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Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint. Heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony. My soul is in deep anguish. How long, Lord? How long? Psalm six verses one through three.

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This passage, it speaks to me so much right now. As I record this podcast for you, I am spending my fourth day in my home in Houston, Texas, without electricity. A hurricane passed through on Sunday at midnight four days ago, and we still don't have electricity restored at my home.

and through these days of

not having power, not having air conditioning, not having internet, being unable to work. I have asked God why, why Lord? After all of the things that I've already gone through, not in my life, not in the past year, just in these past six months of 2024, I have felt so much

pain and I'm asking God to have mercy on me because I am faint. I'm asking God to heal me because I'm saying Lord how much more can I handle? How much more can I endure? I told my friend recently I wasn't built for this and she said Wesleyan apparently you are built for this because God is

taking you through this storm, a physical storm, an emotional storm. And so in my anguish, I asked Lord, how long, how much longer am I going to endure?

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This anguish within my body, this pain physically, this storm that is moving around outside. How long? How long, Lord? And in my sorrow, in my time of pain, anguish, and feeling defeated,

I turn to God. I know that he hears my prayers. He sees my tears. He's right there with me. And as I'm asking him why, he doesn't answer me immediately. But what he does is...

He delivers me and he saves me because of his unfailing love. That's what the next verse, verse four says. Turn Lord and deliver me. Save me because of your unfailing love. Among the dead no one proclaims your name. Who praises you from the grave? I am worn out from my groaning.

all night. I flooded my bed with weeping and drenched my couch with tears. My eyes grow weak in sorrow. They fail because of all my foes.

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This is a Psalm of lament. This is a Psalm where we learn, where David teaches us that it is okay to be sad. There are times in our life where we are going to not understand what God is doing. There are gonna be times in our life when our tears are wet with

Our bed is wet with tears. The other morning my son woke up and he said, mommy, my bed is so wet because I sweated so much last night. And as a mother to know that my child is in his bed and he is sweating so much and there's nothing that I can do to help him in that moment.

That brings me pain, that brings me anguish. And so I ask, Lord, how much longer, how much longer will I be in this current place? And although we're still without electricity, although I am still currently in this storm, I am still in this valley, I'm not giving up on God.

I'm not saying, God, this is something that you're punishing me for. God, are you actually out there? God, if you were real, you wouldn't allow so much pain and heartache to happen to me or my children to be enduring so much pain. I'm not doing those things. I'm getting on my knees. I am praying and

This morning, my son woke up and he was complaining about something and I said, I want you to start your day with gratitude. What can you be grateful for? He said, we have water and I know some of my friends don't have water. It wasn't as hot last night as it was the other night. My bed isn't full of sweat. So even in those times,

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when it seems like there's darkness surrounding us and there isn't anything to be grateful for, we can be grateful.

So whatever you're going through, whatever storms you are enduring physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually, find something that you can be grateful for. Just one thing and remember God is right there with you.