Welcome to Love Notes from Rhonda.

In the past few days, I've been digging around in some old boxes and came upon one of my diaries from the time before Fearless Living.

And as I was reading my diary from before Fearless Living, all I read was a woman who was anxious, worried, scared, and lonely.

I kept saying things like, I'm so anxious.

I'm so anxious.

I'm so worried.

I'm so worried.

I mean, the whole journal was filled with somebody who was dying to live and scared to be alive.

And as I was reading these words from that beautiful girl that I was before Fearless Living, I just had so much heart for her, so much compassion for her.

I know I was that girl.

But I don't think that way anymore.

And more importantly, I don't see the world that way anymore.

I don't feel that way anymore.

If I have a moment of anxiety now, I can move through it really quickly.

And I don't have shame or blame or think I shouldn't be anxious, right?

I just allow that to move through me.

And I normally understand what's happening to me.

But the girl that I was before Fearless Living, before I started to do the work that is now what I do each day of my life that I am so grateful that I get to do, I just read her words and just thought, wow, must.

Must have been really hard to be her.

And I think it was.

I think it was hard to be me.

And I bet some days it's hard to be you.

And the reason I share this today with you is because there is a power in journaling.

There is a power in doing your acknowledgments and gratitudes.

You are literally creating a reminder, a diary, a time capsule, so to speak.

Because when you too, go back and read your acknowledgements, gratitudes, journals, when you finish all the exercises that you do for any course that you take at Fearless Living, you are creating a place that you can go back to a year from now, five years from now, 10 years from now, and you will be able to see your growth.

You'll be able to see your shifts.

You'll be able to know that you did it, that you, in fact, are more fearless, that you are, in fact, living more the life your soul intended.

See, every day we have such gradual changes that sometimes we don't recognize that they're happening right.

They're so gradual.

And then many times we get caught in noticing that, okay, wait a minute, I'm still doing this.

We don't notice that we're still doing this.

But a whole lot less.

Or we're still doing this with less intensity, or we're still doing it, but not quite with the same words.

We're still doing it, but not the way we used to.

So our daily incremental changes.

Sometimes it's hard to grasp them, grab them.

We forget.

And when we do something that we wish we didn't, we hang onto that and go, see, I'm just the same.

But we're not.

You're not, I'm not.

We're not the same.

So I invite you, in this month of gratitude, to write down 100 gratitudes for the last 12 months and 100 acknowledgements for yourself for the last 12 months.

And I invite you, if you haven't, don't do this already or haven't done it.

I invite you just to capsulate the last year and just talk about the highlights.

You can go through your calendar and just go, wow, I did this.

Wow, I did that.

Wow.

I didn't even think about this.

I forgot that I did that.

I remember somebody was asking me about swimming with the dolphins.

And I said, oh, God, I really wanna swim with the dolphins.

I just thought, that's one of my dreams.

So.

So I'm telling this to the person who's talking about swimming with the dolphins.

And then I remember a week later, I'm at my younger sister's house and I go into the guest room and there's a picture of me swimming with the dolphins.

I forgot that I swam with the dolphins.

I forgot that I used to be lonely and worried and guilty and sad.

I mean, in my diary, I was like, I'm so lonely.

I'm so lonely.

And I don't even.

God, I don't.

I don't even remember that.

But I know it's true.

I wrote about it day after day.

How lonely I was, how sad I was, how scared I was, how anxious I was, how worried I was.

But the outside world didn't know that.

The outside world didn't think that about me.

But I read it again in my diary and went, ah, you know.

Yeah, no, I wonder.

I wanted to change my life so bad.

Now, most people think about changing their lives, but they don't do the actual work that you're doing day in and day out to actually make the change happen.

So the fact that you're listening to my voice right now, I know you are one of the brave ones, one of the fearless ones, one of the ones who has said, okay, I want to shift, transform and change my life.

And I will and I am doing the work necessary in order for that to come true.

So do your hundred acknowledgments, do your hundred gratitudes look over the past year and if you do have journals from the past, if you do have diaries from five years ago, 10 years ago, 20 years ago, you might want to take one out and read and see.

Compare yourself to how you were then to how you are now because I bet it's a whole lot different.

I am so excited for our future, yours and mine, because we're only going to become more and more ourselves, more and more fearless.

And Jezebel says so too.

She's been sitting next to me this whole time.

I don't know if you've been listening, hearing her bell and her purring, but she's right here with us saying keep going, keep going, keep going.

You can do this.

I promise.

Until next time, be fearless.

I love you Sa.