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S welcome to Fed by the Fruit, a podcast focused on nourishment for the mind, body and soul.

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I'm kb, a spirit filled certified life and nutrition coach with a calling to disciple women who are hungry for more.

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Each week we will learn who God is and what he wants for and from us through powerful testimonies, biblical truth, and so much more as we fuel our minds and bodies in ways that honor him.

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Let's get fed.

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Hello, friends.

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Happy Monday.

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Welcome back to Fed by the Fruit.

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I am so excited to have this guest.

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You all have no idea what we've been through to get here today.

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We've had some challenges in our recording, but we are persevering today.

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I know that God wants her story shared, so our guest today is a self proclaimed woman of God.

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She's a wife, mom, and patriot.

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Her unapologetic mama, Bear Fire has gained her widespread popularity on social media and her content is widely shared by major influential leaders.

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Kendall Bailey has an incredible testimony and I feel very blessed that she's here today to share it with us.

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So welcome Kendall.

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Thank you for being here.

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Thank you so much for having me.

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Yes, and we have been through, we have been through it to make this work, but I feel like that's going to be even more powerful.

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Got God wanted this to happen.

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Satan wanted to stop it, and there's no stopping God.

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Amen.

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That's right.

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That's right.

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So like me, I love this part of your story.

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You were just always a believer, having grown up in the faith.

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But in 2014, God gave you a powerful testimony, so I would love for you to share it.

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Yeah.

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So I was not hearing well at all and there were little signs sprinkling throughout, but my husband and I went to dinner with our.

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We just had a son at the time and, and the, the waitress came over and said, can I get y' all more bread?

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And I said, no, we're fine.

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Just bring us more bread.

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And, you know, walked away.

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My husband said she had asked us that you need to go.

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Your hearing checked.

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Like, I'm serious this time.

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So schedule an appointment.

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Go to an ear, nose and throat doctor.

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And at that point then I was diagnosed with otosclerosis, which is like, I mean, it's, it's progressive deafness.

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And essentially I would need to have surgery on my stapes bone, which is the smallest bone in the human body.

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It's almost like an arthritis of the ear.

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So that was a lot to take in.

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And then at that appointment, because he was near nose and Throat doctor.

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He decided to give me a full checkup and felt my throat, discovered that I had a lump.

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We had it biopsied and sure enough, I had thyroid cancer.

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So the night before surgery, my husband came home from work with a pregnancy test.

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And he said, you're pregnant.

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And I thought, like, how do you know?

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Usually, you know, I would be telling him that I'm pregnant.

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And he said, you know, you've been getting up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom.

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You did that with our son Jack.

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You did it with the baby that we had just miscarried.

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I just have a feeling.

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And I took the test and just abandoned the results.

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I truly thought, there's just no way I'm kidding be pregnant.

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Like, we were just told that I had to have this surgery and we couldn't get pregnant this month.

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I tucked my son in, did a big, you know, kisses, and we did songs and we did books.

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And I finally came back downstairs and sure enough, I was pregnant.

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So around nine o' clock at night, we called my anesthesiologist and my surgeon who assured me that I was early enough along in the pregnancy that they could do the surgery while keeping myself and baby safe.

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And so we did.

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We went into surgery and actually my doctor and his nurses laid hands on me and prayed over me before they rolled me back into the room.

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Woke up from surgery and was told that it was very successful in the sense that my thyroid had been completely removed, however, my cancer had spread and that I would need radiation.

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However, in order to do radiation, you would have to abort the baby.

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And we were given a choice.

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And for my husband and I, like, there was no choice.

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We felt like God had already made that choice when he placed that baby inside my womb and called her fearfully and wonderfully made.

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And thankfully I had a group of doctors around me and a group of friends and family around me who believed in that as well.

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So we decided to delay, delay treatment.

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I gave birth to Presley and then I breastfed her for two months.

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If you have breast milk in your body, the radiation will attack that and not the cancer.

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So kind of went through a month long process of getting rid of the breast milk.

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I also had to go through a low iodine diet and I lost a lot of weight.

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I got down to like 118 pounds, which was small for me.

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Like I looked like I had cancer.

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And I did my radiation and I am cancer free today.

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I have a beautiful baby girl and I did surgery twice on my ears.

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They didn't take either time.

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And every time that you do the surgery again, you risk going deaf completely, which just wasn't a risk that we were willing to take.

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So I now wear hearing aids and.

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And I'm so thankful for my hearing aids because that's what led me to discover my cancer.

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And, I mean, God works in such beautiful ways.

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He really does.

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It's like, it's similar to my story in that he allowed this car accident to reveal this heart condition that saved my life.

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You know, his plans are always better.

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I would never have planned to have a car accident that day, but thank God, it's just such a beautiful story.

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And I was thinking this morning on my drive, like, I was praying about this and, like, God, just give me the questions and give me the, you know, just whatever we should talk about, like, whatever it is that you want.

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And a couple of things, like, you just from following you on social media, you know, I know that you grew up in the faith and that your parents are strong Christians, and you had that foundation.

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Like, even last night, you were like, we didn't celebrate Halloween.

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You know, I didn't even know that you shouldn't celebrate Halloween.

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Like, I knew this growing up, not growing up, but now I know, right?

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So looking back, it's like you had this foundation, and it just reiterates how important it is to instill in our children, you know, what it is that God wants.

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And I did not intend to bring this up, but I'm feeling like I'm going to.

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So I had an abortion in my early to mid 20s.

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I already had my two boys.

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I was divorced, and it felt like.

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It felt like the sky was falling when I found out that I was pregnant.

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Holy cow, here we are.

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I didn't know this was going to happen.

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But, no, I love.

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Keep going.

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I love this.

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Go.

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So I made this choice, and it was so tumultuous.

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Like, my boyfriend at the time, like, he, like, gave me the money, and then we got in a fight and he took the money back.

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And I didn't know what I was going to do.

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And I was already just, like, fighting for these two boys that I had.

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I didn't.

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I knew it was wrong.

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Like, I knew it was wrong, but.

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But I didn't know.

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I felt like I didn't have any other choice.

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I didn't know what to do.

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And maybe that's not even true.

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I.

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There was always a choice.

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But I went.

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I remember that day, and my.

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My friend took me, and, you know, she's like, oh, I had an abortion, and I know where to take you.

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And so she took me.

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And I remember just, like, laying there and I was crying, like, really crying, and as it was happening, and I remember the nurse, like, she.

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She looked at me, like, in disgust.

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She goes, does it hurt?

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And I said, it hurts my heart.

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Like, I kn.

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It was wrong, you know, And I. I struggled for a long time.

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Just obviously I still, if I bring it up, it's very hard.

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I remember my husband asking me when we first met, like, I don't know.

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It was just like one of these questions.

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He's like, you've never had an abortion, have you?

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And I just felt covered in shame, covered in shame, because he absolutely didn't expect for my answer to be yes.

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But I also wanted to be honest.

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And I remember being in a church service once, and the pastor was talking about abortion, and he just.

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At the end of it, you know, he was saying how it's not what God wants, it's wrong, it's taking a human life.

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And I truly believe that that's true.

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And at the end, he just said, if you or someone, you know, have had an abortion, like, you know, there's a baby and there's a mom and just love them both.

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And I just felt like that was such a beautiful message, you know, for me, like, it just felt like something I needed to hear, you know?

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And I know that I used to believe, too, because there's.

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There's sexual trauma in my past, and there's also just being a bad person in my past, making horrible choices.

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And I used to think that, like, outcomes in my life were punishment for, like, God.

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God is punishing you for making these choices in your life.

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And what I know now is that God is not punishing Punishing me.

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Like, I've asked for forgiveness and I've been forgiven, but we still do live with the consequences of our sin.

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And have you forgiven yourself for that?

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I mean, I. I think so.

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I mean, I know that God.

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I do believe that God has forgiven me.

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And I've even just in the last couple of years, I've come so far in my faith, and I've really just tried to gain understanding and really what it means, because, like.

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Like I'm saying to you, like, I always.

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I always.

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I grew up in the faith.

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I grew up going to church, but I just didn't have a relationship.

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I did.

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I had no relationship, and I didn't understand that part of it.

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And now I truly have a relationship, and I. I am in communication with God all day long, every day.

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He's just such a part of my life.

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And so, yeah, I, I know that I'm forgiven.

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I know what the Bible says.

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But, you know, when you think about something that you've done like that, that's.

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I've forgiven myself, but it's still a hard thing to, to swallow and to think that that's something.

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And I said, you said at one point, you know, I'm a bad person.

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I mean, aren't we all?

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And isn't that all of our stories and how, how much it shows the grace of God and the love of God, the unconditional love that he gives us, that we are, we are all sinners, we have all fallen short of the glory of God, but it is through his grace that we are healed.

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I mean, what a beautiful thing.

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And again, how many women that you'll be just in your vulnerability and talking about it.

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I mean, there's someone out there who is feeling that same shame and that same guilt, and they don't know how to process it or how to handle it.

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And I truly think the first step is to ask for forgiveness from our Heavenly Father and forgive yourself.

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And again, when you ask for forgiveness, like, that's, that's easy.

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That's cake.

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It's like, he's going to forgive you.

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He always will.

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I think forgiving ourselves is the hardest.

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And it's almost an everyday.

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It's an.

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Yeah, yeah, it surely is.

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Um, I actually wrote down.

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The Bible says we are made right in God's sight.

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When we trust in Jesus Christ to take away our sins, we can all be saved in this way, no matter who we are or what we have done.

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Not only are you forgiven, but you are free from guilt and shame.

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The Bible says there is no condemnation for those who belong to Jesus Christ.

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When we confess all our sins, he freely forgives, that'll give show bumps.

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No condemnation.

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Right, right.

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And I just, I just, I think your story is so powerful and I just admire how you continue to.

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Just, like, if people go follow you on social media at the end of this, like, they'll see just how unapologetic you are about your faith and the things that you believe in.

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And I think that that's.

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Not everyone has that quality or is that strong.

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And I wanted to ask you about that, like, first, like, when did you become so outspoken?

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And then how do you handle?

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Like, I love how you handle the, the trolls, but how do you handle that?

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I was outspoken from a very young age.

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I had a bold voice And I think my parents probably thought, you know, how is God going to channel this girl's bold voice?

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I remember in college, I did a speech.

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I wrote a paper on female genital mutilation.

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And, like, that was the topic that I chose to speak on, and it made everybody uncomfortable in the room.

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But, like, that was important to me.

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And I thought it was horrible that this was going on, and I spoke about it.

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And then back in high school, I was very outspoken about how I was a virgin, and I was determined to remain abstinent until I got married, which I did.

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And so I think from a very young age, again, really outspoken.

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But it wasn't until Covid hit.

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Actually, it was probably a year before COVID I decided to get an Instagram.

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I had never heard of Instagram before.

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I mean, I feel so old.

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I had never heard of Instagram.

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I'm like, I'm gonna get this, and I'm gonna try to do this influencer thing.

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And I started posting pictures of me and my kids, and we were in matching outfits, and it was cute, and it was whatever.

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And no one liked it because it wasn't authentic to me at all.

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And then Covid hit.

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And I remember picking up my camera and talking to my camera about how wild, you know, our world was, and about how my son was going to school.

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And this was.

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Again, they were masking and doing all of that, and I was.

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I was putting on these fake masks on my kids.

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So it was just a mesh mask, and it didn't, you know, block out anything.

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And it was Valentine's Day, and they were supposed to make Valentine's.

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But unlike the traditional Valentine's Day, the parents were not allowed to bring in any boxes or any of the construction paper or the glitter or anything, because it could have Covid on it.

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But the teachers were going to bring in the supplies, because when the teachers brought in the supplies, they wouldn't have Covid on theirs.

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No Covid.

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And then I adopted my parents, Principal Schmidt.

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And Principal Schmidt was like, this Sarah Palin character who was a principal.

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And I was talking about how wild these things were, and people just ate it up.

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They loved it.

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And I thought, oh, my gosh, there are people out there who are going through what I'm going through.

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They feel alone.

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And I just started using my voice.

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And then I went to the Capitol to talk about, we're not gonna mask.

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And I would take my mask off at the grocery store, and people would approach me and be like, are we doing this?

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Can we do this?

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And I said, yeah, there's no law.

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Or I would walk, purposely walk, you know, north to get your milk when you were with the arrows.

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And it was empowering, and I loved the feeling of it.

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And my Instagram quickly grew.

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It grew from nothing to, you know, a thousand.

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And then I had 5,000.

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And then I.

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Somewhere between 5 and 10,000 followers.

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I prayed over my social media and I said, God, if this is how you want me to use my voice, I want you to continue to bring me people.

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And if not, like, shut this account down.

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And I'm telling you, overnight it grew.

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And, you know, now at 350 some thousand followers, I feel like this is how God wants me to use my voice, and I'll continue to do so until he says no.

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Yeah.

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And we were.

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That's funny that you say that, because you and I, before we started recording, we were just talking about how God has me on this trajectory that I never saw myself on.

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And it's so.

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It's so cool.

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And it's so.

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I mean, when you're in the will of God, there's no better place to be.

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Right?

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It's like, oh, I had.

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I had different plans.

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But you.

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You soon see that if you follow your own flesh rather than God's will and God's plan and designed for you like that, it doesn't go so well.

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I.

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Let's see.

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So I wanted to ask you this too.

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So about the trolls.

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So it's cool because you generally just like, call out the trolls.

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You just like, post it and be like, yeah, no, this is not the thing.

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And, and I love too, that you said so.

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I saw that there were so many people who basically, you know, felt the same way.

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But it's just.

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It's just your perspective, because it also means that there were like half the people who hated what you were saying.

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Right.

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Like that.

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That brought them out as well.

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And I just, like, I'm so not a person who can have mean people.

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Like, I remember, like, my first troll.

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I know where I was.

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Like, it was 9, 11.

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Like, I'll never forget.

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And I just don't handle that well.

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So God bless you.

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And I love that.

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That how you do it all.

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I read this quote, a person can only hurt you to the extent to which you believe what they're saying.

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Yeah.

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I think so much for me is that my identity is not rooted in what my followers say.

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I am.

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My root, my identity is rooted in Christ and who he says that I am.

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And I am the child of the King.

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I mean, that's such a blessing to be walking in those shoes.

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And so I feel, yes, I often will block and bless.

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I like to call them out because I do feel like if you're going to say something behind a screen, you have to know that there might be.

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And definitely on my page, there will be accountability held towards that.

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Right.

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That's so good.

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I love it.

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Let's see.

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So I wanted to talk about, too.

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So there's so.

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In following you on social media, I watched you do this really, really cool thing that was so inspiring to me, where you just kind of reached out to your followers and said, hey, I'm gonna bl.

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Or I'm going to bless a server.

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And you prayed over where you went to.

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You can tell the story.

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But I just.

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Absolutely.

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It was so inspiring.

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I was, like, on the edge of my seat, continuing to, like, watch and see who this person would be, and just thought, like, how can I.

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On a smaller scale, like, how can I do this in my life?

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Because it was so cool to me.

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Yeah.

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So a friend of mine at the time we went to.

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We were going to go to a restaurant.

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We were actually visiting another state.

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State that we had not been to.

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We hadn't been in this area.

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And we were just praying over the situation.

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We prayed over where God would send us to the restaurant was the first thing.

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And we had two Uber drivers who had specifically suggested that we go to this one restaurant.

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And we just thought, okay, done.

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We had never heard about it, but you're telling us that's where we're going to go.

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We believe that God's going to direct us in that way.

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And so we went to that restaurant and we were telling our followers, you know, we are going to bless someone.

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And.

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And so if you feel inclined to pray for this individual or to financially support.

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Here's the Venmo.

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And we continued to.

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To raise money over the course of the night.

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And we got to the restaurant, which was beautiful.

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It was in Texas.

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It just overlooks this gorgeous, massive lake.

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And we're seated in a beautiful place, and the waitress comes up to us, and she's a darling girl, and she's in school, in college, and she's kind of working her way through.

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And I noticed that she had a tattoo.

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And it was a.

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One of those, like, temporary tattoos, but it was a Bible verse, and I asked her to, you know, tell us about your.

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Your Bible verse.

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And she had just started coming to know Christ and she started to have a relationship with him, and she was reading Her Bible.

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And she got a little emotional.

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And I said, we had asked.

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We said, have.

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Have you been saved?

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She said, well, no.

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And we said, well, what's stopping you?

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She said, I.

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She got emotional, started crying, and said that she hadn't found a church yet.

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And we let her know that you didn't need to find a church, that she could be saved right here, right now.

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And we let her know that if she had a break at some point and she wanted to do this right now, that we would walk her through that.

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She ended up coming back, and on her break, we walked her down to this beautiful area and just the three of us prayed over her and led her through the prayer.

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And she was saved that night.

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And it still gives me chill bumps.

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And then we were able to bless her.

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I can't even remember what it was.

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I want to say it was something like somewhere between like 5 and $8,000.

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I can't remember what it finally got to.

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It was a massive amount of money that was life changing.

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I think it was 5,000.

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And so.

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So to me, like, we blessed her with money, but it was wild because she got even more emotional over the fact that she was now a child, Child of God.

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And it was a beautiful story that, I mean, you could never recreate.

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You could never paint it your own way, because it just.

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I mean, it was so of God to set us to that restaurant in that section with a girl who really was just ready and just needed someone to hold her hand through it.

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So he is beautiful in the way that he orchestrates things like that.

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I love that.

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I think that is so cool.

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I was so inspired watching, following along with all of that.

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Yeah, it was fun.

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I want to switch gears a little bit, and I won't take too much of your time, but I know that, so.

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You are so stunningly beautiful.

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You are so beautiful.

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Your eyes, your smile, just everything about you.

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I think you're gorgeous.

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And I wondered about your take on aging as women today, because I've been in this place ever since my surgery where I'm like, okay, I feel like I'm not supposed to get Botox.

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I feel like I'm not supposed to be doing some of these things that I just always been doing and never giving a second thought.

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So I was curious what your thoughts are on that.

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On.

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On just like any cosmetic.

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Just on aging.

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Just on like, not even.

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Not even, you know, going to those extremes, but just, like, accepting and, like, being okay.

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Because, like, you're all over social media, you see the.

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You Know, the comparison and the.

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What the women are, you know, showing.

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And I just like your perspective on it.

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Well, so I remember, again, I am so thankful for the household that I grew up in.

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Beautiful household, beautiful marriage.

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My parents are still married.

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They're celebrating.

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They just celebrated two days ago, their 49th wedding anniversary.

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And my mom, if you could see her.

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I mean, stunning woman she is, and she embraced aging beautifully.

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And so I just.

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I think that was such a good role model for me.

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I've never been one to dye my hair, and I'm now so starting to go gray a little bit, and I call it my tinsel.

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And I. I genuinely love when I wake up and I see a gray hair because it's like this little glitter, and I actually think it's really beautiful.

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So I. I'm enjoying that process of it.

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I don't get any fillers or Botox.

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I think wrinkles are actually really beautiful.

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I think it's God's canvas and how he intended us to age.

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My.

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My daughter actually drew a picture of me the other day, and she said, do you want me to draw your wrinkles on your forehead?

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And I said, baby, you just draw me the way that you see me.

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And she drew, you know, five wrinkles.

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Just nailed it.

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And she said, do you want your eyebrows to look, like, as full as they are, or do you want them a little bit thinner?

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And I just said, you draw me the way that you see me, which is so precious.

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My nightstand.

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I should have had it ready.

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It's too funny.

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But I just felt like.

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Honestly, I think I was told so much as a child that God made me beautiful and the way that he viewed me, not.

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Not the way that society tells us we're beautiful.

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But I think that's, like, an inner confidence, too, that I know that God made me this way.

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And, you know, I'll get people who will say mean things about me.

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And I just think, like, if you have a problem with the way that I look, you can take it up with my creator.

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Amen.

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This is the way that he created me.

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I. I will say, too, though, full transparency.

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I think if someone.

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If someone feels like they want to do something to make themselves beautiful, I don't.

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I don't think I have a hard stance on, you know, don't do this or do it.

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I don't.

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I don't usually talk about this, but I will say again, you didn't share yours.

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I'll share a little secret of mine.

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I was a triple D in high school.

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I had A massive chest.

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And on this frame, I was a little bitty frame, and I had little dress in.

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And it was hard for me because I feel like my mom would get me, you know, we'd have to go shop for these bigger bras.

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And I remember shopping for prom dresses was really difficult.

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And I ended up getting a breast reduction, and insurance paid for the whole thing when I was a freshman in college.

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And then I had babies, and the babies just completely drained me.

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And so transparency, I. I got my breasts done, and I had them filled back up to where they were.

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But again, I feel like everybody's kind of on their own journey, so I don't know if I have a hard stance on what to do or what not to do, but pray on it.

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And I think the prayer would be, God, let me see me the way that you see me.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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That's so good.

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Yeah.

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I really struggled after my surgery, and I think, too, like.

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And you have a story where your life could have.

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Your situation could have gone another way.

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You know, you could have not been, you know, cured of your cancer, and the surgery could have not been successful.

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And same with me, like, my heart surgery could have not been successful.

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And I just think, man, every.

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You know, every day that I get to live, you know, whether that shows on my face or in my hair or whatever, it's such a blessing, and I just have to.

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I would love to be able to embrace it.

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I'm working on it.

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Yeah, I'm working on it.

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But you.

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I just.

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Whenever you show up, I'm like, she is so beautiful.

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You're just so beautiful.

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And sometimes I think that's a.

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That is a blessing from God because it also gives you influence.

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And if you use it in a.

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You know, to glorify God, I think that.

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I don't know.

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I used to look at being pretty as, like.

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Like, I'll be like, oh, my gosh.

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It's the only compliment I get is you're pretty.

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And I had nothing to do with it.

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It's just like, my mom and my dad made a pretty thing, and, you know, I used to almost resent it, but now I see it as, you know, God gave that gift to me, and so I can use it for good and for his glory.

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So.

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And I'll say, too, that my.

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My mom specifically made a very strong point to always tell me that I was beautiful physically.

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And then she accompanied it by your kind, or you're outgoing or you're charismatic, because heaven forbid you tell your child all the time.

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That they're physically beautiful.

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And then something happens, happens.

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It happens, and they're scarred, and now they're no longer beautiful by today's standards.

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Yeah.

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And they feel like they're nothing.

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And I truly believe in the quote, that that inner beauty really is.

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Comes out in your physical, outer beauty.

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And I think that, too.

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I mean, the confidence that someone has and, yeah, it plays out on your face.

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Yeah.

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Truly.

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Yeah.

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So good.

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I. I listen to your story and just think, man, I wish I could say that, you know, I was a virgin until I was married, that I was still.

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I. I'm divorced.

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I was still, you know, I'm.

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I'm everything I did the hard way.

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And I just.

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Not to say your life, your path was easy because there are, you know, difficulties with that as well.

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But, gosh, to be.

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To have known, you know, way back then, like, what.

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I was worthy and I didn't have to do any of these things or, you know, make these choices to whatever I thought I would get out of them.

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But it's just.

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It's such a beautiful story.

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So I do want to say, too, though, to your listeners who are listening and they feel like they're in that place where you are from.

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From a perspective of someone who was raised in a Christian household and who was baptized young and really didn't have as much adversity.

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In that sense, I will say I never felt like I had a testimony that was worth someone, like, listening to.

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And so in that sense, I think it's beautiful that you have this testimony of God making beauty from ashes and using.

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Using the moments that we went through and maybe the moments that we weren't walking in his will, that he will always be able to direct you back.

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Like, you can never go too far outside of the grace of God.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And that's very true.

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And I do, I. I do see that, too.

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And that's where I don't live with regrets, because it's like, I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't take the exact path I took to get here.

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So.

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That's very true as well.

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I want you to share.

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So I've been seeing some really fun Jesus merch.

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Can you tell us about that and how people can.

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I did a new collaboration with a company called Salted Words, and they make the cutest shirts and merch and apparel that you can shop any of her stuff, and you can actually use my code, Kendall, to get a discount.

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But then I collaborated with her on, like, my very own line, which is fun.

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It's all comfort colors, so.

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So it's 100% cotton.

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It's made in America.

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And really bright, fun colors that is either like T shirts, sweatshirts, or crop top, like tees.

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And then you can pair it with shorts or sweatpants, which I love for the fall.

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And they're all really darling.

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They all have, you know, fun Jesus phrases on them.

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And again, I love to be bold in my faith, and I love to wear that stuff physically, you know, on my heart.

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Yes, Yes.

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I love it.

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It's so cute.

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And then where can people follow you?

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What's your handle on.

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So handle in Kentucky with underscores under each.

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And I'm.

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I would say completely on.

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On Instagram, I've been told I need to start a YouTube.

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I have a YouTube.

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I do a couple shorts, but I probably have five shorts up there.

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Whereas with my Instagram, I probably have like 2,000.

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You know, it just feels like home on Instagram.

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I feel like I'm always told that too.

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Like, you need to be on TikTok.

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And then I try.

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I'm like, yeah, I don't.

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I don't.

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I don't live over here.

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This is like.

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It's kind of like a. I don't know if I like that culture over there.

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I haven't gone, but I've seen it from others and China, so I feel like with my.

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I just.

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It just goes against what I stand for.

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Right.

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Truly.

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All right, I want to just leave us with this.

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So if you have struggled with any of the things that you know that we've talked about today, know that God loves you so much that you don't have to earn God's love.

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You don't have to work your way into heaven.

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And the truth is, even if you wanted to, you never could.

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None of us could.

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Salvation is not a reward for good behavior.

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It's a gift freely given through Christ's work on the cross.

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All God asks is that you turn your heart to him.

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Repent, believe, receive his love.

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It's not about how perfect you've been.

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It's about what Jesus already did for you.

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He paid the price so you could be free.

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You don't need to prove yourself.

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You just need to come.

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For it is by grace you have been saved through faith.

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And this is not from yourselves.

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It is a gift from God.

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So, Kendall, thank you.

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I appreciate you.

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All right, friends, what a powerful testimony from Kendall today.

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We are in a brand new month.

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We are in September.

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Fall is upon us, and we have a new memory verse.

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So September Memory verse is James 1, 2, and 3.

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Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.

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All right, everybody, happy Monday.

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Thank you for being here.

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