the scriptures called the spirit of fear 749 00:35:23,866 --> 00:35:25,100 Lord isn't giving you a spirit of fear 750 00:35:25,100 --> 00:35:26,200 but a power of a sound mind 751 00:35:26,200 --> 00:35:27,900 that's nothing to do with the emotion of fear 752 00:35:28,600 --> 00:35:31,400 has to do with the spirit that's wrapped behind it 753 00:35:32,833 --> 00:35:35,400 and the challenges is a lot of times 754 00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:37,633 we're trying to cast something out of us 755 00:35:37,633 --> 00:35:40,233 that is actually an emotional signal 756 00:35:40,233 --> 00:35:42,366 that's trying to tell us something that's very 757 00:35:42,366 --> 00:35:43,400 very helpful 758 00:35:44,233 --> 00:35:47,100 and so when we're not emotionally intelligent 759 00:35:47,100 --> 00:35:49,166 and we're only spiritually intelligent 760 00:35:49,166 --> 00:35:52,100 it's the other things that creates a spiritual bypass 761 00:35:52,100 --> 00:35:55,266 where we bypass the very thing that Jesus came to save 762 00:35:57,300 --> 00:35:59,600 he didn't just come to set you free 763 00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:02,066 and make you the shell of a person to like 764 00:36:02,066 --> 00:36:04,100 fly around fly around in glory 765 00:36:04,100 --> 00:36:05,133 without a body 766 00:36:06,266 --> 00:36:07,900 the end of the world is not about heaven 767 00:36:07,900 --> 00:36:09,166 it's about a new earth 768 00:36:09,166 --> 00:36:12,100 with an embodied believers that are actually attached 769 00:36:12,100 --> 00:36:15,066 so connected and so whole inside themselves 770 00:36:15,066 --> 00:36:18,066 that just creates the beautiful community of god 771 00:36:18,066 --> 00:36:21,700 where the face of god is shining over them all the time 772 00:36:21,700 --> 00:36:23,266 all day long 773 00:36:23,800 --> 00:36:25,700 this is what it's all about 774 00:36:25,966 --> 00:36:26,700 we're not gonna be like 775 00:36:26,700 --> 00:36:29,400 floating in body I mean out um 776 00:36:29,800 --> 00:36:31,366 just spirits around 777 00:36:32,466 --> 00:36:34,366 but so many of us want that 778 00:36:34,366 --> 00:36:35,633 and the reason you want that 779 00:36:35,633 --> 00:36:36,400 is because 780 00:36:36,400 --> 00:36:39,366 you never Learned how to have self attachment 781 00:36:39,633 --> 00:36:42,033 you've never been shown how to have actually 782 00:36:42,033 --> 00:36:45,266 a healthy experience with sadness or fear anger 783 00:36:45,300 --> 00:36:47,466 and we could talk about all these for hours 784 00:36:47,466 --> 00:36:48,500 but we can't 785 00:36:50,466 --> 00:36:54,066 so all of all emotion emotion is not good 786 00:36:54,066 --> 00:36:56,133 or bad it just is 787 00:36:57,166 --> 00:36:57,366 and 788 00:36:57,366 --> 00:36:59,800 when you begin to develop a relationship with yourself 789 00:37:00,066 --> 00:37:03,333 you'll have these and be able to discern 790 00:37:03,433 --> 00:37:06,100 discernment is not so much about others 791 00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:08,400 there is the spirit of sermon 792 00:37:08,400 --> 00:37:10,166 it's a big deal it's a good thing 793 00:37:10,366 --> 00:37:12,600 but it's mostly about learning how to discern yourself 794 00:37:13,366 --> 00:37:15,733 is this an enemy is this the enemy 795 00:37:15,966 --> 00:37:17,400 we know what to do with the enemy 796 00:37:18,633 --> 00:37:19,433 wow 797 00:37:20,433 --> 00:37:21,566 we said go 798 00:37:21,600 --> 00:37:23,900 we just haven't Learned what to do with ourselves 799 00:37:26,800 --> 00:37:27,700 so 800 00:37:30,366 --> 00:37:32,466 look at that little guy look at him 801 00:37:32,700 --> 00:37:35,333 do you know who that is dun dun dun 802 00:37:38,033 --> 00:37:39,733 that's Superman I mean Justin 803 00:37:41,900 --> 00:37:43,733 and you know 804 00:37:44,366 --> 00:37:47,400 Justin wanted to be Superman I love that cape 805 00:37:49,700 --> 00:37:50,500 ah 806 00:37:50,600 --> 00:37:51,666 so fun 807 00:37:52,266 --> 00:37:56,600 and so about two years later 808 00:37:57,100 --> 00:37:59,666 I was riding horses 809 00:37:59,666 --> 00:38:01,366 and we'd go to my grandparents in Modesto 810 00:38:01,366 --> 00:38:04,900 and we'd ride horses and it was super fun 811 00:38:04,900 --> 00:38:07,200 so much joy being with them 812 00:38:07,200 --> 00:38:09,100 enjoying the horses enjoying their cows 813 00:38:09,300 --> 00:38:11,500 I love being out there in their backyard 814 00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:15,766 they had nine acres and about nine or 10 cows 815 00:38:15,766 --> 00:38:19,800 I think two horses and so we'd go riding with them 816 00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:20,966 um when I was little 817 00:38:20,966 --> 00:38:24,700 and when I turned six I started to ride 818 00:38:25,600 --> 00:38:26,400 um 819 00:38:27,466 --> 00:38:28,466 we we 820 00:38:28,466 --> 00:38:31,033 we got an opportunity to go to a neighbor's house 821 00:38:31,033 --> 00:38:32,500 and this neighbor had a special horse 822 00:38:32,500 --> 00:38:33,833 like a horse that was supposed to be 823 00:38:33,833 --> 00:38:36,633 like an award winning horse and supposed to be a very 824 00:38:36,633 --> 00:38:39,800 very fun moment and so me and my brother 825 00:38:39,800 --> 00:38:42,066 and my mom we were super excited to go ride the horse 826 00:38:42,066 --> 00:38:44,166 and as we were riding 827 00:38:45,766 --> 00:38:47,766 um I got to ride the horse 828 00:38:47,766 --> 00:38:48,900 and my brother got to ride the horse 829 00:38:48,900 --> 00:38:50,533 and that was just all peaceful 830 00:38:50,666 --> 00:38:53,133 and then my mom got on the horse 831 00:38:54,033 --> 00:38:55,933 and my mom 832 00:38:58,200 --> 00:38:59,766 my mom uh 833 00:39:01,833 --> 00:39:04,033 the the cowboy who was helping her 834 00:39:04,033 --> 00:39:05,300 leading her on the the horse 835 00:39:05,300 --> 00:39:05,966 started going yeah 836 00:39:05,966 --> 00:39:06,966 you wanna go fast Mickey 837 00:39:06,966 --> 00:39:08,533 you wanna go fast Michelle 838 00:39:08,600 --> 00:39:09,833 Mom's name is Mickey Michelle 839 00:39:09,833 --> 00:39:12,800 and so he begins to like 840 00:39:12,800 --> 00:39:13,800 had this little like 841 00:39:13,800 --> 00:39:15,666 whip thing out there I don't even know what it is 842 00:39:15,666 --> 00:39:16,300 I'm not I was not 843 00:39:16,300 --> 00:39:17,833 I have not been a horse person 844 00:39:17,833 --> 00:39:19,600 you can find this out in a second and 845 00:39:19,600 --> 00:39:21,500 and they begin to whip the horse 846 00:39:21,566 --> 00:39:23,233 and the horse starts to just like 847 00:39:23,233 --> 00:39:26,466 just take off and he had it still on a lead rope 848 00:39:27,366 --> 00:39:31,300 and my mom begins to scream 849 00:39:31,366 --> 00:39:33,866 and is falling off the horse screaming 850 00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:37,300 and that little Superman boy just lost his ever 851 00:39:37,300 --> 00:39:38,333 loving mind 852 00:39:38,666 --> 00:39:42,700 I just remember start screaming at the top of my lungs 853 00:39:42,866 --> 00:39:45,466 get her off the horse get her off the horse 854 00:39:45,966 --> 00:39:48,066 and I'm bawling I'm 855 00:39:48,066 --> 00:39:49,800 I'm just crying my eyes out 856 00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:50,966 I feel so scared 857 00:39:50,966 --> 00:39:53,166 I can actually feel the sensation of fear inside me 858 00:39:53,166 --> 00:39:54,500 which was not the spirit of fear 859 00:39:54,833 --> 00:39:56,100 it was the emotion of fear 860 00:39:56,100 --> 00:39:59,266 I can feel that fear all through my stomach right now 861 00:39:59,466 --> 00:40:01,333 and I was so afraid 862 00:40:02,433 --> 00:40:06,666 and I remember thinking my mom was gonna die 863 00:40:07,100 --> 00:40:08,400 and again I'm six years old 864 00:40:08,400 --> 00:40:11,466 so all I know is what I'm seeing 865 00:40:12,200 --> 00:40:14,566 and I'm thinking she's gonna die 866 00:40:16,266 --> 00:40:19,300 and I she gets off 867 00:40:19,300 --> 00:40:21,566 she's okay she was scared too 868 00:40:21,566 --> 00:40:23,533 I was so angry at the man 869 00:40:23,900 --> 00:40:25,400 I'm like I'm gonna be like Jesus 870 00:40:25,400 --> 00:40:26,666 I'm gonna go make a whip 871 00:40:27,366 --> 00:40:29,100 i'mma come back here first 872 00:40:29,100 --> 00:40:31,166 i'mma turn over the horse rather than a table 873 00:40:32,200 --> 00:40:34,000 and then i'mma turn over you 874 00:40:34,633 --> 00:40:35,800 Mister Cowboy 875 00:40:36,900 --> 00:40:38,866 and I was 876 00:40:39,700 --> 00:40:41,400 I was angry I was sad 877 00:40:41,400 --> 00:40:43,566 I was scared I didn't know what to do 878 00:40:43,966 --> 00:40:46,533 and I remember 879 00:40:46,666 --> 00:40:50,800 it locked something in me from a core memory 880 00:40:50,800 --> 00:40:52,900 it locked in my soul 881 00:40:54,966 --> 00:40:56,233 that ah 882 00:40:56,233 --> 00:40:58,366 I never wanna feel powerless again 883 00:40:59,166 --> 00:41:02,366 I never wanna feel like I felt in that moment 884 00:41:04,366 --> 00:41:06,866 it locked in that soul it locked in my soul 885 00:41:06,866 --> 00:41:12,033 that I carry responsibility for others safety choices 886 00:41:12,033 --> 00:41:14,333 marriages faith outcome 887 00:41:14,600 --> 00:41:17,933 I carry responsibility for everybody else's life 888 00:41:20,200 --> 00:41:21,266 and again I was six 889 00:41:21,266 --> 00:41:24,900 and it obviously wasn't only from that experience 890 00:41:25,233 --> 00:41:29,233 but it locked a responsibility in that little boy 891 00:41:29,233 --> 00:41:30,900 in that little Superman 892 00:41:32,233 --> 00:41:35,466 that walked around to 893 00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:42,566 to everybody he met carrying the weight of your health 894 00:41:42,566 --> 00:41:44,966 your salvation is in my hands 895 00:41:45,433 --> 00:41:47,300 and this was all implicit 896 00:41:47,400 --> 00:41:49,066 this was not frontal lobe 897 00:41:49,066 --> 00:41:51,600 this was not in the front of my mind or memory 898 00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:55,400 this is all an explicit experience 899 00:41:55,900 --> 00:41:58,366 there was way down in my subconscious 900 00:41:59,233 --> 00:42:01,900 which LED me to when I was 901 00:42:02,566 --> 00:42:03,366 uh 902 00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:07,033 to 2,000 and one 2000 903 00:42:07,033 --> 00:42:08,600 twenty one sorry 904 00:42:09,466 --> 00:42:14,333 it LED me into this experience for 2,019 20 21 905 00:42:14,366 --> 00:42:16,200 into this really deep depression 906 00:42:17,300 --> 00:42:21,900 and I could not figure out why or how 907 00:42:24,666 --> 00:42:26,200 um the depression was going on 908 00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:29,266 what was going on and through a whole bunch of work 909 00:42:29,266 --> 00:42:32,100 which we don't have time to get into right now 910 00:42:32,300 --> 00:42:34,966 I I begin to discover 911 00:42:35,633 --> 00:42:37,800 within some of these core memories 912 00:42:38,033 --> 00:42:39,900 lied this boy 913 00:42:40,166 --> 00:42:43,133 that felt responsible for everybody around them 914 00:42:43,800 --> 00:42:46,766 and I had another theological kind of mishap 915 00:42:46,766 --> 00:42:48,066 happened to me 916 00:42:48,066 --> 00:42:51,166 it was an experience I had with god when I was 917 00:42:51,266 --> 00:42:52,766 I think eight or nine 918 00:42:53,233 --> 00:42:56,366 and I saw myself standing on the hand of god 919 00:42:56,366 --> 00:42:58,766 and I heard a voice say um 920 00:42:58,766 --> 00:43:00,766 and it was looking over the pit of hell 921 00:43:01,166 --> 00:43:02,966 and I heard a voice say 922 00:43:03,566 --> 00:43:05,700 these are the people you didn't tell about me 923 00:43:09,233 --> 00:43:11,966 so I had all this responsibility 924 00:43:13,366 --> 00:43:15,566 for how everybody was doing 925 00:43:15,833 --> 00:43:17,500 and in that season uh 926 00:43:17,500 --> 00:43:19,600 the years prior to 2,019 927 00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:21,400 a couple of my friends got divorced 928 00:43:21,466 --> 00:43:22,866 and some things started to happen 929 00:43:22,866 --> 00:43:25,400 that I felt responsible for 930 00:43:25,633 --> 00:43:28,366 and if if you would have said any of that to me 931 00:43:28,366 --> 00:43:30,800 I would have looked at you and laughed and said 932 00:43:31,266 --> 00:43:32,833 that doesn't I don't care 933 00:43:32,833 --> 00:43:33,366 I I mean 934 00:43:33,366 --> 00:43:34,300 I care about them 935 00:43:34,300 --> 00:43:36,700 but I don't take responsibility for that 936 00:43:37,300 --> 00:43:40,733 but it was locked and trapped up in some pain 937 00:43:41,233 --> 00:43:43,600 that I never processed 938 00:43:44,266 --> 00:43:46,366 that I didn't get up and out 939 00:43:46,966 --> 00:43:48,100 and so 940 00:43:48,300 --> 00:43:49,666 some of the things that I just 941 00:43:49,666 --> 00:43:51,300 really wanna leave you with guys 942 00:43:51,300 --> 00:43:53,900 some of the ways I just wanna encourage you 943 00:43:54,366 --> 00:43:59,100 is as you begin to come before the father of Grace 944 00:44:00,100 --> 00:44:01,333 and say 945 00:44:02,233 --> 00:44:04,600 is there anything in my story 946 00:44:05,600 --> 00:44:08,566 that you want to bring comfort to 947 00:44:08,866 --> 00:44:10,366 that I'm unaware of 948 00:44:11,100 --> 00:44:13,900 and in the in the back of the book 949 00:44:13,900 --> 00:44:16,866 you'll also see a a QR code 950 00:44:16,866 --> 00:44:17,300 that literally 951 00:44:17,300 --> 00:44:20,900 has a video of how to choose a core memory 952 00:44:21,266 --> 00:44:22,466 it has a video about 953 00:44:22,466 --> 00:44:25,866 what to do when you feel stuck'cause so many of us 954 00:44:25,866 --> 00:44:28,300 when it comes to pain and numbness 955 00:44:28,366 --> 00:44:30,966 we're just like I just don't know how to get out 956 00:44:31,500 --> 00:44:35,233 and I'm real thankful that this is a resource 957 00:44:35,233 --> 00:44:36,666 to come under you guys 958 00:44:36,666 --> 00:44:41,833 to undergird you in your process with pain in your guys 959 00:44:41,833 --> 00:44:45,600 stories and so if you could just stand up with me 960 00:44:55,600 --> 00:44:58,466 blessed are those who mourn 961 00:44:59,566 --> 00:45:01,100 for you will be comforted 962 00:45:01,100 --> 00:45:02,933 I wanna put your hand on your heart 963 00:45:06,500 --> 00:45:08,400 and just close your eyes 964 00:45:19,766 --> 00:45:22,566 Emmanuel is who wants to show up to you 965 00:45:23,400 --> 00:45:28,533 god with you a lot of us we know Jehovah Jireh 966 00:45:30,633 --> 00:45:32,833 the god who provides we know Jehovah Rapha 967 00:45:32,833 --> 00:45:37,400 the god who heals but we don't know God Emmanuel 968 00:45:37,700 --> 00:45:41,900 who wants to be with us in every place of our story 969 00:45:42,566 --> 00:45:46,066 not just in the highs but in the lowest of lows 970 00:45:46,300 --> 00:45:49,200 he wants to be there in the midst of your story 971 00:45:49,266 --> 00:45:51,133 and as your hand is on your heart 972 00:45:52,700 --> 00:45:54,733 I just thank you father 973 00:45:56,066 --> 00:46:00,000 that you are here we are not alone 974 00:46:00,833 --> 00:46:02,933 in the areas of our story 975 00:46:04,100 --> 00:46:08,333 that we feel scared to even look at 976 00:46:09,366 --> 00:46:11,800 you are there 977 00:46:12,233 --> 00:46:16,200 and you wanna take us into a process of mourning 978 00:46:16,433 --> 00:46:19,533 that leads to a deep seated comfort 979 00:46:20,000 --> 00:46:24,533 the being held by the one who gave his life 980 00:46:24,900 --> 00:46:29,300 that we might have life into healing 981 00:46:30,866 --> 00:46:34,333 into this eternal joy 982 00:46:37,400 --> 00:46:40,400 and so I ask that that process 983 00:46:40,966 --> 00:46:44,500 that slowed down process 984 00:46:45,766 --> 00:46:50,600 would be even more apparent in this culture 985 00:46:50,866 --> 00:46:53,500 that we would have such safe people 986 00:46:53,633 --> 00:46:57,266 that we could actually be those who weep 987 00:46:57,266 --> 00:47:03,333 with those who weep and rejoice with those who rejoice 988 00:47:03,600 --> 00:47:07,900 in Jesus name amen amen