Because those mistakes or failures are

beautiful. Lessons and teachings and learnings don't take you to

the next thing. So try not to be so fearful. Be more playful.

Have more fun. Don't think take things so seriously anymore.

Life is short, and at the end of the day, you have a choice. You

could be in fear and let it hold you back and restrict you, okay,

if that's really what you want, and your heart's desire is that,

or what is your heart's desire to take that risk, to take and

see and explore and create, be creative. And I'm choosing that

daily and and it's been fun and magical and beautiful. And so

I'm healing the little boy inside of me. I'm working with

all my traumas and all those things that I was now, I say

gifted, and as hard as it is to hear that sometimes, because I

went through some serious traumas and tragedies, so they

were like, what? But it's like, you know, it's part of my path,

and it's brought me to where I am today, and I'm proud of where

I am today and who I am today. You know, I still have hard days

and times, but now I have those tools, and I work through them

and I share them.

Hello, beautiful. I am so freaking excited for you

to hear this week's episode. This is was a long time coming.

I have one of my oldest friends who is literally we've seen each

other through every phase of life since we were 19 years old,

and he is a soulmate, a soul brother, a love and a

extraordinary human who literally everything he touches

turns to gold. He's created so much success in his life, in the

wellness first in the banking industry, but then in the

wellness industry, as a yogi, yoga teacher. Then he opened his

first yoga studio. This is back in like, 2007 and then he, gosh,

he's done, I mean, he talks about all the things on here.

He's a sambal healer, of like, really renowned sambal healer

does international retreats all over the world. Is a meditation

teacher. Is a gem of a human. Has his own Oracle deck, his own

wellness line. He's just created so much magic in his life. And

so I thought there was nobody on planet earth I would rather have

this conversation with about turning up the volume, upping

the ante, and creating a year that is devoted to your path,

your heart, your soul and everything that you've ever

desired. Let's go 2026 enjoy this episode with my beautiful,

beloved Farhad and I, and can't wait to hear what you think.

Spread it to every woman you know who needs a little magic

this year.

Hello, beautiful. I am so pumped for this week's episode. I Happy

almost new year. It is one day before the new if you're

listening to this episode, when it comes out, it is one day

before New Year's Eve. So we're almost at the end of 2025 and I

had to bring out the big guns for this episode, because, I

mean, this is a long time coming. We've talked about

having you on the podcast since I started it. I think I'm

sitting in front of one of my favorite humans on planet Earth,

if not my favorite human on planet Earth, and we're talking

about magic and how to create a magical life. And I feel like

that is what both of us have done since I've known you, we

both have just created so much magic and reinvented ourselves

and been birthed into new versions of ourselves, over and

over and over again. It's been so beautiful to witness your

journey, and I love you. Welcome to the new truth podcast.

Farhad, aka fuzz.

Ah, thank you so much. Thanks for that

introduction, to it's an honor to be on your podcast. Finally,

yay. This is so great. Thanks for having me.

Thanks for coming to the party. This is the

perfect time it feels like for us to do this together. I just

feel like both of us have created a lot of magic as of

late. I mean, like I said, it's been happening for a long time,

but this conversation your most magical year yet. I feel like my

life just keeps getting more and more magical, and I feel the

same is true for you. Would you agree?

I agree? Yeah. I mean, it's always, you know,

I've always, since a young age, I've had so many kind of

hardships in life, and to see me turn things around and make it

magic is like, amazing, because I'm like, I have that choice to

kind of stay in that kind of world of failure and things

aren't going well. And then, you know, I know what that

trajectory could have looked like for me, because I had that

kind of vision around me, with people in my life, my

surrounding environment, and then I'm like, to be able to,

like, choose the other way of being, and then have magic come

from it over and over and over again. And then today, still,

many years later, you know, it's kind of like, it's like a

recipe. It's like, okay, I'm choosing. Magic, and it's a

simple recipe. It's such a simple recipe now that I've

learned how to hone in those skills and remind myself of all

the things to remind myself of, to continue to expand the magic,

you know. So, yeah, it's been amazing. And watching you as

well, like, you know, inspiring individuals in my life. We

inspire each other, so that helps to generate the magic as

well, I think so thank you as well. To you.

So it's so amazing. It's, I love that you said it

simple. It's like it takes practice. I think that's where

people get tripped up. Is they want a quick fix or they want to

instant gratification, and we've really been trained to have

instant gratifications in the Western world. But it's, it is.

It's so freaking simple and what we're talking about, and we'll

of course, dive into all the ways that we that we create

magic, and how our lives are so magical and beautiful and

aligned with who we really are and our souls. We'll share so

much of that today. But I think that, you know, remembering that

it's a I always say this, and I think people are like, Oh, I

just want it to happen and be done, but you would be bored if

you just got to some arrival point. There's always more parts

of ourselves to grow into, and more parts of ourselves to meet.

And it is simple, it's simple, but it's about being really

present and honest with yourself and showing up for yourself over

and over and over again, which I think you've done so

beautifully.

Yeah, you know, and I'm gonna it wasn't always easy,

that's for sure. It was hard, you know, choosing the path of

maybe, for me, it was spirituality more and like

immersing in, like my practices at a younger age, like my yoga,

my meditation and the sound healing, so discipline in that

form of like, I want to commit to something that nurtures my

spirit in a way that I feel Like, okay, like there is so

much chaos around me and the trauma and all the stuff in my

worlds, that I found something that was a disciplinary thing

daily, that helped me stay connected to my body, listen to

my heart, find more clarity in my mind with all the noise. And

I think through that because it was hard, like it was, it's not

an easy thing to do sometimes, because I think a lot of times

we don't put ourselves first. It's like a trained thing with

or untrained ourselves of how to, like, put ourselves first.

And I used to think that was selfish, and then learning,

okay, that's self care. You know, take care of yourself,

because it starts within, and then you can give it out

authentically, right? Because I was always kind of, like

struggling, and I didn't understand exactly why. And then

when I found these practices, I could really internally, move

inward and realize, like, Okay, I need to, like, take care of

myself, my health, my mind, my well being. And then through

that, I start to get more creative and explore and feel

like I can do this and I can take this risk, because why not?

What have I got to lose? And I think the voices of the people

around me who were maybe telling me I couldn't do something, or,

you know, all the kind of negative things to like not

pursue something that was within me, I was kind of like just just

let them say what they want, let them just talk however they want

to talk. But I really learned to kind of build that sort of

boundary and realize in myself, if it's something I really want

and brings me joy, I'm going to do it, because if I don't do it,

I'll always wonder, and if I do it and it fails, let's say, if

there is a failure, it's a lesson, then great. Move on to

the next thing, right? So I really wanted to, like, live my

life. Well, the quote I always would be, like, through my

adversity, I gained strength. And I think that was powerful

because I allowed change in any shape or form, that it came in

good or bad, to be the catalyst of, like, making me stronger.

And I learned more through it, and it brought me to the next

thing. So with that mentality, it was like, there are really no

failures. It's like, just follow your heart if it brings you joy.

It's something you want to do. We only have one life. So like,

live it up, do it and learn from it in your own way that you need

to learn. Like, find the beauty in it. If it didn't go the way

you thought it would go, and if it does, oh my gosh, you just

kind of keep going and building off it and creating more and

more. So yeah, and that's how I kind of work today, too. I just

kind of like, let it flow with that way of being. And it's,

it's definitely worked for me in a lot of ways, that today I can

look back and be like, Okay, I want to share this with other

people. Like, this is amazing. You can you can do it. And there

are going to be moments that aren't easy, but those moments

are like, you're actually living life. And let's learn from these

moments, and let's see where this takes you now or takes us

now, right?

And it's just like, it's just such a fantasy that

life is ever just going to be easy all the time, like, you

guys, come on, look around like us. That's not the human

experience. That's not what we signed up for. Soul, signed up

for the contrasting experience. And like you said, we grow so

much through the contrast. And yet life is guiding us like

there is this heart and this light inside. And when, when

something is aligned, we feel that resonance internally. And

if you follow that, and you're willing to be uncomfortable and

you're willing to to grow through the challenge, there's

so much available to you. And I mean, you've just done that over

and over again, I feel it seems it feels like everything you

touch turns to gold. But I think because everything you devote

yourself to is coming from your heart, and it's coming from

divine guidance, and it's coming from where you're led, and so

that has, I've never thought of this before, but I think with my

journey too, it's like that has energy behind it. I'm picturing

a wave carrying the surfboard, like if you are going in the

direction, you always use the word flow if you're going in the

direction that the wave is the wave of life, aka the universe

life, the the unscripted path, the path that's meant for your

soul, that you're being guided to, when you listen to the

guidance, when we when we're willing to say yes. And even

though it's scary, even though failure could happen, even

though you're gonna have to grow and get uncomfortable and all

those things you get to you ride the wave. That's when life sends

you another one and another one and and watching your journey,

that's what it's like. You just like, you're just on the

surfboard. You're like, woo hoo, and you're in the middle of it.

It's just like, the waves keep getting bigger, and you're like,

let's go. And you just the more you surf, the more confident you

get surfing. I'm totally Have you ever surfed? I'm totally

picturing

I have. I've surfed one time in Hawaii because the

water was nice and warm. And I would probably always lean

towards warm water surfing, and it was fun.

Most people don't even know cold weather surfing

exists. I think only Canadians

know that. Yeah. Tofino, yeah, no. And you said

it beautifully, and yeah, like, sometimes you'll fall off the

surfboard and just get back on it, you know what? I mean, you

buy the big wave, the little waves, you know? And I think

that's the beauty of life, is we have so many things at our

fingertips that we can explore doing. And I don't know. I just

think, like, maybe, you know, taking kind of like a moment to

think of like, like, are you happy in your day to day life?

And what could make you happy? Like, just reading, writing a

little list, and like, what are the things stopping you from

being happy or finding your joy? Like, you know, like, what are

the things like? Because I feel like there's always a solution

that we can figure out a way to kind of work towards that do

what you love, love what you do, sort of concept, because, why

not, right? Like, why not try to move in that direction and take

the little steps it takes, or the big leaps and bounds, like

the ride the big wave or the little waves, until you kind of

cultivate more of that life around you, within you, that can

bring you the things you love to do. And you know life, life is

short. You know we don't know when our last breath is going to

be. And I mean, we've all witnessed that, like majority of

us have seen grief and know that it's precious our time here, and

what we do here is, I think, really important. And one of it

is exactly what you had said, too, is like we've been gifted

the senses, taste, smell, touch, like we can dance, we can eat

amazing food. We can smell beautiful aromas, like we can

experience on a level that's so dynamic and powerful and

beautiful. So let's use that in sharing with ourselves and

others in ways, like for me, you know, moving the body, dancing,

yoga practices, I teach a lot of that, like freestyle movement. I

love music, you know, food, I love cooking and sharing that.

Like, these are all things. I love art, painting and creating,

and it's like, I want to do things that inspire me and bring

me joy, because I will only then offer it to others in such a

way, because it's like, I'm excited, and it's like, I want

to share this, because it's, it's beautiful, and I feel like

it could spark some excitement or inspiration to someone who's

like, Oh, cool. Like, I want to pick up painting again, or I

want to pick up cooking or do that again, or I love that yoga

class that was so fun. I've never done anything like that

before. Like we dance and I. Put on music, and everyone's like,

they did not expect that, but just to throw in, like, get

outside the box, try something new, and you never know. It

might be that spark of the magic that hits you where you're like,

oh my gosh, like, I need to do more dance classes in my life,

or whatever it is, but, like, that's how it starts, and then

it just builds. And keep doing the things that bring you, Joy,

inspiration, excitement inspires you to get up out of bed every

day, because sometimes that's hard, but, like, find those

things, those moments, and I think, yeah, and I think that a

lot of time too. You know, it can start from, like, your

little bit day by day, like a little spiritual practice, you

know, sometimes little meditation or sitting in your

yard or going going for a walk at the ocean. You know little

moments in your day that can let you kind of investigate that

inner knowing or wanting or desire within yourself. And then

it starts to open up those doors.

I love it, yeah, and it feels because your energy

frequency, I'd say it's it's always light, it's Oh. And

you've been through so much, and it yet you have this incredibly

high vibration. And it always feels so joyful to connect with

you. And there's such Lightness of Being. And I think, you know,

so many people are so dense and have really dense energy, but

it's because of where they're hanging out, like if you're

hanging out in the stories in your mind about how much the

world sucks and how everything should be different than it is,

and how you're the worst, and they're the worst, and blame

them. Blame you, whatever. You're gonna feel bad. You know,

if you eat McDonald's every day, you're gonna feel bad if you

like what? What is, what is your life look like? And so I love

that the exploring new like new places, is everything. I'm

living in Kenya, I'm learning Swahili. I've taken five Swahili

classes, and I it is so fun. It Like It's fun. I'm, like,

giggling, and it's playful. And every time I get into an Uber

I'm like, Nina eatwa, Kate, Nina Toka, Canada, Nina recite the

things that I know and and it creates connection everywhere I

go. And it's just like, playful light thing. And it's something

I didn't know. I didn't even know I was ever going to come to

Africa, let alone move here and learn so here and learn Swahili

like it. But it's this new, new place, like, ooh, something

about the language sparks my heart, so I'm going to follow

that. And I mean, gosh, you do that in so many ways. I have a

client right now who a woman I worked with for who's amazing,

magical woman. She just like, all of a sudden felt curious

about horses, and she's just like, really curious, and she's

gone down the rabbit hole now she's like, I have a feeling

it's going to open up massive things for her, because she's so

in love with them. And every time I talk to her, she's more

and more and more in love with horses and doing more things

with them in different ways. And it's been so beautiful to

witness. Is like, a year ago, she that wasn't even on her

radar, and now she's a horse person, and like, going down the

rabbit hole of falling in love with learning from these

beautiful animals. So there's, I just think there's, like, so

many parts of ourselves we haven't met yet. And if you're

not willing to try new things, you won't meet them.

Yeah, that's beautiful. No, totally. And,

yeah, like, I think, like, just like, the horse thing is

amazing, because it's like animals are such amazing beings,

like my dog's sitting in my lap right now, and he's just like,

snuggled up to me, grounding me. I'm obsessed with my dog. I love

him so much. The animals are just I think that's what it's

about. Being with animals absolutely grounding me, calming

me, and just the spiritual connection of just like being

with an animal, your animal is, like, very powerful. And I think

that, you know, you like, I am quite busy, like, I'm doing a

lot of events, and I do a lot of things, but my favorite thing is

really coming back to him. And just like being snuggled into

him, he just kind of resets my nervous system, which, you know,

horses are very known for, that. You know, the spirituality and

energy of a horse. It's, it's becomes like this medicine. You

know, being around these beings, we're so lucky to be able to

have them close to us. I think it's a privilege and a blessing,

you know. And the other thing with that, with you know, what

you're mentioning is, you know, I think the reminders of just

being grateful every day, gratitude our blessings like we

are very fortunate, like how we live in our day to day lives.

So, you know, just remembering that we are very blessed. We are

very like fortunate with what we have in our lives compared to

some other people in the world and other parts of the world.

And I think that daily practice as well is like a really good

reminder of maybe, you know, finding that deeper purpose

within yourself. Yourself. Like, what is that you can actually

give back as well to others and share the parts of yourself, but

it comes from like that internal gratitude, like reminding us of

that and then sharing that with other people is like, such a

gift. So, like, a lot of the work I do is like, I do it for

myself, and I love it and enjoy it, and then it's like, shared.

And then it's like, the abundance in that, and the

feeling is like, it's definitely what lights me up, you know, you

mentioned, like, you're so light and, you know? And, yeah, it's

like, I think it's because of, you know, the work that I we do.

It's like, I'm so lucky. I have the life I have and get to do

these things because, yes, it's a choice. I chose it and I

created it consciously, because I wanted to create the things I

love more and brought me joy within myself, the self care

part, you know, and then the fact that I get to share that

and see what it does in that ripple effect to the people and

communities and people around me. It's like it's such a win

win, and it feels like this is such a nice way to live life.

I'm going to keep going and keep creating, because it's fun and

inspiring, and just lifting my environment around me up as

well, which is beautiful.

Yeah, yeah, it's, it's, it's amazing. Yeah, I love

appreciation. I find is a really grounding energy to ground when

things when, when, when you're you have things to celebrate,

and things are going well. We're so used to beating ourselves up

and but about the the last thing you said around what you do

brings you joy, and it's for you I want to, let's talk about your

journey. I would love for you to take us on a trajectory, if

you'll share your personal story of like how you even found yoga

or yoga found you, and how you started on the journey of

opening your first yoga studio, and how your your purpose has

evolved. Because I think often i i know a lot of my clients,

especially in the last couple years, have been really, really

feeling that, like I can't do this job anymore, like I cannot

force myself, like stick the square peg into the round hole

anymore, like there's something deeper, there's something more

meaningful. And I know that is such a hot topic of conversation

that I'm having with everyone in my community right now, and I

know, you know, in friend groups, and it's happening

everywhere for people who aren't already feeling their own

purpose. And I think often people have a fantasy that

they're just going to figure it out in their mind first, what

the thing is. But if I look at your journey and my journey, I

had no idea where I was headed. I didn't know I would have this

podcast. I didn't know I would have this amazing community. I

didn't know anything like it was one step at a time. So would

love to hear your story of going from like, how how yoga impacted

your life, how it found you, and then and then, where you went

with your stepping into your purpose and claiming your

magical life that you have now.

Well, yeah, and thank you. That's, you know,

it's a, it's a pretty big story, so we might have to do a few of

these podcasts, but I'll give you the summary of just kind of

like the journey, you know, growing up. You know, I was born

and raised here in Vancouver. My parents are both from India, and

when we came to Vancouver, I was born here, like I mentioned, you

know, we we had a bit of a dysfunctional family growing up,

you know, like my parents were both chefs, and I remember being

at the restaurant in Gastown in Vancouver, and they would argue

like two chefs in the kitchen. So I saw a lot of like

dysfunction, arguing between my parents. They had such a deep,

deep love, but that love also was like, they'd fight a lot,

and I remember seeing that as a kid, I'd be so embarrassed

because people could hear them in the front of the restaurant.

And I'm this little kid like drawing dishes, because I'd have

to work there on weekends all the time. So I grew up in the

restaurant world, and you could literally hear them screaming,

fighting. My dad was a messy Cook, my mom was a clean cook,

and they just butted heads so and then growing up with that

dynamic with all my siblings, I'm the youngest of five kids in

my family, and just the dynamic of fighting with parents and

kids. I watched it all as this the youngest looking up it at

all. And, you know, going through everything under the

moon you could think of with family dysfunction, like

addiction to it's just, it's on. It's like I experienced

everything, if you will. It was crazy, and at the same time it

was almost a blessing, right? Like, I, for some reason, as a

child, knew I'm going through this for a higher purpose. I

remember one specific moment. I was looking in the mirror, and

there was like, arguing happening in the hallway of my

home, and I was looking at myself, tears running down my

eyes. I was a kid, and I was like, in my head, there was a

voice saying, you're going through this for something

greater. Now, what can. Kid hears that, and I've never I can

see and hear that moment clear as day, and I carry it with me

today. I'm like, I had an angel guide. I had guides with me

because there's no kid that has, I mean, I don't really know

many, and I kind of kept that as like my mantra ever since, and

reminding myself through the traumas and tragedies, because

many more came as I got older, like in 9319 93 my dad was

incarcerated for 21 years, went to prison, which really rocked

our world and broke our family apart. And again, I had to,

like, really, like, pick myself up and try not to live in the

whole victim world, which I had many opportunities to do, and

the path of, you know,

what, what kid like, what, you know, that's

wild. I think of how many people are victims of, like, their boss

being grumpy or something, and it's like, what child goes

through that and the whole time is connected to his higher self?

I mean, yeah,

and like, it was hard, because I was 13 when that

had that part happened, and I had much more prior to that.

Like, that'll be in the book Kate. Yes, yes. You know, that

was probably the really big turning point when that

happened, because it was like, blasted all over media, and it

was like, my life was exposed. I'm a kid in high school and

going to school, and, you know, media and news and newspapers

like going through that whole like having I used to walk with

my head down a lot, like I would walk down because I didn't want

someone to see my face, because I was so ashamed, living in

shame, and I'm not worthy. And we lived in an affluent

community at the time, and we lost all our friends. I had no

friends. Everyone turned on us. It was crazy. It was, it was, it

was a out of a movie. It felt like it's very surreal.

It probably will be a movie. I think I'm getting

that download now, like your life story is a book and it and

it becomes a movie, for sure.

You know, it's there's so many different facets

to it as well, like so many little things in there, you

know, that I will share over time eventually. But you know,

like I mentioned, just like on

our future show, yeah, we're gonna have a

sideshow and

you know what the spin off show? I'm totally into

that, because I think that a lot of my story is relatable to

people in one way or the other different parts of the story,

like from, you know, the depression, anxiety, addiction,

the shame, the guilt, like so many things around the that that

we all endure as humans on different levels, in the

emotional state, trauma, really, right? And carrying that as a

child, and then as I got older, you know, I was very lost,

because I was like, that really throws you off. And you you lose

sense of identity, or what your identity might be or should look

like, because you're kind of like hiding a lot. And I was,

and I remember, I was at a point in my life, and I was in my

early 20s and 1920 2020s, yeah, around 20 and I was having

suicidal thoughts. I was like, I am just done, like I couldn't

live with the feelings of not good enough and shame and

everything that was happening with my family and within

myself, the turmoil, and one of my best friends at the time, and

she's still my best friend today, and she actually was with

me through a lot of my, you know, upbringing. And she's

like, why don't you try yoga? This was in 2001 now. Michelle,

yeah. Michelle, yeah. And she said, try yoga, because she was

very concerned about me. She loved me like we were family,

right? And so I did. I went to my first yoga class by myself.

And back then, where, in North Vancouver, at the yoga pod, yoga

pod. Where was yoga pod? Just on Esplanade. It's no longer there.

Obviously, shut down many years ago now, but they were a really

beautiful yoga studio, and that was my first time doing a yoga

class, which is crazy, in 2001 Yeah. And so I went by myself in

the afternoon. I remember it. I did the most amazing practice a

teacher, her words were like speaking to my soul. And I went

after the class, into the car, sat in my car, and started

crying uncontrollably. I was crying, crying, crying, and I

knew it was tears of almost joy or release, or like I finally

found something that made me feel or open me up or release,

something on a deeper level than I was so externalized. I was so

living my life through what other people thought of me, the

judgments, what they were thinking of me, through my

family's experiences, and like I always thought, like people were

talking about me in a negative way because of everything I had

been through. And finally, I was able to go inward. Realize,

like, who am I? Like, I'm a good person. Like, I have been

through a lot, and it wasn't of my doing. This was just what I

was presented in my soul's journey. I was born into this. I

didn't commit these crimes or these things, these moments. I

was a kid, and I really started to get connected to my inner

wisdom and self through the practice of meditation, of yoga,

and I realized I'm going to stick to this path now, because

I found something, oh my gosh, like I was amazing,

yeah, and something that makes you feel good, like

that. It's such a beautiful feeling when you're in so much

pain internally, and then you find something that actually

connects you to really to who we truly are,

I think so, or at least unmasking or unlayering

parts of ourselves, or transforming those parts of

ourselves that we had, you know, endured the traumas and sadness

and all the things like, how can I now use these to empower

myself? So there's the adversity. I gained strength

coming back in the mantra, you're going through this for a

higher purpose. That reminder came back because I went inward

through my practice. So that reminder spoke louder within me,

like, oh, yeah, you're doing this for a higher purpose. This

is an experience you're experiencing. So you can help

yourself through it, and then help others that are going

through the similar suffering. Because, you know what? You're

not the only one going through this, I guarantee it. And that

was kind of, then the language I adopted, that in the darkness I

can find light. You know, the lotus flower growing in the mud,

the dark dirty mud, this light, beautiful flower will grow and

come so from the dark comes light, from light comes dark.

There's this balance of polarities that we're living in

the human experience. And I think that there's so much

wisdom and teaching and beauty. And I know this now, of course,

that it can, it can make you take leaps and bounds into the

light and the magic and the dreams you want to manifest. But

it's transforming. It re patterning, learning from it.

Don't run away from it. There's so much amazing. It's like that

compost of stuff that amazing, that too, you know, right? Like,

the dirt,

there's, there's minerals, there's, like, there's

things you need to jewels and diamonds in that dirt. Like, I

was picturing, maybe there's the Kenyan Red Earth, like, Rich.

It's like, that's the dirt you want on your skin. Yeah,

exactly. It's healing. It's, it, there's, there's so many gems

inside of it.

Yeah, absolutely, and so, yeah, like, you know,

just, I was in a job too that I did not love. I was working for

a bank and insurance.

Remember, he got me my first credit card, where it all

went downhill,

and, you know, and I learned a lot from there. It

kept me disciplined. I had responsibility. It was a bank,

you know, I didn't go to college or university. I wasn't able to

due to my circumstances at the time and where I was in my

mindset. So I worked. I always worked, and I had some amazing

jobs, but I always kept my foot in the practice, because it was

like helping me get through and then at one point, I realized

I'm like, I want to make this my life. Because what an amazing

life to be able to practice every day and then share it with

people like, I want this for my future, because I know my

nervous system and mind really would need that. Because going

through what I went through as that young adult child. I'm

like, if I don't find a path that's gonna keep me on a path,

it's gonna go another direction, and that direction was like

those, you know, negative, dark thoughts that could consume one

right?

I I just want to highlight one thing you just

said. I want to make this my life like, how? What a beautiful

statement. Just thinking of how many people do things they love

and then they go to a job they hate, and maybe because they

believe, Oh, you can't make money from that, or whatever.

There might be some limiting beliefs in there, but I want to

make this my life. How beautiful is that?

Yeah, I you know what? It was clear as day that

I'm like, why not? Why not choose this as a life path?

Because it's so beautiful. It felt amazing. It was healing me

on levels I didn't know at that time yet, until I learned much

later about the science and what's actually happening to our

brain, gut, nervous system, our spiritual being, energy, body,

the dense body, like you said, we're in the dense. I learned

about the dense and then the subtle energies and and the

healing around that. So all, all I know, is in the moment. Back

then it was a felt, sense and knowing, and then later, because

in 2006 I did my first teacher training. Training to become

certified as a yoga teacher. That's when it really opened up

the door of, okay, there is a science to this. There is actual

science of what's happening. And now that everything was starting

to click in my brain, my heart, like all the dots, I'm like,

this is actually medicine. This is therapy medicine. This is a

path of spirituality that is uplifting and lightning, and

it's only going to get better and better if I move in this

direction for myself, because the other route and road was a

darker place that I would have stayed in, and I knew I didn't.

I knew I was going through this for a higher purpose, and I

wanted to make that my, my mantra, and move forward with

that in life as my mission, to be of service, you know? And I

did that, and so many years later, yeah, 2007 then I opened

up my yoga studio, like, a year, not even a year after I

graduated, I'm like, I'm just doing this. I'm making it my

life. And I'm going to say something kind

of, most people will be like, I'm not good

enough. Yeah, I need to practice like, 10 million more times and

do my training. Oh, yeah,

no, absolutely. And I was also like, people around

me, like, when I was gonna open up my yoga studio, I was like,

Are you crazy? First of all, you don't have a following. You

haven't even done this really. You even really started

teaching. And I had not a lot of money at all. I was, you know,

how is this going to happen? Like, everyone's like, the

economy's bad right now, but I just had this inner feeling and

knowing guidance. And I don't even know how to really fully

name it as one name, but angels, like inner voice, universal

self, whatever you want to call it. It's like, you need to

create this space of community where people can practice in a

safe space and nurture selves through this and community and

connection. And I did, and it all manifested magically, and

it was during a recession, and also, like the

most beautiful studio, because you're also one of your I mean,

you have insane amount of gifts from anyone I've ever met, but

it your gift of esthetics. I mean, like your studio is and

your house is everything, every what you wear, like, always,

just beautiful.

Yeah, thank you. Well, I mean, I like style. I

like things that look I'm a Libra. So I like detail,

totally, totally Libra. And like, I, you know, I I'm drawn

to like esthetics and balance and nice looking things and so,

yeah, my studio, I want it to be, like, beautifully,

stunningly simple, classy that would never go out of style,

like it could just stay and be minimalist as well, like very

zen and meditative. When you walk in, you just feel grounded.

And so I think I achieved that I really do, and I was so proud of

it, and I had it almost around 18 years.

And 18 years, was it that long? Well, wait, I

opened in 2000 I'm a little girl.

No, no, I said, we. I said, we, we've been doing this

dance a long time.

I love it. No, I think, yeah, 2007 and then I

sold it in 2020, right before covid, basically. So it was a

long thing, and but through that, I learned and grew and did

many trainings and sound healing. I learned and the sound

therapy. And, you know, so much adventure happened through

there, like, big, huge, amazing chapter in my life, absolutely,

and now that I'm, like, free community.

I mean, like everyone you had, the most loyal

community I had, I I met because my parents, like, were from

North Vancouver too, and my parents friends would, my mom

would be talking to someone and be talking about you, and then

they would be like, oh, what my yoga. I love my yoga. And like,

they had so many friends who would do my yoga. I don't even

know if I've ever told you that.

No, yeah, no, I let you know. Ma became a thing, and

mom means mother in Hindi. So I did it to honor my mom. And also

the vision was, nurture yourself the way a parent does to their

child, like do that for yourself. The self care, first,

as hard as that can be sometimes. And then once you do

that, you can give it authentically outward, so really

embodying the nurture self care kind of ritual, if you will,

that practice. And then from there, authentically it is given

outward, because, you know, the whole thing you can't get from

an empty cup or that sort of thing. It was very much rooted

in that, you know, and when I was younger, too, it's like, I

want to give that to myself. Remember, I was like, the whole

selfish thing versus self care. It's like, I trans, transform

that word into selfishly, like, no, it's self care. You do

deserve to take care of yourself and go and do a go, get a spa

go, you know, do the practice take time in your day for

yourself, the rituals, like the things that bring you joy, like,

you know, I, you know, taking my bath or my shower and putting on

my nice skincare products is like taking care of

your skincare. Products, let's plug the

skincare products, and you turn to gold, yeah,

like that daily ritual of self, or like that cup

of tea, and like just sitting watching nature and gardening,

whatever brings you that moment in your day for yourself to,

like, Just be quiet and listen. I think is so self care

practices that we need to do more of absolutely

makes me and when you describe it that that way,

in such a sweet, sensual, beautiful way, it makes me think

of like how everyone is to someone they're trying to like,

Woo in the beginning of a relationship. When you're

dating, you like do what exactly woo you. Is that the name of our

spin off show you?

Wait. Are we doing a spin off to do we share that

already? Yeah, we did.

We're planting a seed YouTube channel, but, and

it's going to be really playful and funny, but like, woo you.

Maybe that's it. It might not make sense to people you, but

that is it. You're, you woo people in the beginning, you do

things to impress them, and you want to like if you're an

amazing cook, you make them dinner. If you're, you know, you

buy them presents. You to, you know, do these little things for

them, to impress them, or to make them like you more. Like

make yourself like you more.

But it's like, that's kind of like you hear,

you know, the honeymoon phase of, like, the first bit of

relationship, where you're trying to, like, you know,

really impress and be sexy and but then all of a sudden there's

a moment that things shift after a year or so, or six months or a

year, probably, but, and then that starts to dwindle down. But

exactly, it's like

learning not when you woo you like, when you don't

have such a high and low like and this podcast is so much

about dating and relationships is like the high and low comes

from the fantasy, and then the crash of the fantasy

dissipating, and now you're meeting each other's wounds and

each other's you know, patterns, but, but when you live a life

like you're talking about following your heart, following

Your joy, doing what you love, wooing yourself, caring for

yourself, then your cup is full, and you meet a partner and you,

of course, you're gonna have challenges, you're gonna have

triggers, stuff comes up that's normal, but you're not gonna

look to them. You're not they're not gonna be like heroin

anymore, where it's like, oh my god, need another hit and need

another hit because you're already full inside.

Yeah, no, that's a big one. And the funny thing is,

I do love being on my own. I love time with myself, like just

sitting around, laying and, you know, listening to music or

whatever. Like, I do enjoy, like, cooking alone. Like I like

alone time. I do, like, I feel like I'm good company with

myself. If that sounds weird, but like, I think that's

important is like to have that relationship with yourself and

enjoy your personal time. And I crave personal time. I think

because I'm I am an introvert, believe it or not, and even

though I'm exposed to a lot of people and audiences for like,

my events and things like that, like I get my energy when I'm

alone or with my dog in the quiet time, that's where I

really fuel myself internally and nurture and give back to

myself, and so finding that balance, right? So for me, it's

that ritualistic thing every day, and finding those things in

my day, that that I have that time for myself,

that if everyone had a lot more woo in their

life, they would enjoy being alone. But most people are stuck

alone with the critical voice in their head, being a victim of

circumstance, judging themselves, judging other

people, you know, fighting for their limitations. So the more

yoga meditation, I just feel like there's so many already,

and you're not even I want to hear more of your story. Your

story is so good, it's so amazing, but it's if people

spent, you know, there's so many clues to all of the things

you're saying, and how if we spent more time doing these

things that we love, doing things that feel good, doing

things that are nurturing and and healing, and soul giving and

heart expanding. We'd all love being alone instead of just

hanging out with the mean roommate that lives upstairs

your penthouse.

Sweet, you know, I think, I think with a lot of

things, and we hear this a lot, everything in moderation and

balance. And again, here comes back my Libra vibes. You know, I

It's I have to put myself out there and be social and do the

events and connection, because I do believe I'm here of service,

and I have things to share with my community and communities,

and I I love that, because it's, it's wonderful, but then I find

the balance of what feeds my soul and nourishes me. So it's

kind of like check in with me first, remember that whole Maw

vision and I embody that I really do. I praise that within

my rituals, in my daily practice, because I also believe

too I have experienced trauma, anxiety, depression on such real

grief. Life on such real deep levels. And I realized in my

mind, okay, I've gone through this. I still go through this on

some levels daily. It's not as consuming, consuming as it used

to be, but because I realized you're going through this

experientially, so you can understand it, learn from it,

and help others going through it, so I can relate to people

more, because I've gone through so much tragedy and trauma and,

you know, the PTSD and CPTSD and all the ADHD, all the stuff, you

know, growing up the way I did, it was just okay. I understand

now through textbook and the teachings, I'm more educated,

knowledgeable that I do have these things. You know, are they

allies? Are they allies? Are they tools that I've been gifted

on this journey? Or are they there as like, heavy, dead

weight that's like, holding me back from manifesting my dreams,

desires and my joy and cultivating the life I want? So

I'm like, wait a second. No, I can use all those things and

transform them, re pattern them within myself that, wait a

second, those might have been gifts or little jewels or pearls

of wisdom. I was gifted in the life's journey because I know

life is all about, you know, struggle, figuring it out,

survival and finding the balance and peace within it. Or the

neutral journey, the hero's journey, the hero's

journey,

yeah, and coming back to the outcome Exactly. Or

in finding neutral, try to find neutral in every situation. And

you know, the end in yoga called the Bodhisattva, the

Bodhisattva, right? Like, coming into that place of neutrality is

a really place to live in, the seat of that. I think you're

really living in the seat of your soul when you're living in

the Bodhisattva, in the place of neutral. We're not triggered

into like, negative mind or overly positive. Like, recognize

those as an observer or witness in your situations. Like, and

then come back to neutral for a moment and breathe, pause, okay.

Like, what's the teaching and lesson here? Like, let me see if

I can put myself in the other person's shoes or the other

situation, the polarity of the situation. Like, take yourself

outside of the the wheel of your thinking mind that the patterns

always go to. And see it from a broader perspective. Some people

call this like the universal self, you know, the little self,

big self. And just pull back for a moment. And I think going back

to the practice, for me, that's what it taught me a lot about

is, you know, the discipline, the witnessing, observing,

listening to my body, hearing the thoughts and really being

curious about the thoughts, rather than like, like, what's

wrong with me? Why am I thinking like that? Because there was a

period of time where I would think like, why is why am I

thinking like this? Why are these so I know I'm good, I know

I'm good enough, but why is it telling me I'm not good enough?

Who is that voice? Where is it coming from? So then I started

to investigate that child, that little boy in me, that still

needed healing and attention, obviously. And so I started to

go deeper into that world, and I started to realize, okay, let's

see how we can, like, take his hand and be like, I got you. We

got this. Let's walk together and let's, let's create

something different now, like that old pattern and story isn't

working for us anymore. It's kept us protected and safe, but

now we can go here and it's okay, and we can make mistakes,

because those mistakes are failures. Are beautiful lessons

and teachings and learnings. Don't take you to the next

thing. So try not to be so fearful. Be more playful. Have

more fun. Don't think take things so seriously anymore.

Life is short, and at the end of the day, you have a choice. You

could be in fear and let it hold you back and restrict you, okay,

if that's really what you want, and your heart's desire is that,

or what is your heart's desire to take that risk, to take and

see and explore and create, be creative, and I'm choosing that

daily and and it's been fun and magical and beautiful. And so

I'm healing the little boy inside of me. I'm working with

all my traumas and all those things that I was now I say

gifted, and as hard as it is to hear that, sometimes because I

went through some serious traumas and tragedies, so they

were like, well, so we were like, what? But it's like, you

know, it's, it's part of my path, and it's brought me to

where I am today, and I'm proud of where I am today and who I am

today. You know, I still have hard days and times, but now I

have those tools, and I work through them, and I share them,

and I remember, I have a remembrance of, Wow, your soul

was gifted many opportunities and experiences that were rich

and full of that dirty, dirty dirt, which I've now composted

and now flowers to do a facial. I'm gonna do a facial with that

mud. Exactly. Yeah. They're red, but I'm coming to Africa. We're

doing a retreat.

Yeah, you are you better come soon. Yeah, we'll

plug out all our retreat. But I, yeah, I love everything you're

saying. It's so beautiful, and it's like, it's so important,

because you and I represent light and joy, and it's, I love

how much of your story you've shared. I feel like this is just

makes the conversation so much more potent and powerful,

because it's not all light and love, like it's like meeting

ourselves in the pain I always say, like we're just in

expansion and contraction, like breathing as humans, and

probably we all chose whatever journey we're on. So even if it

might seem like it fucking sucks and you wish whatever's

happening wasn't happening on some soul level. This is the

curriculum. Your soul is here to experience. And especially if

you're listening to this podcast, you're on this path.

Your soul is here to evolve, and you can choose the fear based

small path. That's an option. That is so people think this

path is work. No, that's way more work. That is exhausting

being in your patterns all the time, and and, and in your

limitation, but when we can meet ourselves in those younger parts

of us, in when we're in those contracted states, when we have

that pain activated, and we can love ourselves through it, like,

I just felt that so strongly, when you're like, I'm holding

his hand now and I'm walking with him, like, Can we be to the

little girl, to the little boy inside, who went through

everything that they went through. Because all of us,

whether you have capital T trauma or small traumas, like

all of us, were told who to be, what to think, what's right,

what's wrong, what's good, what's bad, all of us were

pulled away from the magic of who we are and the essence of

who we are. So in order to reclaim that, you have to be

willing to be the divine mom, divine dad, divine lover, love,

mentor, Guide to that Wounded Little kid inside. And I feel

like that's just what you do. It's like doesn't come without

pain, it doesn't come without a lot of grief, but it comes with

also, also simultaneously, as you're holding that little boy's

hand as you're letting him feel you. I imagine this is true for

me, but I imagine it's true for you too, also always

simultaneously holding the perspective that there is

something greater happening here. Like I, no matter what I'm

going through, I always hold that perspective, but I'm like

crying my eyes out, while simultaneously being like this

is for a purpose, and we don't need to get in our head about it

like it will make sense later. It doesn't often make sense

during but later when you're willing to just feel your

feelings and love yourself through the experience, that's

what alchemizes it, and then you get to come back to that life of

joy, yeah, give that little boy the joy like I feel like your

life now, and magical things you do, like, keep telling us your

life story, because I think it's important to share where you you

went beyond the yoga studio, because it is like your life now

feels like a reclamation for that little boy and giving him

the best fucking life he could ever imagine, You know, and

that's and most support and the most guidance and all those

things.

It's exactly right. And I feel like that little boy

that was so confined for so long and anxiety and all the scary

and, oh, the world's scary, and it's shame, and you're right.

And today, how I've totally transformed it now into, like,

exposing myself, into a big audiences and sharing and having

fun and creative, and all my creativity outlets are coming

out, like my wellness line, my retreats, my deck of cards, and

the practices I do like so many things. I'm like, I'm doing all

the things I love. It's like a kid I'm playing and for so long,

though too, it's like, you're I was conditioned to always think

of like, what other people thought of me and the shame and

they're judging me. And today I'm like, let them, let them. It

doesn't matter. That's their stuff. It's not mine. And I can

either spend my life worrying about what they're all thinking

and saying, because there's always going to be people

talking about us, good or bad. There's always gonna be critics.

There's always, it's always, it's always, is just how the

human czar, you know? So I can spend my time waiting and

wondering what they're all doing, or I can spend my time

cultivating the joy in my life and what brings me happiness,

and move from within my inner space into my outer space and

creating my reality and world, because I do believe, you know

when, if you get up with every day and look in the mirror and

say, I'm ugly, you know what? You're ugly. So ugly for sure.

Yeah, like, I your thoughts create our reality. Our actions

are fancy. They create our environment, surroundings. And

so now I'm like, okay, like, no, like, I am going to let them

just be all those voices and things that noise around that

isn't serving my highest and best self. I'm not going to let

that be as loud, you know, it'll be there. I'm always aware, but

I definitely, I know the path that is. A beautiful one of the

souls journey, and it's a gift. We're very precious and

powerful. And everyone has the same light within them and joy

and that that inner child spark that wants to be creative and

playful and feel special. And I think we all have that in us.

And so learning that about ourselves, you know, is such a

beautiful gift to give ourselves that you can achieve and be

those things and be free with it absolutely. So that's it.

Yeah, and when you live from that place, like of

the willingness, the no longer willing to let other people's

opinions and limitations limit you. Your world opens up so

much, and then you attract people who also aren't limited.

I don't know about you, but like, I have so many amazing

humans in my life, and every day, I mean, Africa attracts

really cool people. There's amazing people here, but every

day I meet people that are living unscripted and living

these big, expansive lives, and that are that are seeing the

world through such an empowering at a time where, you know, I

could plunk into a neighborhood in America and everyone's

talking about how the world's going to shit and everything's

burning and how, like, it's all going to hell in a handbasket.

Is like, we can have totally different realities, because

your inner world creates your outer world. And if your inner

world is a mess and you're just in that toxic abuse of

punishment cycle internally from your traumas, and you haven't

done the deeper healing to love up those parts of yourself and

to reclaim your own life and your own joy, then your outer

world is going to reflect what you're experiencing. Like I

remember the first time I changed the first time, the

first time I changed my name, because I did change it a couple

times when I added the last name and all that, but the first time

I went through that that was like an initiation for me,

because I lost lots of friends. They didn't say, I'm not your

friend anymore because you changed your name. But my whole

external world changed because I was reclaiming me, just like

going to doing something really fucking wild and different,

which I wasn't that person before. I never did things that

were wild and different. I was like, oh my god, can I be more

like you and you and you and I just want to be like everyone

else, so to take a stand and be like, You know what? This might

seem weird to everyone, but I don't care, because I hate my

name, and why am I going to go 75 more years if I live to 100

being called a name I hate, and so that, if I look back on my

journey, that was like, the first initiation where I'm like,

even though I feel so much, you know, embarrassment, I feel like

judged. I feel, you know, I part of me didn't want to do it. The

part of me that was like, No, we're doing this. Was stronger.

And the more we follow that over and over and over again, and we

say yes to ourselves, you'll realize people actually don't

care about you in your life as much as they might say they do.

They just say those things in the moment because they're

projecting their own limitations. If they're afraid

of change, if they're afraid of doing something against the

grain. If they're afraid of being judged and being called

weird or whatever, then they'll project that onto you. You're

starting a yoga studio in a recession. What are you crazy

like I, because they wouldn't do something that courageous at

that at a time like that, right? So it's like, just a reflection

of who they are and where they're at within themselves.

It's nothing to do with you. And so the willingness to just say,

like, what matters the most is how I feel. And then the ex let

the external world catch up. Because in my experience, it

just gets more and more aligned. And I just, I feel like I keep

just surrounding myself with more inspiring, expanded people

who are even more wild and unscripted. And then I am, I'm

just like, ooh, so inspired daily by this world around me

that changes. The more my inner world changes beautiful.

And I think that, yeah, like you, you start to

attract those people in your community around you that, you

know, I love the light attracts light. It's infectious, right?

Like you're like you're embodying it, your inner spark.

People are drawn to that energy, and you're you're lifting other

people up, and then that becomes your circle, and your people

around you. And I think that's, it's very important too, who we

surround ourselves by, you know? And I think that it's beautiful,

like when we find that within ourselves it just, just like

that snowballing effect of, like, what's next, like, what's

gonna happen next, what's, you know, what's, what's just

waiting for us around the corner. It's exciting to be able

to create from that free, like, uncontrolled place is just like,

how fun. How cool is that? You know,

yes, and because you, you're, you're at the place

now where you can say, what's next, what's next? My old

business mentor used to say you have to choose one thing to

start that, that that feels really aligned, and give it your

all, which you did with the yoga studio. And then you can be like

Oprah, like she committed to. The TV show and the talk show

for a long time. You know, no matter if the ratings were bad,

no matter what was going on, she committed to that. And now she

can be like, school in Africa, oh magazine, this network,

whatever, oh network or whatever. Like, she can now,

like, in an instant, make something happen. Yeah, be like

you're at that stage now, because you devoted yourself so

fully to Ma, and then you so really the most magical year

yet. It feels like so much of it is connected to purpose, right?

Like, because what we what we spend our time doing, matters,

and so you devoted yourself to this thing that you loved that

was so healing and transformational for you. And

then as you were there, you let yourself evolve. You started

doing sound bull healing. You started doing different types of

sessions. You started tapping into different parts of yourself

there and then tell us, take us on the rest of the story.

Because now it's like, oh, I'm doing the cards. I'm doing the

take us, yeah, on the rest of the journey, yeah.

So basically, you know, when I sold the studio, I

kind of took a little moment to pause. I was dealing with grief.

My mom had passed away in 2020, like, literally, when I sold the

studio, which is very symbolic, and it was, it came as a shock,

you know, Ma, being mother, and my mom, and I was so extremely

close to my mom, like, literally, my best friend, so

that that hit me very hard. And I think that was one thing I

hadn't fully, fully experienced. I mean, I experienced grief in a

lot of ways, but the loss of my mom was like the biggest heart.

Nothing ever could have prepared me for it. And I was so lucky

that I had a yoga practice, because I'm like, wow, how do

people do without some type of spiritual practice? Because that

was really hard. So it was like three months of like being on

the ground. And it's funny, because I sold the studio too,

so it was kind of like a good timing, in a way, because I

needed that time to really go inward with myself and move

through the grief experience, it on a raw level, and really miss

her, that I wanted to literally be dead again. I went back to

that place of like, I just want to be with her. Like, what I got

to live the rest of my life? Like however many years I have

left, seems like a long time without her. And so I then was

kind of like, thinking, I'm gonna send me retire. I didn't,

I didn't really know then, because I was, like, kind of a

bit down. And then I just re sparked the adventure of like,

you know what? I have a gift that I want to keep offering of

service. It healed me then, and through this grief, I can now

commit to this place of helping myself heal with community and

help people going through grief as well now too, because I've

experienced it on such a deep, raw level. And I had known

people along my way who experienced grief, and I really

my heart went out to them, but I didn't fully grasp the pain and

the sadness that comes around it. And then when my mom passed

away, I was like, Oh, wow. Like, this is, this is something

crazy, like this. This is insane, like, I can't even

imagine. And we're not prepared. We're not prepared. We and I

don't think we talk about it enough, or a lot of us didn't

ride in any way. And I think so. Then I did a grief workshop. I

put on my very first grief workshop, and it was very well

attended. It was so beautiful, and it healed me and other

people. We got to share our stories and talk and community

and cry, and it was beautiful. And so I really want to do

another one. I want to do an online grief one. Actually, I'm

thinking about that for the new year, and I just started, then

doing sound baths again, and going to, like, various

locations around the city, in Vancouver, and offering my yoga,

gentle, somatic, therapeutic, gentle movement yogas, some

Kundalini like, I just kind of switch it up, and depending on

where and what the event is, and then I'll do my sound baths,

like the gongs, the bowls and many other sound healing

frequency tools that I use to help the nervous system and calm

the mind. So it's another form of meditation, and I have been

doing it now it's been it's going to be three years since

I've been doing it, and it's just become so beautiful and an

offering that I will continue to do. And through that, it's led

me to many amazing collaborations, connections.

It's expanded into doing shows at the Planetarium at the space

center, so you're astral traveling through the cosmos,

and I'm doing a sound bath with a live vocalist on stage,

narinjin car, who I love her and her voice, and her and I's

journeys were very similar in a lot of ways, too. So we co wrote

like, four songs together, and one is about healing your inner

child called walk your way home. We sing that. We sing that at

the. Event is while we sing live. And you know, she's

brought out this playful singing in me and making music with my

bowls and her voice and my steel drum. And we have a story and a

journey through that. And so this will be our seventh show at

the planetarium, and she's with me at all those shows. And I do

other events around the city too, of course, and just meet

different communities and different pockets now. So I'm

more free than being in one space like I have the studio. I

can go like and all the retreats and doing international local

retreats, and seeing culture and being in community with each

other. And, you know, coming out with the cards, I just launched

my first deck of cards that are just, you know, every it's

called whispers for the heart and soul. So basically, it's

like you pull a card once a day, if you like, or whenever you

want to, and it has like a word, like love or joy, and then it

has like a little write up on that to kind of inspire you,

give you wisdom, some strength in your day to remind us of

things embodied around that word and ourselves. And the artwork

is done by myself and three other local artists, these three

other women I was working with, and we collaborated to do the

artwork on every card. So I'm so proud of it. It's a beautiful it

took me about a year, so that's out now, which is great. And,

yeah, the next just creating more, like, unique opportunities

and workshops and classes that bring, like dance and play and

painting and ceremony, like more rituals, like bringing more

rituals back. You know, we don't have enough of that here on the

West Coast, fourth birth, there's rituals like making

ceremony and offerings, making an altar. It's that sacredness

again, in your day, right? Like, I think that's really important,

and that was one of my major awakenings. Is that spiritual

moment daily, whatever that looks like for you, you can

create your own. That's the beauty of it. But having that

daily, that magical moment to pause in your day for whatever

it is you're doing, and giving yourself that time, and that's

what will get more clarity and purpose and direction of

manifesting more of what it is you love or want to cultivate

more of in your life, you know, but you got to give yourself

that, that self care, nurturing time, right? And and so on my

journey today, all the things I'm doing the wellness line,

you know, I'll talk about that. Talk about wellness

line. And so the

wellness line is like ever since so Michelle,

funny enough, my bestie, who I've known since forever, who

actually told me to do yoga for the first time. She, like, she's

an aesthetician. She does the most amazing facials, and, you

know, does all the skin care stuff. So since I was like, 16,

I would take care of my skin because of her a lot, like, I

was using good skin care and taking care of, like, my skin

and body and stuff. And I still do it today. And I'm like,

Wouldn't it be great create my own, all natural, no synthetic,

no fragrance, like a nice line where, like, it's like the mist

or the toners that I use in some of my events, the essential

oils. And you know, the ritual of every day putting something

on your skin, on your body that we should take care of is just

kind of like another meditation. It's a mindfulness practice,

daily self care, putting those oils on your body feeling good

self care, nurture. That's another component I really

believe, and teaching people to take care of yourself, nurture

this vessel we've been gifted because it also is part of the

soul and that energetic self, it carries it and by doing those

conscious things, like a yoga practice, a dancing practice, a

meditation, a walk in the forest or sitting by the ocean or the

bath with the bath salts, you know, all those things are part

of that time in your day for introspection, self care, and

the more moments we have like that, that relationship with

self that we can build a loving relationship with, that's your

ultimate partner. Is you. The wooing of you. Here we go back

to woo woo you boo, woo you boo, woo you boo, yeah, and it's so

true, though, and it can be very simple. You don't got to spend a

ton of money, and like, you can literally go for a walk, or sit

with a cup of tea, or just sit and listen to music and whatever

brings you that solace and joy. Find the moments the little ones

in your day. Maybe they can be bigger ones, if you have that

grace of time, you know, and then yeah, like for me now,

that's my creative outlet, and that's how I can create more. I

literally had a dream that I did a sound bath in the in the

Planetarium Sky Dome, and then I contacted them, saying, Hey,

would you guys be open to this they've never done? And they're

like, yes. And. On my seventh show, December 23 my seventh

show for winter solstice. And I have three more next year there,

and it's just like it's been so popular and beautiful and

unique, and I love being able to create a different experience

for people. Because typically, you're laying on a yoga mat for

a sound bath of one of my sound bath events. But this is you're

sitting in a big chair, you're watching visuals, you're getting

a sound bath meditation. So it's like inviting in more

inclusivity with people who would never walk into a space

where there's, like yoga mats. And what is this, you know? So

it's opening up people to, like, a way of meditation without them

really knowing it, too. So it's inviting both types of crowds,

all different people. And it's been amazing, and it's so fun.

And, yeah, I'm just gonna keep riding the wave. I'm gonna keep

riding the waves.

Don't stop coming. And it's like, I just, there's

so many threads here. I see. It's like, you follow these

things that are deeply joyful for you or or that they're

deeply serving you and on your own path and your own healing

journey, and then you create a thing so everybody can benefit

from it. It's like ultimate generosity, but you are but, but

you're included. You're not excluded. And also just thinking

how you have such magnetic energy. So as soon as you do

something, it fills you do retreats all over the world. You

have one coming up in India. You have one coming up in where

Egypt

is, south of France, Egypt, a bunch of places

Africa, all over Africa, Okinawa. Okinawa, Japan. I know

Okinawa Japan is coming. I will tell you guys

about that, because that's we can plant the seed here. I

already planted the seed about my healer doing a retreat, but

they don't know that me and you are going to be involved too.

But, like, it's the magnetism, because, you know, it's

interesting, because I can see this perspective, because I used

to be a business coach for a long time, as you know, and I I

really see like that. So many people are trying to fill their

yoga classes, trying to, like, feel like, putting on an event

at the planetarium, and then being stressed out they're not

going to sell the tickets and, and, you know, trying to create

or do business from the mind, and, oh, this thing would sell,

this thing would, you know, make money. This thing would, this is

what people need, even, versus what's different with you is

you're doing these things. It's like the inside out. You're

doing these things because they bring you joy. Like, oh, I want

to go to India and bring a group of people there. I want to go to

Egypt. I want to, I want to share this sound bath. I want to

and it's like for your own joy and your own and you're

connected with yourself so deeply that you bring it to the

community and everyone wants it, because you're not doing it to

get clients, to get like, to to have the next strategic tier of

your business. It's coming from Soul, like it's coming from your

soul. So then it's magnetizing everyone else's soul. So there's

just so much to that.

Well, it's a, you know exactly. It's like it's

coming from a place of the child in me, the playful, the joy

cultivating. What do I want to do? Where do I want to go? What

do I want to see and share with people? Because it excites and

inspires me. I'm embodying it. So it's coming from that place

of authenticity, absolutely, and I think that's part of the

magic, is that when it comes from that place, then it

translates in, like you said, Yes, filling up my workshops and

classes and stuff. It attracts people because I'm inspired.

They're inspired. It's exciting. But don't get me wrong, there's

always that fear of like, oh, are people gonna like, this?

Is it gonna get of course, but always, for sure, I

have that too.

Yeah, it doesn't trump yes to do it. I'm like,

why not? I'm gonna do it because it's fun and I want to do it.

And it's an inner calling and a feeling I'm being, like, guided

or flowing in that direction, like there's a natural,

spiritual pull. So I know when it's a yes, and I know when it's

a no. I feel it in my body. If there's blocks and roadblocks,

I'm like, Okay, no, this is just not happening right now. You

know, like, like me, and you like the podcast like, we've

been talking about doing a podcast for, like, years and

years and years, and we were planting seeds, but we never

forced it. And now, naturally, it's magically happening now,

many years later, you're like, What, you're five years into

your podcast, or something. So, you know, and I love that,

because it's like, when you feel the natural like flow, it's

like, okay, I'm being guided to do this. I'm doing it, and let's

do it. And like, I won't be so scared about the numbers and the

next tier in the business. It's not about that. It's like, at

this time in my life, it's like, what's bringing me joy, what

excites me, what I want to do creatively, and how do I don't

want to express myself and show up at this moment in chapter in

my life, because it changes and it will. And I welcome the

change. I welcome like, what's it going to be in my 40s, 50s,

60s? Like, every chapter is exciting and new every year. So

much can happen in a year. And I love the mystery and being like

going. On the fly being inspired by just something I saw, and be

like, I'm gonna try that or do that, because I want to see

and most people would just stop, like, most

people would just be like, Okay, I have my wellness line now, and

they just put everything into that. And you're like, Oh, what

about this thing? Oh, you're also a manifesting generator. So

that, I think that also plays a part here. But it's like, it's

so cool. It's, it's, you know? And I also was thinking like,

when you are doing something from deep joy, people want to

hang with you, because you're joyful. You feel good, you know,

when you're doing things that feel good for you, people want

to hang with you. So of course they're going to want to come to

India with you. Of course they're going to want to come to

Okinawa with us and Akiko. Of course they're going to want to

go to the next place, right? Because the magnetism is your

energy frequency. That's That's why they're coming. It's not,

you know, yeah, maybe they've always wanted to go to India, or

they've always wanted to go to Egypt, or they've always wanted

to have a sound bath, maybe, maybe not, you know, but it's

your energy frequency and where it's coming from within you that

has everyone that want to hang with you. So I feel like that's

so relevant, even to dating and relationships. You know, if

you're like, empty cup, like, why aren't you making me feel

good, like you do with that person versus the person who's,

you know, in their own joy, in their own creativity, in their

own energy and and then they're magnetic to be around because

they feel good. Yeah, exactly, yeah, no. And

it's like, I guess it's, it can be simple, but it could also be

something that we kind of have to, like, untrain or retrain or

re pattern ourselves into this way of being, this new way of

being for some of us, you know. And I think that, yeah, I

figured out a way that works for me, that keeps me happy and

joyful and creative, and I'm like, it's working, so I'm just

gonna keep going with it. And why not? Why not? Why not? One

life, one life,

woo you boo. We're gonna get T shirts, woo you boo

also. Okay, so tell us before we wrap, because obviously you and

I could just talk forever and ever. We're 88% compatible. And

yeah, I think we're 100% compatible, but we'll see. But I

would love for you to share like so we, of course, we're going to

link everything below. Some people don't look at the show

notes. So for those people that don't look at the show notes,

can you share all the like, the names of your website and where

people will find information about well, where they can order

the oracle cards and where they can check out your wellness

line? Yeah.

So far, had con sound.com or farhadcon

wellness.com would be like my two sites, the wellness line,

I'm actually relaunching, I'm changing the look of it. So in

the spring, I'm doing a relaunch of it, just kind of rebranding a

little bit, and new bottles, new packaging, like, really nice. So

that's exciting, but you can still check out what I currently

have. And then my Instagram handles are usually the most up

to date, because that's where I'm on a lot with my events. So

my far head Khan Instagram, and then far headcon sound, other

Instagram, far headcon wellness. And I do have far headcon art

and DJ Farhad Khan because I like music. No, really, I got

into DJing because I do a lot of, like yoga classes, and I

love creating my own playlist that the music seamlessly weaves

into each other. So I know too, like it's all timed, like I take

people on a yoga journey, essentially, and I love music is

such a big part of it, and movement with music. So I really

think of that and what I want to have during a certain part in

the practice. And so I learned to DJ because I'm like, I'm just

going to learn to mix my own music and create what I want for

my playlists. And rather than like, next song pause next song

volume up to this volume down. I'm just like, No, I'm gonna do

it all perfectly, and I've done that, and I love it, and it's

fun.

Another, oh, my god, Kay, I have to say one

thing, because I remember something I was gonna say

earlier that this is relevant to it. It's like, hearing your

story. I imagine everyone's feeling so inspired, your most

magical year yet. Like we are the creators. We are the CO

creators. We get to choose hearing your story. It's like,

you just keep meeting new parts of yourself, like, now I'm a

singer and I'm doing an album with this woman and putting on

shows at the planetarium. Now I'm like, now I'm a DJ. Now I'm

a rapper, now I'm an artist. Now I'm making these spiritual

cards. Like, we're infinite, really, and I feel like you

might be a scientist next year. You might be a mathematician.

Who am I now? Who am I now? But it's like all of

these things. It's a tapestry. It's a tapestry. It's like you

don't need to be like one thing. You can be go for it, but like

I'm just, like, I'm just having fun with like, pain. Painting,

music, practice, sound, bath, like I want to do all the things

I want to have fun and be inspired to do. And it's yeah,

that comes back to, why not? Like, just if it's in you, if

that desire and fire is stoked, go for it. Go have fun and play

the little boy never really got a lot of play, you know. So I'm

living his best life at this time, and it feels wonderful.

And I'm just going to keep going with that. Because, yeah, look,

I'm, you know, DJ and the art and the wellness line and all

the sound and the practices and the yoga and and, yeah, I'm

going to keep adding to that and and having fun, and because I

want to, the desire is there, the enjoyment and fulfillment,

it's, it's a way of play and, and I think that's, you know,

really important in life we take there's, like you mentioned,

there's so much happening in the world. It's confusing. There's

so much hardship, there's a lot of dark and a lot of people

running the planet that you know may maybe aren't making the best

decisions. There's a lot of hurt and war and tragedies you know,

so creating as much light as we can and joy to help balance that

energy out a little bit, I think is really key and vital for our

human race, getting off of the devices so much and dancing,

embodying ritual sacredness, paints make music sing. Yes, I'm

going to be recording an album next year with norinjun. I'm so

excited. Writing music has been so healing for me and her, and I

know she's been writing some music too, and poetry, and we're

weaving those parts in. And it's, it's another healing

journey. You're writing your book as well. Like, I love this

right?

It's if there, if there wasn't someone who taught

us that there's, there's, like, a right way and a wrong way,

right like, because as as you're talking, I'm just like, God,

this is what kids do. They write, they play, they sing,

they dance, they create. They make up stories. They make up

movies. They make up like they perform. They, they love, they

they they feel, they cry, they rage, they like. Little kids are

the perfect example of of just that fully expressed soul. So if

you couldn't do it wrong, like, I just think, like, you say all

these magical things, and then I can hear women's saboteurs in

their minds saying, like, oh, I can, you know, I'm not a good

artist, or I'm not a writer, I'm not a this, I'm not that. It's

like, that's just a story. We are all everything, and all you

have to do is do it over and over and over again and play

this way and play that way, and do it from non attachment, like,

for the joy of it, for the experience of it. I went to

dance class high heels, you know, in so, in high heels and

fishnet stockings and underwear and torque. I remember hair

flipping, and I like, I sucked, and I was with a whole bunch of

really good dancers, and it was a beginner class, but I was so

bad, and I let myself be. I was like,

you know, I got better. You were good, and you

became something. I became. Was like, oh, there is, there's,

there's, Miss Harlow,

yes, yeah, I became something that's it, right? But

in the beginning I was awkward, but I welcomed that too. I was

like, Okay, I'm just gonna dance awkwardly and feel and, you

know, my mind's telling me, everyone's judging me, and

meanwhile, everyone's watching themselves like nobody cares. So

it's just like, like you said, Bring playfulness to it, bring

lightness to it, bring joy to it, and let yourself be weird

and awkward, and you'll discover so many new parts of yourself,

like you have, and how beautiful your tapestry keeps growing. And

I can't wait to see what's to come. Like, yeah, and,

you know, and I think a lot of it, too is like,

it's that inner voice, that inner self, and we have many of

them within us. And get to know that inner voice that tells you,

like, oh, it's weird. I can't like, that's maybe the biggest

one, because the outside projections, like you said,

they're not really thinking that much of us. So people are going

to talk maybe for a minute, and then they're in their own world

and universe, and they've carried on. But it's what's

lingering within ourselves, is that voice sometimes and so

really develop that loving relationship and nurturing it,

and talk to it and be like, You know what? Let's, let's be

kinder to ourselves. Let's try that. Let's explore and think of

the outcome ahead of time. If you're one of those people that

already is more negative and fearful, think of go to all the

steps to the end of it. Okay, so I do it and it fails. Okay. Now,

what do we do? Okay, it can be a lesson. It can take me to the

next thing. At least I tried it like, figure out the worst case

scenario and make it better. Talk to yourself, to that little

child, as if you're saying the worst thing that can happen, and

then tell that. Child, it's okay, like, do it anyway, or,

you know what you learned, or, Hey, play with this next time.

Or whatever you know. Like, it's almost like, let yourself go to

the fear. Move through face the fear. And through it is the

magic. The light is right behind that dark veil, and open

that door totally. That door Yes, and it's, it's

only that little kid that feels like all the fear, and only

because they were shamed in school for not being a perfect

artist or a perfect writer or perfect whatever. And like this

school system, you know, and many other systems, have taught

us to to suppress and squash these parts of ourselves that

that that, because it would be a very different world if we were

all expressed in these parts of ourselves. So be the change in

the world you'll wish to see. This is such a fun conversation.

Okay, before we wrap, tell us your retreat schedule, like

what's coming? Because definitely there's this is

there's women all over the world that listen to the podcast, and

I have a lot of community in Vancouver that listen to so I

know you got lots of local events as well. So share them

all.

I mean, I have so many coming up next year. I have

India, which is January, but that's going to be really tight

for people to come when this airs. And then I have a local

one at loom Lake, Salt Spring Island. I'm doing my first

Silent Retreat. I'm going to lead a silent one for three days

for introspection. It's very powerful. And then

Moon Lake in Salt Spring Island, for those of you

that don't know, is in British Columbia. If you've never

been you want to go Vancouver, yeah, Vancouver and

Vancouver Island. And then I'm going to be doing south of

France, Egypt. There is a whole bunch coming up. If you go to my

website under retreats, you can find that under trainings, you

can find trainings that I do online and in person for sound

healing. I do coaching. I do private offerings as well. I

have a treatment room in my home, which is lovely. I see

clients privately for many things, which all my offerings

are on my website, so you can check that out and just explore.

And I'd love to see anyone at an event. There's lots of events

around the city, in Vancouver mainly, but I do do some

internationally, ones that are coming up next year too. So

yeah, just gonna get out there and hope to meet a lot of

wonderful people and build bigger communities around the

world.

You are magic, and there's no one in the world that

could fit this episode better than you, your most magical year

yet with I mean, you blow me away. I could cry just

everything you've been through and and, and the fact that I've

known you since I was 19, and I've seen you transform and

alchemize and transform and alchemize and go through so much

and transform and alchemize. It has been like an honor to walk

this life with you. I love you so much.

I love you too, and it takes one to know one you two

right back at you. Kate, you're doing amazing, and I love what

you're doing, and I'm so excited to continue the journey with

you, with creating fun things in the future.

Yeah. Me too. Lots of fun things coming. Okinawa,

march 2027, put in your calendar. There will be three

magical souls leading that one, it sounds like so if you're

interested, I've actually already had a lot of interest.

So if you are interested in, if you've watched the Blue Zones,

Okinawa is a blue zone. It's the Hawaii of Japan. It's a

beautiful island, similar to Kauai, I think they say off of

Japan. And Japan is such a hot spot right now. I've been

longing to go there for a while. It's top of my list, and so it's

it life is bringing us there. And with my magical healer, who

I met in Nairobi, who's from Japan, she's absolutely amazing,

and her mother is from Okinawa. So it'll be also a cultured

experience and a really beautiful we don't even know

what it is yet, but it's going to be magical and fun.

Absolutely there. Definitely let us know if you're interested and

any final words. So this is it's those, are those who are

listening. Tuesday, it's the 30th. New Year's Eve is

tomorrow. We're moving into 2026, which is the Year of the

Fire horse, moving out of the snake. So a lot this year's a

lot of transition, letting go big transformation and moving

into new beginnings. So what? What final words do you have for

your most magical year yet. I mean, I think you've said a lot

of things,

but you know what? And it's, I'm actually the year

of the horse. That's my year. I'm the horse. Yeah. So 78 baby.

So the snake has been powerful, shedding a lot of self things,

shedding skin, and really fluidly moving like the serpent

does, right? That Kundalini energy is really just awakened

and creating boundaries with people for healthy space, and

that's a shedding to move forward and now with the horse,

it's going to be such a powerful, beautiful year. I'm so

excited. It's just really both feet in faith. Face forward,

heart, open and collaborate, manifest. Keep creating magic.

And I wish that for everyone listening and everyone around

like, just go for it. You know, go for it and have a beautiful

year ahead. Happy New Year and be free. Be your best self and

live it up.

Yeah, I love it, living it up in the city, wherever you

live world, love it so much the whole world.

Love you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. This

was Magic. I'm so happy we did this. Me too. And as always,

share this episode with every woman you know who needs to hear

it and who needs a boost for the coming year, and share it with

men.

I feel like this, yeah, I think, I think people

share this with everyone, everyone, people, persons, all,

I

love it, all the people love you. Happy. New Year.

Happy. New Year.