1 00:00:03,733 --> 00:00:07,933 Hello I'm so glad to be with you 2 00:00:07,966 --> 00:00:12,466 Oh I feel like I might cry already 3 00:00:12,533 --> 00:00:13,233 What is happening 4 00:00:13,266 --> 00:00:19,300 Okay bathroom students know me well that usually grab a box of tissues and set it up for me before I get started 5 00:00:19,366 --> 00:00:23,266 They've seen me cry every Monday for I don't know six months 6 00:00:23,333 --> 00:00:26,433 It happens often often 7 00:00:26,466 --> 00:00:34,933 Man I have so much to say to you guys today and I wanna start first of all by just um recognizing a few people who are in the room and who aren't in the room 8 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:39,666 Uh so first of all I just wanna acknowledge that we have Phyllis with us today 9 00:00:48,333 --> 00:01:06,900 Wow wow yeah for those of you who don't know um Phyllis Marie she's just one of ours she's our family and we have a thank you thank you for him to thank you 10 00:01:06,933 --> 00:01:10,333 Um and she is a walking breathing miracle 11 00:01:10,366 --> 00:01:13,333 She is a testimony of the goodness of god 12 00:01:13,366 --> 00:01:14,933 And we thought we would lose her 13 00:01:14,966 --> 00:01:23,333 And he said no and he moved in mighty mighty ways that she is actually just releasing the goodness of god for the breakthrough in your story 14 00:01:23,366 --> 00:01:26,233 Whether you knew that or not there's a miracle in the room today 15 00:01:26,266 --> 00:01:28,400 We also have Terrance in the back 16 00:01:43,566 --> 00:01:55,133 Yeah just more evidence of his goodness and his miracle working power that still exists and still moves in the earth 17 00:01:55,166 --> 00:02:01,933 So if you are just holding on for your own miracle just know that there are miracles in the room all around you 18 00:02:01,966 --> 00:02:07,133 And they are the testimony and the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy 19 00:02:07,166 --> 00:02:16,433 So you can take their very existence as a prophetic word for your future as a declaration of what he wants to do in your story today 20 00:02:16,466 --> 00:02:19,166 Amen amen 21 00:02:19,233 --> 00:02:20,700 Also in the room is my mom 22 00:02:24,166 --> 00:02:30,000 You'll recognize her because we have just about the same face not exactly but close 23 00:02:30,033 --> 00:02:31,500 And she's here for me today 24 00:02:31,566 --> 00:02:36,800 So thanks being your mom and then not in the room notably is Dan Webber 25 00:02:36,833 --> 00:02:44,133 Dan Webber is our senior associate leader and I just wanted to reference that he's not here with us today because he's preaching somewhere else 26 00:02:47,066 --> 00:02:49,066 He is preaching at Oak City 27 00:02:49,133 --> 00:02:49,833 Is that right 28 00:02:49,866 --> 00:02:53,066 In is this what it's called in Birmingham 29 00:02:53,133 --> 00:03:01,133 So we are cross pollinating the kingdom today our our our US team our order of service team 30 00:03:01,166 --> 00:03:03,566 We have a rally a little chant that we do 31 00:03:03,600 --> 00:03:12,433 Sometimes we hit it and sometimes we don't but we say to the king are for the king for the king and his kingdom 32 00:03:12,466 --> 00:03:16,700 So we start most of our services that way for the king and his kingdom 33 00:03:16,766 --> 00:03:17,966 And I got a text from Dan 34 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:26,666 I texted him for the king and he responded back and his kingdom but he also told me that he taught them our rally in their order of service huddle today 35 00:03:26,733 --> 00:03:34,633 So we're all out there today for the king and his kingdom is why we're doing everything that we're doing for the king and for his kingdom 36 00:03:34,666 --> 00:03:35,433 Amen 37 00:03:36,733 --> 00:03:39,633 Okay spring is sprung 38 00:03:39,666 --> 00:03:41,500 Happy spring for those of you who celebrate 39 00:03:41,566 --> 00:03:45,733 Uh my husband is not one who celebrates this spring spring uh springing 40 00:03:45,766 --> 00:03:50,366 He's got he's got the allergies you know um but uh I celebrate spring 41 00:03:50,400 --> 00:03:52,300 I'm happy that it's spring today 42 00:03:52,366 --> 00:04:03,633 So it's also our first day as our first Sunday in the building our first sorry it is our first spring Sunday which I think makes it our fifth anniversary of being in the building 43 00:04:03,666 --> 00:04:04,700 Is this right 44 00:04:04,766 --> 00:04:07,566 Fourth math is hard fourth 45 00:04:07,600 --> 00:04:12,500 Okay it's our fourth our fourth year of being in the Bill 46 00:04:12,566 --> 00:04:13,566 Is that right fourth 47 00:04:13,600 --> 00:04:19,000 Okay yes okay okay fourth year of being in the building on the first Sunday of spring is when we moved in 48 00:04:19,033 --> 00:04:20,266 So this is another testimony 49 00:04:20,333 --> 00:04:25,233 You're sitting inside of a testimony you are surrounded by testimonies and you're sitting inside of one 50 00:04:25,266 --> 00:04:29,733 So yeah god all right I'm gonna tell you guys a quick story and then I'm gonna pray 51 00:04:29,800 --> 00:04:36,566 Uh my kids um Everett and Juliet Everett is 10 years old and Julia is 7 52 00:04:36,600 --> 00:04:39,466 Uh the way kids work is they used to be much younger 53 00:04:39,533 --> 00:04:42,133 They've been all different ages up to this point 54 00:04:42,166 --> 00:04:47,833 So one time when they were much younger I wanna say maybe 5 ish years ago we had just moved here I think so 55 00:04:47,866 --> 00:04:57,900 I'm I'm thinking in my memory that I had like a 5 ish year old and a 2 ish year old at the time and um they were eating applesauce pouches 56 00:04:57,966 --> 00:05:02,133 All the moms in the room amen they had the applesauce pouch 57 00:05:02,166 --> 00:05:06,066 And I was they were watching TV on the couch with their little applesauce pouches 58 00:05:06,133 --> 00:05:10,900 And um and I think I had I don't exactly remember how this story goes 59 00:05:10,933 --> 00:05:15,933 I think I had asked them to clean up or something clean up after yourself when you're done 60 00:05:15,966 --> 00:05:18,166 We're working on responsibility and all of these things 61 00:05:18,200 --> 00:05:20,966 And I watch and I don't remember which one it is 62 00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:22,100 I think it was my son 63 00:05:22,166 --> 00:05:32,366 If I had to guess um his version of cleaning up was um just to take that little applesauce pouch and just slide it right under the front 64 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:36,800 We have one of those couches that's like really low to the ground in the front you know like really low 65 00:05:36,833 --> 00:05:42,900 And I watched it happen and I went oh this isn't good 66 00:05:42,966 --> 00:05:48,666 This is this is something that a five year old has done before 67 00:05:48,733 --> 00:05:53,633 The only reason we know that this is an option is because we've done that before 68 00:05:53,666 --> 00:06:03,333 So I am just in my curious wonder I walk over to the couch and I flip that thing up 69 00:06:05,533 --> 00:06:07,833 It's a whole ecosystem 70 00:06:09,400 --> 00:06:12,100 We have organisms of all kinds 71 00:06:12,166 --> 00:06:20,766 We have go gurt anybody those yogurt tubes how's yogurt go under the couch for a long time 72 00:06:20,800 --> 00:06:28,533 Old crusty applesauce pouches pirates booty all just oh we have a history of doing this 73 00:06:30,733 --> 00:06:31,966 We have always tied 74 00:06:32,000 --> 00:06:34,333 I'm like well you guys clean up your mess so well 75 00:06:35,733 --> 00:06:37,900 None of it's making it to the trash can 76 00:06:37,933 --> 00:06:41,366 It's all just going right under the couch 77 00:06:41,400 --> 00:06:44,800 I'll skip the part about how I parented through this 78 00:06:44,833 --> 00:06:49,300 It it does feel like it was actually one of my shining moments as a parent but it's not the point of the story 79 00:06:49,366 --> 00:06:56,400 Okay it in how shall I say it involved empowering them to take care of their mess that was really really gross 80 00:06:56,433 --> 00:07:10,100 And um they both oven mitts on to touch all those other tiny little hands in their oven mitts tryna anyways the point is I think I think today Jesus wants to lift the couch 81 00:07:11,533 --> 00:07:19,900 I think there's things that we think that we've tidied or we're really happy for everybody to see the couch and what the couch is doing 82 00:07:19,933 --> 00:07:30,033 But I actually think there's an opportunity for us to lift lift the lid a little bit and let him tilt it back all the way and see what's been growing under there 83 00:07:30,066 --> 00:07:34,666 What's been growing and what do you wanna deal with that maybe I wasn't even ready to deal with 84 00:07:34,733 --> 00:08:01,500 So I'm gonna pray Holy Spirit we love you we love you it's all for you yeah it's all for you King Jesus and Holy Spirit would you just do what only you can do yeah which you just illuminate what needs illuminating today and invite us into deeper connection with you 85 00:08:02,866 --> 00:08:11,100 Would you illuminate the things that you wanna put your finger on and invite us into something that we could never imagine 86 00:08:11,166 --> 00:08:19,200 Help us to know ourselves the way that you know us and help us to be more like you Jesus 87 00:08:19,233 --> 00:08:23,166 All we wanna be is more like you in Jesus name 88 00:08:24,400 --> 00:08:26,066 Amen amen amen 89 00:08:26,133 --> 00:08:31,200 All right you guys I've been reading the Old Testament for a year years a long time and I'm not out 90 00:08:31,233 --> 00:08:32,033 I'm Ezekiel 91 00:08:32,066 --> 00:08:34,300 Okay so we're going strong in the Old Testament 92 00:08:34,366 --> 00:08:41,466 I felt like it was important for me actually I wanted to read the Bible chronologically so I've been reading other bits here and there as the Lord highlights 93 00:08:41,533 --> 00:08:46,233 But I also was intentionally reading the the whole Bible chronologically 94 00:08:46,266 --> 00:08:57,866 And I attempted to do it in a year and I'm not there because I'm it's been over a year and we're in Ezekiel so it's it's taking me some time um but it's been so good 95 00:08:57,933 --> 00:09:01,166 And also I feel the need for Jesus 96 00:09:01,200 --> 00:09:01,666 Haha 97 00:09:01,733 --> 00:09:09,100 Like I need to get to the I need to get to Jesus I need to breathe the air that Jesus brings to this story 98 00:09:09,133 --> 00:09:10,100 I'm feeling it 99 00:09:10,133 --> 00:09:19,533 And I also am like allowing myself to feel that tension of actually what the law was requiring before Jesus to feel the pain of oh my gosh 100 00:09:19,566 --> 00:09:23,633 They they knew a Messiah was coming but they had no idea what it would look like 101 00:09:23,666 --> 00:09:37,933 They were living under this old covenant and I've just been in this word in the Old Testament for a long time and uh it's been very helpful and fruitful because I'm looking for him as the archetype in every story 102 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:39,200 I'm finding him everywhere 103 00:09:39,233 --> 00:10:00,866 This is what it does but what I'm seeing throughout scripture even in my in my Old Testament reading is a god in absolute violent pursuit of his people that from the very beginning he was so pursuant on fire for you and for the wholeness of you 104 00:10:00,933 --> 00:10:05,533 And he is the same yesterday today and forever 105 00:10:05,566 --> 00:10:17,466 The covenant we are under has changed but his nature his character his attitudes his behaviors his values have not changed 106 00:10:17,533 --> 00:10:37,133 So I'm looking at the Old Testament God and what was he in violent pursuit of what was he in need of Jesus to come and fulfill so that we could be restored to total oneness with him what was in need of us to be able to house the Holy Spirit 107 00:10:37,166 --> 00:10:50,966 I'm not looking to see what was eradicated by Jesus but what was fulfilled through him because it's an invitation for me to partake in the whole person of Jesus 108 00:10:51,000 --> 00:10:56,900 Another impossible possibility of the law was fulfilled by Jesus but it was not abolished 109 00:10:56,966 --> 00:10:59,233 His values are the same 110 00:10:59,266 --> 00:11:08,533 So when I look at the law I can now see what does he care about what does he care about and these are the guidelines that protect the covenant 111 00:11:08,600 --> 00:11:11,866 This is what the law was in the Old Covenant 112 00:11:11,933 --> 00:11:26,966 We know that the law was upheld by the prophets and the priests and by sacrifice and we failed so bad it is it is painful how much failure there was it is so painful 113 00:11:27,000 --> 00:11:32,766 And the covenant now good news now the covenant is upheld by Jesus 114 00:11:32,800 --> 00:11:50,266 It's no longer upheld by the law and then Jesus the ultimate sacrifice he actually says the better way is not for this law to be external to you but for me to put my Holy Spirit the spirit of truth inside of you to guard and protect the same things that I cared about 115 00:11:50,333 --> 00:12:00,833 We're just doing it through the blood of Jesus and now it's modeled through an internal relationship rather than an external law that we could never uphold on our own 116 00:12:00,866 --> 00:12:02,066 Does this make sense 117 00:12:03,433 --> 00:12:09,900 So now we have it no longer external to us but rather the spirit of truth on our insides to guide us into holiness 118 00:12:09,966 --> 00:12:18,566 Because he is in fact the Holy Spirit is what he calls himself the Holy Spirit 119 00:12:18,600 --> 00:12:23,466 Yeah so you guys aware that we talk about growth a lot here 120 00:12:23,533 --> 00:12:29,700 Yeah if you haven't been with us for long then you might not know 121 00:12:29,733 --> 00:12:32,600 If you have been here for a minute you know we talk about growing all the time 122 00:12:32,633 --> 00:12:34,600 We are always talking about growth 123 00:12:34,633 --> 00:12:37,666 In fact we are in a four month series 124 00:12:37,733 --> 00:12:44,966 We never really do series but we decided to just be 100 about around our four pillars 125 00:12:45,000 --> 00:12:48,866 These are the four pillars that that we build upon 126 00:12:48,933 --> 00:12:53,166 They define the atmosphere of our house and drive everything we do 127 00:12:53,200 --> 00:12:59,666 We did one month of the supernatural one month of family and now we're in our third month of grow 128 00:12:59,733 --> 00:13:31,700 Yeah so we talk about growing a lot and have you I I feel the tension when we talk about growth to um to see it as humanistic or overly self aware or that the goal is some kind of weird version of self actualization or self betterment self help all of these things 129 00:13:31,733 --> 00:13:34,133 But actually and what I what I really wanna do today 130 00:13:34,166 --> 00:14:01,933 Guys if you leave with nothing else is just to remind us and inspire us that the reason why we partner with any of this growth stuff is because it is an invitation from King Jesus to be invited deeper into the things that he cares about the things that we see all throughout scripture and all in his character from the foundations of the earth to right now 131 00:14:01,966 --> 00:14:12,100 What he cares about and that they are growing is actually an invitation to house and become like him and not for any other reason 132 00:14:13,600 --> 00:14:29,633 So it's because the primary work of Jesus was to bring you into full oneness with the father to unleash the Holy Spirit to live inside of you to pay for all of your sin death and sickness to fulfill the value system of god 133 00:14:29,666 --> 00:14:41,833 His values for life for health for oneness in community for covenant are all throughout his word and that's what he's been after from the beginning 134 00:14:43,533 --> 00:14:50,500 Yeah so we know he came to restore that which was lost 135 00:14:50,533 --> 00:14:53,333 Yeah what was lost 136 00:14:53,366 --> 00:14:59,566 Everything everything about your your humanity came under the yoke and burden of sin 137 00:14:59,600 --> 00:15:02,966 And and the law existed to uphold that but you couldn't keep it 138 00:15:03,000 --> 00:15:07,566 So we talk about growth principles and ideas but why 139 00:15:07,600 --> 00:15:20,500 Well there's lots of reasons but today I'm gonna talk primarily about our intimacy with him because I believe it is the primary purpose of all of this growth talk is actually intimacy with Jesus 140 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:31,266 So you know you guys are actually living inside of the prophetic declaration and yearning that David had in the Old Testament 141 00:15:31,333 --> 00:15:39,800 When he said this one thing I desire of the Lord this one thing I seek that I would dwell in his house forever 142 00:15:39,833 --> 00:15:48,733 You are the new covenant embodiment of that wish of that desire that you actually have something different than what King David had 143 00:15:48,800 --> 00:15:52,300 You actually dwell within the house of god forever 144 00:15:52,366 --> 00:15:53,033 Why 145 00:15:53,066 --> 00:16:01,966 Because it the death burial resurrection and Ascension of Jesus made space for the Holy Spirit to come and live on your insides 146 00:16:02,033 --> 00:16:06,400 And now the house of god is not external to you but rather internal to you 147 00:16:06,433 --> 00:16:16,333 So now you live eternally inside of the longings of King David of the longings of every heart before you 148 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:29,666 You are the house of god and now the journey of your whole life is actually hosting him really well making more and more space for him to inhabit 149 00:16:29,733 --> 00:16:32,200 We know we sing worship songs like we're clearing out the clutter 150 00:16:32,233 --> 00:16:33,833 You're the only thing that matters 151 00:16:33,866 --> 00:16:45,833 I'm constantly looking to my life and saying what needs to go so that I can have more space to house him better to house him more fully to hold more capacity of him 152 00:16:45,866 --> 00:16:50,733 Where has my wine skin gotten old and inflexible 153 00:16:50,800 --> 00:16:54,166 And what is he ready to grow on my insides 154 00:16:54,200 --> 00:17:00,600 And what needs to what do I need to put to death so that he can be fully alive inside of me 155 00:17:00,633 --> 00:17:07,866 What on my insides actually needs to get cleaned out so that he can take full residence inside of me 156 00:17:07,933 --> 00:17:14,233 Yes this is why we grow making more and more space for him to inhabit 157 00:17:14,266 --> 00:17:17,566 How much of my story did he pay for 158 00:17:17,633 --> 00:17:21,333 How much of your story was paid for by the blood 159 00:17:21,400 --> 00:17:22,066 How much 160 00:17:22,133 --> 00:17:31,433 The question I'm asking myself is how much of my internal world has come under the rule and reign of a new and better kingdom 161 00:17:31,466 --> 00:17:37,366 And how much of my internal world is still living in that old covenant reality 162 00:17:37,433 --> 00:17:42,133 Because we actually can be living in the New Covenant but still thinking like the Old Covenant 163 00:17:42,200 --> 00:17:45,766 So these are some of the things that I wanna highlight for us today 164 00:17:45,800 --> 00:17:59,466 So some of the catchphrases you'll hear us talk about you'll hear some phrases just repeated we're being okay with our humanity accepting our humanity lots of accepting yes accepting our brokenness do the work 165 00:17:59,533 --> 00:18:05,400 You guys have heard this yeah but the reason is because intimacy is what he paid for 166 00:18:05,433 --> 00:18:17,866 Intimacy and covenant relationships intimacy with the god with the Godhead oneness your internal transformation is what he's after under the couch 167 00:18:17,933 --> 00:18:21,366 Yes we're gonna find all the yogurt packs 168 00:18:21,400 --> 00:18:23,300 This is what he's after 169 00:18:23,366 --> 00:18:48,333 And in order to be transformed we get to grow in intimacy with ourselves not just intimacy with others though we are gonna talk about that but also intimacy with ourselves to be so known by him that we actually can lived live fully exposed that we actually can live a nothing hidden lifestyle with him now 170 00:18:48,366 --> 00:18:54,233 He knows everything already but there's something about the intimacy of saying know everything 171 00:18:54,266 --> 00:18:56,066 I'm bringing this to you 172 00:18:56,133 --> 00:19:01,933 I want you to see it all know me let me see inside of me 173 00:19:01,966 --> 00:19:07,933 He actually came to illuminate the entire human experience 174 00:19:07,966 --> 00:19:17,200 John 1 verse one in the beginning was the word and the word was with god and the word was god he was in the beginning with god 175 00:19:17,233 --> 00:19:21,233 All things were made through him and without him was not anything made 176 00:19:21,266 --> 00:19:26,466 That was made in him was life and the life was the light of men 177 00:19:26,533 --> 00:19:30,800 The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it 178 00:19:30,833 --> 00:19:45,900 He came to illuminate the entire human experience to shed light under all of your couches to illuminate every single part of you and to bring it fully fully to light to know every part 179 00:19:45,966 --> 00:19:51,366 But the caution and the word of caution here is we cannot do this work 180 00:19:51,400 --> 00:19:53,300 This is what I wanna bring 181 00:19:53,366 --> 00:19:57,566 We can do none of this work without being anchored to his affection 182 00:19:58,800 --> 00:20:08,233 We actually can do none of it without the awareness of his unfathomable immeasurable love for us 183 00:20:08,266 --> 00:20:12,933 That what he says about you becomes the truest thing about you 184 00:20:13,000 --> 00:20:33,166 The goal is not just blatant awareness and knowledge of your deficits but rather it is to come out from under the lie of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil where you would live able to judge yourself and others based on how they perform or behave based on how you perform or behave 185 00:20:33,200 --> 00:20:50,166 But rather to completely attach yourself inside the tree of life which is him which does not give you a free pass to no longer see your humanity but actually empowers you to be able to hold it 186 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:54,866 Because he is on your insides and he can hold it 187 00:20:54,933 --> 00:21:19,200 And he holds it that his entire plan for the restoration of humanity was to become human to actually put on flesh to put on your whole existence to know you as intimately as he could and to live fully connected to the Godhead to restore you 188 00:21:19,233 --> 00:21:20,900 He knows 189 00:21:20,966 --> 00:21:57,533 So there's this invitation to know us but if we do any of this work outside of the anchor of his love for us and his affection for us we could make our humanity our god we actually could fall into the pitfall of the work becoming the primary focus of the work becoming the thing that we worship or idolize that the this healthy version of myself me at the best of me is the attainable goal and it just isn't 190 00:21:57,566 --> 00:21:59,533 It's off 191 00:21:59,566 --> 00:22:11,766 Me as transformed into the image of Jesus on the earth is my goal and the invitation to growth is real and it's there and it matters 192 00:22:11,800 --> 00:22:14,833 But it's unto me becoming like him 193 00:22:14,866 --> 00:22:21,666 It is unto me being submitted to the full work of Jesus in my whole life and story 194 00:22:23,566 --> 00:22:34,033 I think sometimes we become fearful that will become too focused on our brokenness that will no longer see ourselves as whole 195 00:22:34,066 --> 00:22:40,066 And and it's a real question but it's his love that makes any of this possible 196 00:22:40,133 --> 00:22:43,566 It's his love that makes any of this work legal 197 00:22:43,600 --> 00:22:55,233 I actually do not have a right to go into looking at my deficits and and staring at my humanity and taking a look at all of my failures without the Holy Spirit 198 00:22:55,266 --> 00:22:58,833 I that's that's it that's illegal uh zone for me 199 00:22:58,866 --> 00:23:00,100 I don't get to live there 200 00:23:00,166 --> 00:23:10,800 In fact I told our bathroom students this year the Lord told me at the beginning of this year I only get to live inside of his delight anything outside of his delight is illegal territory for me 201 00:23:10,833 --> 00:23:12,233 I don't get to live there 202 00:23:12,266 --> 00:23:17,533 And when I find that I'm living outside of his delight it is a rush back into the heart of the father 203 00:23:17,600 --> 00:23:19,400 I can't function there 204 00:23:19,433 --> 00:23:33,400 I don't it's it's illegal for me so it's illegal hear me it's illegal for you to do any of this work without the Holy Spirit embodying empowering and inviting all of it 205 00:23:36,366 --> 00:23:44,233 You cannot go down this path without his love being the guiding force without the Holy Spirit 206 00:23:44,266 --> 00:23:53,133 We have multiple varied reactions to our humanity and I'm gonna share a few of them with you and they have all been mine 207 00:23:53,200 --> 00:24:00,066 Okay if you hear yourself in any of them that's the Holy Spirit because I'm talking about me 208 00:24:00,133 --> 00:24:07,600 Okay so our reactions to our humanity could look like spiritual bypass 209 00:24:07,633 --> 00:24:09,000 What is spiritual bypass 210 00:24:09,033 --> 00:24:11,466 What is this fancy phrase that we're talking about 211 00:24:11,533 --> 00:24:20,600 It's when I have to look at something that's broken about me and I just say oh it's under the blood oh my failure he he doesn't see that anymore 212 00:24:20,633 --> 00:24:29,100 This is true but we can actually cover up those things and never actually deal with them or look at them because oh Jesus took care of it 213 00:24:29,166 --> 00:24:40,733 It's under the blood that's actually true but your inability to look at it is perpetuating the you that the whole world around you is experiencing 214 00:24:40,766 --> 00:25:02,733 It is true that it's under the blood and your inability to look at it is impacting the world around you experience of you and you're actually being invited in you come on you get under the blood too and both of you you your deficit and you yourself get under the blood and take a look with King Jesus at what he wants to do and what he wants to work out 215 00:25:02,766 --> 00:25:04,466 Yeah it's under the blood you get under the blood too 216 00:25:04,533 --> 00:25:05,433 Let's deal with it 217 00:25:07,400 --> 00:25:19,766 No 2 Ouchy Ouchy in advance ouchy for me we build a world around us that insulates us from ever having to see it 218 00:25:19,800 --> 00:25:23,600 I don't think you heard me cause if you did you'd be saying ouch 219 00:25:23,633 --> 00:25:26,033 I'll give you an example 220 00:25:26,066 --> 00:25:43,066 I am a first born only daughter first born girl on all sides first granddaughter on this side first granddaughter on this side first grandchild on this side first grandchild on this side everybody's eyes are on me amen 221 00:25:45,933 --> 00:25:51,766 Everybody's watching her look at her go and she's got the eyes of the world and man she can do anything 222 00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:53,300 Okay it's fun 223 00:25:53,366 --> 00:25:57,433 Okay but it can grow some not so great things on your insides right 224 00:25:57,466 --> 00:26:05,433 You actually can grow this whole ecosystem value system belief system of everybody's fine because I'm amazing 225 00:26:05,466 --> 00:26:09,933 And if I'm not amazing or if somebody's not fine it's probably because I'm not amazing 226 00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:13,166 And listen mom's in the room she did an amazing job 227 00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:14,266 They did amazing 228 00:26:14,333 --> 00:26:20,500 This is what actually the enemy slips in lies even in my healthy wonderful beautiful upbringing of 229 00:26:20,533 --> 00:26:23,566 Don't you see it's up to you to keep everyone happy 230 00:26:23,600 --> 00:26:28,266 They're all happy because of you which means if they're unhappy also you 231 00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:39,066 So the way that I insulate that and never have to look at that thing is by actually creating a world where no one has to experience my failure 232 00:26:41,200 --> 00:26:42,166 Shut up Laura 233 00:26:43,733 --> 00:26:44,133 Can I say 234 00:26:44,166 --> 00:26:45,166 Shut up from the stage 235 00:26:45,200 --> 00:26:45,966 I did 236 00:26:47,033 --> 00:26:58,233 It's on the podcast now if I'm good enough at all the things nobody will ever have to experience these deficits of mine 237 00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:01,866 If I it must say something about my value 238 00:27:01,933 --> 00:27:04,900 So I'll create a little world where nobody ever has to see it 239 00:27:06,333 --> 00:27:09,000 This is what insulation looks like 240 00:27:09,033 --> 00:27:10,233 Okay 241 00:27:10,266 --> 00:27:11,833 Oh I have so much more to say 242 00:27:11,866 --> 00:27:13,633 That clock is bullying me 243 00:27:13,666 --> 00:27:20,466 Um haha you know we all also know and again talking about myself I have been this person 244 00:27:20,533 --> 00:27:23,966 I've worked really hard over the course of a lot of years to not be this person 245 00:27:24,000 --> 00:27:26,566 In fact I am proactively not this person 246 00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:34,900 I'll tell you why but we all know the people okay who feedback breaks them they cannot take it 247 00:27:34,966 --> 00:27:39,233 It is so painful because it's highlighting some of their own deficits 248 00:27:39,266 --> 00:27:42,300 It's okay we love them anyway but what do you learn 249 00:27:42,366 --> 00:27:45,033 You learn I just won't bring them feedback 250 00:27:45,066 --> 00:27:48,066 I just won't be fully honest and transparent 251 00:27:48,133 --> 00:27:49,800 I was this person 252 00:27:49,833 --> 00:27:52,233 Now I literally like grabbing my friends by the shoulders 253 00:27:52,266 --> 00:27:54,233 I'm like look for things to give me feedback about 254 00:27:54,266 --> 00:27:57,900 I need to desensitize myself to this so that I can be healthy about it 255 00:27:57,966 --> 00:28:00,533 Tell me something you see today find something 256 00:28:00,566 --> 00:28:02,733 If you don't have it go away and come back 257 00:28:04,400 --> 00:28:09,800 I wanna be so desensitized to this because my value is not tied up in it 258 00:28:09,833 --> 00:28:21,133 Okay you and then and then another option of course on the table when we talk about growth without an invitation from the Holy Spirit is self deprecation and self hatred 259 00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:24,566 And we actually get so swarmed with how broken we are 260 00:28:24,600 --> 00:28:32,233 Listen I'm the most aware of my brokenness but if the Holy Spirit is not highlighting it I don't get to swirl around it 261 00:28:32,266 --> 00:28:35,033 I actually don't have a past to go there 262 00:28:35,066 --> 00:28:39,166 So without him it can turn into self hatred really quick or pride 263 00:28:39,233 --> 00:28:43,000 And those are kind of your options or some version of what I've already talked about 264 00:28:43,033 --> 00:28:44,700 Yeah we're gonna go fast 265 00:28:44,766 --> 00:29:03,833 You guys buckle in haha your deficits guys listen let's just remember all of your deficits started in very real places because you weren't given perfect love in the earth even in the healthiest of homes with the kindest of upbringings 266 00:29:03,866 --> 00:29:08,966 What was given to you likely float out of someone else's deficits 267 00:29:09,033 --> 00:29:23,400 And so the trauma or the brokenness the ways you learn to survive all of it learn patterns of behavior family value systems communication styles all of it is ready to be touched by King Jesus 268 00:29:23,433 --> 00:29:31,133 His affection does not disregard these things nor does it shine them up or forget about them 269 00:29:31,200 --> 00:29:42,866 But it actually an issue it issues an order of Grace that allows you to view hold and accept your whole story while also growing into his likeness 270 00:29:42,933 --> 00:29:48,300 Because now your entire significance is in him and what he did in the cross 271 00:29:48,333 --> 00:30:02,033 And then it paved a way for you to get to do this work this work you became one with him in the miracle moment of your salvation but transforming into his image is your lifelong journey 272 00:30:03,633 --> 00:30:07,833 So we do talk a lot about growth but it's not for self actualization or deprecation 273 00:30:07,866 --> 00:30:10,266 It's not even for self at all 274 00:30:10,333 --> 00:30:14,766 It's for the man Jesus to get the fullness of what he paid for in my story 275 00:30:14,800 --> 00:30:21,866 It's for him to get to touch every single thing that his blood paid for but we don't know how to do this because it's scary 276 00:30:21,933 --> 00:30:24,566 I don't I don't actually like talking about growth 277 00:30:24,600 --> 00:30:30,966 I don't know if you guys have been watching the the podcast the Touch Point podcast that we do in between service every week 278 00:30:31,000 --> 00:30:33,300 Last time I was like I don't wanna talk about this anymore 279 00:30:33,366 --> 00:30:34,266 Can we be done 280 00:30:34,333 --> 00:30:57,333 Because if we're talking about growth it means he's gonna Wanna do more of it and I don't want to but it is the invitation but the reason why it's hard you guys is because we believe our identity is connected to it that feedback growth owning your deficits feel so high stakes because we find our value in our doing and in other's perception of us 281 00:30:58,433 --> 00:31:04,700 We can't hold our own brokenness and so we're afraid if we have to face our deficits it will crush us 282 00:31:04,766 --> 00:31:10,733 But listen when you diminish your brokenness you diminish your need for the whole Jesus 283 00:31:12,133 --> 00:31:18,100 When you are shining up your failures you are diminishing your access to the kingdom 284 00:31:18,133 --> 00:31:22,366 It was your need to the first savior that got you here in the first place 285 00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:25,366 It is your weakness in which he is made strong 286 00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:39,166 So to create a world in which my deficits my weaknesses my humanity is not real is to live inside a false narrative of the gospel one that is based on my performance still and not the whole Jesus 287 00:31:41,266 --> 00:31:48,166 Your poverty is the very entrance point to the kingdom so I wanna give us an invitation here 288 00:31:48,233 --> 00:31:50,633 Haha hang on tight 289 00:31:52,366 --> 00:32:04,966 The degree to which you can hold your own humanity has become not will become it has has become the silent limiter of intimacy in all of your relationships 290 00:32:06,400 --> 00:32:07,833 I'm gonna say it again 291 00:32:07,866 --> 00:32:16,033 The degree to which you can hold your own humanity becomes the silent limiter of how intimate your relationships can be 292 00:32:18,466 --> 00:32:22,866 The New Covenant ushered in a whole new way of doing relationships 293 00:32:22,933 --> 00:32:30,033 And this is what he cared so deeply about in the Old Testament that he built entire structures around protecting this 294 00:32:30,066 --> 00:32:50,166 Yes so when we talk about health and wholeness in our relationships it's because we want Jesus to get the full reward of what he died for which was you brought into a new covenant reality where the law has been fulfilled and you can now officially dwell in unity peace and righteousness with all men 295 00:32:50,233 --> 00:32:55,633 You could not do that before but it's all throughout scripture that this was his passion 296 00:32:58,433 --> 00:33:02,066 How can we be one if our way of relating to people is still under the Old Covenant 297 00:33:02,133 --> 00:33:08,000 Now we're all in the new Covenant like I said but we still have ways of behaving like the Old Covenant 298 00:33:08,033 --> 00:33:18,866 Old Covenant relationship says I hold you to a standard of judgment that is impossible for you to uphold and then I judge you for it and I am justified in my boundaries 299 00:33:18,933 --> 00:33:26,500 So we build whole cut off culture not boundaries culture but cut off culture because I've held you to an actual impossible standard 300 00:33:26,533 --> 00:33:33,366 And now I'm justified when I put boundaries up to keep you out which we're not even talk about boundaries because we don't have time 301 00:33:33,400 --> 00:33:34,733 So just there it is 302 00:33:36,833 --> 00:33:44,933 Or you hold yourself to a standard that it's impossible for you to uphold and then you judge yourself for it and keep people at arms length 303 00:33:46,633 --> 00:33:53,900 Remember the degree to which you can hold your own humanity will become the silent limiter on how intimate your relationships can be 304 00:33:55,600 --> 00:34:05,933 How much I can hold my own humanity becomes an invitation for intimacy in every one of my relationships even in my relationship with Jesus 305 00:34:08,266 --> 00:34:18,800 Cause I can live completely bare completely open with none of my identity attached to anything that I put my hands to 306 00:34:20,200 --> 00:34:25,033 Because all of my value is inside of him 307 00:34:25,066 --> 00:34:29,066 And I can take a hard look at the places where I failed 308 00:34:29,133 --> 00:34:38,900 And not be rattled or shaken or actually talk really openly about them because they don't define me 309 00:34:40,333 --> 00:34:43,633 We also have made a lot to do about our souls over the last 10 years 310 00:34:43,666 --> 00:34:47,233 The church has been talked talking about soul health a lot and it really matters 311 00:34:47,266 --> 00:34:51,833 I think we've probably done this because for generations we were really trying to just crush the soul 312 00:34:51,866 --> 00:34:54,233 There was no soul or spirit only 313 00:34:54,266 --> 00:35:01,633 Um but uh he cares so much about your soul and he cares about your emotional health so deeply 314 00:35:03,133 --> 00:35:05,733 Yeah thank you Jesus 315 00:35:05,766 --> 00:35:17,566 Your emotional health processing ability to grieve lament was is all an invitation for the work of Christ and his resurrection to touch those very human parts of you 316 00:35:19,166 --> 00:35:21,866 So I'm gonna give you a real time example 317 00:35:21,933 --> 00:35:24,433 I'm gonna be really vulnerable up here on a microphone today 318 00:35:24,466 --> 00:35:30,733 And I'm gonna give you my own example so that you so that potentially the Holy Spirit can illuminate it for you 319 00:35:30,800 --> 00:35:33,233 What this maybe looks like in your story 320 00:35:33,266 --> 00:35:44,266 So last week last week last week I got super triggered in some of my insecurities 321 00:35:44,333 --> 00:35:45,700 How did I know I was triggered 322 00:35:45,733 --> 00:35:47,900 All because I've done some growth work 323 00:35:49,066 --> 00:35:56,100 Oh because I've let self awareness with the work of the Holy Spirit be a huge part of my story 324 00:35:56,166 --> 00:36:05,166 So I'm like in this freak out moment that didn't have anything to do with let me okay I got triggered 325 00:36:05,200 --> 00:36:13,233 Okay it happened right in the middle of a certain conference where 460 of you were sitting in this room 326 00:36:13,266 --> 00:36:15,766 Okay we a lot of we a lot of us were here 327 00:36:15,833 --> 00:36:28,666 Okay you were experiencing this with me and not knowing that you were experiencing this week with me last week okay I was on stage all weekend and I'm triggered in my insecurities around something that has nothing to do with the conference 328 00:36:28,733 --> 00:36:33,800 Okay but it's happening Whoo all at the same time perfect 329 00:36:34,933 --> 00:36:40,033 Okay so there's multiple invitations that play for me here 330 00:36:40,066 --> 00:36:42,233 Stay swirling in the insecurity 331 00:36:42,266 --> 00:36:43,833 Just let that thing keep moving 332 00:36:43,866 --> 00:36:48,300 Just keep it moving hop on that ride and ride it all the way down 333 00:36:48,366 --> 00:36:50,266 You're laughing cause you've done it 334 00:36:50,333 --> 00:36:53,333 You guys know what this is like you know what I'm gonna do 335 00:36:53,366 --> 00:36:55,633 I was gonna pick my feet up and let this thing ride 336 00:36:55,666 --> 00:36:59,666 Okay okay that was definitely an invitation 337 00:36:59,733 --> 00:37:01,033 Here's another invitation 338 00:37:01,066 --> 00:37:03,633 Oh this feels a little icky and scary to talk about 339 00:37:05,233 --> 00:37:05,866 Thank you 340 00:37:05,933 --> 00:37:16,333 We I could allow a feeling of external success to bolster and cover up my insecurity 341 00:37:18,733 --> 00:37:21,233 Yes I'm on stage all weekend 342 00:37:21,266 --> 00:37:26,900 I come off the stage and stranger says you're doing such a great job this weekend 343 00:37:26,966 --> 00:37:35,200 I could let that thing insulate me from doing the actual necessary work to figure out why am I triggered 344 00:37:35,233 --> 00:37:54,266 I could find my external value right there in that thing yeah and build a whole beautiful shined up picture all the Lord and his kindness sent this person to me so that I wouldn't have to feel this way anymore and have it oh it's a testimony now amen 345 00:37:54,333 --> 00:38:10,400 It's I am amazing it's a testimony now yeah okay could have done that could have just declared some identity statements and overcome good tools very good tools not mom not mocking tools but I could have just declared it away 346 00:38:10,433 --> 00:38:16,300 Okay I could let the praise and the validation of others just continue to mask my insecurity 347 00:38:16,366 --> 00:38:17,866 Do you know what I did instead 348 00:38:17,933 --> 00:38:20,233 I rushed the altar 349 00:38:20,266 --> 00:38:28,700 I come off of this stage literally bypass every single person and cast the crowns as quickly as I can 350 00:38:28,766 --> 00:38:38,800 I am count any crown that I could put on myself that another person could put on me that someone else's opinion could could tell me a story about myself 351 00:38:38,833 --> 00:38:40,633 It's gotta come off right now 352 00:38:40,666 --> 00:38:46,066 I gotta cast it at the feet of Jesus and get at the altar as quickly as I can 353 00:38:46,133 --> 00:38:47,800 It's the only option 354 00:38:47,833 --> 00:38:50,600 Woo so I bring all of the insecurity 355 00:38:50,633 --> 00:39:04,633 I want to be immediately seen by Jesus not by anyone else in that yucky place of swirly whirly you know stuff I wanna get at the feet of Jesus immediately 356 00:39:04,666 --> 00:39:10,500 The the the question is not how much does my humanity keep showing up 357 00:39:10,566 --> 00:39:17,033 The question is how quickly does my humanity drive me to the table where I can feast on his goodness 358 00:39:17,066 --> 00:39:20,233 It's not can I punish myself for having this insecure thought 359 00:39:20,266 --> 00:39:24,666 Again it's can this insecurity drive me to his heart 360 00:39:24,733 --> 00:39:32,033 Can it drive me to the altar where he will meet me where the blood still stands 361 00:39:35,266 --> 00:39:42,900 So I'm there just letting his words his thoughts his opinions fill me quicker than anyone else's like hard boundary 362 00:39:42,966 --> 00:39:43,733 Don't talk to me 363 00:39:43,766 --> 00:39:44,833 I'm on the floor 364 00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:49,833 So I bring it to the altar and guess what I didn't do 365 00:39:49,866 --> 00:39:55,433 I didn't clean it up I didn't fix it I didn't shove it under the blood 366 00:39:55,466 --> 00:40:00,500 I invited him to take me on a journey to change my thoughts 367 00:40:00,566 --> 00:40:08,666 I let him put his finger on Babe this insecurity is still there because of this belief system 368 00:40:08,733 --> 00:40:16,866 It's actually really you could stay in victim if you stay in this insecurity and think that that's why you're here 369 00:40:18,133 --> 00:40:26,333 If you would actually let me put my finger on the belief system that brought this up in the first place that's gonna be way more painful 370 00:40:26,366 --> 00:40:27,666 Can we do that instead 371 00:40:32,033 --> 00:40:36,233 So I invite him it requires coming to full repentance 372 00:40:36,266 --> 00:40:51,800 But listen I don't get there except for having gone here except for owning my entire story allowing my full humanity to be touched by the person of Jesus 373 00:40:52,966 --> 00:40:56,566 Allowing all of my story to be known by him 374 00:40:56,600 --> 00:41:00,866 So that when that insecurity hits I'm like oh I know this 375 00:41:00,933 --> 00:41:10,033 We gotta cast every crown and get on we gotta get facetime right now right now I gotta bring all of this not shined up not pretty right now 376 00:41:10,066 --> 00:41:15,233 I need the whole Christ to empower me to change the way I believe 377 00:41:20,333 --> 00:41:31,233 And in this reality in this version of growth your greatest weaknesses become the invitations to your greatest encounters 378 00:41:31,266 --> 00:41:37,666 Your greatest deficits become the gateway for you knowing him more deeply 379 00:41:41,733 --> 00:41:47,700 How much of my internal world has been submitted to this new and better kingdom 380 00:41:48,933 --> 00:41:54,566 Jesus we love you we love you we want you 381 00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:56,600 You're all we want Jesus 382 00:41:58,766 --> 00:42:06,333 We want you to inhabit every part of our story and we don't wanna grow without you 383 00:42:06,366 --> 00:42:07,733 It's not worth it 384 00:42:09,333 --> 00:42:13,200 It's nothing without you without the Holy Spirit 385 00:42:18,233 --> 00:42:26,300 So would you just move on our hearts right now every heart in the room 386 00:42:26,366 --> 00:42:36,533 There's an invitation for greater intimacy with him to be fully known by the king of Kings 387 00:42:50,966 --> 00:43:02,166 I actually feel like there's those of you who have actually been right on the threshold of growth that you actually felt this invitation in your heart's been burning all morning 388 00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:11,000 You felt it you've been standing right there and you know the cost of stepping off 389 00:43:13,833 --> 00:43:17,900 But as I see that like how precipices I can see it 390 00:43:17,966 --> 00:43:32,033 I feel it being completely radiated by his smile by his kindness drawing you to do the work 391 00:43:34,033 --> 00:43:59,200 Maybe for the first time not motivated by the better you that you'll be on the other side but motivated by his love his values his pursuit of you to put his hand on every part 392 00:44:02,166 --> 00:44:13,233 If that's you actually if you feel like yeah I've actually been feeling he's calling me into that to step off the edge and to do the work 393 00:44:14,566 --> 00:44:18,866 And today is the day I wanna say yeah I wanna I wanna go there with you Jesus 394 00:44:18,933 --> 00:44:23,100 I want I want this intimacy that's been made available 395 00:44:23,133 --> 00:44:23,766 Would you move 396 00:44:23,800 --> 00:44:26,100 Actually would you move in the room and come to the front 397 00:44:29,400 --> 00:45:05,766 Thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus haha yeah what's waiting to meet you 398 00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:16,900 Here is his delight his delight is waiting when you make that step 399 00:45:16,966 --> 00:45:29,766 What's there to catch you is the delight of the father all of his joy all of his pleasure Holy Spirit 400 00:45:29,800 --> 00:45:34,466 This is what we mean when we say you can have it all 401 00:45:36,333 --> 00:46:26,500 This is what we mean have it all all of me have all of me yeah I just feel literally like his wrap around presents in the room just saying yeah for the first time 402 00:46:26,533 --> 00:46:28,300 You're actually not doing this alone 403 00:46:32,133 --> 00:46:34,666 You're not growing in your own strength but in mine 404 00:46:38,666 --> 00:46:52,366 You're not growing into the version of me that you think you're meant to be but you have an issue an order of Grace to be transformed into his likeness 405 00:46:53,433 --> 00:46:56,966 Thank you Holy Spirit thank you Holy Spirit