In this episode, I'm going to be talking about a number of different

things amongst them are a little bit more about co regulation to build

on last week, regret, trust and vulnerability repairing relationships.

There's a whole bunch of stuff that I'm trying to address in this

episode and it all starts off with a reading a question that I got

from one of my community members.

But before we get to that, hi, I am Justin Sunseri.

I'm a therapist, a coach, and the creator of the Polyvagal Trauma Relief System.

Welcome to Stuck Not Broken, where I teach you how to live with more calm,

confidence, and connection without the psychobabble or the woo woo.

This podcast is not therapy, of course, and it's not intended

to be a replacement for therapy.

And I actually have a huge Announcement for you at the end of the episode.

So stick around for that.

But the question I got here was from someone within my Stucknaut Collective

community, my private community.

This person writes, I have hurt people who I'm close to with my defensiveness

in my unregulated state, which makes it hard for them to co regulate with me.

Distancing further from them and seeking out those who can be a hundred percent

for me without having any needs of their own seems like a risky path.

So every week I have an episode here on the podcast, but in my community,

every day we journal or brainstorm or discuss the episode or the week's theme.

And so last week the theme was co regulation.

And, well, self regulation as well, I think with my community, I

made it more about self regulation leading to co regulation.

And this person had responded to that.

They're basically, if I can sum it up, they've hurt somebody or people

from their dysregulated traumatized state, which makes it hard for that

other person to co regulate with them.

And yeah, that makes sense, right?

So, they're saying distancing further from them and finding other people who

are more trustworthy seems difficult or risky and yes, of course it is.

By the way, you might hear, I have a couple, or my children and their uncle

are playing Mario Kart, so you might hear them hollering in the background.

So this brings to mind a number of things for me, I'm going to

try and handle these one by one.

And the first one is, yeah, what if you have actually hurt people

in your life, expecting those people to co regulate with you.

And if you don't know what co regulation is, listen to the previous episode of

this podcast, and you'll get a nice deep dive into what co regulation is.

But the basic idea is it's not just supporting each other, it's,

and listening to each other.

Co regulation is this neurobiological communication

happening between two mammals.

That's the nerdy way to put it, but basically we send signals to each

other that help each other feel better.

We'll put it that way.

So if you've hurt people, if you've wronged someone in your life, yeah,

then they're probably not going to be able to send you cues of safety.

They're not going to be able to send you warm and fuzzies.

That's not going to happen, and it's not realistic to expect that, right?

When it comes to co regulation, it's basically the giving and

receiving of safety cues, or at least giving of safety cues.

And other person who's in more of a defensive state, or mammal, in a more

of a defensive state, they receive them, and it helps them to get into

their own safety state ideally.

But it doesn't always go that easy, easily.

And one thing that might happen in co regulation where you, maybe you're

hanging out with someone and this is the example I used in the last episode, you're

hanging out with somebody chit chatting and they stop and look at their phone.

So that's called a rupture, and it's really easy to repair.

There's another thing that can happen called misattunement.

Misattunement is when you, you and the other person that you're communicating

with maybe, are in different states, so you might be in a flight fight

sympathetic state and the other person is in a dorsal vagal shutdown state.

You are in different states, so you might be misattuned.

The person in flight fight is going to have a lot more energy in their system.

The person in shutdown is going to lack energy.

We call that misattunement.

Let's take it back to ruptures.

To repair ruptures, it's pretty simple.

You might just give an apology, say my bad.

You can smile, give eye crinkles and get back on track and listen to that person.

And you know, that that's usually enough.

It's not, it's not that complex.

But basically acknowledge the hurts, empathize, listen, and

provide them some space if needed.

If you really hurt that person and they need space, then that's fine.

That might be part of repairing a rupture is giving them a little bit of time on

their own if it's something more serious.

For misattunement where you're in different States, they might need more

space for a longer period of time.

And that's okay.

Especially someone who's in shutdown.

Maybe not especially, but someone who's in shutdown, they do well when they're alone.

They kind of need quiet and lower stimulation.

Someone in flight fight, they also need a lot of space potentially.

So giving that person space to help repair misattunement might be helpful.

The other thing you can do to help out with misattunement is self regulate.

Access your own safety state.

So that when you do interact with that other person, you're going to

offer them safety cues and really start the process of co regulation.

If that happens, then the other person is more likely to be able to access

their safety state from your safety cues.

Let's backtrack to the question that I got.

It, it's probably unrealistic or it's not realistic to expect co

regulation from somebody that you have flat out hurt or flat out wronged.

That person is not going to be able to provide you with

adequate co regulation, probably.

They're probably in rightfully in a defensive state.

They might have not just like they're feeling upset, but like

they're in more of a flight fight state based on your actions.

So the onus is really on you to repair that relationship, to repair

that rupture, to self regulate, offer them co regulation, and

hopefully repair the misattunement.

It's up to you to begin that process.

It's really not up to them to do so for you.

Although, yeah, they might, they might be in a position to where they can self

regulate through it, and You know, offer to reconnect with you, dear listener.

That might happen, and you actually might be in that position where

somebody wronged you in some way.

They hurt you validly, or that's valid, that you feel that way.

I mean, and it's normal.

You feel that way.

So they, they may have hurt you and they're not gonna be the one

to start the process of healing or, or repairing the relationship.

And that might fall on you.

And maybe you're not ready for that, that's fine, but

maybe you are ready for that.

That is pretty darn common in my time as a therapist working with my clients.

A lot of times the people in their life need therapy a lot more than

they do, but they're not getting it.

And so the person in therapy is actually the one who's in a better

position to begin to self regulate and to begin to heal that relationship.

It doesn't mean that the person's open to it, but the one who was wronged or hurt.

might be the one to start the process of repairing the relationship, sadly.

And, like I said, that might be true for you, that might be part of your journey

of healing, but that's totally up to you and what you want to do with that.

Ideally, though, I believe that the one who has hurt another is the one

to initiate some sort of repair.

So then if that person that you have harmed or hurt in some way, if they

can't provide you co regulation, if they can't self regulate and offer

connection to you, do you abandon them and do you try to find it somewhere else?

And, you know, it depends and I think the answer is maybe.

Or maybe not, but, you know, maybe, maybe you have created that much of a rupture

and that much of a lasting misattunement.

Maybe it is irreparable.

And I think that is pretty common with severe childhood abuse, neglect

situations of kidnapping, torture, all those extreme sort of examples.

If you have CPTSD, your parent, your caregiver who was supposed to do

good enough for you, Uh, they didn't.

So there may be something that's irreparable there for you.

Something that you cannot uh, offer to repair.

And I don't think it's up to you.

So, do you move on from somebody that is not able to provide you co regulation?

Well, if you've done something that heinous, then yeah.

And they're not willing to repair it with you, then maybe you do move on.

And find connection and trust and co regulation somewhere else.

Maybe.

But, also, maybe not.

Maybe you do apologize.

Maybe you do make amends.

Maybe you do try to make it better.

But I don't think it has to be a process that goes on forever.

I think you can definitely make your attempts.

Especially after you've self regulated, you can make your attempts

to try to repair the relationship.

But if that person is not willing to accept it, that is their choice.

You can't force it upon someone.

I don't, I don't think.

So, offer up your attempts, and if they're batted away repeatedly,

then you've gotten your answer.

The other thing that might happen is that you're, if you're offering to make

things better, the other person could potentially take advantage of that.

So if they're asking you to do something that is sacrificing of your values,

of your morals, of your dignity I think it's okay to say no to that.

But you know, basically, you do the best you can.

And if it's a no, it's a no.

Eventually, after repeated no's, it's out of your hands, and you need to

eventually, I think, take solace in the fact that you tried, even though

you may have lost the relationship.

If you can honestly say that you have done the best you can to work on yourself,

and offer to work on the relationship, there's, there's something to that.

So yeah, maybe, maybe you try to fix it.

Maybe you don't try to fix it.

If it's something that's irreparable, maybe you try and do something

better to make it fix it, but you have a boundary you won't cross.

Like you won't, you know, cross your own or violate your own

morals, your values, your dignity.

I think it's fine too.

When it comes to these relationships that maybe you violated and hurt and left a

lasting impact on, if you have regret, if you have guilt, that's a good thing.

Those feelings, those emotions are there for a reason.

They're telling you that you harmed somebody, that you did something wrong.

And that's a healthy response to things when we, that we do wrong.

It shows you have empathy.

It shows that you care.

If you were to harm somebody and not feel guilty, not feel regret,

that's more of a red flag for me.

So listen to that.

Use that regret.

Use that guilt as motivation to reach out, to apologize, to try and

make a repair in the relationship.

So all of that I think addresses the first part of The question that

was submitted to the community.

I've hurt people who I'm close to with my defensiveness in my

unregulated state, which makes it hard for them to co regulate with me.

And it will be until the relationship is repaired.

So that's what it could look like.

And I think that guilt and regret are indications that we, or whoever's

feeling those feelings, need to do something to repair the relationship.

Of course, Guilt can also be kind of imposed upon you by another.

So even though it feels like guilt, it's not really because

you did something wrong.

It's just more like an unhealthy kind of guilt that's lingering in your system.

That, you know, that's something you'll have to take stock of, basically.

So this brings us to the second part of the question, which is about seeking

out others who might have Or it might be a hundred percent on our side.

Now, I don't know if that's a thing.

I don't know if anyone has ever a hundred percent on our side.

I think that what they're trying to say is that they're looking for people.

Should I go look for people that I can trust completely?

Trust is earned.

It's not something you're going to find right away.

It, it develops, it builds over time.

So saying, I'm going to go find someone I can trust or who's

a hundred percent of my side.

That is not going to be a short journey.

I don't think.

Co regulation can lead to trust.

So those little moments that we share with each other of safety

that can over time lead to an experience, an emotion of trust.

Co regulation is the sharing of safety cues with each other or

from one to the other, at least.

This leads to healthier relationships and that will include trust.

Co regulation by itself doesn't require that you trust the person.

I think that people view it or think of it as the the moment of, like, discussion

and supporting somebody else emotionally.

That's what it can kind of look like, but Co regulation is really

like these micro moments of exchanging safety with each other.

So, a smile, you know, giving somebody a genuine smile, eye crinkles,

using your eyebrows, these are all indications that I'm in a safety

state and I can offer you safety.

It doesn't require that you trust me, it requires that

you pick up on my safety cues.

So, co regulation happens in micro moments of unconscious communication.

Repeated co regulation, I think, can help build trust.

I think actions are a big part of that as well.

But repeated co regulation can help lead to trust, can help lead to

connection, healthy attachments.

If you're thinking about sharing with somebody else and being vulnerable and

opening up, yeah, that requires trust.

Opening up to somebody else requires trust built on co regulation.

But I don't know if anyone's going to ever be 100 percent

for you or for somebody else.

And I don't think we should expect that either.

I think that other people will always have their own needs, their own agendas.

I don't think we should be expecting somebody to be completely for us.

And honestly, the people that are, Truly, I think supportive and quote

unquote on our side, on our side.

I think that that support can also be challenging.

It can be them expecting us to do better.

It doesn't mean that they're going to hold our hand while we self destruct.

It might mean that they back off and, and, and say, I can't

be a part of this anymore.

It could also be them saying.

You know, pushing us to do better with our life, to make better choices, to

challenge ourself to grow in some way.

I think people who are supportive and loving can do those things.

I don't think that trust looks like agreement with whatever it is you

want to do with your life necessarily.

Actually I know, I know it doesn't because I have my, my kid,

I'm completely on my kid side.

my children's side, but that doesn't mean that I support all their choices.

If they choose to not do well in school, that is not acceptable.

I love them so much that I will not allow that to happen.

They, they must do better in school.

Failure is not an option.

If I was spoiling my kids and wanted to be their friend, then yeah, I'd

probably let it slide, but that is not the standard we have in our household.

So, you know, does anyone ever have 100 percent on their side?

I don't think it looks like the way one might think it looks like.

So let's go back to the question hurt people.

They can't provide co regulation.

Should I seek somebody else out and try to find trust and co regulation?

And, you know, maybe, but Cause, you know, co regulation is very needed.

We need that.

We need each other, but the place you start might be with self regulation.

You might work on yourself first without trying to get co

regulation from somebody else.

I'm kind of worried about that idea of I burned these relationships and

now they can't co regulate with me.

Let me go find new relationships that are of people that are

completely for me and on my side.

And I don't know if that's what that person meant when they

wrote it, but that's how I'm, that's where I'm going with this.

That idea concerns me.

We can't just jump around from relationship to relationship

without working on ourselves first.

We can't bring the best version of us to a new relationship unless we have

developed it, unless we've worked on it.

So even though, yeah, we all need co regulation, you might not have it in

your life and that it is what it is.

So, you do the best you can to start off with self regulation.

In the episode I did on co regulation, I had some ideas on what you can do if

you don't have co regulation in your life but basically just keep it really simple.

Connect with people that have shared interests if you can uh, connect

with people in your life or develop relationships in your life where

there's a little something, put a little more time to it maybe.

You might be able to accept professional co regulation from a therapist

or a community that you're in.

In my online community, we don't have co regulation because it's all digital.

We don't quite see each other.

I mean, we do have the meetups, but when we communicate in the,

in the forum, it's text on screen.

So it's not co regulation, but.

This week we had called, I was talking with one person and we called it

virtual connection, I think it is, but basically it's not true co regulation,

but it is a sense of connection.

So maybe you can't get co regulation, but can you get a

sense of connection from somewhere that might be better than nothing.

But what it comes down to is eventually self regulation might be where

you need to go, and that might be the first step as well, honestly.

So if you can self regulate and access more of your polyvagal safety

state, it's going to help out a lot.

That's going to help you to make amends for the past, to take ownership

over what you've done, reach out to someone, offer apologies, try and

make things better with, while holding strong boundaries and never sacrificing

your, your values and your dignity.

You'll be able to empathize with that person.

You'll be able to act from compassion.

Eventually, as you build self regulation, these things become options.

Self regulation is not easy to do.

It does.

It's a, it's a long process.

It doesn't happen overnight.

One thing you can do is to start to build a, an environment within

your home that feels safer than not.

This is actually the first thing I recommend in my

building safety anchors course.

And I walk you through how to do that with a whole bunch of environmental pieces.

But if you can build an environment that feels safer than not, that sets you up

with passive safety cues, passive safety cues, just provide this steady stream.

It's a foundation you can build off of.

And then once you have the foundation, then you can use more

active self regulation techniques.

Building safety anchors is actually part of my total access membership.

I'll have a link for you in the description if you wanna learn

more about that, but basically it's total access to my private community

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All three of 'em for one low subscription price.

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you can learn more about it.

I'm really worried about the idea of seeking out co regulation from

dysregulated, from a dysregulated place.

I'm worried about seeking out co regulation from desperation.

If you're desperate for connection, which you might be fully entitled

to be, there's no judgment here.

But if you're desperate for connection and you're looking for somebody else.

To make it better, to make you feel better, to fix your

problems, that is probably not going to end up anywhere healthy.

That might end up leading to more hurt for somebody else when they

don't live up to what you want.

But it also could lead you to yourself being hurt when someone

exploits your desperation.

So that really concerns me, and again, I don't know if that's what

this person was intending, but that's where my mind goes with it.

So, for now, build safety in your home as much as you can.

Find safe and predictable avenues of connection with others, and if that's

just through community, that's something, but if it's through simple exchanges

with family, friends, acquaintances, co workers, a therapist, that's

fine too, like, as you notice those opportunities for co regulation, really

mindfully experience them or think back on it later on in the day and

try to experience them all over again.

So like I said at the beginning, this is kind of all replaced, my mind went

different places with this question, which I think all connect and relate,

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