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Speaker BS welcome to Fed by the Fruit, a podcast focused on nourishment for the mind, body and soul.
Speaker BI'm kb, a spirit filled certified life and nutrition coach with a calling to disciple women who are hungry for more.
Speaker BEach week we will learn who God is and what he wants for and from us through powerful testimonies, biblical truth, and so much more as we fuel our minds and bodies in ways that honor him.
Speaker BLet's get fed.
Speaker BHello, friends.
Speaker BHappy Monday.
Speaker BWelcome back to Fed by the Fruit.
Speaker BI am so excited to have this guest.
Speaker BYou all have no idea what we've been through to get here today.
Speaker BWe've had some challenges in our recording, but we are persevering today.
Speaker BI know that God wants her story shared, so our guest today is a self proclaimed woman of God.
Speaker BShe's a wife, mom, and patriot.
Speaker BHer unapologetic mama, Bear Fire has gained her widespread popularity on social media and her content is widely shared by major influential leaders.
Speaker BKendall Bailey has an incredible testimony and I feel very blessed that she's here today to share it with us.
Speaker BSo welcome Kendall.
Speaker BThank you for being here.
Speaker AThank you so much for having me.
Speaker AYes, and we have been through, we have been through it to make this work, but I feel like that's going to be even more powerful.
Speaker AGot God wanted this to happen.
Speaker ASatan wanted to stop it, and there's no stopping God.
Speaker BAmen.
Speaker BThat's right.
Speaker BThat's right.
Speaker BSo like me, I love this part of your story.
Speaker BYou were just always a believer, having grown up in the faith.
Speaker BBut in 2014, God gave you a powerful testimony, so I would love for you to share it.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker ASo I was not hearing well at all and there were little signs sprinkling throughout, but my husband and I went to dinner with our.
Speaker AWe just had a son at the time and, and the, the waitress came over and said, can I get y' all more bread?
Speaker AAnd I said, no, we're fine.
Speaker AJust bring us more bread.
Speaker AAnd, you know, walked away.
Speaker AMy husband said she had asked us that you need to go.
Speaker AYour hearing checked.
Speaker ALike, I'm serious this time.
Speaker ASo schedule an appointment.
Speaker AGo to an ear, nose and throat doctor.
Speaker AAnd at that point then I was diagnosed with otosclerosis, which is like, I mean, it's, it's progressive deafness.
Speaker AAnd essentially I would need to have surgery on my stapes bone, which is the smallest bone in the human body.
Speaker AIt's almost like an arthritis of the ear.
Speaker ASo that was a lot to take in.
Speaker AAnd then at that appointment, because he was near nose and Throat doctor.
Speaker AHe decided to give me a full checkup and felt my throat, discovered that I had a lump.
Speaker AWe had it biopsied and sure enough, I had thyroid cancer.
Speaker ASo the night before surgery, my husband came home from work with a pregnancy test.
Speaker AAnd he said, you're pregnant.
Speaker AAnd I thought, like, how do you know?
Speaker AUsually, you know, I would be telling him that I'm pregnant.
Speaker AAnd he said, you know, you've been getting up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom.
Speaker AYou did that with our son Jack.
Speaker AYou did it with the baby that we had just miscarried.
Speaker AI just have a feeling.
Speaker AAnd I took the test and just abandoned the results.
Speaker AI truly thought, there's just no way I'm kidding be pregnant.
Speaker ALike, we were just told that I had to have this surgery and we couldn't get pregnant this month.
Speaker AI tucked my son in, did a big, you know, kisses, and we did songs and we did books.
Speaker AAnd I finally came back downstairs and sure enough, I was pregnant.
Speaker ASo around nine o' clock at night, we called my anesthesiologist and my surgeon who assured me that I was early enough along in the pregnancy that they could do the surgery while keeping myself and baby safe.
Speaker AAnd so we did.
Speaker AWe went into surgery and actually my doctor and his nurses laid hands on me and prayed over me before they rolled me back into the room.
Speaker AWoke up from surgery and was told that it was very successful in the sense that my thyroid had been completely removed, however, my cancer had spread and that I would need radiation.
Speaker AHowever, in order to do radiation, you would have to abort the baby.
Speaker AAnd we were given a choice.
Speaker AAnd for my husband and I, like, there was no choice.
Speaker AWe felt like God had already made that choice when he placed that baby inside my womb and called her fearfully and wonderfully made.
Speaker AAnd thankfully I had a group of doctors around me and a group of friends and family around me who believed in that as well.
Speaker ASo we decided to delay, delay treatment.
Speaker AI gave birth to Presley and then I breastfed her for two months.
Speaker AIf you have breast milk in your body, the radiation will attack that and not the cancer.
Speaker ASo kind of went through a month long process of getting rid of the breast milk.
Speaker AI also had to go through a low iodine diet and I lost a lot of weight.
Speaker AI got down to like 118 pounds, which was small for me.
Speaker ALike I looked like I had cancer.
Speaker AAnd I did my radiation and I am cancer free today.
Speaker AI have a beautiful baby girl and I did surgery twice on my ears.
Speaker AThey didn't take either time.
Speaker AAnd every time that you do the surgery again, you risk going deaf completely, which just wasn't a risk that we were willing to take.
Speaker ASo I now wear hearing aids and.
Speaker AAnd I'm so thankful for my hearing aids because that's what led me to discover my cancer.
Speaker AAnd, I mean, God works in such beautiful ways.
Speaker BHe really does.
Speaker BIt's like, it's similar to my story in that he allowed this car accident to reveal this heart condition that saved my life.
Speaker BYou know, his plans are always better.
Speaker BI would never have planned to have a car accident that day, but thank God, it's just such a beautiful story.
Speaker BAnd I was thinking this morning on my drive, like, I was praying about this and, like, God, just give me the questions and give me the, you know, just whatever we should talk about, like, whatever it is that you want.
Speaker BAnd a couple of things, like, you just from following you on social media, you know, I know that you grew up in the faith and that your parents are strong Christians, and you had that foundation.
Speaker BLike, even last night, you were like, we didn't celebrate Halloween.
Speaker BYou know, I didn't even know that you shouldn't celebrate Halloween.
Speaker BLike, I knew this growing up, not growing up, but now I know, right?
Speaker BSo looking back, it's like you had this foundation, and it just reiterates how important it is to instill in our children, you know, what it is that God wants.
Speaker BAnd I did not intend to bring this up, but I'm feeling like I'm going to.
Speaker BSo I had an abortion in my early to mid 20s.
Speaker BI already had my two boys.
Speaker BI was divorced, and it felt like.
Speaker BIt felt like the sky was falling when I found out that I was pregnant.
Speaker BHoly cow, here we are.
Speaker BI didn't know this was going to happen.
Speaker ABut, no, I love.
Speaker AKeep going.
Speaker AI love this.
Speaker AGo.
Speaker BSo I made this choice, and it was so tumultuous.
Speaker BLike, my boyfriend at the time, like, he, like, gave me the money, and then we got in a fight and he took the money back.
Speaker BAnd I didn't know what I was going to do.
Speaker BAnd I was already just, like, fighting for these two boys that I had.
Speaker BI didn't.
Speaker BI knew it was wrong.
Speaker BLike, I knew it was wrong, but.
Speaker BBut I didn't know.
Speaker BI felt like I didn't have any other choice.
Speaker BI didn't know what to do.
Speaker BAnd maybe that's not even true.
Speaker BI.
Speaker BThere was always a choice.
Speaker BBut I went.
Speaker BI remember that day, and my.
Speaker BMy friend took me, and, you know, she's like, oh, I had an abortion, and I know where to take you.
Speaker BAnd so she took me.
Speaker BAnd I remember just, like, laying there and I was crying, like, really crying, and as it was happening, and I remember the nurse, like, she.
Speaker BShe looked at me, like, in disgust.
Speaker BShe goes, does it hurt?
Speaker BAnd I said, it hurts my heart.
Speaker BLike, I kn.
Speaker BIt was wrong, you know, And I. I struggled for a long time.
Speaker BJust obviously I still, if I bring it up, it's very hard.
Speaker BI remember my husband asking me when we first met, like, I don't know.
Speaker BIt was just like one of these questions.
Speaker BHe's like, you've never had an abortion, have you?
Speaker BAnd I just felt covered in shame, covered in shame, because he absolutely didn't expect for my answer to be yes.
Speaker BBut I also wanted to be honest.
Speaker BAnd I remember being in a church service once, and the pastor was talking about abortion, and he just.
Speaker BAt the end of it, you know, he was saying how it's not what God wants, it's wrong, it's taking a human life.
Speaker BAnd I truly believe that that's true.
Speaker BAnd at the end, he just said, if you or someone, you know, have had an abortion, like, you know, there's a baby and there's a mom and just love them both.
Speaker BAnd I just felt like that was such a beautiful message, you know, for me, like, it just felt like something I needed to hear, you know?
Speaker BAnd I know that I used to believe, too, because there's.
Speaker BThere's sexual trauma in my past, and there's also just being a bad person in my past, making horrible choices.
Speaker BAnd I used to think that, like, outcomes in my life were punishment for, like, God.
Speaker BGod is punishing you for making these choices in your life.
Speaker BAnd what I know now is that God is not punishing Punishing me.
Speaker BLike, I've asked for forgiveness and I've been forgiven, but we still do live with the consequences of our sin.
Speaker AAnd have you forgiven yourself for that?
Speaker BI mean, I. I think so.
Speaker BI mean, I know that God.
Speaker BI do believe that God has forgiven me.
Speaker BAnd I've even just in the last couple of years, I've come so far in my faith, and I've really just tried to gain understanding and really what it means, because, like.
Speaker BLike I'm saying to you, like, I always.
Speaker BI always.
Speaker BI grew up in the faith.
Speaker BI grew up going to church, but I just didn't have a relationship.
Speaker BI did.
Speaker BI had no relationship, and I didn't understand that part of it.
Speaker BAnd now I truly have a relationship, and I. I am in communication with God all day long, every day.
Speaker BHe's just such a part of my life.
Speaker BAnd so, yeah, I, I know that I'm forgiven.
Speaker BI know what the Bible says.
Speaker BBut, you know, when you think about something that you've done like that, that's.
Speaker BI've forgiven myself, but it's still a hard thing to, to swallow and to think that that's something.
Speaker AAnd I said, you said at one point, you know, I'm a bad person.
Speaker AI mean, aren't we all?
Speaker AAnd isn't that all of our stories and how, how much it shows the grace of God and the love of God, the unconditional love that he gives us, that we are, we are all sinners, we have all fallen short of the glory of God, but it is through his grace that we are healed.
Speaker AI mean, what a beautiful thing.
Speaker AAnd again, how many women that you'll be just in your vulnerability and talking about it.
Speaker AI mean, there's someone out there who is feeling that same shame and that same guilt, and they don't know how to process it or how to handle it.
Speaker AAnd I truly think the first step is to ask for forgiveness from our Heavenly Father and forgive yourself.
Speaker AAnd again, when you ask for forgiveness, like, that's, that's easy.
Speaker AThat's cake.
Speaker AIt's like, he's going to forgive you.
Speaker AHe always will.
Speaker AI think forgiving ourselves is the hardest.
Speaker AAnd it's almost an everyday.
Speaker AIt's an.
Speaker BYeah, yeah, it surely is.
Speaker BUm, I actually wrote down.
Speaker BThe Bible says we are made right in God's sight.
Speaker BWhen we trust in Jesus Christ to take away our sins, we can all be saved in this way, no matter who we are or what we have done.
Speaker BNot only are you forgiven, but you are free from guilt and shame.
Speaker BThe Bible says there is no condemnation for those who belong to Jesus Christ.
Speaker BWhen we confess all our sins, he freely forgives, that'll give show bumps.
Speaker BNo condemnation.
Speaker BRight, right.
Speaker BAnd I just, I just, I think your story is so powerful and I just admire how you continue to.
Speaker BJust, like, if people go follow you on social media at the end of this, like, they'll see just how unapologetic you are about your faith and the things that you believe in.
Speaker BAnd I think that that's.
Speaker BNot everyone has that quality or is that strong.
Speaker BAnd I wanted to ask you about that, like, first, like, when did you become so outspoken?
Speaker BAnd then how do you handle?
Speaker BLike, I love how you handle the, the trolls, but how do you handle that?
Speaker AI was outspoken from a very young age.
Speaker AI had a bold voice And I think my parents probably thought, you know, how is God going to channel this girl's bold voice?
Speaker AI remember in college, I did a speech.
Speaker AI wrote a paper on female genital mutilation.
Speaker AAnd, like, that was the topic that I chose to speak on, and it made everybody uncomfortable in the room.
Speaker ABut, like, that was important to me.
Speaker AAnd I thought it was horrible that this was going on, and I spoke about it.
Speaker AAnd then back in high school, I was very outspoken about how I was a virgin, and I was determined to remain abstinent until I got married, which I did.
Speaker AAnd so I think from a very young age, again, really outspoken.
Speaker ABut it wasn't until Covid hit.
Speaker AActually, it was probably a year before COVID I decided to get an Instagram.
Speaker AI had never heard of Instagram before.
Speaker AI mean, I feel so old.
Speaker AI had never heard of Instagram.
Speaker AI'm like, I'm gonna get this, and I'm gonna try to do this influencer thing.
Speaker AAnd I started posting pictures of me and my kids, and we were in matching outfits, and it was cute, and it was whatever.
Speaker AAnd no one liked it because it wasn't authentic to me at all.
Speaker AAnd then Covid hit.
Speaker AAnd I remember picking up my camera and talking to my camera about how wild, you know, our world was, and about how my son was going to school.
Speaker AAnd this was.
Speaker AAgain, they were masking and doing all of that, and I was.
Speaker AI was putting on these fake masks on my kids.
Speaker ASo it was just a mesh mask, and it didn't, you know, block out anything.
Speaker AAnd it was Valentine's Day, and they were supposed to make Valentine's.
Speaker ABut unlike the traditional Valentine's Day, the parents were not allowed to bring in any boxes or any of the construction paper or the glitter or anything, because it could have Covid on it.
Speaker ABut the teachers were going to bring in the supplies, because when the teachers brought in the supplies, they wouldn't have Covid on theirs.
Speaker BNo Covid.
Speaker AAnd then I adopted my parents, Principal Schmidt.
Speaker AAnd Principal Schmidt was like, this Sarah Palin character who was a principal.
Speaker AAnd I was talking about how wild these things were, and people just ate it up.
Speaker AThey loved it.
Speaker AAnd I thought, oh, my gosh, there are people out there who are going through what I'm going through.
Speaker AThey feel alone.
Speaker AAnd I just started using my voice.
Speaker AAnd then I went to the Capitol to talk about, we're not gonna mask.
Speaker AAnd I would take my mask off at the grocery store, and people would approach me and be like, are we doing this?
Speaker ACan we do this?
Speaker AAnd I said, yeah, there's no law.
Speaker AOr I would walk, purposely walk, you know, north to get your milk when you were with the arrows.
Speaker AAnd it was empowering, and I loved the feeling of it.
Speaker AAnd my Instagram quickly grew.
Speaker AIt grew from nothing to, you know, a thousand.
Speaker AAnd then I had 5,000.
Speaker AAnd then I.
Speaker ASomewhere between 5 and 10,000 followers.
Speaker AI prayed over my social media and I said, God, if this is how you want me to use my voice, I want you to continue to bring me people.
Speaker AAnd if not, like, shut this account down.
Speaker AAnd I'm telling you, overnight it grew.
Speaker AAnd, you know, now at 350 some thousand followers, I feel like this is how God wants me to use my voice, and I'll continue to do so until he says no.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BAnd we were.
Speaker BThat's funny that you say that, because you and I, before we started recording, we were just talking about how God has me on this trajectory that I never saw myself on.
Speaker BAnd it's so.
Speaker BIt's so cool.
Speaker BAnd it's so.
Speaker BI mean, when you're in the will of God, there's no better place to be.
Speaker BRight?
Speaker BIt's like, oh, I had.
Speaker BI had different plans.
Speaker BBut you.
Speaker BYou soon see that if you follow your own flesh rather than God's will and God's plan and designed for you like that, it doesn't go so well.
Speaker BI.
Speaker BLet's see.
Speaker BSo I wanted to ask you this too.
Speaker BSo about the trolls.
Speaker BSo it's cool because you generally just like, call out the trolls.
Speaker BYou just like, post it and be like, yeah, no, this is not the thing.
Speaker BAnd, and I love too, that you said so.
Speaker BI saw that there were so many people who basically, you know, felt the same way.
Speaker BBut it's just.
Speaker BIt's just your perspective, because it also means that there were like half the people who hated what you were saying.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BLike that.
Speaker BThat brought them out as well.
Speaker BAnd I just, like, I'm so not a person who can have mean people.
Speaker BLike, I remember, like, my first troll.
Speaker BI know where I was.
Speaker BLike, it was 9, 11.
Speaker BLike, I'll never forget.
Speaker BAnd I just don't handle that well.
Speaker BSo God bless you.
Speaker BAnd I love that.
Speaker BThat how you do it all.
Speaker BI read this quote, a person can only hurt you to the extent to which you believe what they're saying.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AI think so much for me is that my identity is not rooted in what my followers say.
Speaker AI am.
Speaker AMy root, my identity is rooted in Christ and who he says that I am.
Speaker AAnd I am the child of the King.
Speaker AI mean, that's such a blessing to be walking in those shoes.
Speaker AAnd so I feel, yes, I often will block and bless.
Speaker AI like to call them out because I do feel like if you're going to say something behind a screen, you have to know that there might be.
Speaker AAnd definitely on my page, there will be accountability held towards that.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BThat's so good.
Speaker BI love it.
Speaker BLet's see.
Speaker BSo I wanted to talk about, too.
Speaker BSo there's so.
Speaker BIn following you on social media, I watched you do this really, really cool thing that was so inspiring to me, where you just kind of reached out to your followers and said, hey, I'm gonna bl.
Speaker BOr I'm going to bless a server.
Speaker BAnd you prayed over where you went to.
Speaker BYou can tell the story.
Speaker BBut I just.
Speaker BAbsolutely.
Speaker BIt was so inspiring.
Speaker BI was, like, on the edge of my seat, continuing to, like, watch and see who this person would be, and just thought, like, how can I.
Speaker BOn a smaller scale, like, how can I do this in my life?
Speaker BBecause it was so cool to me.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker ASo a friend of mine at the time we went to.
Speaker AWe were going to go to a restaurant.
Speaker AWe were actually visiting another state.
Speaker AState that we had not been to.
Speaker AWe hadn't been in this area.
Speaker AAnd we were just praying over the situation.
Speaker AWe prayed over where God would send us to the restaurant was the first thing.
Speaker AAnd we had two Uber drivers who had specifically suggested that we go to this one restaurant.
Speaker AAnd we just thought, okay, done.
Speaker AWe had never heard about it, but you're telling us that's where we're going to go.
Speaker AWe believe that God's going to direct us in that way.
Speaker AAnd so we went to that restaurant and we were telling our followers, you know, we are going to bless someone.
Speaker AAnd.
Speaker AAnd so if you feel inclined to pray for this individual or to financially support.
Speaker AHere's the Venmo.
Speaker AAnd we continued to.
Speaker ATo raise money over the course of the night.
Speaker AAnd we got to the restaurant, which was beautiful.
Speaker AIt was in Texas.
Speaker AIt just overlooks this gorgeous, massive lake.
Speaker AAnd we're seated in a beautiful place, and the waitress comes up to us, and she's a darling girl, and she's in school, in college, and she's kind of working her way through.
Speaker AAnd I noticed that she had a tattoo.
Speaker AAnd it was a.
Speaker AOne of those, like, temporary tattoos, but it was a Bible verse, and I asked her to, you know, tell us about your.
Speaker AYour Bible verse.
Speaker AAnd she had just started coming to know Christ and she started to have a relationship with him, and she was reading Her Bible.
Speaker AAnd she got a little emotional.
Speaker AAnd I said, we had asked.
Speaker AWe said, have.
Speaker AHave you been saved?
Speaker AShe said, well, no.
Speaker AAnd we said, well, what's stopping you?
Speaker AShe said, I.
Speaker AShe got emotional, started crying, and said that she hadn't found a church yet.
Speaker AAnd we let her know that you didn't need to find a church, that she could be saved right here, right now.
Speaker AAnd we let her know that if she had a break at some point and she wanted to do this right now, that we would walk her through that.
Speaker AShe ended up coming back, and on her break, we walked her down to this beautiful area and just the three of us prayed over her and led her through the prayer.
Speaker AAnd she was saved that night.
Speaker AAnd it still gives me chill bumps.
Speaker AAnd then we were able to bless her.
Speaker AI can't even remember what it was.
Speaker AI want to say it was something like somewhere between like 5 and $8,000.
Speaker AI can't remember what it finally got to.
Speaker AIt was a massive amount of money that was life changing.
Speaker AI think it was 5,000.
Speaker AAnd so.
Speaker ASo to me, like, we blessed her with money, but it was wild because she got even more emotional over the fact that she was now a child, Child of God.
Speaker AAnd it was a beautiful story that, I mean, you could never recreate.
Speaker AYou could never paint it your own way, because it just.
Speaker AI mean, it was so of God to set us to that restaurant in that section with a girl who really was just ready and just needed someone to hold her hand through it.
Speaker ASo he is beautiful in the way that he orchestrates things like that.
Speaker BI love that.
Speaker BI think that is so cool.
Speaker BI was so inspired watching, following along with all of that.
Speaker AYeah, it was fun.
Speaker BI want to switch gears a little bit, and I won't take too much of your time, but I know that, so.
Speaker BYou are so stunningly beautiful.
Speaker BYou are so beautiful.
Speaker BYour eyes, your smile, just everything about you.
Speaker BI think you're gorgeous.
Speaker BAnd I wondered about your take on aging as women today, because I've been in this place ever since my surgery where I'm like, okay, I feel like I'm not supposed to get Botox.
Speaker BI feel like I'm not supposed to be doing some of these things that I just always been doing and never giving a second thought.
Speaker BSo I was curious what your thoughts are on that.
Speaker AOn.
Speaker AOn just like any cosmetic.
Speaker BJust on aging.
Speaker BJust on like, not even.
Speaker BNot even, you know, going to those extremes, but just, like, accepting and, like, being okay.
Speaker BBecause, like, you're all over social media, you see the.
Speaker BYou Know, the comparison and the.
Speaker BWhat the women are, you know, showing.
Speaker BAnd I just like your perspective on it.
Speaker AWell, so I remember, again, I am so thankful for the household that I grew up in.
Speaker ABeautiful household, beautiful marriage.
Speaker AMy parents are still married.
Speaker AThey're celebrating.
Speaker AThey just celebrated two days ago, their 49th wedding anniversary.
Speaker AAnd my mom, if you could see her.
Speaker AI mean, stunning woman she is, and she embraced aging beautifully.
Speaker AAnd so I just.
Speaker AI think that was such a good role model for me.
Speaker AI've never been one to dye my hair, and I'm now so starting to go gray a little bit, and I call it my tinsel.
Speaker AAnd I. I genuinely love when I wake up and I see a gray hair because it's like this little glitter, and I actually think it's really beautiful.
Speaker ASo I. I'm enjoying that process of it.
Speaker AI don't get any fillers or Botox.
Speaker AI think wrinkles are actually really beautiful.
Speaker AI think it's God's canvas and how he intended us to age.
Speaker AMy.
Speaker AMy daughter actually drew a picture of me the other day, and she said, do you want me to draw your wrinkles on your forehead?
Speaker AAnd I said, baby, you just draw me the way that you see me.
Speaker AAnd she drew, you know, five wrinkles.
Speaker AJust nailed it.
Speaker AAnd she said, do you want your eyebrows to look, like, as full as they are, or do you want them a little bit thinner?
Speaker AAnd I just said, you draw me the way that you see me, which is so precious.
Speaker AMy nightstand.
Speaker AI should have had it ready.
Speaker AIt's too funny.
Speaker ABut I just felt like.
Speaker AHonestly, I think I was told so much as a child that God made me beautiful and the way that he viewed me, not.
Speaker ANot the way that society tells us we're beautiful.
Speaker ABut I think that's, like, an inner confidence, too, that I know that God made me this way.
Speaker AAnd, you know, I'll get people who will say mean things about me.
Speaker AAnd I just think, like, if you have a problem with the way that I look, you can take it up with my creator.
Speaker BAmen.
Speaker AThis is the way that he created me.
Speaker AI. I will say, too, though, full transparency.
Speaker AI think if someone.
Speaker AIf someone feels like they want to do something to make themselves beautiful, I don't.
Speaker AI don't think I have a hard stance on, you know, don't do this or do it.
Speaker AI don't.
Speaker AI don't usually talk about this, but I will say again, you didn't share yours.
Speaker AI'll share a little secret of mine.
Speaker AI was a triple D in high school.
Speaker AI had A massive chest.
Speaker AAnd on this frame, I was a little bitty frame, and I had little dress in.
Speaker AAnd it was hard for me because I feel like my mom would get me, you know, we'd have to go shop for these bigger bras.
Speaker AAnd I remember shopping for prom dresses was really difficult.
Speaker AAnd I ended up getting a breast reduction, and insurance paid for the whole thing when I was a freshman in college.
Speaker AAnd then I had babies, and the babies just completely drained me.
Speaker AAnd so transparency, I. I got my breasts done, and I had them filled back up to where they were.
Speaker ABut again, I feel like everybody's kind of on their own journey, so I don't know if I have a hard stance on what to do or what not to do, but pray on it.
Speaker AAnd I think the prayer would be, God, let me see me the way that you see me.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BThat's so good.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BI really struggled after my surgery, and I think, too, like.
Speaker BAnd you have a story where your life could have.
Speaker BYour situation could have gone another way.
Speaker BYou know, you could have not been, you know, cured of your cancer, and the surgery could have not been successful.
Speaker BAnd same with me, like, my heart surgery could have not been successful.
Speaker BAnd I just think, man, every.
Speaker BYou know, every day that I get to live, you know, whether that shows on my face or in my hair or whatever, it's such a blessing, and I just have to.
Speaker BI would love to be able to embrace it.
Speaker BI'm working on it.
Speaker BYeah, I'm working on it.
Speaker BBut you.
Speaker BI just.
Speaker BWhenever you show up, I'm like, she is so beautiful.
Speaker BYou're just so beautiful.
Speaker BAnd sometimes I think that's a.
Speaker BThat is a blessing from God because it also gives you influence.
Speaker BAnd if you use it in a.
Speaker BYou know, to glorify God, I think that.
Speaker BI don't know.
Speaker BI used to look at being pretty as, like.
Speaker BLike, I'll be like, oh, my gosh.
Speaker BIt's the only compliment I get is you're pretty.
Speaker BAnd I had nothing to do with it.
Speaker BIt's just like, my mom and my dad made a pretty thing, and, you know, I used to almost resent it, but now I see it as, you know, God gave that gift to me, and so I can use it for good and for his glory.
Speaker BSo.
Speaker AAnd I'll say, too, that my.
Speaker AMy mom specifically made a very strong point to always tell me that I was beautiful physically.
Speaker AAnd then she accompanied it by your kind, or you're outgoing or you're charismatic, because heaven forbid you tell your child all the time.
Speaker AThat they're physically beautiful.
Speaker AAnd then something happens, happens.
Speaker AIt happens, and they're scarred, and now they're no longer beautiful by today's standards.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker AAnd they feel like they're nothing.
Speaker AAnd I truly believe in the quote, that that inner beauty really is.
Speaker AComes out in your physical, outer beauty.
Speaker AAnd I think that, too.
Speaker AI mean, the confidence that someone has and, yeah, it plays out on your face.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BTruly.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BSo good.
Speaker BI. I listen to your story and just think, man, I wish I could say that, you know, I was a virgin until I was married, that I was still.
Speaker BI. I'm divorced.
Speaker BI was still, you know, I'm.
Speaker BI'm everything I did the hard way.
Speaker BAnd I just.
Speaker BNot to say your life, your path was easy because there are, you know, difficulties with that as well.
Speaker BBut, gosh, to be.
Speaker BTo have known, you know, way back then, like, what.
Speaker BI was worthy and I didn't have to do any of these things or, you know, make these choices to whatever I thought I would get out of them.
Speaker BBut it's just.
Speaker BIt's such a beautiful story.
Speaker ASo I do want to say, too, though, to your listeners who are listening and they feel like they're in that place where you are from.
Speaker AFrom a perspective of someone who was raised in a Christian household and who was baptized young and really didn't have as much adversity.
Speaker AIn that sense, I will say I never felt like I had a testimony that was worth someone, like, listening to.
Speaker AAnd so in that sense, I think it's beautiful that you have this testimony of God making beauty from ashes and using.
Speaker AUsing the moments that we went through and maybe the moments that we weren't walking in his will, that he will always be able to direct you back.
Speaker ALike, you can never go too far outside of the grace of God.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BAnd that's very true.
Speaker BAnd I do, I. I do see that, too.
Speaker BAnd that's where I don't live with regrets, because it's like, I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't take the exact path I took to get here.
Speaker BSo.
Speaker BThat's very true as well.
Speaker BI want you to share.
Speaker BSo I've been seeing some really fun Jesus merch.
Speaker BCan you tell us about that and how people can.
Speaker AI did a new collaboration with a company called Salted Words, and they make the cutest shirts and merch and apparel that you can shop any of her stuff, and you can actually use my code, Kendall, to get a discount.
Speaker ABut then I collaborated with her on, like, my very own line, which is fun.
Speaker AIt's all comfort colors, so.
Speaker ASo it's 100% cotton.
Speaker AIt's made in America.
Speaker AAnd really bright, fun colors that is either like T shirts, sweatshirts, or crop top, like tees.
Speaker AAnd then you can pair it with shorts or sweatpants, which I love for the fall.
Speaker AAnd they're all really darling.
Speaker AThey all have, you know, fun Jesus phrases on them.
Speaker AAnd again, I love to be bold in my faith, and I love to wear that stuff physically, you know, on my heart.
Speaker BYes, Yes.
Speaker BI love it.
Speaker BIt's so cute.
Speaker BAnd then where can people follow you?
Speaker BWhat's your handle on.
Speaker ASo handle in Kentucky with underscores under each.
Speaker AAnd I'm.
Speaker AI would say completely on.
Speaker AOn Instagram, I've been told I need to start a YouTube.
Speaker AI have a YouTube.
Speaker AI do a couple shorts, but I probably have five shorts up there.
Speaker AWhereas with my Instagram, I probably have like 2,000.
Speaker BYou know, it just feels like home on Instagram.
Speaker BI feel like I'm always told that too.
Speaker BLike, you need to be on TikTok.
Speaker BAnd then I try.
Speaker BI'm like, yeah, I don't.
Speaker BI don't.
Speaker BI don't live over here.
Speaker BThis is like.
Speaker AIt's kind of like a. I don't know if I like that culture over there.
Speaker AI haven't gone, but I've seen it from others and China, so I feel like with my.
Speaker AI just.
Speaker AIt just goes against what I stand for.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BTruly.
Speaker BAll right, I want to just leave us with this.
Speaker BSo if you have struggled with any of the things that you know that we've talked about today, know that God loves you so much that you don't have to earn God's love.
Speaker BYou don't have to work your way into heaven.
Speaker BAnd the truth is, even if you wanted to, you never could.
Speaker BNone of us could.
Speaker BSalvation is not a reward for good behavior.
Speaker BIt's a gift freely given through Christ's work on the cross.
Speaker BAll God asks is that you turn your heart to him.
Speaker BRepent, believe, receive his love.
Speaker BIt's not about how perfect you've been.
Speaker BIt's about what Jesus already did for you.
Speaker BHe paid the price so you could be free.
Speaker BYou don't need to prove yourself.
Speaker BYou just need to come.
Speaker BFor it is by grace you have been saved through faith.
Speaker BAnd this is not from yourselves.
Speaker BIt is a gift from God.
Speaker BSo, Kendall, thank you.
Speaker BI appreciate you.
Speaker BAll right, friends, what a powerful testimony from Kendall today.
Speaker BWe are in a brand new month.
Speaker BWe are in September.
Speaker BFall is upon us, and we have a new memory verse.
Speaker BSo September Memory verse is James 1, 2, and 3.
Speaker BConsider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.
Speaker BAll right, everybody, happy Monday.
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Speaker BCome hungry, get fed.