Speaker:

We are welcoming to the episode Karen

Moore, who is from Eastern Ontario, just

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like I am.

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And Karen, we start each of our interviews

with the same questions.

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So this is a way to introduce yourself to

our listeners.

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And we always ask, what are you growing?

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So for our farming guests, that covers

crops and livestock, but it can also

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include families, careers, businesses,

social change, awareness, anything.

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So what are you growing, Karen?

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Well, I am growing my knowledge of living

off-grid in Eastern Ontario.

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I started from a very small knowledge

base, so any movement forward is progress.

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And also growing for amazing young people

who are my children, but I can't really

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call them children anymore because they're

all adolescents and young adults.

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And I would also add growing knowledge and

awareness around the needs of children,

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youth, and adults who experience life from

a different place and really working hard

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to kind of change our idea about what that

means for people and trying to change the

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world, you know, one interaction at a

time.

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Just little tasks, that's all.

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really.

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So can I ask, just because I'm curious,

what is the motivation or what brought you

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to living off grid?

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What was that experience like?

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Well, I would like to say it was, you

know, because it was the environmental

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thing to do, or because, you know, it was

a dream.

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But the honest truth of it is that we

bought 23 acres in rural Eastern Ontario

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and had a dream to build a house on it at

some point.

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COVID hit and we decided, oh, this is the

perfect time to build a house.

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And when we decided to do that and talk to

Hydro about putting in the Hydro lines, it

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was going to cost us an exorbitant amount

of money.

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And so the decision was off grid was going

to be less expensive.

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And so that was the real reason.

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But now that we're doing it, it's kind of

exciting, actually.

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It's kind of cool to.

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I know it kind of sounds hokey, but.

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It's neat to know that you're creating

your own hydro when you plug the kettle

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in, or when anything is being, anything

uses electricity.

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It's like, we created that.

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Like we grew that, if you will.

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And so my excitement for it has grown from

actually doing it.

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It's kind of cool.

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and I'm sure that you think about your

usage a lot differently than those of us

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who just plug it in and there's power

there, right?

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There's, I'm sure there's more of an

awareness of how much things use and what

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you're using it for.

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More awareness, also I know the weather

better than anybody else.

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I can tell you when the sun is going to be

out and how many days of sun.

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And we really love kind of the April to

October time frame because we don't really

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have to worry too much about what we're

creating.

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The October to March time frame, a little

less reliable.

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And interestingly enough,

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It's even increased our communication as a

family because we have to negotiate now,

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right?

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These ideas of, you know, well, if you

wanna use the air conditioning, then you

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can't use the dryer.

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If you wanna use the, you know, the

PlayStation, then you have to think about

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whether or not you're gonna use the

microwave or, you know, on the really,

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really cloudy days in the winter when we

don't get a lot of sun at all, it's like.

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You know, the dryer is, we don't use the

dryer for that many months.

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We don't use the microwave.

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And so it's created some really cool

conversations as a family about compromise

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and choices and just being really more

mindful about who we are in the world and

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having to give in sometimes because

somebody really needs to do something and

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it has an impact on somebody else's hydro

use.

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So it's actually been a really cool

opportunity.

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that's an interesting point.

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So you said your kids are older.

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Can you tell us their ages and how many of

you of them are still negotiating power

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usage in your house?

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So all of our kids are adopted and so our

eldest is almost 28 and we adopted her at

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three and a half.

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Our next eldest is almost 20 and we

adopted her at nine months.

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Our next eldest is 18 and a half and we

did a foster with a view or a concurrent

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placement so we fostered and then moved to

adoption.

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He came to us when he was.

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five weeks and then our youngest is 17 and

a half and she came to us at two days.

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Right, yeah, so lots of, yeah, and lots of

different ways and arrangements, I'm sure,

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of how they came to you.

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Yeah, for sure.

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Sorry, I muted myself and then I couldn't

get unmuted again.

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So Karen, we're talking to you today

because of your expertise, both

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professionally and personally, with

neurodiversity and your work with children

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and families.

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Can you tell us, in your own words, about

your background and your work and such?

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Sure.

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So I'm a registered social worker and I

have a private practice here in Eastern

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Ontario working primarily with families

who are walking the journey of

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neurodiversity and or adoption and

permanency.

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So one or the other or both.

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So I do a lot of work with children, youth

and families where

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the initials of FASD, ASD, ADHD, all of

those labels and initials come dancing

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through the journey.

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And we have a lot of those initials in our

family life as well.

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So I dance that dance professionally and

personally.

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And a lot of work in really thinking about

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What does neurodiversity mean and the

impact of neurodiversity on individual

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lives as well as family lives and really

trying to navigate some of the

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complexities that I would say sometimes

often don't need to be there, but they get

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created because we often have a kind of

narrow sense of what neuro-normative is.

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And if we had, if we would actually just

expand our sense of neuro-normative, a lot

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of the barriers and a lot of the

challenges wouldn't exist.

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And in fact, I could be unemployed and I

would love that.

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I mean, I would obviously move on to a

different level of employment and do

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something else, but I would love to not

have to be helping people navigate some of

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the complexities that are

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kind of put in the way of children, youth,

and families because of the way that we

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perceive neuro-normative reality.

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I think the reality is everything is

neuro-normative and we have created these

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social constructions around what's diverse

and what's not and what's acceptable and

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what's not.

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And it's those human creations of those

labels that actually create the

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difficulty.

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Yeah, I'm absorbing all of that.

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Well, I'm thinking, so you shared, your

four children are all adopted and they had

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various journeys themselves.

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Can you tell us, without getting too

personal into their own experiences, but

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as a parent, how did you navigate those

journeys, both kind of individually and

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separately, because I'm sure that they all

impacted each other, and like the family

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as a unit.

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Mm-hmm.

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Yeah, I'd like to say we navigated them

brilliantly every single time, and I can't

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even say that with a straight face.

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Exactly, and I think that makes it more

difficult sometimes, right?

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Because I think that there's an added

pressure that I put on myself and that

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systems put on me that if I'm a

professional doing this work that

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I must have it all figured out when it

comes to my own journey and my journey

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with my kids and that's far from the

truth.

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My kids have been my best teachers

actually.

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But we've navigated difficulties with

doctors, with schools, with recreation

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programs, with family expectations, with

our own expectations.

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We've navigated parenting dilemmas and

strategies around.

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you know, do we consequence more?

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Do we consequence less?

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Do we, you know, do we take things away to

change behavior?

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Do we, all of those kinds of messages that

we got like everybody else did around, you

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know, this is how you parent a child who

is neurodiverse.

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You do more of this, you do less of this,

you, you know, add this, you subtract

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this, you just need to be more consistent.

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You just need to be more, you know, open.

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You just need.

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there was always you just need to be more

of or you just need to do less of or and

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So, you know those dilemmas and they still

follow because each child is different

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Like you said Arlene, right?

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and so what worked for one child isn't

gonna work for the our next child and

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isn't gonna and What works for child one

on Monday might not work for child one on

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Monday afternoon Hey, like it worked

Monday morning, but it's so

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I think that, you know, came to a learning

of the fact that what really mattered in

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all of this, and I speak about this often

in the adoption work that I do and the

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work that I do with families and in my own

journey as a parent, is that what really

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matters at the end of the day is the

relationship.

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And I'm always now looking at that being

my guide to.

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decisions, interventions, strategies.

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At the end of the day, will this add to my

relationship with my child or will this

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take away?

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And my favorite saying, my partner and I

are favorite saying is five years from now

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is this gonna matter?

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A year from now is this gonna matter?

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And if it is gonna matter, then what do we

need to do to ensure that this is going to

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matter well?

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And if it's not gonna matter a year from

now, why?

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why are we invested in this?

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Why, you know, is it peer pressure?

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Is it pressure from family?

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Is it pressure from the school?

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Is it pressure from wherever?

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And really being able to use that as our

touchstone around the relationship with

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each and every one of our kids is what

matters the most.

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And that's what we're gonna use.

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That relationship is what's gonna keep us

going in the tough times.

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And it's also gonna be what keeps us going

in the easy times or in the good times,

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right?

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And so really kind of thinking about, when

we're trying to come up with a strategy,

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when we're trying to come up with a next

step, when we're trying to figure out what

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the hell do we do now, what's the impact

gonna be on this relationship?

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And that served us well, it served us

well.

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And it has given us the opportunity, I

think sometimes,

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to kind of sit back a little bit and give

some time for reflection.

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There's very few things that we've learned

that need immediate response.

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Of course, safety issues do.

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Issues around life and death, absolutely.

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There's an immediate response there

needed.

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Issues related to the fact that one of our

kids has done something they weren't

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supposed to do or they haven't done

something they were supposed to do.

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That doesn't need an immediate response.

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That can give us a time to reflect, think

about who they are, think about who they

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are in this interaction, who we are, and

what do we want to move forward so that

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our relationship remains intact and we

move forward from a place of connection.

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So it's an important piece, I think.

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really important.

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And I agree with what you're saying, that

sometimes those outside pressures end up

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creating a sense of urgency that isn't

there, right?

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Where if you have a teacher who is only

teaching your child this year, they wanna

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see results within, you know, this time

period before the next report card, before

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the test, all that kind of stuff, or, you

know, whatever the situation may be.

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But you're right, sometimes our responses

are gonna be...

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things that take longer or that aren't

gonna show an impact for a long time.

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So thinking about things in that more

long-term connection type journey is

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really important whether our kids are

neurodiverse or not.

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Yep.

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So, Karen, I just added a question here,

and I hate the wording I'm about to use,

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but I couldn't really come up with

anything better.

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Because all four of your kids are adopted,

how much warning did you have about the

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likelihood of them being neurodiverse,

especially knowing that they were all

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young when they came into your family?

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You know, I mean, it...

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It seems like adopting older kids you tend

to get more warning.

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But...

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Even with older kids, we sometimes

minimize the potential.

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I mean, I think the reality is adoption is

trauma, right?

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And so whether or not a child is adopted

at one day old or a year old or five years

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old, the fact that they are going through

an adoption journey means that they've

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experienced a trauma and will continue to

experience that trauma for the rest of

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their lives.

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It doesn't mean that trauma always has to

be traumatizing.

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It does though mean that the reality is

they will always be adopted and that will

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have impact in different parts of their

lives.

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So I think, you know, I think as an

adoption community, and it may be

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different in different, you know,

different provinces, different countries.

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As an adoption community, I think we're

working hard to be more upfront and honest

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about the fact that we often don't really

know about kids' beginnings, right,

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there's often huge gaps.

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And some of that can be minimized with

people taking, you know, more knowledge

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and thought about how to document things

and keep track of things.

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But some of those things aren't known,

right?

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Like if, for example,

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the child comes into care at the age of

five or seven or eight, there might be

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years and years and years of experience

that we don't know about, especially in

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including prenatal experiences, right?

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So when we're talking about FASD, which is

a particular interest in area of expertise

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for me, although I use the word expertise

in a very light way because I don't

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consider myself an expert at all.

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When I say expertise, it's that place of

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of curiosity and passion about

enlightening the world about the realities

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of fetal alcohol spectrum disorder and the

way that we can absolutely change

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trajectories if we clue in quicker

sometimes.

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And if we, you know.

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And if we have some of these honest

conversations and look at some of the

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barriers that make it difficult to be able

to have some of these conversations.

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So I think for our kids, we got as much

information as was known, but I think

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there was much more information that could

have been known.

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And there were, you know, lots more places

where certainly, I mean, we adopted our

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kids

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20 plus years ago, well, 15, 20 years ago.

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And even the concept of adoption being

trauma or the idea of kids, even that idea

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that kids have a life before.

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We often, I think in the adoption

community used to kind of think once kids

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were adopted, it was almost like they had

a new beginning, a new start.

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And I think

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I'm so glad to say we're much more

enlightened about that now and recognize

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that it's one person, one life, one

journey, and that it's about addition, not

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subtraction, right?

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It's not about a new beginning when a

child moves into adoption.

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It's a continuation of a journey.

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And I think we still need to do a lot

better in knowing and sharing and talking

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about the histories of the possibilities

of the realities of.

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the impact of trauma and adoption on

children, youth and adults.

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still my question, isn't it?

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I just added a whole bunch of questions in

here.

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So now none of my questions make any sense

in the order they're in.

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That sounds like my life.

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Well, I feel like I'm gonna move one of

these questions up and see if that helps

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things.

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So, as someone who...my own neurodiversity

was diagnosed at the age of 40, and

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realistically it's been a part of who I am

forever.

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But, you know, it was one of those doesn't

perform to expectations sort of things.

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crucial parts of who we are as adults, and

especially for women, there's been such an

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explosion in the last few years of people

who are reaching a place where we're

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completely redefining what we know to be

true about ourselves.

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And especially trying to raise children

when you're learning so much about

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yourself at the same time is really

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really strange.

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So I'm wondering what your thoughts are on

that, I guess.

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So I think I have a couple of thoughts as

I hear you speak.

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I think the first one is, I honestly

believe that our children know the truth

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about their identity.

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They know who they are, and oftentimes

adults, systems, et cetera, don't

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recognize that truth or try to convince

them of a different truth.

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And so I think that when adults get

diagnosed,

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you know, as adults with a neurodiversity.

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It's not this thing that comes out of

nowhere.

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It's this recognition of a truth that has

always been but was never honored.

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And it was always trying to be packaged in

a different way, in a way that the adults

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around could.

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explain it or understand it, sometimes

from a limited understanding of what the

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possibilities could be, right?

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So especially, like you said, for girls

and women, the idea of neurodiversity is

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often missed, right?

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Or we come up with other ways of trying to

understand those behaviors and those

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existences.

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I think it...

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I think that's why I'm so passionate about

the fact that I really want us to

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understand and really see kids for who

they are because we have that identity

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formation all the way along, right?

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From the time we're born, we start to

create through all of those different

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child development stages a sense of who

our identity is.

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And if we find out at the age of 15 or the

age of 18 or the age of 20 or 30 or 40 or

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that there's a significant part of our

identity that we didn't know or that

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wasn't acknowledged.

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We have to kind of do some backtracking,

right?

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We kind of have to go through those

identity formation stages again.

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And if you will get to know ourselves from

this new place of truth.

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It's a similar journey when, you know, I'm

working with families around the adoption

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piece and they're saying, you know, we

haven't told our kids they're adopted.

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and they may be teenagers, young adults at

this point.

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And my first thing to say to them is

somewhere in your child's sense of who

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they are, they know that they're adopted.

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They have that in their DNA, right?

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And so I guess my long-winded answer is I

always hope that we can...

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help people understand their truth as soon

as possible so that we don't have people

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trying to re-understand themselves, you

know, 20, 30, 40 years into their lives

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with this new lens.

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And I really wanna repeat again that I

don't think the lens is new to them

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necessarily.

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I think it's this way that society or

that...

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the world has been able to translate them.

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I think people know their truth and they

often get silenced in that truth and

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saying no, that's not who you know the

reason you're acting like this is because

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of this and we come up with other

explanations other than the truth.

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And so understanding neurodiversity being

able to you know

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And this comes to one of your other

questions.

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So I'm going to jump to it.

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And sorry for that, that I'm jumping to

your question, but that idea of labels,

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right?

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Labels can be misused and they can be

things that people use to hurt people that

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belongs to the person trying to hurt a

label that helps us understand and honor.

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I want us to create a world where people

feel honor about having a

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you know, ASD or FASD.

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I don't want people to feel and think that

because I have FASD, that means there's

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something wrong with me.

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I want there to be a world where people

say, I have FASD.

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That's so that you can help understand

better how I experience the world.

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So for me, the difficulty with labels

doesn't come with the label.

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And it doesn't come with the fact that

label explains things.

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It comes with the misinformation, the

difficulty, the hatred sometimes of people

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who are using that label.

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Um, and, uh, yeah, so I don't know if I

answered that question.

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I kind of went on a rampage there.

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I hope I answered your question.

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because...

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Sorry, go ahead, Kitty.

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I feel like for some folks it's really

swung in the opposite direction now that

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we see, you know, autism is a superpower

and I am, for example for myself, I am

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very good at my job in large part because

of the way my brain works, but to say it's

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a superpower is also so...

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it's just as reductive as saying that the

way my brain works is a huge problem

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because

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it does make me very good at some things,

but I don't know that I'm gonna call being

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late either 20 minutes early out of

anxiety or late for basically everything

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ever to really be a superpower, you know,

and that it's just as reductive to see it

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in this toxic positivity kind of way.

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But at the same time

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trying not to cure people of something

that is not wrong with them.

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You know, there's nothing wrong with the

way my brain works, it just doesn't always

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work in a way that is the easiest to deal

with the way that society thinks that it

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should be working.

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But...

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it can be a real...

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it's gone so far in the other direction

too that it's, you know, it's such a

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superpower and that doesn't seem to be

something you hear from anyone who is

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neurodiverse it seems to just be a over

acceptance perhaps from other folks

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And I think we see that often, right,

where the pendulum swings from one extreme

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to the other.

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And I think, you know, when we're talking

about spectrums, I think really what we

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really want to do is honor the whole

spectrum, right, and not one extreme to

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the other.

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Bad, good, superpower, deficit, all of

these extremes, I think are meant to,

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they're meant to divide,

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When in reality, I think it's that piece

of we all have brains, all of our brains

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work differently, and that we need to kind

of challenge the social construction that

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we've come up with around valuing some

brains more than others, or some skills

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more than others, and really see

holistically that all brains have values,

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all people have value, and rather than

trying to divide ourselves.

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So.

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Yeah, I think the pendulum does often

swing, you know, we see that in many in

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many cases And I'm not sure pendulum

swings to either extreme or helpful

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I wonder too how much of that comes from

medicalizing neurodiversity that it's...

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You know, I mean, if you're diabetic,

basically you are diabetic or you're not

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diabetic.

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Like, there's not a lot of spectrum in

there.

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Or you have cancer, you don't have cancer.

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That's a pretty, like, this or that thing

where...

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being neurodiverse is a huge range of all

sorts of things and no two people are

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neurodiverse in the same way, where two

people can be diabetic in more or less the

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same way.

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And so I wonder how much of it is just

that medicine is not a great approach for

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the basics of how brains work.

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from a healthy brain standpoint, I guess.

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And now I'm just totally off, totally off

into...

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Oh well, people know to expect it by now.

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If this is the first episode you've

listened to, apologies, this is basically

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what it's like.

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So now I'm gonna let Arlene ask her

questions so that we can get back on

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track.

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So we've already been talking about labels

and Katie, I don't think you're off base.

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I get where you're coming from.

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So I know that I've heard some people say

they don't wanna label their kids and I

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really love what you're saying about

people knowing who they are, whether or

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not they've gotten that news or diagnosis

or all of the context that they need.

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they understand themselves, but maybe

can't always explain it to other people or

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it doesn't maybe make sense for them in

society potentially, or like you said, the

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way the world sometimes works.

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So some people say they don't wanna seek

diagnosis because then their kid will get

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labeled in that negative sense, right?

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And so they might be concerned that

seeking diagnosis means that they're

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actually limiting their child.

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And I was wondering what your thoughts

were

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testing, diagnosis, that kind of stuff, or

if you feel like your child has some

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differences that maybe you don't

understand and are starting the process of

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looking for support, like where do you

even start and what do you feel has value

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in that process?

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Like how can parents seek the support that

they need, both as parents and for their

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kids to learn how to understand themselves

better?

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So I think that the concept of labels

comes, and it kind of comes back to that

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medicalization piece, where we need the

label to access the service, or most

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services.

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Although I think services are getting

better at not needing labels.

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And I think that it still comes back to

that place of the label itself is not the

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problem.

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in my opinion.

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In my opinion, it is the baggage that

comes along with some of those labels and

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the assumptions and the, you know, the

discourse that comes with some of those

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pieces.

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And I think what we really want is for

children, youth and adults for that matter

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to feel a sense of pride and a sense of

wholeness in who they are.

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So I think, I do think it's individual.

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I think, you know, different kids have

different needs and expectations about

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that.

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Some kids, it really helps them to have

meaning, if you will, externalized

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meaning, to make sense of their behaviors

or their needs, or, you know, why, for

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example, you know, for one of my kids,

they could never walk into a birthday

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party if it had already started.

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They needed to be there first.

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They needed to kind of get grounded.

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They needed to kind of get a sense of the

space before, if you will, all hell broke

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loose, right?

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And the sensory input and the sounds and

the people and the movement and the, and

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when we were able to put meaning to that,

and we put meaning to it from a place of

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saying, this is just how your brain works,

right?

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Your brain needs to

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feel a sense of peace and anchoring in a

new space before you then have to interact

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with tons of other people.

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Your brain just likes a chance to, you

know, kind of chill for a little bit.

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And for you to walk into a room that's

already all happening, your brain then

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doesn't get the chance it needs to settle

to then be the best that it can be.

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So.

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Being able to provide meaning to that,

whether or not we use the label or not, I

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think it's the meaning making that makes

the difference.

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I think the labels, unfortunately,

fortunately, I think there's a debate on

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both sides, the labels are what help us

access the services, right?

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So they help us access the funding.

449

00:33:00,969 --> 00:33:05,472

They help us access, you know, whether

it's respite services or speech services

450

00:33:05,472 --> 00:33:07,913

or without the label.

451

00:33:08,118 --> 00:33:13,080

you're not going to easily access some of

those funding services or even services in

452

00:33:13,080 --> 00:33:18,984

the education system right around like in

the Ontario system that IEP IPRC process

453

00:33:19,164 --> 00:33:26,388

of being able to be noted with, you know,

having exceptionalities, which is a word I

454

00:33:26,388 --> 00:33:28,149

have a problem with as well.

455

00:33:28,970 --> 00:33:33,893

I think, you know, realistically, and not

that I have the power to change the

456

00:33:33,893 --> 00:33:35,573

system, but if I did.

457

00:33:35,590 --> 00:33:39,231

I would love every student to have an IEP.

458

00:33:39,231 --> 00:33:45,632

I would love the IEP process to be a

process attached to student wellness and

459

00:33:45,632 --> 00:33:51,954

student learning and success for every

student, not just students who are seen as

460

00:33:51,954 --> 00:33:53,554

having exceptionalities.

461

00:33:53,554 --> 00:33:58,096

So that's why I continue to do the

advocacy work I do so that I can change

462

00:33:58,096 --> 00:34:01,416

the system so that every child can get an

IEP.

463

00:34:02,277 --> 00:34:05,350

Until then, you know.

464

00:34:05,350 --> 00:34:11,334

having those labels per se, those

diagnoses, make the journey easier to get

465

00:34:11,334 --> 00:34:20,079

some of those things that make the playing

field equal.

466

00:34:20,740 --> 00:34:27,645

So, you know, for, like I said, for one of

my kids, where sensory issues are really

467

00:34:27,645 --> 00:34:29,165

significant,

468

00:34:29,666 --> 00:34:34,069

for them to walk into a classroom of 30

kids is huge for them.

469

00:34:34,069 --> 00:34:36,550

It takes so much energy.

470

00:34:36,891 --> 00:34:40,974

And the child beside them, whose brain

doesn't work like that, they don't have to

471

00:34:40,974 --> 00:34:45,116

use any of their brain power to walk into

that classroom, right?

472

00:34:45,237 --> 00:34:49,419

It doesn't mean that child's brain is

better than this child's brain.

473

00:34:49,419 --> 00:34:53,522

It means we have two brains who process

environment and information differently.

474

00:34:53,522 --> 00:34:55,223

That's all it means.

475

00:34:55,664 --> 00:34:57,986

And because the environment

476

00:34:57,986 --> 00:35:04,115

that we're asking a child to be in is a

room full of 30 other people, we need to

477

00:35:04,115 --> 00:35:07,040

adapt that environment for that brain to

work.

478

00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:13,049

If the environment that we constructed is

a room with three other people.

479

00:35:13,450 --> 00:35:16,651

we wouldn't need to adapt the environment

for the brain, right?

480

00:35:16,651 --> 00:35:22,013

So it all comes down to the fact that it's

not about individual people's brains and

481

00:35:22,013 --> 00:35:27,055

their neurodiversity per se, it's about

the systems and the way we've created

482

00:35:27,055 --> 00:35:32,537

environments that adaptations need to be

made because of the way that the systems

483

00:35:32,537 --> 00:35:32,938

are there.

484

00:35:32,938 --> 00:35:40,121

So the labels help access service, they

help with the advocacy, they help with the

485

00:35:40,121 --> 00:35:42,781

shared language sometimes.

486

00:35:43,374 --> 00:35:49,339

Um, there's still room for people, you

know, as you said earlier, right?

487

00:35:49,339 --> 00:35:52,842

Not one person with neurodiversity

presents in the same way.

488

00:35:52,842 --> 00:35:57,386

Neurodiversity is neurodiverse, diverse,

right?

489

00:35:57,386 --> 00:36:06,114

And so a label of ASD or a label of FASD

gives you, you know, a sense of a, of a

490

00:36:06,114 --> 00:36:08,556

community of realities.

491

00:36:08,556 --> 00:36:10,697

It does not tell you.

492

00:36:10,754 --> 00:36:14,676

who child A is because they have FASD.

493

00:36:14,676 --> 00:36:22,121

It gives you a sense of child A may have,

you know, a menu of 500 different

494

00:36:22,121 --> 00:36:28,885

realities from child B and you as the

adult in that system, whether you are the

495

00:36:28,885 --> 00:36:35,889

parent, the teacher, the coach, the

doctor, need to then step up.

496

00:36:36,294 --> 00:36:43,739

and be able to be curious about what does

FASD look like for this particular child

497

00:36:43,739 --> 00:36:45,580

right now.

498

00:36:45,580 --> 00:36:51,184

And know enough about neurodiversity to

know that doesn't mean that might not be

499

00:36:51,184 --> 00:36:58,609

who that child presents and is tomorrow

based on, you know, the environment, based

500

00:36:58,609 --> 00:37:02,872

on how well they slept last night, based

on, you know, if they have some trauma

501

00:37:02,872 --> 00:37:04,813

triggers about something, right?

502

00:37:05,714 --> 00:37:14,117

So I think the labels help to cue or

should help to cue other people that

503

00:37:14,117 --> 00:37:21,140

there's a need for curiosity from a place

of kindness and care, not curiosity from a

504

00:37:21,140 --> 00:37:30,545

place of hatred or gawking or like that

negative curiosity, but a place of

505

00:37:30,545 --> 00:37:32,585

curiosity be able to say

506

00:37:33,150 --> 00:37:38,177

I need to really, I need to work hard to

know who you are, not because of the

507

00:37:38,177 --> 00:37:42,644

label, but I need to work hard to know who

you are because you're another human being

508

00:37:42,644 --> 00:37:44,747

and I should be doing that with everybody.

509

00:37:44,747 --> 00:37:49,173

The label just helps me to cue that I need

to do this a little differently possibly.

510

00:37:50,499 --> 00:37:59,546

Karen, I love that idea of all children

having IEPs or even all people just having

511

00:37:59,546 --> 00:38:08,153

some sort of individual human program

where we would just have this because kids

512

00:38:08,153 --> 00:38:09,855

can be a pain in the ass.

513

00:38:09,855 --> 00:38:11,476

All humans can be a pain in the ass.

514

00:38:11,476 --> 00:38:13,197

That's just the way they are.

515

00:38:13,538 --> 00:38:19,082

But if it gives somebody a heads up that

maybe my kid or myself has...

516

00:38:19,911 --> 00:38:25,376

a reason for being difficult that isn't

just that there are pain in the ass, that

517

00:38:25,376 --> 00:38:31,702

maybe that clock ticking is legitimately

impacting whether my kid can listen to

518

00:38:31,702 --> 00:38:39,549

something, or whether I myself can listen

to something, and how much that is

519

00:38:39,549 --> 00:38:43,092

informed by what we're interacting with.

520

00:38:43,673 --> 00:38:45,094

I work in software.

521

00:38:45,315 --> 00:38:50,937

Probably half of my coworkers are

neurodiverse if we really got down to it.

522

00:38:50,937 --> 00:38:52,157

I work remotely.

523

00:38:53,558 --> 00:38:59,261

For me, having a diagnosis of every part

of how my brain works really doesn't

524

00:38:59,261 --> 00:39:04,123

matter because I'm in control of my own

life and nobody cares.

525

00:39:04,504 --> 00:39:10,626

But for my five-year-old, you know, where

the risk of them being labeled is

526

00:39:10,935 --> 00:39:18,140

difficult or non-compliant or doesn't work

up to expectations or whatever else can be

527

00:39:19,022 --> 00:39:28,610

very different But I'm wondering as in

your diverse adult How do I know if my kid

528

00:39:28,610 --> 00:39:29,410

needs?

529

00:39:31,811 --> 00:39:38,733

more exploration of how their brain works

or if they're just weird?

530

00:39:38,733 --> 00:39:40,053

Does that make sense?

531

00:39:40,994 --> 00:39:46,916

My one kid is very focused on their

interests and does not like loud noises

532

00:39:46,916 --> 00:39:52,358

and does not like flashing lights and all

this, but how do I know if this is...

533

00:39:52,923 --> 00:39:58,108

something that needs more understanding

and support or if I just say, yeah, my kid

534

00:39:58,108 --> 00:39:59,670

doesn't like loud noises.

535

00:39:59,670 --> 00:40:03,313

And does it matter one way or the other, I

guess.

536

00:40:04,566 --> 00:40:07,727

I think it's a great question and I think

it's a question that parents ask

537

00:40:07,727 --> 00:40:12,429

themselves all the time, right, around do

we need to go further with this?

538

00:40:12,429 --> 00:40:14,570

Do we need to get some help with this?

539

00:40:14,570 --> 00:40:15,970

Do we not need to?

540

00:40:16,871 --> 00:40:21,793

And I think there's no right answer, but I

think the place where I land on this often

541

00:40:21,793 --> 00:40:29,576

is a place of are these pieces of them

interacting in their ability to lead the

542

00:40:29,576 --> 00:40:32,277

best life they can lead?

543

00:40:32,277 --> 00:40:34,082

And if they are...

544

00:40:34,082 --> 00:40:38,865

then I lean to the point of maybe we need

to get some more information here to see

545

00:40:38,865 --> 00:40:43,508

if we can minimize the difficulty this is

having on their lives.

546

00:40:44,228 --> 00:40:48,952

If it's not, then I'm like, I got no

problem here to solve, right?

547

00:40:48,952 --> 00:40:53,374

Like, yeah, loud noises really bother

them, okay?

548

00:40:54,596 --> 00:40:58,358

And, you know, I personally don't like

549

00:41:03,242 --> 00:41:06,803

I'm not saying it to minimize the impact

of the loud noises.

550

00:41:06,803 --> 00:41:13,707

I'm saying it as a way of saying that we

all have things that we don't like, that

551

00:41:13,707 --> 00:41:18,710

are difficult, and we need to make some

decisions about whether those difficulties

552

00:41:18,710 --> 00:41:23,312

impact our life to a point where they're

affecting our ability to live our best

553

00:41:23,312 --> 00:41:28,015

lives, beyond our ability to problem solve

it.

554

00:41:28,375 --> 00:41:33,117

So I will use my ridiculous example of not

liking corn.

555

00:41:33,166 --> 00:41:37,707

to, you know, I can use my skills to

manage that, right?

556

00:41:37,707 --> 00:41:39,487

In a restaurant, I don't order corn.

557

00:41:39,487 --> 00:41:41,628

I don't buy it at the grocery store.

558

00:41:41,628 --> 00:41:45,509

If I'm at a friend's house and they serve

it, I eat what else is on the plate.

559

00:41:45,509 --> 00:41:48,030

I can use my skillset.

560

00:41:48,310 --> 00:41:56,133

I can use the ability I have to problem

solve to minimize that need, that impact

561

00:41:56,133 --> 00:41:58,613

on my life, right?

562

00:41:58,613 --> 00:41:59,313

If...

563

00:41:59,338 --> 00:42:04,240

you know, my friend, you know, were to say

to me, every time I serve you food, you

564

00:42:04,240 --> 00:42:04,880

don't eat it.

565

00:42:04,880 --> 00:42:06,481

And it's really upsetting me.

566

00:42:06,481 --> 00:42:09,463

And, you know, I'm taking it personally.

567

00:42:09,463 --> 00:42:11,984

And I don't think you're a very good

friend.

568

00:42:12,164 --> 00:42:16,826

And I don't know how to problem solve that

and manage that and have that conversation

569

00:42:16,826 --> 00:42:18,868

with her to say it's not about your

cooking.

570

00:42:18,868 --> 00:42:20,848

It's that I don't like corn.

571

00:42:21,629 --> 00:42:22,982

Then maybe

572

00:42:22,982 --> 00:42:26,644

I need to be looking at how I can come up

with some different strategies, some

573

00:42:26,644 --> 00:42:29,486

different ways of doing it, because it is

impacting my life.

574

00:42:29,486 --> 00:42:34,950

That analogy of the corn was really bad,

but it, I went with it because I started

575

00:42:34,950 --> 00:42:42,715

and I couldn't stop, but it really is, you

know, does, does the need outweigh the

576

00:42:42,715 --> 00:42:47,799

ability to feel like you're living your

best life and you can't use the skills or

577

00:42:47,799 --> 00:42:52,098

the resources that you have to mitigate

any negative impact.

578

00:42:52,098 --> 00:42:53,439

that it may have.

579

00:42:53,971 --> 00:42:58,414

think that's a really good analogy

honestly as someone who, and I

580

00:42:58,414 --> 00:43:03,278

legitimately know that this has come to a

shock to a number of people who know my

581

00:43:03,278 --> 00:43:04,399

daughter now.

582

00:43:06,101 --> 00:43:10,324

When she was about two and a half, I

pushed hard for early intervention for

583

00:43:10,324 --> 00:43:13,046

speech services because she had five

words.

584

00:43:13,471 --> 00:43:13,639

Mm.

585

00:43:13,639 --> 00:43:19,941

and she was so frustrated and so angry and

the rest of the family was so frustrated

586

00:43:19,941 --> 00:43:25,964

and so angry because she had so much to

communicate and no skills to do so and

587

00:43:25,964 --> 00:43:32,186

that was a huge problem and I ran into her

speech therapist recently and asked if

588

00:43:32,186 --> 00:43:37,849

perhaps there was some sort of money-back

guarantee because she now literally talks

589

00:43:37,849 --> 00:43:41,390

in her sleep, talks all the time, never

590

00:43:42,670 --> 00:43:44,439

She's using all of those words.

591

00:43:44,439 --> 00:43:45,759

of frustration...

592

00:43:47,000 --> 00:43:49,541

Oh yes, at length and repeatedly.

593

00:43:49,641 --> 00:43:51,602

I don't know how in our family.

594

00:43:51,602 --> 00:43:54,463

I mean, nobody else is talkative at all.

595

00:43:55,984 --> 00:44:02,547

But then looking at our son, who is quite

bothered by loud noises, but it has to be

596

00:44:03,168 --> 00:44:05,289

really loud before it's a problem.

597

00:44:05,289 --> 00:44:08,010

So maybe it's just that he doesn't like

loud noises.

598

00:44:08,010 --> 00:44:09,430

And if it's not...

599

00:44:10,403 --> 00:44:12,545

really impacting his day-to-day life.

600

00:44:12,545 --> 00:44:18,430

You know, I mean, not liking corn is not

going to cost you job opportunities

601

00:44:18,430 --> 00:44:22,833

probably, except like professional corn

eating, I guess.

602

00:44:23,154 --> 00:44:26,898

You know, it's not probably really

impacting your social life.

603

00:44:26,898 --> 00:44:32,202

It's not probably really messing with your

head.

604

00:44:32,202 --> 00:44:37,046

You know, it's not a real problem.

605

00:44:37,395 --> 00:44:41,656

So you know, if my kid doesn't like loud

noises, but it has to be at...

606

00:44:41,737 --> 00:44:45,358

took him to the circus this weekend and he

wasn't super stoked about it because it

607

00:44:45,358 --> 00:44:52,162

was very loud and very flashing lights and

a lot of people, that's not a thing he's

608

00:44:52,162 --> 00:44:53,822

going to run into on a daily basis.

609

00:44:53,822 --> 00:44:58,185

So if it's not impacting him on a regular

basis, then hand the kid a pair of

610

00:44:58,185 --> 00:45:01,859

earplugs and don't worry about it.

611

00:45:01,859 --> 00:45:02,900

mitigate it.

612

00:45:02,900 --> 00:45:03,461

Yeah.

613

00:45:03,461 --> 00:45:08,245

I think, I think that, you know, it can

get to a place though, where, you know,

614

00:45:08,245 --> 00:45:12,689

the, the not liking corn, if I have a

visceral reaction, right?

615

00:45:12,689 --> 00:45:18,374

When I see corn on the plate and it causes

me to have anxiety and it causes me to,

616

00:45:18,374 --> 00:45:19,415

how am I going to manage this?

617

00:45:19,415 --> 00:45:20,456

I don't know how to manage this.

618

00:45:20,456 --> 00:45:21,717

I don't know what I'm going to say.

619

00:45:21,717 --> 00:45:23,578

They're going to be upset with me.

620

00:45:23,578 --> 00:45:26,641

You know, then corn could be an issue,

right?

621

00:45:26,641 --> 00:45:27,221

Or

622

00:45:27,238 --> 00:45:31,539

I avoid going to certain places because

I'm afraid that corn is going to be on the

623

00:45:31,539 --> 00:45:38,901

menu or I start to look in an obsessive

kind of way at the ingredient list of

624

00:45:38,901 --> 00:45:43,483

everything to see if corn is, even if it's

illogical that corn would be in the

625

00:45:43,483 --> 00:45:44,603

ingredient list.

626

00:45:44,603 --> 00:45:51,766

So I think it can get to that place where

it could be this simple kind of piece that

627

00:45:51,766 --> 00:45:55,027

then manifests into a difficulty.

628

00:45:55,027 --> 00:45:57,089

And I guess that's what I'm talking about,

right?

629

00:45:57,089 --> 00:46:01,651

Is anything can be and anything can't be.

630

00:46:01,651 --> 00:46:08,675

And I think you need the context and you

need to really be able to balance that

631

00:46:08,675 --> 00:46:12,452

with the resources that someone has to

mitigate.

632

00:46:12,452 --> 00:46:14,537

Sorry, I was just gonna say your example

about...

633

00:46:14,639 --> 00:46:17,001

that today I can manage it.

634

00:46:17,001 --> 00:46:21,485

Maybe six months from now it becomes a

bigger issue and I need to move into a

635

00:46:21,485 --> 00:46:26,939

different way of looking at getting some

assessment or getting some intervention.

636

00:46:26,939 --> 00:46:31,640

the way our house was for a while a child

who maybe has some struggles you can

637

00:46:31,640 --> 00:46:36,422

manage well at home but then once they

enter the school system it gets to the

638

00:46:36,422 --> 00:46:42,083

point where they if they can't self

advocate and it's impacting them both

639

00:46:42,083 --> 00:46:46,684

socially it's impacting their teachers and

their classmates that depending on their

640

00:46:46,684 --> 00:46:50,838

age and stage there might be resources

that you need now that

641

00:46:50,838 --> 00:46:54,880

you didn't need six months ago, or that

you won't need six years from now or a

642

00:46:54,880 --> 00:46:58,603

year from now, but there could be points

along the journey where you do need

643

00:46:58,603 --> 00:47:03,386

support because there are going to be

things that are unavoidable, or that you

644

00:47:03,386 --> 00:47:08,850

need them to access those services or do

those particular things that it's beyond

645

00:47:08,850 --> 00:47:13,993

your ability to mitigate the things that

they can't handle or that they're

646

00:47:13,993 --> 00:47:15,294

struggling with.

647

00:47:15,634 --> 00:47:20,537

So that piece of what's okay in some

contexts.

648

00:47:21,026 --> 00:47:26,972

when things change, then maybe you do have

to seek support or look for services or

649

00:47:26,972 --> 00:47:32,838

figure out what the underlying issue is

and then see what you can do to help them

650

00:47:32,838 --> 00:47:36,200

in those specific times or places even.

651

00:47:39,197 --> 00:47:39,902

Mm-hmm.

652

00:47:48,510 --> 00:47:53,051

And a lot of times I hear from families

that, you know, kids will hold it together

653

00:47:53,051 --> 00:47:54,212

at school.

654

00:47:54,372 --> 00:47:56,813

And when they come home, all hell breaks

loose.

655

00:47:56,813 --> 00:47:59,634

Like they've held it together all day.

656

00:47:59,634 --> 00:48:01,955

It's been really hard for them.

657

00:48:01,955 --> 00:48:05,997

But when you talk to their teachers or

their peer group, it's like, oh no,

658

00:48:05,997 --> 00:48:07,538

they're doing just fine.

659

00:48:07,538 --> 00:48:09,318

On the outside, they're doing just fine.

660

00:48:09,318 --> 00:48:14,360

On the inside, they're working so, so hard

to give the illusion that they're doing

661

00:48:14,360 --> 00:48:15,661

just fine.

662

00:48:15,661 --> 00:48:17,441

That when they get home.

663

00:48:17,474 --> 00:48:22,818

home life for the next hour, two hours,

four hours, six hours is extremely

664

00:48:22,818 --> 00:48:23,979

difficult.

665

00:48:24,099 --> 00:48:30,445

And it's hard because the cause of the

distress was something that you don't have

666

00:48:30,445 --> 00:48:32,486

control over and it's hard for you to

mitigate.

667

00:48:32,486 --> 00:48:39,052

So you're dealing with the outcome of the

distress, but not necessarily being able

668

00:48:39,052 --> 00:48:40,693

to change the cause of it.

669

00:48:40,693 --> 00:48:46,037

So oftentimes I'll have families coming

looking for support.

670

00:48:46,602 --> 00:48:50,545

and saying, you know, people think I'm

crazy because the teachers say, you know,

671

00:48:50,545 --> 00:48:51,986

they're doing such a great job.

672

00:48:51,986 --> 00:48:54,887

And when they go to grandma's house,

they're doing such a great job.

673

00:48:54,887 --> 00:48:58,250

And when they go to their friend's house,

they're doing such a great job and great

674

00:48:58,250 --> 00:48:59,190

job.

675

00:48:59,210 --> 00:49:05,335

And, you know, and the only people who are

seeing the struggles are, you know,

676

00:49:05,335 --> 00:49:06,935

parents at home.

677

00:49:07,216 --> 00:49:11,339

And those, the parents are coming and

saying, are we doing something wrong?

678

00:49:11,339 --> 00:49:16,102

Because how are they holding it together

in all of these other environments?

679

00:49:16,150 --> 00:49:25,057

But then with us, we're seeing behavior,

we're having outbursts, and oftentimes

680

00:49:25,057 --> 00:49:31,161

that's the explanation of that is that

home is the safe place for them to be able

681

00:49:31,161 --> 00:49:36,606

to then expel all of the energy they've

had to hold in, in those places where

682

00:49:36,606 --> 00:49:40,068

they've had to work really, really hard,

even though they haven't been doing as

683

00:49:40,068 --> 00:49:42,089

well as it looks like they've been doing.

684

00:49:44,179 --> 00:49:51,501

I guess the thing I wanted to add to that

as someone who is neurodiverse and dealing

685

00:49:51,501 --> 00:49:57,823

with that is that the problem doesn't have

to make any sense to anyone else for it to

686

00:49:57,823 --> 00:49:59,684

be a legitimate problem.

687

00:50:00,544 --> 00:50:07,526

If corn has become an obsessive issue that

is causing you...

688

00:50:08,243 --> 00:50:13,346

real problems, it doesn't make any

difference whether I think it's ridiculous

689

00:50:13,346 --> 00:50:13,947

or not.

690

00:50:13,947 --> 00:50:17,749

It needs to be treated as a real thing.

691

00:50:19,211 --> 00:50:24,435

I didn't realize until I was 40 that other

people don't experience things as

692

00:50:24,435 --> 00:50:27,417

physically painful when they're

bothersome.

693

00:50:27,698 --> 00:50:32,601

That we're not talking about, you know, oh

I don't really like that light that we're

694

00:50:32,601 --> 00:50:34,022

talking about, you know.

695

00:50:34,307 --> 00:50:38,971

physical and emotional actual distress,

and that if something is causing distress,

696

00:50:38,971 --> 00:50:42,314

it does not matter if it makes any sense

to anyone else.

697

00:50:42,314 --> 00:50:49,001

You know, that it needs to be treated and

respected in the same way as you would

698

00:50:49,001 --> 00:50:54,485

presumably, you know, deal with a physical

injury to your child.

699

00:50:55,026 --> 00:50:58,450

That if it is causing them distress, you

would deal with it, because that's what we

700

00:50:58,450 --> 00:50:59,090

do.

701

00:51:01,086 --> 00:51:05,989

And sometimes it's even, even the person

themselves can't put meaning to it, they

702

00:51:05,989 --> 00:51:07,670

just know, right?

703

00:51:07,670 --> 00:51:13,314

And so sometimes we get caught in this

cycle of trying to have them explain, tell

704

00:51:13,314 --> 00:51:14,195

me what's going on.

705

00:51:14,195 --> 00:51:19,839

What's it, and they can't put words

through it, all they can say, ah, right?

706

00:51:19,839 --> 00:51:25,683

Like it's just this, it's just yuck, and I

can't tell you why, and I can't put

707

00:51:25,683 --> 00:51:29,145

meaning to it, and I can't make this a

cognitive process.

708

00:51:29,170 --> 00:51:34,731

I can just tell you that this really, this

causes me pain or discomfort or it just

709

00:51:34,731 --> 00:51:42,593

feels horrendous and oftentimes we're

looking for meaning so that we can try and

710

00:51:42,593 --> 00:51:48,175

come up with solutions when sometimes what

we just need to do is bear witness to it

711

00:51:48,175 --> 00:51:54,857

and be there and have empathy and really

help to be in relationship at the time to

712

00:51:54,857 --> 00:51:57,654

help somebody work it through because

it's...

713

00:51:57,654 --> 00:52:02,020

that discomforting and it's just really

hard and that's what they need at the

714

00:52:02,020 --> 00:52:02,841

time.

715

00:52:03,863 --> 00:52:08,349

So sometimes the answers aren't there and

we have to be okay with that.

716

00:52:09,075 --> 00:52:14,439

I think that's such a great point because

I think, you know, somebody breaks a bone,

717

00:52:14,439 --> 00:52:18,662

we don't expect them to explain to us what

pain is.

718

00:52:18,782 --> 00:52:24,047

And there's things that are universally

bothersome and distracting to such a

719

00:52:24,047 --> 00:52:24,727

degree.

720

00:52:24,727 --> 00:52:31,432

I don't know anyone who wouldn't be

distracted by mosquitoes in their ears or

721

00:52:31,633 --> 00:52:33,875

a fire alarm randomly going off.

722

00:52:33,875 --> 00:52:39,038

You know, it's pretty expected that those

things are bothersome.

723

00:52:40,143 --> 00:52:46,825

And we don't expect people to justify

being bothered by those things, or justify

724

00:52:46,825 --> 00:52:48,445

being in physical pain.

725

00:52:48,545 --> 00:52:56,908

And, you know, I think we can just

understand that we don't have to

726

00:52:56,908 --> 00:52:58,909

understand what is causing a problem.

727

00:52:58,909 --> 00:53:02,530

You know, we can just deal with the

results of it.

728

00:53:03,662 --> 00:53:09,025

the services don't always exist that we

might need or we're sometimes more

729

00:53:09,025 --> 00:53:11,687

interconnected than other people.

730

00:53:11,687 --> 00:53:17,810

We kind of have to live in community and I

mean, we get to live in community, but how

731

00:53:17,810 --> 00:53:23,533

can we support other families and other

parents adapt and be supportive?

732

00:53:24,710 --> 00:53:29,773

a lot of, especially with people who are

still trying to, in our communities, who

733

00:53:29,773 --> 00:53:33,716

are, who might be struggling, because

we're talking about a lot of the positive

734

00:53:33,716 --> 00:53:37,839

aspects and being able to figure out

what's going on in their families.

735

00:53:37,839 --> 00:53:42,522

They can go through times where they are

really struggling and feel, maybe feel

736

00:53:42,522 --> 00:53:48,226

judged or can't access the services that

they need and are then feeling really

737

00:53:48,226 --> 00:53:48,706

alone.

738

00:53:48,706 --> 00:53:53,489

So how can we be more supportive in our

communities of people who are struggling?

739

00:54:06,990 --> 00:54:10,432

I feel like that's a pretty loaded

question because there's so many layers

740

00:54:10,432 --> 00:54:11,253

there.

741

00:54:11,633 --> 00:54:15,396

Because you're right, there's not enough

service and the service that there is,

742

00:54:15,396 --> 00:54:20,060

there's often a wait list and you know,

like there's lots of barriers sometimes to

743

00:54:20,060 --> 00:54:21,641

accessing service.

744

00:54:21,802 --> 00:54:27,406

I think some of what we can do is we can

look to kind of non-traditional places to

745

00:54:27,406 --> 00:54:29,308

provide support, right?

746

00:54:29,308 --> 00:54:31,958

So I think about, you know...

747

00:54:31,958 --> 00:54:37,142

the parent in the grocery store with the

child who is having a meltdown about

748

00:54:37,142 --> 00:54:38,143

something.

749

00:54:38,523 --> 00:54:44,529

And I think about how much difference we

might be able to make as we walk by them

750

00:54:44,529 --> 00:54:48,732

if we just say to them something like, I

see you and you're doing a good job.

751

00:54:48,732 --> 00:54:51,254

And we just keep walking, right?

752

00:54:51,375 --> 00:54:57,160

Because I don't know about you, but I've

certainly had the experience more times

753

00:54:57,160 --> 00:54:59,221

than I want to remember.

754

00:54:59,550 --> 00:55:05,654

of having to try and manage and mitigate,

you know, difficult behavior in front of

755

00:55:05,654 --> 00:55:07,335

other people.

756

00:55:07,335 --> 00:55:12,779

And one of the first places I go as a

parent, as a member of the community is

757

00:55:12,779 --> 00:55:13,800

shame, right?

758

00:55:13,800 --> 00:55:18,243

Like I'm embarrassed, I don't, you know,

and I give myself a lot of negative

759

00:55:18,243 --> 00:55:24,447

self-talk of, oh, you know, and I may not

be necessarily using all of my skills or

760

00:55:24,447 --> 00:55:27,216

all of the, you know, the things I have

at...

761

00:55:27,216 --> 00:55:29,079

get to the car and then you can do this

there.

762

00:55:29,079 --> 00:55:30,700

want it to stop, right?

763

00:55:30,700 --> 00:55:33,122

Like, you know, please, can we just stop?

764

00:55:33,122 --> 00:55:37,526

Can we just get to the, you know, like get

me out of here.

765

00:55:37,987 --> 00:55:41,289

Yeah, yeah, exactly, exactly.

766

00:55:41,289 --> 00:55:45,793

And you know, I may have, you know, bribed

with chocolate bars, anything to just make

767

00:55:45,793 --> 00:55:47,374

it stop, right?

768

00:55:47,995 --> 00:55:52,479

So, and the difference that it could make

when you can just see that knowing look

769

00:55:52,479 --> 00:55:55,466

from someone that's not judgmental,

because that's your worry.

770

00:55:55,466 --> 00:56:00,109

right is that people are judging and

thinking you're sometimes somehow doing

771

00:56:00,109 --> 00:56:07,053

something wrong when all kids have temper

tantrums, all adults have temper tantrums

772

00:56:07,053 --> 00:56:07,674

for that matter.

773

00:56:07,674 --> 00:56:10,496

Like, let's be honest here, all human

beings do.

774

00:56:10,496 --> 00:56:19,282

And so why do we not see that we have such

power as community to just give that pat

775

00:56:19,282 --> 00:56:24,365

on the back or that you got this mom or,

you know, the statement of, you know,

776

00:56:25,202 --> 00:56:29,325

you know, way to go dad, you're working

hard, or even just a look, right?

777

00:56:29,325 --> 00:56:32,728

An eye to eye contact that says you're not

alone, right?

778

00:56:32,728 --> 00:56:34,850

I think we can do those sorts of things.

779

00:56:34,850 --> 00:56:44,218

I think we can think about ways that, you

know, we can encourage connection in our

780

00:56:44,218 --> 00:56:45,039

community, right?

781

00:56:45,039 --> 00:56:49,343

So some of the initiatives around, you

know, the benches on the schoolyard so

782

00:56:49,343 --> 00:56:52,765

that kids can, if they're feeling alone,

they can.

783

00:56:52,830 --> 00:56:57,412

sit on the bench and not in a way of

feeling excluded, but in a way of

784

00:56:57,412 --> 00:57:02,615

normalizing to say, I'm feeling alone and

I would like a friend.

785

00:57:02,615 --> 00:57:04,656

And it's not a shameful journey.

786

00:57:04,656 --> 00:57:07,638

And it's not a journey of, oh, let's feel

sorry for that child.

787

00:57:07,638 --> 00:57:14,742

It's a journey of, it's okay to express a

need and for that need to be acknowledged

788

00:57:14,742 --> 00:57:16,182

as a valuable need.

789

00:57:16,182 --> 00:57:22,445

And I have, you know, as a kindergarten

age kid, I have the power

790

00:57:22,606 --> 00:57:26,687

to change that trajectory for that friend

of mine today.

791

00:57:26,687 --> 00:57:30,708

They're lonely and I have the ability to

play with them, right?

792

00:57:30,748 --> 00:57:35,649

So I think being able to do those sorts of

things, I think being able to ensure that

793

00:57:35,649 --> 00:57:40,011

we have information available in ways that

people can access it.

794

00:57:40,011 --> 00:57:46,012

They used to work in the violence against

women community and we would often leave

795

00:57:46,012 --> 00:57:50,033

information taped to the back of the

bathroom stall doors.

796

00:57:50,230 --> 00:57:55,412

so that people can read it in a way that

they don't necessarily feel.

797

00:57:55,492 --> 00:58:00,395

Because there can be, people can feel

embarrassed or shameful, and they

798

00:58:00,395 --> 00:58:01,375

shouldn't.

799

00:58:01,576 --> 00:58:05,498

They shouldn't have to feel that, but they

do because of some of the structures that

800

00:58:05,498 --> 00:58:06,779

are still in place.

801

00:58:06,779 --> 00:58:11,421

So, especially in rural and small

communities, you may not wanna ask your

802

00:58:11,421 --> 00:58:17,724

neighbor for help because your neighbor is

also the person, your life is well

803

00:58:17,885 --> 00:58:19,486

intertwined with each other.

804

00:58:19,486 --> 00:58:19,746

right?

805

00:58:19,746 --> 00:58:25,049

And so if you want to have some of that

privacy, thinking about ways that we can

806

00:58:25,049 --> 00:58:30,053

provide information that's accessible, but

private at the same time.

807

00:58:30,053 --> 00:58:37,078

You know, I think also one of the one of

the groups that I'm a part of is the rural

808

00:58:37,078 --> 00:58:38,279

FASD network.

809

00:58:38,279 --> 00:58:43,683

And it was it's a network that's been

started by parents.

810

00:58:43,683 --> 00:58:48,098

And it came from a place of saying, we

don't have what we need.

811

00:58:48,098 --> 00:58:54,441

for our kids and for us, and the agencies

aren't doing it, we're gonna do it.

812

00:58:54,441 --> 00:59:03,746

And it's one of the most amazing sources

of information and support and empowerment

813

00:59:03,746 --> 00:59:07,788

that I know as a professional and as a

parent.

814

00:59:07,788 --> 00:59:12,091

So thinking about how can I make the

difference in someone else's life?

815

00:59:12,091 --> 00:59:16,333

Maybe, for example, I don't have a child

with Down syndrome.

816

00:59:16,393 --> 00:59:17,633

What could I do?

817

00:59:17,806 --> 00:59:21,427

that could make a difference for a family

in the community that does have a child

818

00:59:21,427 --> 00:59:22,288

with Down syndrome.

819

00:59:22,288 --> 00:59:27,870

I don't have to walk the journey to be

able to use my individual power in the

820

00:59:27,870 --> 00:59:29,631

community to make a difference for others.

821

00:59:29,631 --> 00:59:35,654

So having awareness, thinking about

opportunities that I can have to make a

822

00:59:35,654 --> 00:59:40,536

difference, and recognizing that no effort

is too small, right?

823

00:59:40,536 --> 00:59:43,917

Because if 20 of us do a really small

thing,

824

00:59:44,038 --> 00:59:46,719

it can make a huge difference.

825

00:59:46,719 --> 00:59:56,223

And like I said, even those looks in the

grocery store, even those at the community

826

00:59:56,223 --> 01:00:01,846

meeting, if you know that a parent is

really struggling going up to them and

827

01:00:01,846 --> 01:00:04,007

saying, you know what, you're doing a

great job.

828

01:00:04,007 --> 01:00:05,847

I just want you to know you're doing a

great job.

829

01:00:05,847 --> 01:00:09,689

Or I just want you to know I notice you

and I notice you in a really, in a

830

01:00:09,689 --> 01:00:10,949

positive way.

831

01:00:11,526 --> 01:00:17,090

You know, being able to do those little

acts of kindness to be able to help people

832

01:00:17,090 --> 01:00:24,416

feel like they belong and they belong in a

way that isn't shameful or isn't something

833

01:00:24,416 --> 01:00:28,759

that they need to be worried about, I

think can make a huge difference while

834

01:00:28,759 --> 01:00:33,683

we're still working hard to advocate for a

system and social change, right?

835

01:00:33,683 --> 01:00:36,345

I mean, we have to do that big piece as

well.

836

01:00:37,046 --> 01:00:41,550

But those individual interactions

relationally can make a huge difference in

837

01:00:41,550 --> 01:00:46,935

the journey of a parent who is his

parenting a child who is making, sometimes

838

01:00:46,935 --> 01:00:48,156

makes the journey hard.

839

01:00:48,156 --> 01:00:49,898

Sometimes it's exhausting.

840

01:00:49,898 --> 01:00:54,162

Sometimes you feel like you're all alone

and you're doing it all wrong.

841

01:00:54,162 --> 01:01:00,989

And having the person in front of you, Tim

Horton's buying you a coffee, they have no

842

01:01:00,989 --> 01:01:01,889

idea.

843

01:01:02,154 --> 01:01:04,096

much difference they just made in your

life.

844

01:01:04,096 --> 01:01:08,020

Like you can do simple things like that

too if you have the economic means to do

845

01:01:08,020 --> 01:01:13,787

that or you know those simple things can

make a huge difference.

846

01:01:13,787 --> 01:01:15,916

Like I said while we're still trying to

change the world.

847

01:01:15,916 --> 01:01:17,877

with them for years.

848

01:01:17,877 --> 01:01:20,679

And to that one person, that did mean the

world, right?

849

01:01:20,679 --> 01:01:23,241

So that's really important to remember.

850

01:01:24,562 --> 01:01:30,226

I know as our children grow up, the ways

that, you know, kind of the educational

851

01:01:30,226 --> 01:01:35,422

system or social systems interact with our

kids.

852

01:01:35,422 --> 01:01:39,244

change, you know, as they get older, I

know you have teens and adults, so you

853

01:01:39,244 --> 01:01:40,445

know what I'm talking about.

854

01:01:40,445 --> 01:01:44,448

So I'm wondering if you have any insight

for those of us who are parenting older

855

01:01:44,448 --> 01:01:49,911

children who are neurodiverse, both in

kind of helping them self-advocate and yet

856

01:01:49,911 --> 01:01:55,035

still being involved enough to support

them in those times where they can't

857

01:01:55,035 --> 01:01:59,297

really self-advocate or haven't learned

those skills quite yet.

858

01:02:13,374 --> 01:02:19,685

Yeah, I think for me, once again, it's a

recognition, first of all, that we're

859

01:02:19,685 --> 01:02:24,653

working in and working with a system that

is not what it should be.

860

01:02:26,886 --> 01:02:32,369

Um, because if, if it was the system that

it should be, then we shouldn't have to

861

01:02:32,369 --> 01:02:33,269

advocate.

862

01:02:33,269 --> 01:02:36,571

So that's kind of my, my baseline, right?

863

01:02:36,571 --> 01:02:40,133

Anytime I have to advocate for something

tells me that there's a lacking in the

864

01:02:40,133 --> 01:02:40,513

system.

865

01:02:40,513 --> 01:02:42,615

And that's not a blame of the system.

866

01:02:42,615 --> 01:02:48,178

I mean, the system has been created, you

know, for eons and we make changes and we

867

01:02:48,178 --> 01:02:51,199

make adaptations, but systems are slow to

change, right?

868

01:02:51,199 --> 01:02:55,061

And systems tend to work better.

869

01:02:55,126 --> 01:03:00,268

when they kind of look at, you know, kind

of the collective, you know, the

870

01:03:00,268 --> 01:03:04,691

collective mass of the majority of people

would work well with this, right?

871

01:03:04,691 --> 01:03:08,733

So anybody who's on either end of the

extremes of that majority, the system

872

01:03:08,733 --> 01:03:10,874

doesn't work the best for.

873

01:03:10,874 --> 01:03:15,577

So I think we have to acknowledge, first

of all, that we're working in an imperfect

874

01:03:15,577 --> 01:03:16,457

system.

875

01:03:17,138 --> 01:03:21,320

And that's not meaning that there's

anything wrong with our child.

876

01:03:21,840 --> 01:03:23,983

And it doesn't mean there's anything wrong

with their parenting.

877

01:03:23,983 --> 01:03:25,158

assume that not, yeah.

878

01:03:25,158 --> 01:03:28,361

there's anything wrong with what we are

doing per se.

879

01:03:28,361 --> 01:03:33,305

Maybe, maybe you are doing something

wrong, but it's not the default, right?

880

01:03:34,367 --> 01:03:39,031

And that's, yeah, yeah.

881

01:03:39,752 --> 01:03:47,159

And that sometimes it's not because our

kids can't advocate for themselves, it's

882

01:03:47,159 --> 01:03:50,741

that they can't advocate for themselves in

an imperfect system.

883

01:03:53,346 --> 01:04:00,772

And so there are times where we may need

to continue to do that role, not because

884

01:04:00,772 --> 01:04:07,117

of a lacking in them, but because the

system is not set up for them to be able

885

01:04:07,117 --> 01:04:09,779

to use those skills in a successful way.

886

01:04:10,500 --> 01:04:17,886

And I'm also, I'm always looking at that

kind of loss gain kind of, you know,

887

01:04:17,886 --> 01:04:21,902

analysis of how much is this going to

888

01:04:21,902 --> 01:04:25,763

cost for us to get this outcome.

889

01:04:26,404 --> 01:04:34,088

So yes, maybe they can self advocate and

continue to work and continue to do, but

890

01:04:34,088 --> 01:04:40,992

the cost of that is too big compared to

what we're gonna gain from them doing that

891

01:04:40,992 --> 01:04:41,252

piece.

892

01:04:41,252 --> 01:04:47,455

And so I'm often having those

conversations with myself in the mirror,

893

01:04:47,455 --> 01:04:51,978

with my partner, with my kids, like which

battles are we gonna fight here?

894

01:04:51,978 --> 01:04:54,039

right?

895

01:04:54,600 --> 01:04:59,384

And I come back to that piece of is this

going to matter a year from now?

896

01:04:59,384 --> 01:05:03,987

If it's not going to matter a year from

now, why am I making a big deal of it?

897

01:05:04,108 --> 01:05:09,252

Are they learning some skills or gaining

some things that they can't get any other

898

01:05:09,252 --> 01:05:09,752

way?

899

01:05:09,752 --> 01:05:11,433

Then it might be worth it.

900

01:05:12,222 --> 01:05:16,944

Could they gain these skills or gain this

information in other environments that

901

01:05:16,944 --> 01:05:22,226

would be less difficult, less challenging,

maybe less affecting of their sense of

902

01:05:22,226 --> 01:05:23,306

self?

903

01:05:23,586 --> 01:05:27,968

Maybe then I'm not going to, you know, I'm

not going to walk this walk.

904

01:05:28,228 --> 01:05:33,070

Is this going to affect my relationship

with them?

905

01:05:33,070 --> 01:05:36,992

And if it's going to affect my

relationship with them in a negative way,

906

01:05:36,992 --> 01:05:40,333

are there things I can do to make amends

for that?

907

01:05:40,513 --> 01:05:41,113

Or

908

01:05:41,482 --> 01:05:45,443

If not, I really have to ask myself if

it's worth it.

909

01:05:45,443 --> 01:05:48,664

It always comes back to that relational

piece, right?

910

01:05:48,664 --> 01:05:52,985

And what's the gain here and what's the

potential loss?

911

01:05:54,385 --> 01:06:07,049

I think that helping systems to remember

our kids holistically, so I advocate often

912

01:06:07,049 --> 01:06:10,569

with systems for them to remember.

913

01:06:10,738 --> 01:06:15,602

not just the things that my child may need

help with or is challenged with, but all

914

01:06:15,602 --> 01:06:19,164

of the strengths and the wonderful things

they bring as well.

915

01:06:19,185 --> 01:06:23,948

And when we only have 20 minutes for the

IEP meeting or we only have a small,

916

01:06:24,149 --> 01:06:27,732

oftentimes we can jump really quickly to

the, okay, what do we need to figure out?

917

01:06:27,732 --> 01:06:28,593

What are the needs here?

918

01:06:28,593 --> 01:06:29,653

What are the deficits?

919

01:06:29,653 --> 01:06:30,194

What are the...

920

01:06:30,194 --> 01:06:31,975

and I'm like, whoa, whoa.

921

01:06:32,536 --> 01:06:34,257

That doesn't set a good tone for me.

922

01:06:34,257 --> 01:06:36,099

It doesn't set a good tone for us.

923

01:06:36,099 --> 01:06:39,641

If we're going to be deficit or negative

based.

924

01:06:40,222 --> 01:06:47,027

So, you know, helping to set tone is often

something that I still do.

925

01:06:47,048 --> 01:06:49,750

I do a lot of advocacy behind the scenes.

926

01:06:49,750 --> 01:06:56,256

I do a lot of scripting with my kids

around, you know, these are some of the

927

01:06:56,256 --> 01:06:58,417

things you might want to ask.

928

01:06:58,417 --> 01:07:06,324

I do a lot of kind of even now there's

times where I attend meetings or I attend

929

01:07:06,324 --> 01:07:08,046

appointments online.

930

01:07:08,046 --> 01:07:12,710

through texting, so I'm not in the room,

but I'm there on the text so that if

931

01:07:12,710 --> 01:07:17,654

there's a question or sometimes I'm just

sending an emoji, right?

932

01:07:17,654 --> 01:07:24,580

I'm keeping that relational connection

there to say you have all of my power, you

933

01:07:24,580 --> 01:07:31,026

have all of my connection, you have all of

my knowledge with you in the room, and you

934

01:07:31,026 --> 01:07:34,789

can access it how and when you need to.

935

01:07:35,106 --> 01:07:41,491

and there's no shame in wanting or needing

to access it, you're no more successful if

936

01:07:41,491 --> 01:07:45,035

you access it or if you don't access it,

right?

937

01:07:45,035 --> 01:07:51,100

The concept of success is if the outcome

is your needs are met in a way that you

938

01:07:51,100 --> 01:07:54,283

can be the best person that you can be.

939

01:07:54,283 --> 01:08:01,909

And so trying to change the messaging

about what's a successful

940

01:08:01,926 --> 01:08:08,387

meeting or successful intervention,

independence did not always mean success.

941

01:08:08,407 --> 01:08:14,049

I am not always at my best independently

trying to do whatever I'm doing.

942

01:08:14,049 --> 01:08:20,711

I'm often usually actually at my best and

able to maximize my best self in

943

01:08:20,711 --> 01:08:24,252

relationship with colleagues who can help

together.

944

01:08:24,272 --> 01:08:29,042

And so this idea of independent advocacy

or being able to do it on your own.

945

01:08:29,042 --> 01:08:30,582

those are some great points.

946

01:08:30,843 --> 01:08:35,105

I mean, I know even as an adult, yeah,

there are times where you go into an

947

01:08:35,105 --> 01:08:40,368

appointment and you want your partner, a

sibling, a friend to come with you just to

948

01:08:40,368 --> 01:08:44,511

have, yeah, to have another set of ears or

to remember to ask that question that

949

01:08:44,511 --> 01:08:48,253

maybe you're not thinking of at the time

or have a podcast co-host, right, Katie?

950

01:08:48,253 --> 01:08:55,277

Because we're, yeah, we often work better

when we're using other people's skills as

951

01:08:55,277 --> 01:08:56,537

well as our own.

952

01:08:56,578 --> 01:08:57,558

That's a good point.

953

01:08:57,558 --> 01:09:01,902

I wonder too, do you feel like there's any

benefit in talking to your older kids

954

01:09:01,902 --> 01:09:05,586

about the gaps in the system and saying,

this isn't just about you.

955

01:09:05,586 --> 01:09:11,131

Like we're facing a system that doesn't

necessarily work for us.

956

01:09:11,131 --> 01:09:13,853

So we're gonna have to do these things

together.

957

01:09:14,734 --> 01:09:16,555

And I will help you.

958

01:09:16,555 --> 01:09:21,760

And this is because of the system, not

because of the way you are as an

959

01:09:21,760 --> 01:09:23,261

individual, right?

960

01:09:32,430 --> 01:09:34,851

Absolutely, absolutely.

961

01:09:34,851 --> 01:09:39,815

And I also talk to my kids a lot about the

fact that the system doesn't just work for

962

01:09:39,815 --> 01:09:42,537

them, it doesn't work for most of the

kids, right?

963

01:09:42,537 --> 01:09:47,900

And so, you know, when they're talking

about, you know, a colleague of theirs

964

01:09:47,900 --> 01:09:52,163

who's struggling, you know, we often have

that conversation of, you know, do you

965

01:09:52,163 --> 01:09:54,785

think the system's working for them?

966

01:09:54,785 --> 01:09:59,889

Because what I want is also to make sure

that my kids know that they're not the

967

01:09:59,889 --> 01:10:01,249

exception here.

968

01:10:02,578 --> 01:10:09,683

um that most of the systems that we have

are systems that many kids struggle with

969

01:10:09,683 --> 01:10:13,365

and they struggle with it for lots of

different reasons right so kids who have

970

01:10:13,365 --> 01:10:20,270

anxiety issues kids who you know are have

gender diversity kids who are you know

971

01:10:20,270 --> 01:10:29,256

neurodiverse kids who um you know like for

body image needs like there's so many um

972

01:10:29,376 --> 01:10:31,797

realities of our humanity

973

01:10:32,086 --> 01:10:38,893

that make our systems make it difficult

for us to be okay with who we are, that I

974

01:10:38,893 --> 01:10:44,399

would say the majority of humans in

various systems aren't okay with being

975

01:10:44,399 --> 01:10:46,621

involved in those systems, right?

976

01:10:46,621 --> 01:10:51,827

And so I actually wanna normalize that,

not just for my kids, but the kids and

977

01:10:51,827 --> 01:10:54,422

families I have the privilege of working

with that.

978

01:10:54,422 --> 01:10:58,985

The reality is that most of us are not

okay with these systems.

979

01:10:59,285 --> 01:11:03,808

You're not the exception because it's not

meeting your need.

980

01:11:05,870 --> 01:11:10,513

We have to be changing these systems

because they're not meeting many people's

981

01:11:10,513 --> 01:11:11,514

needs.

982

01:11:14,396 --> 01:11:20,620

That then creates a community of actually

being...

983

01:11:22,862 --> 01:11:27,114

a community of recognizing that many of us

aren't getting our needs met in the

984

01:11:27,114 --> 01:11:30,621

various systems that we're interacting

with.

985

01:11:32,931 --> 01:11:37,692

Karen, I was just thinking about how

important it is to help our kids start

986

01:11:37,692 --> 01:11:43,154

learning to advocate for themselves when

they're little, because, you know, little

987

01:11:43,154 --> 01:11:44,854

kids little problems.

988

01:11:44,854 --> 01:11:50,856

And as much as it can be a pain in the

ass, and I might wish that my children

989

01:11:50,856 --> 01:11:55,657

would quit telling me what they want,

because it would be easier to just do what

990

01:11:55,657 --> 01:11:59,758

I was going to do, there are certainly

times that...

991

01:12:01,155 --> 01:12:05,859

Taking into account their preferences for

things is a very important way to teach

992

01:12:05,859 --> 01:12:08,942

them to advocate for themselves.

993

01:12:09,083 --> 01:12:17,091

And considering that we have the entire

legal profession literally to advocate for

994

01:12:17,091 --> 01:12:22,696

us when we can't do it ourselves, you

know, asking for help and asking for

995

01:12:22,696 --> 01:12:24,778

guidance can be really important.

996

01:12:26,435 --> 01:12:31,498

I'm wondering, as a neurodiverse parent

who struggles a lot with things like

997

01:12:31,999 --> 01:12:40,065

timeliness and habits and routines and all

those things, how do we raise our kids to

998

01:12:40,065 --> 01:12:47,030

not learn our habits or to...

999

01:12:47,030 --> 01:12:49,732

let's just not talk about my kids' chore

charts, okay?

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Let's just not.

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01:12:52,254 --> 01:12:53,474

You know, it's...

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It's really hard to teach your kids skills

that you don't have.

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And as much as people say, well, you know,

they'll, they'll learn that it's important

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01:13:04,907 --> 01:13:07,410

to just keep working on it, which is

absolutely true.

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01:13:07,410 --> 01:13:12,135

There are still things that it would be

better for them to just do, even if it

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doesn't come naturally to me.

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01:13:16,151 --> 01:13:19,035

So how do I make my children be better

people than I am, Karen?

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01:13:19,035 --> 01:13:22,661

Despite the fact that they are 5 and 6 and

I'm 42 and still can't keep my shit

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together.

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01:13:25,366 --> 01:13:27,208

Help me out here, please.

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01:13:29,396 --> 01:13:39,224

Well, I actually think the answer is in

the question, which is, I think that first

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of all, we want our kids to learn that we

all have areas of growth and areas that we

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struggle with.

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01:13:49,433 --> 01:13:55,977

And we want our kids to learn that it's

not about being able to manage everything.

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It's about being able to recognize the

things we can't manage or we don't want

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to, because there are also things we just

don't want to, and look at ways to get

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that need met in a different way.

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01:14:10,323 --> 01:14:16,466

Right, and so I think it's about that

concept that, you know, you said earlier

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01:14:16,466 --> 01:14:20,827

about, you know, wanting kids to learn how

to advocate for themselves early.

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I think we also want kids to learn how to

advocate for others, right?

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So when they see

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and a child who has a need, they can

advocate for their peer as well and see

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that they have something to offer to that

person, not just for themselves, but they

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can have a gift to give to that person.

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So when it comes to things that you as a

parent may not have strength in, I think

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we then look to others who do have

strength in it.

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I'm always saying to my kids, not so much

now because they're teenagers and they

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01:14:55,432 --> 01:15:00,214

know I know nothing, but when they were

younger and they still had the belief that

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I might actually have some knowledge, and

they would ask me a question or ask for a

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skill that I didn't have, I would really

clearly say, you know what, I don't know

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01:15:10,879 --> 01:15:11,719

the answer to that.

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I don't know how to do that.

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01:15:13,080 --> 01:15:15,140

That's not something I'm good at.

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01:15:15,281 --> 01:15:17,458

Let's figure out who does know how to do

that.

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01:15:17,458 --> 01:15:23,643

let's look to somebody who has expertise

or knowledge in that or, you know, the

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01:15:23,643 --> 01:15:27,706

internet's become a really, I mean, within

reason, right, because you have to be able

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01:15:27,706 --> 01:15:31,089

to gauge the effectiveness of some of

those internet resources.

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But, you know, organization is not one of

my skills.

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I'm not neurodiverse, as far as I know,

maybe I am, you know, it's possible.

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01:15:39,576 --> 01:15:41,517

I'm certainly not organized, though.

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And, and so when I'm looking, and I

recognize that my

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of organization is not a skill I want to

pass on to my children.

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01:15:52,106 --> 01:15:56,210

And so I'm looking to if there's other

people in my family who have

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01:15:56,210 --> 01:16:01,695

organizational skills, if there's places

on the internet where we can look for

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strategies and ways to be organized.

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I'm always looking for things that are

play and fun based because brains always

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do better if it's fun.

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01:16:12,254 --> 01:16:14,534

or if it's exciting or interesting.

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And the definition of fun is always

individualized, right?

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01:16:17,455 --> 01:16:20,796

What I feel like would be fun may not be

fun for you.

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But if our brain is feeling energized and

excited about it, it makes the task

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easier.

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And I now have experts within my family.

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Like one of my kids is brilliant at

organization and cleaning and it didn't

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come from me.

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There's no ifs, ands, or buts about that.

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They've developed those skills with,

because we had a curiosity about how to

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develop them, and we looked for resources

and sources outside of ourselves, and they

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01:16:55,071 --> 01:16:59,713

have now created and have a skill set that

I still don't have.

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And so I think it is that idea of

recognizing that you will never have all

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of the skills and abilities your kids need

or want.

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should probably wrap start.

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01:17:11,884 --> 01:17:17,091

community or that interest about being

curious about where you can access those

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skills can be the answer.

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01:17:18,570 --> 01:17:23,872

like we've gone in a lot of, to wrap

things up before we go into like another

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whole hour of talk.

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But I'm hoping that you can share maybe

some of your go-to resources, be it

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websites or books or resources that you

think would be helpful to people, either

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in the adoption community or in the

neurodiversity community, if you have any

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thoughts on things that you find helpful

or maybe refer to your clients or things

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like that.

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So I have a couple.

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The first one is in the adoption

community, and these are Ontario

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resources, but they're on the web, so

they're accessible to anybody.

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So the first one is the Adoption Council

of Ontario, and I do need to be honest

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here that I also do work with them, so

there's a bias there, but I think it's a

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fair bias.

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I think they're a great organization and a

good resource.

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Tons of online information, webinars,

education experiences, lots of free

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resources on understanding adoption,

trauma, prenatal exposure, neurodiversity,

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tons and tons and tons.

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So that's at adoption.on.ca.

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For parent support around adoption, Adopt

for Life, so it's adopt, the number four,

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life.com.

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01:18:53,866 --> 01:19:02,233

offering parent support and information,

parent support groups, just really tons of

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01:19:02,233 --> 01:19:07,398

great information around that support area

around parenting kids who are on

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permanency journeys who are adopted.

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Another shameless plug for an organization

that's close to my heart is the Rural FASD

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Network.

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Once again, that's the network I was

talking about that started from a group of

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01:19:22,314 --> 01:19:28,961

parents around a kitchen table saying, we

need more and created this amazing

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resource that has an online presence as

well as an in-person presence.

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01:19:34,127 --> 01:19:37,089

So a really, really great resource.

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And I'll put a plug out there if people

you know want to connect in with me they

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01:19:42,411 --> 01:19:46,632

have questions They heard something that

I've spoken about on this podcast They

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want more info about they can find me at

CP professional services dot CA So CP the

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01:19:54,275 --> 01:20:01,657

letter CP professional services dot CA And

I'd be happy to you know Expand on things

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01:20:01,657 --> 01:20:04,578

or give some more info about things

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01:20:04,578 --> 01:20:07,959

There are tons and tons and tons of

resources.

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Most of them will be listed on the

adoption.on.ca and they're not just

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adoption resources.

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So they're about parenting kids who are

neurodiverse around dealing with trauma,

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around talking to kids about difficult

things, tons of resources on that site.

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So I think I'll, rather than list off

more, I'll just send people there and...

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01:20:33,082 --> 01:20:34,371

have it all in one place too.

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01:20:34,371 --> 01:20:38,122

encourage people to connect in with me if

they have specific needs, and I'll try

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hard to direct them to resources.

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Yeah.

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All right, so Karen, since we're wrapping

up in the interest of this show not being

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four hours long, we ask all of our guests

if you were going to dominate a

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category...

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I'm going to start over.

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We ask all of our guests if you were going

to dominate a category at a county fair,

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what would it be?

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And categories can be real or made up to

ensure that you win.

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I was going to dominate a category.

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I think for me, and I don't know if this

answers your question properly, but for

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me, it would be the person who got to sit

on the merry-go-round the longest, and I

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would beat the merry-go-round writing,

longest writing kind of, and I could sit

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on it for hours and hours and hours and

not have to leave.

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because I could last probably a few

minutes and then start to feel nauseous,

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so I would not compete with you at all.

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I'd be like, you get that category, for

sure.

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Yeah, that's right.

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Are you a right person, Katie?

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Alright, I win, I win!

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I am just...

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I love, you know, I'm compiling a list of

ways to tell me you're neurodiverse

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without telling me.

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I love the Tilt-A-Whirl.

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And the girl child also, anything with

that centrifugal force, we are here for

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it.

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Yeah, weighted blankets, Tilt-A-Whirl, all

of it.

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Love it.

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Anything upside down.

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No.

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Hard no on anything up in the air.

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But if you want to leave me on the ground

and spin me around in circles, absolutely.

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Although I can say that drinking a fair

amount of beer and then getting on the

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Gravitron, bad idea.

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I'm pretty sure it forces the alcohol

through your liver faster.

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Worst hangover I've ever had.

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Bad, bad choice.

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Yeah.

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or send us an email and we will read it

out for you.

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Katie, have you got something to cuss and

discuss or cuss or discuss this week?

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I do Arlene and it's kind of a two-parter.

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One, I really hate when you're...

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I don't want to say taken aback, but kind

of surprised and left wrong-footed by

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something and so you don't react as fast

as you might want to, and it leaves

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someone else with a negative opinion of

you.

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And the second part of the same cussing

and discussing is the tremendous lack of

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a...

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commonly used singular gender neutral way

to refer to other humans.

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My daughter was corrected by a server at a

restaurant this weekend as to that

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person's preferred pronouns, which is

absolutely fine with me.

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I appreciate that they did it.

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I really appreciate the level of

vulnerability

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put him in.

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I feel very, very bad that I did not react

as quickly as I should have to thank him

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for correcting us, because I was trying to

think to myself if I had used any gendered

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pronouns at all, because I try pretty hard

not to in general, because I think

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gendered pronouns are kind of bullshit.

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And especially with folks where my first

perception of who I might think they

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are...

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may or may not match how they identify

themselves, and as I tell our children, we

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believe what people tell us about who they

are.

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And so, whether it makes sense to us or

not, if they like corn and they don't like

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corn, they identify in a way we don't

understand or that we might not

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immediately jump to, I'm going to trust

what you say about yourself.

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But the fact that there is not

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good way to refer to people that is not

gendered in a singular way.

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I frequently use y'all to refer to a

group, but there's really not a good

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gender-neutral singular pronoun, and there

should be.

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Not a pronoun.

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A way to refer to other humans.

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That doesn't sound like hello, fellow

human!

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Who is a human?

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Just humaning.

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Yes.

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Greetings, human!

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Maybe I'll just go with that.

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Anyway, so if any of our listeners have

suggestions, I really would love to hear

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them.

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Karen, what would you like to custom

discuss today?

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I think for me it is building on what we

talked about earlier and the difficulty of

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feeling shame when I or other parents are

doing a damn good job and other people's

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reactions make me or them feel like we're

not.

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When they have no frigging idea what my

life is like or what we just were doing.

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going through 10 minutes ago or a year ago

or how far we've come.

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I think that, I think, you know, thinking

about how we can manage that better maybe,

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or how that can not matter so much or not

have as much impact, because I think it

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really affects a lot of us and it

shouldn't, it shouldn't take that power

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away from us.

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So I think that would be what I would say.

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in terms of systems, there's obviously

lots to improve, but I think especially in

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rural places, one area that I know our

family has struggled is in finding

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recreational opportunities that work for

our neurodiverse kids.

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And

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I'm not blaming the people who run the

programs because especially in rural

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places it's mostly volunteers and it's

hard to get volunteers at all.

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And so, I mean, people end up doing the

things that their kids love or, you know,

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that they're running programs that work

for them or that, you know, they're

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following a structure that's been set out

for them.

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And so that's what's going to work.

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And there aren't the same options, you

know, just based on geography and the

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number of people who live in the places we

live.

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So some of the things that might work

better for our kids that get offered in

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urban areas don't end up where we

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the things that are here don't always fit.

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So then it means that.

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that some of our kids miss out, which is

really, really difficult.

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And sometimes those of us who see the need

for programs don't have the capacity to

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start a thing or run a program.

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When you're in the trenches and just

trying to figure things out for your

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family to try and start something new

might not be something that you can do

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right now.

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So I mean, I guess maybe I look 10 years

or maybe five years down the line and

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think that's maybe something I could do

something about on a bigger scale.

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but right now it's just something I'm

gonna cuss about.

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I don't know if you've had similar

experiences, Karen, with that side of

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life.

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Absolutely, or the, you know, and I get

it, I understand it, but the idea that,

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you know, child can participate if parent

attends and that idea of, oh, yes, you

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know, okay, I didn't think we were signing

up so that I could also do this, this or

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this.

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And, but, you know, making it work and,

but sometimes just wishing that I also

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could have the hour.

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to myself that the other parents are

having.

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And yeah, when my kids were younger

sometimes, or the school trips, right?

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Where the school trips were, yes, you can

go, your kid can go as long as you go with

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them or you send somebody, you know, it's

hard, can be hard.

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already gave us where people can find you.

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So we're good on that end.

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But thank you so much for being with us

and for having this discussion with it.

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We both really appreciate it.

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My absolute pleasure.

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It was a lovely conversation.

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Thanks for the opportunity.

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Thanks so much, Karen.