Hello, hello, and

welcome to the Borealis experience. I'm your host

Aurora. And I'm very happy to be spending some time with you

today. Today's episode is for you. When you don't know what to

do with yourself. I feel COVID has brought that feeling upon

us. And maybe even before COVID is sometimes felt like my

parents are busy, my siblings are busy, my friends are busy,

my partner is busy, my kids are busy. I have time to myself, but

I don't really want to sit with myself. See, when you feel like

you don't know what to do with yourself, it means that you

don't really like to spend time with yourself. It's also a big

clue showing us and showing yourself that you might be

distracting yourself from yourself with socializing, video

games, porn, movie watching, binge eating, whatever you

choose to do. Some people are very sporty and healthy. But all

they're really doing is running away from that loneliness. That

is eating them up from the inside. And then once you've

done your exercise, once you've eaten your healthy food and

nobody has time for you. You watched all the movies, you read

all the books, wait, you're not peaceful, calm enough to read

books yet. But once you've done all the things that distract you

from yourself, and you maybe even exhausted, you sit with

yourself and it feels so uncomfortable. It doesn't feel

good at all. You have thoughts creeping up, you have memories

coming up. You have fears coming up when it comes to the future.

And it just doesn't feel right to be sitting alone.

Maybe it's a beautiful, sunny Saturday. Maybe it's a Monday

afternoon. I don't know how your life looks like. But I sure know

how it feels when you don't know what to do with yourself. Set

out what I like to do when I feel that way. As just be in it.

And you will see that what you running away from is not that

scary anymore. And if it is, then you know that you can

always reach out. You can always find a counselor you can always

talk to your parents, your friends, acquaintances,

Facebook, there's several groups that can support you with

whatever it is. If you don't feel okay with yourself. If it's

too intense, too uncomfortable, but if you think you can bear

with it just a second, just a couple minutes with me here. So

know that you're not alone. And feeling that way is perfectly

fine. We've all done stuff that we regret. We've all made

mistakes. We all feel like a failure at times. And really

life is not about not feeling these things. Life is about

feeling these things. And being step by step more okay with

those feelings. If you're driving, keep your eyes open Of

course or if you're operating machinery or your attention as

needed. But if you're at home if you may be laying down on your

couch or your bed. I invite you to close your eyes and that

feeling of not being enough for yourself. That feeling Have, I

need something from the outside? That makes me feel whole and

Okay, something that distracts me from the thing that is eating

me up from the inside is a very common feeling we all feel. So I

think the first step is to know that you're not alone in this.

And the second step is to find out what kind of feeling is it

be excited to explore it? Is it anger? Is it grief? Is it

resentment? Is it fear? What is the feeling that is so

uncomfortable? When you spend time with yourself reserved Your

thoughts? Or your thoughts? destructive? Negative, fear

driven, ego driven? What is it that you reject so much about

yourself? What is it that you still can't embrace about

yourself? Do you constantly have to be in the doing? Can you

never really be in the being? Are you constantly afraid

something will happen? Some thought will creep up on you

some memory.

Take a deep breath. focus in on your breath. And know that what

you experiences was part of human condition. It is part of

life. And especially during COVID know that so many people

are going through the same thing. We all don't know what's

gonna happen. uncertainty for some is exciting. But for most

of us, it's crippling and just scary. Know that you will be

fine. Know that the most important thing is to get to

know yourself. And what you're doing right now I'm so proud of

you is to get to know yourself. What is your drive? to do

things? Is it fear? Is it resentment? Is it distraction or

as it compassion, empathy, wanting to support others. And

you will very quickly find out in which stream you are

swimming. And from there, you can go and evaluate. Am I

swimming in the right direction right now? How can I get closer

to my purpose to what I came here to do? You know, this life

is so beautiful and rich and fulfilling. But the world we

live in is so scary and fast paced, but also very diverse. So

if you are a dreamer, you can dream up the perfect job for

yourself. And I'm sure that you will either create that job or

it is out there already. And you just got to find the right

people. If you are a very skeptical, fear driven person,

then I invite you to dream a little more. And to really

explore what excites you what makes you feel good. What are

you good at? And maybe if you don't find anything that you're

really good at? You haven't found it yet, inside of

yourself. You haven't explored yourself enough. Because we all

have a purpose here. And most of us just live in autopilot and

never really dig deeper and never really find what what

brings them joy and what they're good at. But I really invite you

here to do this. And trust me if it's a genuine interest in video

games. Gosh, there's so much out there you can become a value

game designer. He can be an advertiser, for video games,

there's all sorts of things. If your parents don't agree with

your hobby. That's okay. You Don't need their approval. If it

is birdwatching, I'm just watching birds right now while I

speak. And you're so passionately interested in those

little creatures, then explore your interest there and find

people to talk about that passion of yours. See, it

doesn't really matter. What it is, it is how you approach it,

to meet the right people, and then to excel, what really

excites you, and to have in mind that you want to share with the

world, you want to support other people. You want to maybe

educate other people. You want to help people out, you want to

inspire people. If you have that intention, you will never fail.

Maybe you just had the wrong intentions.

Maybe

you did what you did, because of a fear of not feeling enough. If

you didn't do what your parents wanted you to do.

Maybe

you're still sad about a breakup, and you're trying to

run away and that job right now just distracts you enough to not

think of that pain. So it is uncomfortable at times to sit

with that feeling. But let me tell you, it's so incredibly

valuable and worth it. To get to know yourself better. And to

know what you might want to do in the future can put you in

such a beautiful mindspace without any help from outside

without any

distraction.

Just by being with yourself.

Again,

if you feel too uncomfortable, please reach out and find

support. But it is normal to feel uncomfortable at times. To

not being okay, sitting with yourself. And then I hope this

episode here brought you peace and inspiration and made you

feel less alone. Thank you so much for listening to the

Borealis experience. I'm your host Aurora and I will be out