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Speaker AWelcome to the Abundant Life Podcast, bringing you encouragement and challenging believers to spiritual change and growth by applying biblical principles to everyday life.
Speaker AAnd now your hosts, Sasso Mendez and Ben Arellano.
Speaker AWelcome, everybody, to the Abundant Live Podcast.
Speaker AThis is episode number seven four, and I'm here with my good friend at Faithful Sermon in the Faith, Sasso Mendez.
Speaker BHey, Ben.
Speaker BHow's it going?
Speaker AOh, it's going, bro.
Speaker BThis is the first one of the new year 2026.
Speaker AWe're slacking.
Speaker BI know.
Speaker BIt's okay.
Speaker BWe got a lot going on.
Speaker BKnow what I mean?
Speaker AWe didn't say wow.
Speaker AWow.
Speaker BThat's for you.
Speaker BYou know who you are.
Speaker CEaster eggs.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BYou don't listen anyway, but that's okay.
Speaker BWhen you choose to.
Speaker BWhen I'm gone, no longer here, and you listen to this, you think of me.
Speaker BAll right, well, we do have a special guest all the way from Rhode Island.
Speaker BPastor's gonna ask you one more time, where are you from again?
Speaker BMassachusetts.
Speaker BMassachusetts.
Speaker CIn that area?
Speaker BNew England area.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAll right, we have Aaron Flynn.
Speaker CHello.
Speaker CHi.
Speaker BWelcome.
Speaker BAll the way in.
Speaker BNot for this episode, but we thought we'd combine it.
Speaker BAnd trying to get Aaron on for quite some time.
Speaker BI think I've asked, I don't know, maybe a year ago.
Speaker BYeah, initially.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker CNow's the time.
Speaker BThat's how I worked with Rebecca, too.
Speaker BAsked her and then took time.
Speaker BAnd, yeah, like algae, they grew on the rock.
Speaker BSo welcome.
Speaker BWelcome to Life podcast.
Speaker AGlad you're here.
Speaker CThank you for having me.
Speaker CI feel really honored and I'm a huge fan, so.
Speaker CSo I'm really excited to be a.
Speaker BPart of this faithful listener.
Speaker AThank you.
Speaker BThank you.
Speaker CYes, I am.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BYou and my mom.
Speaker BThank you two listeners.
Speaker BAnd your mom been as well.
Speaker BThree.
Speaker AGood job, mijo.
Speaker BYou are the best.
Speaker AWell, as you know, this is taco talk, and yes, we've been asked to keep it short today, so we'll do our best.
Speaker AYeah, I can't promise anything, but we'll do our best.
Speaker BYeah, we'll do our best.
Speaker BSo, Aaron, what?
Speaker BI know you guys went to dinner tonight, but what when you think of a typical meal that you look forward to or you want to dine somewhere, like, what's your.
Speaker BWhat pleases the palate?
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CSo I've been thinking about this, and I listened to a few episodes.
Speaker CI'm a big Quick Trip fan.
Speaker CI'm gonna Right off the rip.
Speaker CI'm gonna let you know, Carlos Taquito from Quick Trip.
Speaker CThat's like my comfort meal for chicken.
Speaker CThe steak one they have a stick the steak taquito.
Speaker AThey do, bro.
Speaker CYou're sleeping on it.
Speaker BYou really have been inside of a QT and like I'm and seek champion there.
Speaker CYou're missing out.
Speaker CQuick trip is very.
Speaker BI like their tea.
Speaker CThey.
Speaker CYes, they have everything you need.
Speaker BThe last time I went is when we went to visitation at the park.
Speaker BAnd remember afterwards you went.
Speaker BThat's the last time I went.
Speaker AThat's a hot minute, bro.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BCuz we haven't gone to that park.
Speaker AIt's been a while.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BAnd I apologize.
Speaker BDr. Flynn here.
Speaker BOh, please don't with us.
Speaker CAaron's fine.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BOkay.
Speaker AAll right.
Speaker CBut meals that I look forward to.
Speaker CI'm a big like sushi person.
Speaker CPokey.
Speaker CI think it's pronounced like the bowls with different options.
Speaker AYeah, yeah.
Speaker APastor took me there one time and I, I. Yeah, I didn't know what anything was and it, you know, I. Yeah, it was different.
Speaker BI'll take some white rice.
Speaker CYeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker AIt was the one over here at dirty 30.
Speaker COh, I really enjoy that one.
Speaker AYeah, I. I just never had been there and didn't know what everything.
Speaker BPokey.
Speaker BAnother word for surprise or you get to.
Speaker CYou get to choose it.
Speaker AYeah, it's like that memes.
Speaker ASurprise.
Speaker BSurprise.
Speaker BI love that.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BYeah, pretty much.
Speaker BI think it's funny because when I think when Pastor takes you out, he never like, he says you, where do you want to go?
Speaker BAnd then you.
Speaker BAnd then he just goes somewhere else.
Speaker AIt's Taglianis or Pokey.
Speaker BTo me it was Chipotle.
Speaker AOh, wow.
Speaker AYou got Chipotle.
Speaker AI would have taken Chipotle, bro.
Speaker AI mean, Taglianis and what's Tagliani's?
Speaker AIt's Italian.
Speaker AIt's nice.
Speaker ABut you know, when he's paying, I don't want to, so I get it.
Speaker ASalad, you know, that's nice of you.
Speaker AYou know, so I don't want to, you know.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CIndulge.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CWhat about you guys?
Speaker CWhat's been.
Speaker AChicken parm or something.
Speaker AYou know, get something.
Speaker AI would, but, you know, maybe now.
Speaker BI didn't buy you.
Speaker BYeah, maybe now what do we like?
Speaker CI mean, recently I've heard some of your thoughts.
Speaker CBuffalo wild Wings, right?
Speaker BI get burned out on that.
Speaker BI'm.
Speaker BI mean, I went today because it's by work, but I get burned out on it because it's like.
Speaker AWell, three or four times a week does burn you out.
Speaker BIf I run.
Speaker BReally start to fly.
Speaker BThat's how much wings I've had lately.
Speaker AYeah, I like it.
Speaker ABecause I don't go as I go once a week with.
Speaker AWith sauce.
Speaker ASo I'm one of his four.
Speaker AYou know, he's got Marty, me, and he's got a couple of people on rotation sometimes his team, you know, so.
Speaker BBut I got to work and Marty, that's the first thing he said is Marty the Mormon.
Speaker BHe said, Marty the Mormon.
Speaker CWe'll pray for him.
Speaker BWe got to pray for Marty.
Speaker BYes, I'm sure he's praying for me, but it just, it's not going nowhere.
Speaker BNo offense, Marty.
Speaker BAnd he's like, hey, we, are you ready for beat ups today?
Speaker BAnd I'm like, yeah, sure.
Speaker BMy favorite restaurant, I would say probably out of everything right now is probably Matt's.
Speaker BMatt's Big Breakfast.
Speaker CI remember you talking about that last episode.
Speaker BI love Matt's.
Speaker AGood.
Speaker CThe pancakes, right?
Speaker CYou thought those.
Speaker BNot usually pancakes, but I can't have the pancakes.
Speaker BYou know, my doctor said pump the brakes on your A1C.
Speaker BSo summer pancakes are not.
Speaker BBut I do love them.
Speaker CModeration, right.
Speaker COne a month.
Speaker BI'm all gas, no breaks.
Speaker BYou know what I mean?
Speaker BThat's my problem with food.
Speaker AI mean, even one pancake there is.
Speaker AIt's pretty big, you know, it's like a plate is so good.
Speaker AI mean, it's 100 Maple, so it's good.
Speaker AThey give you real butter.
Speaker AI mean, so it's, it's phenomenal.
Speaker AIt's just, it's.
Speaker AAnd it tastes really good.
Speaker BOh, it's one.
Speaker BIt's funny is I went to Vermont, right?
Speaker BAnd I found this drunk farmer and it was like 2 o' clock in the afternoon and I bought some maple syrup from him.
Speaker BAnd I got Rebecca cutting board and I had a maple syrup shipped to Ben.
Speaker BAnd I still have my bottle.
Speaker BBen was done with that bottle, like in a month.
Speaker BI think I bought you another one, Right.
Speaker BFor Christmas or something.
Speaker AIt was the best maple syrup I've ever had.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CBecause they like tap the trees, like literally tapped the trees straight off the tree.
Speaker AHe threw some cinnamon in there and it was phenomenal.
Speaker AI mean, it was.
Speaker CWas he actually drunk?
Speaker BYeah, he was a little.
Speaker CAll right.
Speaker CYou could probably trust him then.
Speaker BBuzz drinking.
Speaker BYeah, Buzz drinking is, you know, still, still drinking.
Speaker BYeah, yeah.
Speaker BIt was o' clock in the afternoon.
Speaker BHe had like a little shed, like a, you know, like a nice wood shed.
Speaker BAnd he sold.
Speaker BHe had a big property, you know, he had those bridges, those, those wood cover bridges that you see back on the East Coast.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BOver the water, you know, so it was right by his house.
Speaker BAnd he was.
Speaker BI've talked to him outside of that just because I've ordered stuff from him.
Speaker BReally nice guy.
Speaker BBut I still have my bottle and Ben is like.
Speaker BHe drinks it like it's a nectar.
Speaker AIt really is.
Speaker AI mean.
Speaker AWell, I like my pancake swimming.
Speaker COh, yeah.
Speaker AButter and syrup.
Speaker ALike it's just like it swimming.
Speaker BI can't even see it, bro.
Speaker BI can't even see the pancake no more like.
Speaker AThat's what I'm saying.
Speaker ABaptized, bro.
Speaker ADunked.
Speaker BBehold.
Speaker BWow.
Speaker BIt's deep, man.
Speaker BSo, yeah, Ben likes some maple syrup.
Speaker CBut just maple syrup.
Speaker CNo, I mean, I'm just, just kidding.
Speaker AWell, in this year though, I've, you know, I've cut back on a lot of stuff.
Speaker ASo I've been.
Speaker AI've been doing pretty good this year.
Speaker BDid you cut back on the maple syrup?
Speaker AYeah, I have not had maple syrup this year.
Speaker BWow.
Speaker AI've not had.
Speaker AActually I've had no sugar this year.
Speaker BWow.
Speaker AIf I have to.
Speaker AI mean, if you count potatoes, I don't know, it's a starch.
Speaker BDan's like the burrito, bro.
Speaker AI know.
Speaker CNo, that's amazing.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AYou know, potatoes, maybe carrots.
Speaker AI don't know if that counts, but you know, you know, beans.
Speaker AI don't know.
Speaker BI think it's impossible to not have carbs.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BSomebody.
Speaker BPeople equate it to sweets, but carbs are in everything.
Speaker BThey're milk, juice, French fries.
Speaker BThey're really.
Speaker CThey're really good for you.
Speaker CLike the right ones.
Speaker CIt sounds like mostly processed sugar is what you're avoiding, maybe.
Speaker ACorrect.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CCuz that's not great for your body.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker CAnd I say, but you know, my diet doesn't reflect that, but it's.
Speaker CI can understand why you're avoiding it.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AI've been trying to at least, but you know, I've been eating a lot better this year, I think.
Speaker CI mean, a month down, most people quit their.
Speaker CTheir New Year's resolutions within like the first week.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker CThere's some statistic about that.
Speaker AThey say if you can keep a habit for 21 days, you probably will hang on to it.
Speaker ASo that true?
Speaker AThat is.
Speaker ABut it's going pretty good so far.
Speaker BBecause it depends who you are.
Speaker BYou know what I mean?
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BYour name's David Goggins maybe, you know.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker BMakes a lot of sense.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BFor peanuts, not so much.
Speaker CHow are you feeling without sugar?
Speaker AI love it.
Speaker AIt's great.
Speaker ALike, I'm.
Speaker AI'm feeling pretty good.
Speaker AI like, because I'm a Meat guy.
Speaker AAnyway, so I don't mind.
Speaker AI mean, I protein like crazy.
Speaker AI don't care.
Speaker AI love eggs, I love meat, I love chicken.
Speaker ASo it's.
Speaker BThank you, Christy.
Speaker BChristy came with like three and a half dozen the other night.
Speaker AOh, wow.
Speaker BFreedom of last how?
Speaker CYeah, her testimony was incredible.
Speaker CAnd I heard about all of her amazing animals.
Speaker AOh, yeah, a lot of chickens.
Speaker AHer chicken eggs are pretty good, too.
Speaker AWe've had.
Speaker AWe've had a few dozen of those and they're pretty good.
Speaker AYeah, they're little, they're small, but they're good.
Speaker AThey're really good.
Speaker BWhen they're free, you can have eight.
Speaker AYeah, I know, right?
Speaker ADelicious caged eggs.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BI'm just hoping that she gets pigs, you know, I mean, bacon.
Speaker AThat bacon at Matt's, though.
Speaker AThat bacon and Matt's is phenomenal.
Speaker CIs it like a thick cut?
Speaker AThey got some peppercorns on it.
Speaker CIt's just.
Speaker AIt's so good.
Speaker AIt's really good.
Speaker BYeah, it's a little peppery.
Speaker BSo if you don't like pepper, it's not for you.
Speaker BBut Marty will always get a side of bacon.
Speaker BAnd today he told me, my wife's going out of town.
Speaker BRosindo.
Speaker BSo you know what that means.
Speaker AOh, man.
Speaker BWe're going to Matt's on Saturday.
Speaker BI'm like, let's do it.
Speaker BHis wife hates on him for math.
Speaker BShe doesn't like it as much as neither is Rebecca.
Speaker BI mean, she gave me 50 bucks for Christmas and then Marty gave me 30 bucks for Mats specifically.
Speaker COkay.
Speaker BSo I have like 14 left.
Speaker AI have a gift card for B Dubs, and then I have all those points for B Dubs.
Speaker ABut the good thing about B Dubs is it's.
Speaker AIt's fried and beef tallow.
Speaker ASo the wings are fried in beef tallow.
Speaker ASo, you know, it's a little healthier option.
Speaker CThat's what.
Speaker CYeah, I was going to say that's supposed to be good for you.
Speaker AAnd I usually do a salad.
Speaker AI've been doing salad this year.
Speaker AI've been trying not to cheat.
Speaker AUsually I sometimes will cheat with French fries, but I've been trying not to cheat.
Speaker CSo there's no sugar in French fries.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BMy love handles will disagree.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BBut, yeah, I didn't get no B Dubs gift cards this year, so.
Speaker BBut my work gave me $200 for my 10th anniversary.
Speaker BAnd you can get bdubs.
Speaker BOr they got several options in there.
Speaker BArch Drums, Nike, Nordstrom, Nike, and then Shields.
Speaker BShields is probably my favorite store right now.
Speaker BI'm digging on that.
Speaker BThey got a.
Speaker BIt's a sporting goods store.
Speaker COkay.
Speaker AIt's huge.
Speaker BBut they have everything you could possibly think of.
Speaker BLike, they have a cornhole, professional cornholes, lights, weights, guns.
Speaker AIt's like.
Speaker AIt's like a dicks and a cabela's like, like, merged out a baby.
Speaker BAnd the baby is better looking than both parents.
Speaker BThat's what chills is.
Speaker BYou know what I mean?
Speaker BThat's the cute one.
Speaker BLike, two ugly people make a cute bab.
Speaker BThere you go.
Speaker BRight there.
Speaker AYep.
Speaker BThey got a Ferris wheel in the middle of the store.
Speaker CThat's crazy.
Speaker BRebecca said she was a little sketched out because she said went a little faster than she thought.
Speaker BAnd that's why I don't.
Speaker BIt's like a dollar.
Speaker BThat's why I don't get on there.
Speaker AI've never written it.
Speaker CWait, she went on there by herself?
Speaker BNo, she went with Kate.
Speaker COh, I love that.
Speaker BBut we have been on trips when it's her and I and she wants to go on a roller coaster, and I let her.
Speaker BIt could be the.
Speaker BThe hunkiest man in the park.
Speaker BI don't care.
Speaker BLike, I'm not going to.
Speaker CThere's a lot to unpack there.
Speaker BBut your confidence.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BLike, I'll be here waiting for you.
Speaker CAnd I love that she's brave enough to go do it anyway.
Speaker CYou know, she's.
Speaker BAs the years go by, she gets less brave.
Speaker BLike when we were first married, like, she would have bungee jumped off of the Eiffel Tower.
Speaker BNow she won't even get on the roof.
Speaker BOr maybe she's just telling me that because you don't want to work.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker COkay.
Speaker CI don't know.
Speaker BYou know what I mean?
Speaker BSmart.
Speaker BSmart move.
Speaker BEither way.
Speaker AWell, it's like that ride that we saw.
Speaker AWas it.
Speaker BWhat was.
Speaker AWhat was that park we went to in Dallas?
Speaker BSix Flags.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AWasn't there a ride where, like, it was literally hanging you upside down?
Speaker AI mean, I'm good for a good coaster, but that was just like, you're hanging literally upside down.
Speaker AIt's like.
Speaker AYeah, just kind of strapped in.
Speaker AI.
Speaker BWell, one time I went to amusement park with this girl I liked, and I went on every ride and I was, like, crying inside.
Speaker BWhen I got home, I took a hot shower and cried in my pillow for hours because I was just.
Speaker BAnd pent up.
Speaker CWere you nauseous or just anxious?
Speaker BScared?
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker COkay, well, that was.
Speaker CSee, we tuck our emotions deep down inside.
Speaker CI was like, yeah, white knuckle on it through.
Speaker BOpen your eyes.
Speaker BI'm like, I can't.
Speaker CYou know, there's probably a correlation to the story I'm going to share about getting through life without Christ there, you know, just trying to hold on for the ride and then crying when no one's looking.
Speaker AYeah, I just let it go, bro.
Speaker AI scream, let it go.
Speaker AThat's fun.
Speaker BThey remove my tear ducts too.
Speaker BI try not to.
Speaker AI mean, I figure if I'm gonna go, I'm gonna.
Speaker AI mean, it's.
Speaker AWhat are you gonna do?
Speaker AYou're going 60 miles an hour, whatever, like you're done.
Speaker ALike, might as well just let go.
Speaker CAnd just let God let go and let go.
Speaker BWhen I went to Disneyland, that's what I did.
Speaker BI just opened my eyes and I enjoyed it.
Speaker BAnd I said, if it's my time, it's my time, right?
Speaker BI can't, I can't fight it.
Speaker BBut for the most part, I just close my eyes and clench as hard as I can to the polls or whoever's there.
Speaker BEven if it's, you know, somebody, 80 year old lady, like, I'm breaking her leg because I'm squeezing it.
Speaker BI'm just terrified.
Speaker CBut how do you do on airplanes?
Speaker BThat don't bother me.
Speaker BSo what I used to do, this was a superstition that I had to get rid of.
Speaker BLike God convicted me of it because before we get on the plane, I would rub the side of it.
Speaker COh, I literally did that on the way here.
Speaker BTake, take, you know, take good care of us.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BIt's not, it's not the plane, it's God.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BSo I quit doing that.
Speaker BAnd then when we used to, you know, in that position where you're supplying that, you know, at the.
Speaker BI don't know what, that 45 degree angle, maybe I would prank, you know, I. I still try to pray, but I'm not scared.
Speaker BI will tell you a funny story.
Speaker BWe probably got to get into the podcast, but I was going to San Antonio for work and I was seated.
Speaker BThere was me, this girl and my friend at the end.
Speaker BAnd we started to taxi and we started to take off and suddenly I feel a hand on my leg, you know, and I was like, looked over at her, her eyes were closed.
Speaker BAnd then that hand with nails in there clenched into my leg.
Speaker COuch.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker AWow.
Speaker BAnd then I was like, oh, this is weird.
Speaker BI'm married.
Speaker BAnd is this.
Speaker BWhat is this?
Speaker BAnd then I looked and she was doing it to my friend too.
Speaker CShe was terrified.
Speaker BShe never mentioned it ever again.
Speaker BShe didn't say, oh, guys, I'm so sorry.
Speaker BI get scared when I fly.
Speaker BShe just.
Speaker AMaybe she thought it was her own.
Speaker AShe just didn't realize.
Speaker CMaybe she dissociated.
Speaker BYeah, bro.
Speaker BThat I was scared when I got back home because I had four nail marks in my thigh.
Speaker COkay, that's fair.
Speaker BYeah, she's like.
Speaker BLike, she was terrified and she's like, you know what?
Speaker BI hate to tell you guys this, but I gotta go home a day early.
Speaker BThe family things.
Speaker BAnd I'm like, thankful Lord.
Speaker CDid you know her?
Speaker BYeah, she was on my.
Speaker BShe was on our team at work.
Speaker COh, okay.
Speaker CAnd she just never brought it up again.
Speaker BShe never said, I'm sorry, guys, or, hey, I'm sorry about your knee or your thigh, you know, to file a harassment claim.
Speaker BI could have went to HR after that.
Speaker BI showed him the evidence.
Speaker BI chose not to.
Speaker BAll right, let's.
Speaker BLet's get into it.
Speaker BSorry, Rebecca would be like, you went too long.
Speaker AWe're going to get confused.
Speaker BI told you to keep it short.
Speaker AAll right, well, we are on social media.
Speaker AYou can find us at meta.
Speaker ASo you can find us on Instagram, Facebook and Twitter.
Speaker AWe are also on Tik Tok now, but mostly on YouTube.
Speaker BSo if you tick tock, get a lot of hate.
Speaker BBro, you said, I haven't looked on there because I don't have a tick tock.
Speaker BI don't.
Speaker AI don't look.
Speaker AIt was mostly on the Charlie Kirk episode.
Speaker AWe got a lot of hate.
Speaker AOkay.
Speaker AAnd I think Peter got some love, which is cool.
Speaker ABut anyway, either way, talk about ice.
Speaker BOr something that we really get some made up in here.
Speaker BAll right, let's not talk about that.
Speaker ASo anyway, it's also gonna kick us off with verse of the day.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BSecond Corinthians 5:17.
Speaker BWe say this every week at Freedom that lasts.
Speaker BIf you don't know what that is and send me a message and I'll invite you.
Speaker BBut this is a very powerful verse.
Speaker BIt's probably one of my favorite verses in the Bible because it talks about redemption and change, and that's what God does in our lives, and that's why Aaron's here today.
Speaker BSecond Corinthians 5:17 says, Therefore, if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature.
Speaker BOld things are passed away.
Speaker BBehold, all things are become new.
Speaker BAnd Aaron, with that, kind of start us off with your story and.
Speaker BAnd how God made all things new in your life.
Speaker AOr maybe even take us a little further back, maybe, you know, tell us a little about yourself.
Speaker AAnd then, you know.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker ABecause you Have a story?
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker COkay.
Speaker CWell, thank you.
Speaker CSo I was raised in Montana by two middle class, hard working parents that tried their best.
Speaker CI have two older sisters.
Speaker CYou know, I think a lot of people would say that their childhood wasn't perfect.
Speaker CI did experience quite a bit of hurt at the hand of a close family member and my parents weren't aware of it.
Speaker CAnd so we struggled with communication and that for the following 10 years that that happened.
Speaker CWe didn't talk and, you know, just weighed heavy on our hearts and it changed the way we interact with one another.
Speaker CSo I did not grow up in a religious household.
Speaker CThey read the Bible to us sometimes and there was a picture of Jesus on the wall of our living room, but it wasn't.
Speaker CThere was no fruit.
Speaker CAnd my parents grew up Catholic, so they had a lot of hurt from the things they had experienced.
Speaker CThey didn't feel the presence of Jesus Christ and they drew away from it and thought they were protecting us, which in hindsight they definitely were.
Speaker CI used to get so upset that I wasn't baptized growing up.
Speaker CAnd now I'm so happy that it's a conscious decision that we all make to choose Jesus Christ as our savior, to let him into our hearts.
Speaker CAnd so I got to do that as an adult and I was living in my flesh a lot.
Speaker CThat hurt that I experienced as a child manifested in my adult relationships.
Speaker CAnd I was selfish and blasphemed and lied and all of the sins against our good God that you could think of, I did happily.
Speaker CAnd I was living in darkness.
Speaker CAnd right around Covid, I was in.
Speaker CI was in a long term relationship with someone I was engaged to for about seven years.
Speaker CAnd we just never moved forward with marriage, which at the time it gave me a lot of anger towards him and resentment.
Speaker CAnd now I see it as a blessing because I wasn't prepared to be a wife.
Speaker CI didn't know anything about the sanctity of marriage, so God protected me from that.
Speaker CAnd right around Covid, I was in my second year of vet school and I was, as the rest of the world was, overwhelmed and scared with the state of things.
Speaker CAnd I had no savior.
Speaker CSo I was just out in the water with no buoy, drowning, and I found substance.
Speaker CI started smoking a lot of marijuana.
Speaker CAnd that put me in touch with spirit.
Speaker CAnd I want to try to be very clear about this because I think it's important in this day and age to address the fact that spirit is very real, but the Holy Spirit is supreme.
Speaker CAnd people, myself included, are drawn to the feelings that can be elicited from the devil through spiritual acts.
Speaker CSo examples of this would be tarot cards or reiki, which is a hands on healing technique or hands off healing technique.
Speaker CAnd these are all demonic things.
Speaker CBut I was drawn to them because my spirit was being interacted with instead of my flesh.
Speaker CAnd all of these things only touched me in my spirit because I was at an altered state of consciousness.
Speaker CSo I had, I, yes, I had to be high to engage with these things.
Speaker CAnd one of the things that struck me when I was reflecting on telling this story was Pharaoh in Egypt, right?
Speaker CSo his magicians, they could transiently replicate the miracles of God, but it wasn't anything like that.
Speaker CAnd so that's what I would, I would say doing those things honestly, working with a shaman, which now I'm creeped out by, it drew me into the spirit realm, but in ways that were short lived.
Speaker CAnd so I saw, I got addicted to the feeling that I would say, like those magicians could elicit that Pharaoh was distracted by because it's very real.
Speaker CEverything in this world is spiritual.
Speaker CSo I lived in that part of my life, that season of my life of addiction and occult practices for a few years and my relationship fell apart and I was about to graduate vet school and you know, it's all God's divine timing.
Speaker CSo we broke up the year I graduated in 2022 and then we had just signed a lease together.
Speaker CSo we were living in this big beautiful house in Peoria that I thought I was going to fill with a family.
Speaker CAnd we were truly just roommates because we had broken up and I graduated and I thought that vet school was going to answer all of my prayers.
Speaker CI was going to feel fulfilled and happy and instead I was just struck with anxiety all the time and overwhelmed and feeling under supported at home and at work.
Speaker CI'm Rebecca Mendez with Lamplight Ministries where I serve the Lord by loving others.
Speaker CThrough biblical counseling and workshops.
Speaker CEvery day we're reminded of our fallen world through disappointment, grief, fear, despair.
Speaker CWe need a Savior.
Speaker CAnd in Jesus Christ we have that Savior.
Speaker CHe came to rescue us, offering his Spirit to guide us and his Word to comfort, correct and lead us.
Speaker CIf you're a follower of Christ, eager to grow in him, I'd be honored to walk this journey with you through one on one biblical counseling.
Speaker CTogether we'll explore God's word, find encouragement and pursue faithful obedience to our Savior.
Speaker CPlease Visit me at lamplightministries.com to book your appointment today.
Speaker CAnd so 2023, June I'm living in that rental house, big, beautiful house that had so much potential and was so empty and lonely.
Speaker CAnd a family moves in next door.
Speaker CPerfect family.
Speaker CThey just elicit joy and, like, class decorum.
Speaker CAnd at this point, I am getting shamanic work regularly.
Speaker CI am.
Speaker CI had a professor at vet school who tried to train me in witchcraft.
Speaker CI'm in it, and I'm not happy, but it feels like the only thing that is real, right?
Speaker CBecause it's touching my spirit, but it's not.
Speaker CIt's not of God, so it's not fulfilling me outwardly.
Speaker CIt's just in those moments where I let the devil have me and control of my mind, essentially.
Speaker CI was feeling something.
Speaker CAll the other times I wasn't doing those things.
Speaker CI was just feeling numb, honestly.
Speaker CAnd so my older sister, Kayla, she's always been of God.
Speaker CI don't know how to explain it, but she sent me my first Bible, and we would read together, my sisters and I, and it brought a lot of healing to us.
Speaker CWe would be able to move through traumatic experiences that we had never talked about just by reading God's word and then trusting one another again.
Speaker CAnd that was really nice.
Speaker CAnd one day I was out on my patio reading, and this family next door was just out, you know, being happy.
Speaker CAnd I was like, man, this is frustrating.
Speaker CLike, they're just joyous and I'm miserable.
Speaker CAnd so that went on for maybe a week or two.
Speaker CAnd I think I remember writing in my journal, like, they're living rent free in my head, I think I said that when I got baptized, and I couldn't understand why God, at the time, I didn't know, but I couldn't understand why they had.
Speaker CI was thinking about them so much.
Speaker CAnd so one day I came home from work, and at the time, I was working for a boss that now I realize was trying to connect with me.
Speaker CBut I wasn't in a spot where I was receptive.
Speaker CI was just scared and anxious and wanting to prove myself.
Speaker CSo I was getting out of the Jeep, and I heard someone say, jesus made you wonderfully and fearfully.
Speaker CAnd I, like, stopped in my tracks, and I, like, didn't move because I felt in my heart like this pole.
Speaker CAnd then this is Jeff.
Speaker CGracious.
Speaker CJesus loves you.
Speaker CYes, God is gracious.
Speaker CSo it's beautiful that he did this.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker CJust incredible.
Speaker CAnd then his wonderful wife Mary came up to me with a Bible track that Jeff Musgraves made the exchange, the smaller one, and invited me to church with them.
Speaker CAnd I Wasn't a people person.
Speaker CI would prefer to stay home and be comfortable.
Speaker CBut something told me to go.
Speaker CAnd so I went with them that Sunday.
Speaker CAnd I think I wept through the whole thing.
Speaker CIt.
Speaker CSo I had been dabbling with spirit, right?
Speaker CI'd been dabbling with this realm of evil that masks itself as good and is dangerous.
Speaker CAnd then I was basked in this peace, this soul covering peace that only Jesus Christ can provide.
Speaker CAnd yeah, I just followed that.
Speaker CAnd that was June of 2023.
Speaker CAnd they moved weeks later, so just again giving it all to God, his timing.
Speaker CAnd I moved weeks later too.
Speaker CSo I was at the end of that one year lease and I was lost.
Speaker CAnd then I was found and I moved into my own place and I spent the next year or so vetting the church because I struggled to trust and listening.
Speaker CSo Pastor Schall had dare to stand.
Speaker CAnd then there's family life, reading, like taking in resources to figure out what it all means, what this feeling inside of me means, hearing the word of God and feeling that feeling and matching the two together and saying, okay, this is where I'm supposed to be.
Speaker CAnd he brought me to the Northwest Valley Baptist Church, and.
Speaker CAnd then Mary sat down with me and Pastor Jason's wife and we did the first few parts of the exchange.
Speaker CAnd then Sassa's.
Speaker CSasso's wife.
Speaker CI'm sorry, Rebecca spent months, months going over the rest of it with me because I'm smart.
Speaker CBut this, it.
Speaker CIt required me to go really slow to, like, take in what it means to realize that God is holy and just and loving and gracious and.
Speaker CYeah, I gave my life to Christ.
Speaker CAfter the ladies retreat, abiding Christ, where, you know, when you go on Sundays, everybody's got their Sunday best on.
Speaker CWe're all putting on a show.
Speaker CWouldn't be the right way to word it, but I'm sure you can understand.
Speaker CYeah, understand.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CBut going to Freedom that Lasts.
Speaker CSo Mary, before she left in July, brought me to a Freedom that Lasts meeting after the Ladies game night.
Speaker CAnd that's where I saw real Christian love.
Speaker CSo I felt it at the church, but I saw it and I heard it at Freedom that Lasts.
Speaker CAnd it was obedience.
Speaker CIt was consistency.
Speaker CIt was you and your wife running it every Friday.
Speaker CIt was you guys being there.
Speaker CIt was Denise cooking a meal almost every Friday night and people praying for me, asking about me, caring about the burdens that I was carrying so I don't have to feel so weighed down.
Speaker CHearing Heather just speak incredibly about the Lord, like, is She a prophet.
Speaker CLike, that's the first thing I thought when I heard her, because she's just full of godly knowledge and the merit.
Speaker CEverything.
Speaker CEverything I learned at Freedom that Lasts helped affirm that this was exactly where God wanted me to be.
Speaker CAnd so I remember when you first.
Speaker BCame, like, you kind of ostracized yourself, which is fine.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker BYou don't know us.
Speaker CYes, I was really scared.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker CAnd you guys were so kind and not overwhelming.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker CSo you.
Speaker BWhat's a lot to take in, right.
Speaker BOn your first.
Speaker BLike.
Speaker BBecause a church, you can kind of blend in and they give a centralized message.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BBut here in the last, it's a much smaller.
Speaker BAnd you're sitting at a table with randos, right?
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAnd people sometimes say things they probably.
Speaker AShouldn'T say, but that's what makes it real.
Speaker AAnd I think that's.
Speaker AI think that's kind of the best part about it.
Speaker CYeah, absolutely.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker AYou get to.
Speaker AYou get below the.
Speaker AThe surface.
Speaker ALike you're seeing the tip of the iceberg on Sunday morning, but there you don't.
Speaker AYou're not seeing what's underneath the water, and that's what.
Speaker AYou'll see it.
Speaker AAnd actually you won't see all of it, but you'll.
Speaker AYou'll see.
Speaker AYou'll see a little bit more.
Speaker BBut the more you get to know people as you.
Speaker BAs you know, right.
Speaker BYour group, you know, the intimate details.
Speaker BWell, of their life.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd what they struggle with, and they don't maybe share everything, but you know enough to really pray for people.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd where they're at, you might get.
Speaker AThe last four of the social, you know.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BThat's why I tell people, right.
Speaker BYou find one or two people, you give the Social Security number, and then the rest you give the last four digits.
Speaker BYou can't trust them with everything.
Speaker BBut I mean, just from the time that you left, right.
Speaker BAnd they presented you with the Bible to the time you first came.
Speaker BAnd I think of a lot of people like Heather, same thing, right.
Speaker BHeather was known where.
Speaker BNear where she's at now.
Speaker BAnd just.
Speaker BAnd that's God's work in your life.
Speaker BAnd that's when we see that verse that you.
Speaker BIt's special to you.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BSecond Corinthians, 5:17, that all things are becoming you.
Speaker BAnd as a new Christian and even as a veteran believer, God does bring out his word through his holy spirit in times of need and in times of tremendous trial.
Speaker AWell, and even.
Speaker AEven during that time period, too, I remember Jeff was constantly tagging me and Diane or Mary would hit up Diane, like, how's Aaron doing?
Speaker AHow's Aaron doing?
Speaker AAnd so, like, it wasn't just the people I freedom.
Speaker ALike, Like, Jeff was praying for you.
Speaker AHe was.
Speaker AI mean, you know, Jeff's pretty real too.
Speaker AYou know what I mean?
Speaker AAnd that's what I love about Jeff too.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker AAnd.
Speaker ABut yeah, he was.
Speaker AHe was like, hey, man, is there in there?
Speaker AYeah, she's here tonight.
Speaker CThat was like my solace.
Speaker CIs that the word?
Speaker CI don't.
Speaker CThat was like my comfort at the end of a long week was.
Speaker CAnd some days I didn't want to go, but when I went and fellowshipped with people who I was growing friendships with who.
Speaker CWhat bad week?
Speaker CYou know, it's.
Speaker CIt's all okay.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker CAnd that was really.
Speaker BIt's funny because I was trying to pull this up here, but that's his last text to me.
Speaker BHey, Sasa, I hope you're doing well.
Speaker BHey, Mary and I are wondering how Aaron is doing.
Speaker BHave you seen her, heard from her lately?
Speaker BAnd then I said you moved.
Speaker BAnd like pastor, I said Massachusetts as well.
Speaker BDid you get.
Speaker BDid she get married?
Speaker BI said, nope.
Speaker BOh, I said she moved away.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BBut we're in contact.
Speaker BSo that was his last.
Speaker BAnd that was January 20th is when he wrote me.
Speaker BSo I have a good feeling that him and Mary still pray for you and still care about you deeply.
Speaker BRight?
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAnd without his.
Speaker BAnd God gave Jeff a unique personality that he didn't give 99% of the world, but he uses that right for he gives us all special gifts and things to.
Speaker BFor the kingdom.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd we all contribute.
Speaker BAnd if we are obedient to his will and to his voice, he all.
Speaker BHe gives us skills to relate to people in our own way.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BNot everybody comes through different.
Speaker BYou know, you have Louis who's very off and takes long time to build trust.
Speaker BAnd other people, you know that they'll jump right, right away, it will click.
Speaker BAnd they're like, man, I love being here.
Speaker BAnd you have the Tonys of the world that try to be tough guy and then eventually break down, you know, then hugs everybody at the start of freedom that lasts and.
Speaker COr hugs everybody's dog.
Speaker CSo I think that might be you too.
Speaker BOh, you know the dog hugger.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BLittle peachies.
Speaker BWait, peachy.
Speaker BDon't.
Speaker BIf you hear this, I'm sorry.
Speaker CI love you.
Speaker BYou're still my favorite.
Speaker BSo from there, right, You.
Speaker BYou come to freedom.
Speaker BThat last.
Speaker BYou start to grow.
Speaker BHow is God working in your life through that?
Speaker BYou said like Times I wouldn't want to come, but I come.
Speaker BDo.
Speaker BWould you ever regret coming?
Speaker CNo.
Speaker BWhen you didn't want to come?
Speaker CAbsolutely not.
Speaker CNo.
Speaker CI. I only ever felt better, especially when I didn't want to go.
Speaker CBecause it's rare to find people who truly care.
Speaker CAnd yes, you can care about people in a worldly sense, right?
Speaker CYou can tell them, oh, everything's going to be okay.
Speaker CBut if you're not directing them back to Scripture, if you're not telling them God's truth about how they need to change their lives, if you want, I'm sure there's one of you could cooperate with God to change who you are, right?
Speaker CWhat's the phrase?
Speaker BYou do what you do because you are what you are.
Speaker BTo change what you do, you must cooperate with God to change what you are.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CAnd I was changing from the inside out, and I was so uncomfortable.
Speaker CAnd these women, this group at Freedom that Lasts, cared for me and I was struggling and I was still trying to kick my substance abuse habit.
Speaker CAnd then I would find something else to fill that, like, so I'll just be real, right?
Speaker CSo I was smoking a lot of weed and then I would stop smoking weed because I felt convicted.
Speaker CAnd I would start drinking and I'd be like, it's just a glass of wine.
Speaker CI've had a long day.
Speaker CGod doesn't like either of those things because he loves a sober mind.
Speaker CJeff actually left me the verse from Titus about being sober minded and just, you know, freedom that lasts.
Speaker CThe memory verses, the group discussions, the praise, the prayers, the vulnerability that people share with you when they don't have to, right?
Speaker CBut they know they're in a safe environment where we are all human and we fall short.
Speaker CAnd we can't pretend that sin doesn't exist, and we can't pretend that we're not tempted by it.
Speaker CSo Freedom that Lasts, it doesn't affirm that those things, it, it.
Speaker CThere's no judgment, right?
Speaker CWe.
Speaker CWe can carry.
Speaker CAnd I'm struggling with this myself right now in this current moment where I am a slave to sin.
Speaker CIn moments, in certain aspects of my life, I'm still struggling, but the shame and the guilt that I feel distancing myself from God is of the devil.
Speaker CRebecca shared this with me tonight, that I am forgiven.
Speaker CI'm covered in the blood.
Speaker CAnd he knew I would struggle through all of this.
Speaker CAnd if we don't acknowledge that it's a constant journey, we're cutting the journey short because it's that connection we have when we are vulnerable.
Speaker CThat is what Christian fellowship is all about.
Speaker CLike, it's not just about celebrating the good, because that's fine and superficial, but it's.
Speaker CHey, I'm hurting.
Speaker CLet me pray with you.
Speaker CLet me, Let me listen actively and pray, not just in this moment, but go home and actively pray for you.
Speaker CAnd I had never experienced anything like that before.
Speaker CIt changed me.
Speaker AWell, I think that freedom at last is.
Speaker AIt's different than like 12 step, you know, AA.
Speaker ALike, we were at the park this past weekend handing out bags to the homeless, and I talked to a guy and he's.
Speaker AHe's like, so what is this addictions ministry?
Speaker AIs it like aa?
Speaker AI said, no, not quite.
Speaker AI said, it's.
Speaker AIt's very.
Speaker AIt's.
Speaker AI'll just be honest.
Speaker AIt's biblical.
Speaker ALike, the answers are in the Bible.
Speaker ALike, jesus is your victory.
Speaker AJesus is the source of your victory.
Speaker AHe's like, well, you know, AA has the 12 steps, and I don't know how many steps have to do with God.
Speaker AI'm just like, well, yeah, but the, the ultimate source of your victory is Jesus, and the answers are in the Bible, and that's how you gain your victory.
Speaker AJust like you said, you were being changed from the inside out.
Speaker AAnd that was based on the word of God, not a 12 step program.
Speaker ALike, it's, you know, and I don't know about cr, I don't know what they do, but I know that.
Speaker AI know that freedom that last is biblically based.
Speaker AAnd I think that's where you have the victory.
Speaker BWell, in AA too, right?
Speaker BIt was founded by a Christian and the higher power was God at one point.
Speaker BAnd then the higher power became the higher power.
Speaker AWhatever you want it to be.
Speaker BExactly.
Speaker BAnd I think when you speak of this, we had this verse that we did in groups this week is Romans 8:1, where the Bible says, there's therefore no, now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, the saved, right?
Speaker BWho walk not after the flesh, but after the spirit.
Speaker BAnd that is a powerful verse.
Speaker BThat you are no longer condemned, right?
Speaker BBecause you are in Christ Jesus doesn't mean you have a liberty to sin.
Speaker BBecause in.
Speaker BIn Romans 2, it tells us, shall we continue in sin that grace may abound.
Speaker BHe says, God forbid.
Speaker BBut he also says the apostle Paul, right, of anybody struggled in Romans 7 with the flesh and the Spirit, right?
Speaker BAnd he said, that which I should do, I don't.
Speaker BAnd that which I shouldn't do, I do, right?
Speaker BWretched as man.
Speaker BBut he said, in the end, there is Hope through Christ Jesus, right, that we can have victory.
Speaker BAnd I think that's the, the beauty of freedom that lasts is that there's not.
Speaker BWe're not condemned by our sin once we're in Christ, right, We can choose to be enslaved to sin, but we're no longer.
Speaker BHe's.
Speaker BThe sin is no longer our owner.
Speaker BWe're not in chains, we are free to go.
Speaker BAnd that's.
Speaker BThis verse is so powerful, right, because it says there's no conduct like you are not condemned, right?
Speaker BAnd if you look at the woman that was caught in adultery, I think the, the biggest thing there was that God saw what, what had happened, right?
Speaker BAnd, and then I think he truly saw her heart.
Speaker BI think she truly believed on him.
Speaker BI don't know if it was at that moment that she put her trust in Jesus, but he told her, I don't condemn you no more.
Speaker BGo and sin no more, right?
Speaker BHe didn't condemn her because I think he saw the heart of her and how she had changed.
Speaker BAnd I don't know if that was a moment of salvation or what that was, but he didn't condemn her, right?
Speaker BAnd in those days, right, adultery was, that was death.
Speaker BThat was like that was it stoning, right?
Speaker BThat was like the ultimate do not do you know, besides murder and what they expected him to do, he did not do.
Speaker BAnd I think many times we look at God and, and we are a judge, right?
Speaker BThere's consequences for our sin, yes, but he doesn't condemn us.
Speaker BAnd that's the beauty of our fathers.
Speaker BHe corrects us because he loves us.
Speaker BHe doesn't correct us because he's wants are the worst for us.
Speaker BHe wants us to not walk in that way.
Speaker BAnd I think this is a beautiful verse, just as you stated, that goes along with.
Speaker BBecause the devil brings about shame, right?
Speaker BAnd I always, I would always say there's no fishing at the dock of forgiven sins, but we like to go fishing in those old sins.
Speaker BAnd like I shouldn't have done that or.
Speaker BAnd he said, I don't, I don't know what you're talking about, right?
Speaker BThat's as far as from the east is, the west is.
Speaker BI put those sins out, I condemn you, you not.
Speaker BAnd what a beautiful thing of the forgiveness of God that he doesn't remember and bring it up to you.
Speaker BThat's Satan, right?
Speaker BThat's a counterfeit.
Speaker BAnd that's what he does.
Speaker BSatan is the counterfeit, the father of all lies.
Speaker AThat's the God of grace, right?
Speaker AI mean, that's Grace given to you.
Speaker AWe're not condemned anymore, man.
Speaker AI mean, you're in Christ.
Speaker AYou are forgiven.
Speaker AYou're forgiven once and for all.
Speaker ALike you said, we can choose to.
Speaker AWe can choose to sin and, and, and God forbid we do like Paul says, but, but at the end of the day, man, we're forgiven, man.
Speaker AIt's done, it's paid.
Speaker BWhen they ask you at BDubs, fries or salad, you're like, you know what I mean?
Speaker BYeah, I should say solid.
Speaker BBut man, those fries, I've been saying salad, bro, you know, those sins come up, those temptations, you know, that are.
Speaker CWell, then it's the conviction.
Speaker CRight?
Speaker CSo condemnation.
Speaker CHow would you describe that word, condemnation?
Speaker AYou're condemned.
Speaker AI mean, you are born condemned.
Speaker ASo when we come out of the womb, we're were condemned, damned.
Speaker CWould that be a synonym?
Speaker BYeah, the wrath of God.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker BAbides on you.
Speaker COkay, so conviction is my strongest.
Speaker CThat is what we're left with, and that's what keeps us close to God.
Speaker CSo we're not condemned.
Speaker CBut the conviction I feel when I do choose my flesh over my spirit is.
Speaker CIt makes me like that's a. I feel queasy when I think about choosing myself after all of God's abundance and goodness towards me, especially recently, and to choose my flesh or my own desires over what God simply asks of me.
Speaker CIt's the conviction after that, the devil loves because that's where he can draw you back to him.
Speaker CBut it's a beautiful thing.
Speaker CI just had to speak on that for a moment because it's a blessing.
Speaker CAnd it's really hard to.
Speaker CTo struggle with realizing that you are the problem.
Speaker BYou're the common denominator.
Speaker AYes, well, the, the conviction is a beautiful thing too, because it's, it's evidence that you are saved, that you are God's child.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker AI mean, why would you be convicted otherwise?
Speaker AI mean, let's just go sin, eat, drink and be married.
Speaker BWell, there's no morality without God.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BThe wrong and right in our world is based upon God, whether atheists agree to it.
Speaker BAnd then Ravi Zacharias would argue this is.
Speaker BWell, that's not my truth.
Speaker BThey said, why don't you leave your door open every night?
Speaker BWhy do you lock it?
Speaker ARight.
Speaker BBecause your morality doesn't want somebody to break in because it's.
Speaker BIf it's their truth, to take what you have.
Speaker BThat's not truth.
Speaker AWell, and the reality is too, even atheists, like, I mean, they're made in the image of God and to some extent they have some morals.
Speaker ALike.
Speaker ALike most people don't want to just kill somebody.
Speaker ALike most people.
Speaker AYou know what I mean?
Speaker AThere's some people, I guess, that do.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker ABut for the most part they don't.
Speaker CYou know, I mean, your conscience.
Speaker AYeah, I mean, I feel bad even, you know, running over a dog.
Speaker ALike, I. I mean, I hope you do.
Speaker CI hope you feel terrible.
Speaker BOr like a rabbit.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BLike rabbits come.
Speaker BI stop.
Speaker BI don't just like, hey, look at this.
Speaker AYou know, okay, pigeon.
Speaker CIt'll move.
Speaker BI try not to step on the ants when I go running on the sidewalk because they report back to someone that's going to miss them if I step on them.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BI can avoid it.
Speaker ARight, right.
Speaker BBut.
Speaker BYeah, And.
Speaker BBut that morality comes from God.
Speaker BAnd I think that come.
Speaker BSo everybody has that, I believe, to a certain extent, a level of morality.
Speaker ASure.
Speaker BWhere if you saw a man beating a woman on the street, you said, now we film it.
Speaker BBut it would be like, I feel bad.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BI'm not going to just cheer for that.
Speaker BAnd some people would.
Speaker BBut I think when you're saved, that conviction is for anything that goes against God.
Speaker BNot something that's egregious, but anything that you know would hurt God.
Speaker BHe.
Speaker BIt's like you get nervous when you're like a little kid and you're gonna steal something and you get that lump, you're like, I shouldn't do that.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker BAnd God still gives us a choice, free will to say.
Speaker BAnd sometimes you're like, I'll ask for forgiveness later.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd that's where that verse comes in, God forbid.
Speaker BBut we've all done it.
Speaker BWe've all overrode the Holy Spirit conviction and said, I want to please my flesh.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BI want to.
Speaker BAnd it's a very selfish endeavor.
Speaker BAnd just like for you, in stark contrast to the love of Christ, we're being ungrateful and discontent by our own flesh, which brings more discontentment and obedience brings more contentment in him.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAnd that's the amazing juxtaposition of the two choices that we have on the table.
Speaker CYes.
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Speaker ASo I'm curious.
Speaker ASo, you know, you're pretty real with us, and you've talked about getting into a little bit of witchcraft and smoking weed and.
Speaker AAnd these kinds of things which interact with the spiritual.
Speaker ABut as you.
Speaker AWhen you got saved and you're, you know, obviously now you're working out your salvation, not working for your salvation, but you're working it out, how did that.
Speaker AHow did that interact?
Speaker AAnd how did you overcome some of those things?
Speaker AI mean, how does, like, give us some feedback on that?
Speaker CYeah, so I struggled.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker CI wanted to.
Speaker CThe want was there, but the flesh was strong.
Speaker CIn the beginning, after I accepted Jesus Christ as my savior, I was on fire for the Lord.
Speaker CAnd the conviction was there, and I felt like I was not doing right.
Speaker CSo I tried to do it on my own.
Speaker CI really did.
Speaker CAnd I think I made it like a month or two.
Speaker CAnd then I inevitably smoked again.
Speaker CAnd I heard God tell me, you cannot do this alone.
Speaker CAnd then I was baptized and.
Speaker BBeautiful day.
Speaker BBeautiful day.
Speaker CHallelujah.
Speaker CYeah, Just.
Speaker CJust the feeling of that water flowing over my body and being renewed is the most peace I've felt in my earthly body.
Speaker CAnd it was a blessing.
Speaker CI struggled a little bit after that, but I am really excited to say I've been a year sober from weed.
Speaker CAnd right after that came conviction about alcohol, and I haven't had anything in seven months, and I have no desire.
Speaker CHe healed me.
Speaker CHe delivered me from that.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker ASo just reading God's word every day, just making, you know, daily habit of prayer, that kind of thing.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker AOkay.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker CWorking on habits.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker C21 days to make a habit.
Speaker CI try really hard to consume something godly daily.
Speaker CAnd that's.
Speaker CIt should be God's word, but sometimes it's singing gospel music in my car or praying, but that is what I should be doing.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CThat's something that would probably resolve the sin issues I'm still struggling with because I'm human.
Speaker AWell, and I think too, like you said in the beginning, like, you were kind of had a personality where you didn't like to be around people.
Speaker AAnd so you would isolate.
Speaker AAnd in Christianity, that's kind of dangerous.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker ABecause when you get isolated, like, that's when Satan has a field day with you.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker AHe will lie to you, you will believe it, and then you will Keep everybody at bay so that nobody, you know, you don't want the accountability.
Speaker AYou don't want people to know what's going on.
Speaker AYes, but being in fellowship and being with other Christians is the best thing to do.
Speaker ASo.
Speaker CThe best.
Speaker CJust in general, right.
Speaker CIt's just nice to talk about the Bible, talk about God's word.
Speaker CI.
Speaker CThat's one of the things I loved about freedom that lasts.
Speaker CIt's.
Speaker CWe had business to do, right.
Speaker CWe would have a task, we'd talk about it.
Speaker CWe would pray with one another, and then we would enjoy one another's company and just get to talk.
Speaker CAnd I think about Joel, right?
Speaker CJoel's story and just everybody there.
Speaker CAgain, the vulnerability, the realness of people who are struggling with maybe not even sin, right?
Speaker CLife, grief, death, heartache, and they share it.
Speaker CAnd then we hold them emotionally, spiritually, with prayer.
Speaker CIt's a blessing.
Speaker AWell, and I know we talk about FTL being in addictions ministry, but I, you know, I think it's more of a discipleship.
Speaker ALike, it's.
Speaker AYes, it's like a mini church service for me.
Speaker AAnd it's a discipleship program more than anything.
Speaker AI mean, like Sasso says, sin is addictive and it could be any sin.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker AIt could be pride, it could be anger, it could be anxiety.
Speaker AThere's a lot of shopping.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AShopping, gambling.
Speaker AI mean, I think people right away.
Speaker APeople right away go to the worst, you know, drugs and alcohol, like, you know, and it's.
Speaker AIt's.
Speaker AThere's so many other facets and ways that we are chained.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker CAnd, yes.
Speaker AFTL is like a perfect ministry for that, but not just for that.
Speaker AIt's man, it's learning, It's.
Speaker AIt's worship.
Speaker AI mean, we sing.
Speaker AWe sing praises and like.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AAnd then.
Speaker AI love what you said, too.
Speaker AWe eat a meal together and we fellowship.
Speaker AAnd I think that's a big.
Speaker AThat's a big deal.
Speaker AI mean, it's in.
Speaker AWhat is that?
Speaker AActs 4:2 to the.
Speaker ATo the breaking of bread.
Speaker ALike, you know, following the apostles teaching and all that.
Speaker ABut to the breaking.
Speaker BWe're like, well, we're gonna have the great marriage Supper of the Lamb, right?
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BFood is important.
Speaker BThe Last Supper, right.
Speaker BThere was food and breaking bread.
Speaker BAnd there's God's providence to sustain us physically is through food.
Speaker BAnd when we do it one another, I think it's just very special or it can be last because, like, if you're not.
Speaker BYou were new.
Speaker BIt's hard to maybe talk in a group, but if you're one on one and somebody's just eating casual with you, they kind of start to break down those walls and build trust.
Speaker AThat's where you can get under the iceberg right there.
Speaker AYeah, a little bit.
Speaker BI think in Romans 12:15, where it says, rejoice with them that do rejoice and weep with them that weep.
Speaker BAnd sometimes the freedom to last.
Speaker BYou're in a position of rejoicing and somebody's in a position of weeping.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAnd you can help each other.
Speaker BAnd then there could be a week where you're weeping and they're rejoicing.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAnd you lift each other up and that's how God made the body to sustain one another.
Speaker BTo say, there's going to be times when I'm down and you're up and you're up and I'm down.
Speaker BAnd I think it's harder for men, right, because we're not real with our emotions.
Speaker BI'm not.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd Rebecca tries to, you know, and I said, well, if you wanted me to be emotional, you would have married when you would have married a man.
Speaker BAnd she laughed.
Speaker BShe said, well, you, you know, you got it.
Speaker BSo, you know, God's working with me on that just to be real and struggle.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd I try not to tell.
Speaker BDump everything on her because it's not meant to be.
Speaker BBut go to God, right.
Speaker BAnd that's.
Speaker BHe's really my sustainer.
Speaker BBut I just think that freedom, alas, is just a special place to me.
Speaker BWe're going on 11 years next month or this month, actually.
Speaker BAnd so God has, you know, given us and we've seen all kind of people come through there, people that are no longer even on this earth, that have passed on sadly.
Speaker BAnd those are just for.
Speaker BWell, I would say all of them are sad, but just for different reasons.
Speaker BAnd just your.
Speaker BI mean, just to look back, right.
Speaker BYou're sitting here in the flesh.
Speaker BAnd just my mind goes back to when you first came and Jeff and Mary brought you.
Speaker BAnd I feel like there was a battle and I don't know if you really wanted to be there.
Speaker BIt was awkward, right?
Speaker BYou're kind of by yourself and you were just like, like soaking it all in.
Speaker BLike, what is this?
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BBut I mean, what an amazing thing God has done in your life.
Speaker BAnd I think the ladies in your group really miss you, and I know Rebecca does, but I think you guys keep in contact.
Speaker BWell, I know you guys keep in contact, but I can assure you that she prays for you still.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd there's a lot of people here in this side of the United States, not the east coast, the west coast, that love you and love you as a sister in Christ.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd just what God has done through your life has been an inspiration to people there.
Speaker BAnd everybody has a spirit story that God uses.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAnd I think that's why you came on the podcast.
Speaker ARight?
Speaker BTo share what God has done and is doing in your life.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CHe is faithful and good and cares.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker CSo that feeling I felt at Freedom that Lasts, which was very foreign to me, became the feeling that is inside of me when I was baptized.
Speaker CAnd that's where my discernment started to grow.
Speaker CAnd everything became about the spirit of God, the Holy Spirit, and how I can try my best.
Speaker CSometimes I fail to honor that and obey Him.
Speaker CAnd he's been.
Speaker CHe brought me to a church.
Speaker CHe brought me unbelievable forgiveness for people who have hurt me.
Speaker CHe provides in ways I couldn't.
Speaker CI prayed for some things.
Speaker CAnd then he blew all of those things out of the water and said, here, and I don't deserve it.
Speaker CBut he continues to bless me.
Speaker CSo it's wonderful.
Speaker BAnything that you want to convey or maybe you're talking to yourself six years ago or somebody like you that you would like to share with them.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker CI'm thinking of Jeff and Mary.
Speaker CGracious.
Speaker CAnd that our second commandment from Jesus is to love our neighbor.
Speaker CAnd everything is spiritual.
Speaker CSo every person that we interact with, every eye that we meet, every customer, friend, colleague, coworker, is a soul to be saved.
Speaker CAnd Jeff and Mary were so brave and bold to witness to me because they didn't know me from a hole in the wall.
Speaker CAnd they saved my soul.
Speaker CSo it is our duty to go out and share the gospel, even if we're not people.
Speaker CPeople.
Speaker CNothing else matters but eternity and the fear of rejection.
Speaker CTo be humiliated, to be ostracized by the world is a blessing.
Speaker CAnd I just pray that people are bold.
Speaker CI pray that I am bold because it changed my whole life.
Speaker CIt changed everything for me.
Speaker CThat one person told me that Jesus made me, and I had no idea.
Speaker AAmen.
Speaker BAnd you look at that, right?
Speaker BYou were leaving, he was leaving.
Speaker AYes.
Speaker BAnd God gives us that divine appointment, and it's for us to obey and.
Speaker BAnd I think deaf.
Speaker BPretty bold in a lot of ways.
Speaker BAnd praise God for that.
Speaker BThat he may see people in heaven that he never knew because he was bold to share.
Speaker BAnd you're just somebody that he gets to see and rejoice in.
Speaker BAnd he still ask about you.
Speaker BSo I have To.
Speaker BI have to send the podcast to him, which.
Speaker BOh, yeah, yeah, for sure.
Speaker BThat'd be very special to you.
Speaker AWe'll have the.
Speaker AThe Jeff sound effects on this one.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker CBecause we do bend it.
Speaker BRecord some.
Speaker COh, good.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BJeff sound effects.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AHallelujah.
Speaker BHallelujah.
Speaker BPraise the Lord.
Speaker BDid he come in studio any day?
Speaker ANo, I.
Speaker AWe were just in the.
Speaker AIn sanctuary, and I said, hey, man, I need you to say a couple things.
Speaker AAnd I just flipped out my phone and hit record and told him say these things, and he did, and.
Speaker COh, I love that.
Speaker CYeah, please put a few.
Speaker BAnd now he has his own freedom.
Speaker BThat last chapter that he's running, I heard.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BSo that's kind of cool, right?
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker BAnd how God's using that in his own life, and I haven't reached out to him in a while to see how that's going, but he sends us pictures from time to time.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BOf the freedom that lasts there, but praise God that he's using that there where he's at in Tennessee.
Speaker AAmen.
Speaker CYeah, Amen.
Speaker BAll right.
Speaker BAny parting final words before we close it out?
Speaker CNo, I'm just really grateful for your time and for our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
Speaker BAmen.
Speaker BAmen.
Speaker AWell, thank you for coming on the show.
Speaker AAppreciate your story.
Speaker AI love the reality of it being real and just sharing from the heart.
Speaker AI hope this episode is, you know, a blessing to somebody.
Speaker ASomebody maybe struggling with those things.
Speaker AYou know, the spiritual is interesting because it's.
Speaker AYou know, Satan is subtle, and he finds his way into people's lives.
Speaker AI mean, the Bible says he's a.
Speaker AAn angel of light.
Speaker AAnd so you were.
Speaker BYou.
Speaker AYou.
Speaker AWhen you were getting into some of those things, you said you felt spiritual things, and.
Speaker AAnd so the devil was making you feel these spiritual things.
Speaker AIt was not the Holy Spirit.
Speaker ANo, because you didn't have the discernment at that point.
Speaker ABut I think there's a lot of people that may fall into this.
Speaker AI mean, I see.
Speaker AI mean, we were just at the park the other day with the.
Speaker AWith the homeless, and you see these guys walking around.
Speaker AThey look like zombies, and.
Speaker AAnd they truly are.
Speaker AThey're dead.
Speaker AThey're spiritually dead.
Speaker ABut I think also they're.
Speaker AThey're intoxicated with drugs, but they could be demonically possessed.
Speaker AThey could be controlled by demons.
Speaker AI mean, there's.
Speaker AIt is spiritual.
Speaker AEverywhere is spiritual.
Speaker AI mean, there.
Speaker AWe live in the spiritual realm.
Speaker AWe just don't see it.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker AAnd I think we're just not cognizant of it because we just think it's just what we can physically see.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker CI think of the two men who had more demons attached to them than a herd of swine.
Speaker CRight.
Speaker CSo it is very real.
Speaker CAnd.
Speaker BYeah, well, they.
Speaker BHe got cleansed and then he didn't change.
Speaker BAnd so more came than was the first time.
Speaker AOh, I was thinking the one that went into the swine.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker CYeah.
Speaker CI was thinking of the two that, like, were chained up.
Speaker BPermission from God.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BThat shows you the authority that they know Jesus over the demons.
Speaker CAnd that makes it even more scary because people are just out there dabbling with things that make them feel good on the inside, make them feel something, crystals, all of those things.
Speaker CThey have no idea.
Speaker CI had no idea.
Speaker CI just knew I felt something.
Speaker ASome people are just trying to alter their mood.
Speaker BThey don't know.
Speaker AYou know what I mean?
Speaker ASo, like, the devil's, like, they're opening the door.
Speaker BYes.
Speaker BWell, they call alcohol spirits, right?
Speaker CAbsolutely.
Speaker BThat's another term for alcohol.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker CThe devil's lettuce.
Speaker CHe's very clear about it.
Speaker BYou know, he's not allows.
Speaker CPeople just don't open doors.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker CYou know, they don't think.
Speaker CThey don't think.
Speaker BAnd I'll say this, Ben, in 2 Kings and Aaron, you know, 6, 17, this is Elijah writing.
Speaker BJeff will appreciate this.
Speaker BAnd Elisha prayed and said, lord, I pray thee, open his eyes that he may see.
Speaker BAnd the Lord opened the eyes of the young man.
Speaker BHe saw him behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire round about Elijah.
Speaker BAnd I think of that verse, greater is he that is in you than he that is in the world.
Speaker BAnd although there are spirits and they're powerful spirits, greater is he that is in us than he that is in the world.
Speaker AAmen.
Speaker BAnd may God open our eyes to the protection that he gives us.
Speaker CYes.
Speaker BAnd the salvation that he brings, even for those that are saved already.
Speaker BBut that he protects us and that we're safe, we're safe in Him.
Speaker BThat our eyes may be open to the horses and chariots that are round about us.
Speaker AAmen, brother.
Speaker CAmen.
Speaker AAnd on that note, we're gonna.
Speaker AWe're gonna end this episode.
Speaker ASo if this.
Speaker AIf this episode's been a blessing to you guys, would you guys give us a thumbs up on YouTube?
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Speaker BOn Tick Tock, please?
Speaker CYeah, yeah.
Speaker ABe nice, please.
Speaker ABut anyway, we thank you guys for watching.
Speaker AThank you for coming on this episode.
Speaker AAaron, thank you.
Speaker BAll the way from Rhode Island.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BAnd I'm Flower Child.
Speaker CThanks for having me.
Speaker AAnyway, it's been a blessing, so thank you guys.
Speaker AWe'll see you in the next episode.
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