Welcome back to Grit, Grace, and Inspiration.
Kaylee Z.I bet you're wondering why Kevin, your host, suddenly sounds like a woman.
Kaylee Z.This is Kaylee Z.
Kaylee Z.And I'm taking over the podcast.
Kaylee Z.Today.
Kaylee Z.I have the distinct honor of getting to interview the creator and host of Grit, Grace, and Inspiration, Kevin Lo.
Kaylee Z.I'm sure all of you know this by now.
Kaylee Z.Kevin is truly a gift to the world.
Kaylee Z.He is the quintessential symbol of strength and resilience.
Kaylee Z.And as you will hear in this episode, today is a very special occasion, and I felt it was important for all of Kevin's listeners to get a deep dive into his journey and story.
Kaylee Z.Today we will learn how, in fact, Kevin became the beacon of hope and strength that he is and how he created this space for inspiration and transformation, which is really what the podcast is.
Kaylee Z.I'm really excited to guide all of us on this journey together today.
Kaylee Z.So please join me in welcoming our very special guest host, Kevin Lowe.
Kevin LoweYo.
Kevin LoweAre you ready to flip the script on life?
Kevin LoweCause those bad days, they're just doors to better days.
Kevin LoweAnd that's exactly what we do here at Grit, Grace, and Inspiration.
Kevin LoweYour host, Kevin Lowe, he's been flipping the script on his own life, turning over 20 years of being completely blind into straight up inspiration, motivation, and encouragement just for you.
Kevin LoweSo kick back, relax, and let me introduce you to your host, Kevin Lowe.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Well, I feel so honored today to get to interview you, Kevin, so I'll just let everyone know.
Kaylee Z.My name is Kaylee, and this is the greatest honor.
Kaylee Z.I put Kevin on the spot all of a sudden and said, wait a second.
Kaylee Z.Have you been interviewed?
Kaylee Z.Maybe you should be interviewed.
Kaylee Z.So today we are doing this very special interview in honor of your anniversary.
Kaylee Z.So why don't you get us started there, Kevin?
Kaylee Z.What does it mean that this is your anniversary?
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweSo October 28th of this year was my 21st anniversary of, as I say, the day that both my life was saved and the anniversary of the day that my life was forever changed because of that marking.
Kevin LoweAlso, the day that I became completely blind.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.And, you know, obviously, I have so many questions.
Kaylee Z.I feel I'm the one being interviewed a lot.
Kaylee Z.This is very different for me to get to interview you.
Kaylee Z.And I just want to say, in preparation for this, it was extremely humbling to realize that.
Kaylee Z.First of all, there's so much I hope that we'll be able to share today.
Kaylee Z.But just in hearing you talk about this anniversary, you were pretty young, right?
Kaylee Z.How old were you?
Kevin LoweI was.
Kevin LoweI was 17.
Kevin LoweSo I was in my junior year of high school.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Which for all of us listening, you know, you can only imagine what that's like.
Kaylee Z.And.
Kaylee Z.And it's bittersweet, in a sense.
Kaylee Z.Your life was saved.
Kaylee Z.And did you know when you went into this, this all unfolded from a surgery?
Kaylee Z.Correct, Correct.
Kevin LoweSo we found out that I had a brain tumor.
Kevin LoweIt was non cancerous, thank goodness.
Kevin LoweBut yeah.
Kevin LoweSo this all relates to me going in to have this brain tumor removed that they literally, at the time that we had found it, they gave me only six months to live if it wasn't removed.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.So here we are celebrating.
Kaylee Z.And, you know, if everyone could see me right now, I'd be, you know, lifting a glass for you and toasting to your life.
Kaylee Z.We're celebrating your life.
Kaylee Z.And yet that surgery did not go as planned.
Kaylee Z.Did you know what?
Kaylee Z.Like, was this a risk?
Kaylee Z.Were you told that this could be a risk?
Kevin LoweYes.
Kevin LoweSo if anybody's ever had any type of procedure before, you know that like the doctors, they always go through, like, all the big, long list of possible risks, you know, and it's ironic now when I think back on it, because I always remember the last one, he said, and it was a 1% possibility of becoming blind.
Kaylee Z.Oh, I'm covered in chills.
Kaylee Z.That was the last risk you were told, and it was 1%?
Kevin LoweYes.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweSo I say you can decide how you want to look at it.
Kevin LoweI'm either the most unlucky or the luckiest person alive.
Kaylee Z.Oh, gosh.
Kaylee Z.See, Kevin, this is why I feel so honored to interview you.
Kaylee Z.Because you just said that.
Kaylee Z.That.
Kaylee Z.Of course he would say that.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.So, I mean, you.
Kaylee Z.You've already opened so much I want to ask you about when you found out that.
Kaylee Z.Go back a little bit.
Kaylee Z.When you found out that there was a brain tumor, your mom.
Kaylee Z.Your.
Kaylee Z.I actually got a chance to talk to your mom.
Kaylee Z.That was the coolest thing ever, by the way.
Kaylee Z.She's so special.
Kaylee Z.She told me about that moment and how she just.
Kaylee Z.She just sort of was frozen, staring, and she just said, I just kept staring.
Kaylee Z.And I just kept staring at him, at the doctor.
Kaylee Z.What was that moment like for you?
Kevin LoweThe moment when.
Kaylee Z.When you found out there was a tumor.
Kaylee Z.When you were told there was a tumor.
Kevin LoweSo we had went to a doctor.
Kevin LoweSo when all of this, this whole kind of ball got rolling, basically all started by me going to a new family doctor.
Kevin LoweAnd that doctor basically was the one who put all the pieces together of all these different symptoms I was having.
Kevin LoweI had.
Kevin LoweI had always had, like, migraine headaches you know, I wasn't growing.
Kevin LoweI mean, 17 years old, I hadn't gone through puberty.
Kevin LoweAll these things that my pediatrician always just kept blowing off, basically that I was just a late bloomer, you know, that I'm just gonna be short, you know, all this stuff.
Kaylee Z.So frustrating.
Kevin LoweAnd so.
Kevin LoweExactly.
Kevin LoweAnd so when we went to this new doctor and he was just a new family doctor in town, and he immediately.
Kevin LoweHe was the one who told my mom out in the hallway, like, listen, I.
Kevin LoweWe need to get him to a specialist.
Kevin LoweAnd so that then brings up the first time that the term brain tumor was ever said was in the doctor's office of the endocrinologist.
Kaylee Z.But you had now spent not just years, like your entire childhood.
Kaylee Z.Right.
Kaylee Z.Going through different symptoms that they were just ignoring.
Kaylee Z.Kind of like, he'll grow out of it.
Kevin LoweYes, yes, absolutely.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweMy entire childhood was.
Kevin LoweWhen you look at it now from the big picture, it was just textbook symptoms that should never have been missed.
Kaylee Z.Oh, my gosh, Kevin, like, what?
Kaylee Z.Tell us about those symptoms.
Kaylee Z.What was your childhood like?
Kevin LoweSo I think it was maybe in kindergarten is when I failed the eye exam at school.
Kevin LoweAnd so that started my journey of getting glasses.
Kevin LoweThen, as I would continue to grow up and keep going to eye doctors, all of the eye doctors I went to, they always found it strange that they could never get my vision to perfectly correct, even with glasses.
Kaylee Z.So there was always sort of something off.
Kevin LoweYes, yes.
Kevin LoweSame thing with my mom.
Kevin LoweShe would tell the pediatrician, she's like, you don't understand.
Kevin LoweShe's like, he drinks more than any human you've ever seen.
Kevin LoweI mean, Kaylee, I didn't know what a night's sleep was because I literally.
Kevin LoweWhen I would go to bed at night, I would wake up every single hour.
Kevin LoweAnd I would wake up, I would use the bathroom, I'd get a drink of water, go back to bed, and repeat.
Kaylee Z.Oh, my gosh.
Kevin LoweAnd so we.
Kevin LoweAnother textbook symptom of what was going on.
Kevin LoweAnd so when I would go to school, I wouldn't be able to drink enough.
Kevin LoweAnd so at the end of every school day, especially starting in middle school, is when it got really bad.
Kevin LoweI would come home every day with a raging migraine headache.
Kevin LoweIt was because I was totally dehydrated.
Kevin LoweOh, my God.
Kevin LoweAnd literally, I remember my.
Kevin LoweYeah, my Nana, she would pick me up from school, and I'd come home, and I would literally drink an entire pitcher of tea, just dying of thirst.
Kaylee Z.So you're describing just one component of this.
Kaylee Z.What we're talking about.
Kaylee Z.I didn't say this earlier.
Kaylee Z.We're talking about a tumor on the pituitary gland.
Kaylee Z.I don't know, you know that this is my field.
Kaylee Z.So, I mean, the pituitary gland is responsible for so much.
Kaylee Z.I don't think a lot of people understand the implications.
Kaylee Z.You're describing one mechanism.
Kaylee Z.Tell us more about, if you want to, the pituitary gland.
Kaylee Z.And it feels like the impact could be endless.
Kevin LoweYeah, basically.
Kevin LoweSo, basically my understanding, basically, the pituitary is.
Kevin LoweIt's just like the powerhouse of controlling all of your body's hormones.
Kevin LoweAnd so unbeknownst to us, I had this brain tumor that was slowly either encasing or pressing against whatever it was interfering with the pituitary gland.
Kevin LoweAnd so that's why me talking about drinking.
Kevin LoweIt was the thirst hormone, you know, it was testosterone, growth hormone.
Kevin LoweThe drinking, you know, they ended up giving me a thing called, like, diabetes insipidus.
Kevin LoweAnd it's not that I have diabetes, but it's this condition that is related to the pituitary with my thirst hormone.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweAnd so all of this stuff and.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweAnd so every symptom I had was all related back to the fact that a brain tumor was basically killing off my pituitary.
Kaylee Z.And it's.
Kaylee Z.It's so easy.
Kaylee Z.I know it wasn't.
Kaylee Z.It now probably is very clear, but for any of us listening, I think it's.
Kaylee Z.You could see it's like a doctor is going to just look at that one aspect and what's so important when we look at the body, we have to look at the whole organism.
Kaylee Z.I can only imagine what it feels like to you.
Kaylee Z.It's like, well, if one doctor had just picked up on that sooner.
Kaylee Z.Does that ever cross your mind, like, how different your life would have looked?
Kevin LoweI don't let myself.
Kaylee Z.Sorry to bring it up.
Kevin LoweYeah, no, no, no, no, no.
Kevin LoweHonestly, no.
Kevin LoweI mean, it's a good question.
Kevin LoweAnd it is a question that I think me and my whole family have thought about many times.
Kevin LoweAnd I've learned in life that you can literally drive yourself insane if you get stuck in the trap of what ifs.
Kaylee Z.Totally.
Kaylee Z.Yes.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.I learned that.
Kaylee Z.I learned that when I married now.
Kaylee Z.I was engaged with once before.
Kaylee Z.I don't remember if we spoke about this, you and I, but my first fiance died.
Kaylee Z.And.
Kaylee Z.And of course, like, all the what ifs went through my mind.
Kaylee Z.You know, what if I had been there?
Kaylee Z.What if, you know, he had called me first, like, maybe like anything, because I was out of town at the time.
Kaylee Z.And a good friend taught me, he said, you cannot do the what ifs.
Kaylee Z.Anytime a what if pops into your head, you have to just shut it down, change the subject, think something else.
Kaylee Z.Because you can't know.
Kaylee Z.If you say, like, well, what if I had been there?
Kaylee Z.Or what if.
Kaylee Z.What if a doctor saw it sooner?
Kaylee Z.We don't know how that would have played out.
Kaylee Z.So I really value you sharing this.
Kaylee Z.I think it's one of the greatest lessons that anyone listening can hear.
Kaylee Z.Because you kind of lose out on your life when you play the what if game.
Kevin LoweYes, absolutely.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kaylee Z.So I took us back.
Kaylee Z.So I just wanted to get a better sense.
Kaylee Z.So you talked about the thirst.
Kaylee Z.Anything, like, what other symptoms were you going through?
Kaylee Z.Were you experiencing as a child?
Kevin LoweBasically, the most like, say, like, impactful were the migraine headaches.
Kevin LoweAlways going to the eye doctor, always getting different glasses and such.
Kevin LoweBut the most debilitating would be the migraine headache.
Kaylee Z.Sure.
Kevin LoweJust the thirst factor, which, I mean, it was such, like, a slow, gradual process that, I mean, I didn't think anything weird about it.
Kevin LoweYou know what I mean?
Kevin LoweIt wasn't like I didn't realize, honestly, it was just part of my life that I woke up every hour during the night.
Kevin LoweWhoa.
Kevin LoweThat was just life for me.
Kevin LoweAnd that is why when we finally got the diagnosis, that it just took me by complete shock.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweWhen all of this started happening and went to the new family doctor, and then he referred to the endocrinologist, and they sent me to the neurosurgeon and MRI and all that stuff.
Kevin LoweI never thought it was going to be something like.
Kevin LoweLike a brain tumor.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.I can only imagine that kind of surprise.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweYes.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Especially after years of sort of these things being dismissed or taken as, like, piecemeal.
Kevin LoweExactly.
Kevin LoweExactly.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.How soon after discovering that it was a brain tumor, was there a plan in place to have surgery?
Kevin LoweSo I can remember when we.
Kevin LoweWhen we got to meet with the pediatric neurosurgeon, and I remember that we were there the first day that we met with him.
Kevin LoweAnd when he went over everything, he had the results of the mri, of course, and he actually had an opening.
Kevin LoweI think it was the next day.
Kaylee Z.Oh, my gosh.
Kevin LoweAnd my mom, she wanted me to take it.
Kevin LoweI did not want to.
Kevin LoweAnd, you know, she.
Kevin LoweYou know, she was scared.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kevin LoweEverybody.
Kevin LoweEverybody was dealing with their own emotions.
Kevin LoweAnd ultimately, though, we decided to wait.
Kevin LoweAnd I think it was maybe somewhere around maybe, like two weeks later, maybe two, three Weeks later, something like that.
Kevin LoweWhen I would go back in for surgery.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.You said, everybody's emotions.
Kaylee Z.We're in a different place.
Kaylee Z.Where were your emotions?
Kevin LoweSo when my mom told me about the news that she.
Kevin LoweSo she had gotten the call on, like, a Friday evening.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kevin LoweWith the results of the mri.
Kevin LoweAnd so she was the one who would tell me.
Kevin LoweAnd we had taken our boat that evening up the Intracoastal waterway up to St.
Kevin LoweAugustine, Florida, and we were staying there for the weekend.
Kevin LoweIt was one of my favorite trips that we would take on our boat.
Kevin LoweAnd my mom, she waited to tell me till we got up there.
Kaylee Z.Oh, my God.
Kevin LoweAnd so I was down in the cabin of the boat.
Kevin LoweI always say that, like, this part of my story is always weird because it's like, I just remember, like, photographs, like, snapshots.
Kevin LoweThe first snapshot being down in the boat, sitting there, flipping through a magazine.
Kevin LoweAnd that's when my mom came down and she told me.
Kevin LoweAnd the next snapshot is me getting out of the boat and just running.
Kevin LoweRunning up the dock.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kevin LoweAnd the next snapshot is me up at the top of the marina, leaning against the railing, looking out at the marina.
Kevin LoweI didn't know why I was upset.
Kevin LoweI guess it was just the simple fact of.
Kevin LoweI never thought it was going to be something like a brain tumor.
Kevin LoweYou always just think it's going to be something easy.
Kevin LoweEspecially then.
Kevin LoweI mean, I never.
Kevin LoweYou never even heard of anybody having a brain tumor, let alone that I would be the one.
Kevin LoweAnd so after that initial shock wore off, and after I would get confirmation, you know, from the doctor, from the neurosurgeon, that everything was gonna be okay.
Kevin LoweHe literally told me.
Kevin LoweHe's like, I do these surgeries all the time.
Kaylee Z.Whoa.
Kevin LoweAnd he, you know, he let me know.
Kevin LoweHe's like, kevin.
Kevin LoweHe's like, it's gonna be no big deal.
Kevin LoweHe said, we'll go in.
Kevin LoweWe'll remove the tumor.
Kevin LoweBasically, they had to kind of remove, like, the front quadrant of my skull.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.When you said, no big deal, I was like, I'm sorry.
Kaylee Z.Didn't they open your skull?
Kaylee Z.Like, didn't they have to, like, remove.
Kaylee Z.I mean.
Kaylee Z.Sorry, this is graphic.
Kaylee Z.But, like, your forehead, like, what?
Kaylee Z.No big deal.
Kevin LoweY.
Kevin LoweIt was.
Kevin LoweYeah, it was no big deal to the nurse.
Kaylee Z.Oh, my God.
Kevin LoweBut honestly, you know, like, for me.
Kevin LoweAnd so, you know, literally, I mean, he told me, and he told me, you know, I'd be back to school in three weeks.
Kevin LoweAnd so I've always had a really good Personality.
Kevin LoweAnd so I immediately realized the positives.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kevin LoweI got to get out of school for three weeks.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Your mom mentioned you really didn't like school.
Kaylee Z.You mentioned you were highly intelligent.
Kaylee Z.Did well, always got straight A's.
Kaylee Z.But didn't like it.
Kevin LoweNo.
Kevin LoweSo literally, as soon as I got this news, first day back at school, went into my guidance counselor.
Kevin LoweAmazing.
Kevin LoweMs.
Kevin LoweTully told her.
Kevin LoweMs.
Kevin LoweTully, I've got to drop out of trigonometry.
Kevin LoweMuch to my disappointment.
Kevin LoweAnd so that was literally the greatest day of my life when I got to walk into class and see all my friends, and I got to hand a slip to the teacher and say, see you later, suckers.
Kevin LoweI'm going to be an office aide, you know.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kevin LoweAnd so you're seeing all the pros.
Kevin LoweAll the pros.
Kevin LoweAnd to the point that I even.
Kevin LoweI named my tumor Bob.
Kevin LoweBob the Tumor.
Kevin LoweAnd literally, like our whole family, before surgery, we had a going away Bob party.
Kaylee Z.Oh, my gosh.
Kaylee Z.I love that.
Kevin LoweYes.
Kevin LoweAnd I mean.
Kevin LoweAnd even all the way up to the day of surgery.
Kevin LoweWell, it was actually the day before when we had to go over to the hospital over in Orlando, Florida, about an hour away.
Kevin LoweI mean, my mom's minivan was loaded up.
Kevin LoweLike you would have thought we were going on vacation because we had everything.
Kevin LoweAll kind of bags of clothes, everything.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweAnd we went over there and I mean, up to the fact, Kaylee, the night before my surgery, I'm literally in the hospital room.
Kevin LoweMy family's there.
Kevin LoweI wanted Outback Steakhouse for dinner.
Kevin LoweSo literally, my sister and aunt went out and got takeout from Outback for everybody.
Kaylee Z.Nice.
Kevin LoweAnd I'm literally sitting in my hospital bed eating my Outback steak.
Kevin LoweThe end of the night, when everybody else left, I remember we pulled up my.
Kevin LoweOne of my favorite movies was the Too Fast, Too Furious.
Kevin LoweAnd.
Kevin LoweYes.
Kevin LoweAnd we had it playing.
Kevin LoweThis is how old it is.
Kevin LoweIt was on dvd, on a laptop.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kaylee Z.I saw it in theaters.
Kaylee Z.You know, I.
Kevin LoweExactly, exactly.
Kaylee Z.I got you.
Kevin LoweAnd so I remember my sister got into the hospital bed with me, and we laid there and was watching that movie.
Kevin LoweThis, Kaylee, was a bump in the road.
Kevin LoweWe finally found the problem.
Kaylee Z.Right.
Kevin LoweAnd I thought we were just solving the problem, and then I'd get to get back to life, and life would be really great after this.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweAnd no idea.
Kevin LoweNobody did.
Kevin LoweNot even my surgeon.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kevin LoweNobody had a single clue what was going to happen.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.One of the things that I almost can't unhear that your mom shared with me she said that they gave you a heads up before surgery or they told them.
Kaylee Z.I don't know if they told you.
Kaylee Z.Actually, you'll tell me.
Kaylee Z.If they told you that you would have eye patches or like, like gauze or a bandage.
Kaylee Z.A bandage over your eyes so that when you would first wake up, you wouldn't.
Kaylee Z.You wouldn't be able to see.
Kaylee Z.But then.
Kaylee Z.But because you knew that to, like, not worry.
Kaylee Z.So, yeah, it's almost like I can't.
Kaylee Z.I can't even imagine what that means for you to then have found out that, like, you were told to, like, okay, that's just normal, stay calm.
Kaylee Z.But so then it was like a delay.
Kaylee Z.You only realize much later, right?
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweI always say it's really tricky because I don't really know, like, everybody wants, like, that really, like, awesome point of the story.
Kevin LoweLike, when did you realize that you were blind?
Kevin LoweYou know?
Kevin LoweAnd like, as somebody who loves a good story, I wish I had a good, like, climactic point, you know?
Kevin LoweLike, unfortunately I don't.
Kevin LoweAnd you're right, though.
Kevin LoweMy mom says that she really thinks that that's partly to do.
Kevin LoweWhy when I did start waking up that I didn't freak out is because they had told us that, you know, so.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.When you did realize, what was that like for you?
Kaylee Z.What were your first thoughts?
Kaylee Z.What ensued in the, you know, in the following days?
Kevin LoweI had my surgery October 28th.
Kevin LoweI stayed in the ICU and didn't come home until, I think November 13th.
Kevin LoweI think I came home on my sister's birthday.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kevin LoweI don't remember.
Kaylee Z.You guys have big milestone days.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweAnd so I don't remember any of the time in the hospital after surgery.
Kevin LoweMy memory doesn't come back until sometime later, being back at home.
Kevin LoweAnd I can tell you that for a really long time, every day when I woke up in the morning, I had to face the reality that I couldn't see.
Kevin LoweEspecially because every single night I'd go to bed and I'd beg.
Kevin LoweI'd beg God with all my being to let me see again.
Kevin LoweAnd I truly knew that God could heal.
Kevin LoweAnd I knew that God is capable of everything, of anything.
Kevin LoweAnd I would beg and I would plead him to please let me wake up in the morning and be able to see.
Kevin LoweAnd yet every morning, I'd wake up and I'd open my eyes and I'd see the same thing that I did when they were closed.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.How you share this saying, you know, I know God can do anything.
Kaylee Z.How do you maintain that faith.
Kaylee Z.Here you are, years later, still wake up seeing the same thing as when they're closed.
Kevin LoweGod has blessed me, Kayleigh, in the most amazing ways possible.
Kevin LoweIt took a really long time to be able to understand it and to believe it and that this was all in God's plan.
Kevin LoweWhen I look back on my childhood, Kaylee, everything about my childhood was in preparation for what was to come.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweHe made me a kid who was super organized.
Kevin LoweA skill that lends its hand to when you become blind.
Kevin LoweOh, wow.
Kevin LoweHe.
Kevin LoweHe made me a kid who always wanted to try something new.
Kevin LoweI mean, my mom will tell you that I drove her crazy as a kid.
Kaylee Z.She did tell me that I didn't test her.
Kaylee Z.He's right.
Kaylee Z.She did say that it was like how many hob surfing every few weeks was something new, right?
Kevin LoweYeah, pretty much.
Kevin LoweExactly.
Kevin LoweAnd so God was letting me just try out all kinds of things to the fact also of being blessed with an opportunity to get to travel.
Kevin LoweI mean, I got to see the Florida Keys.
Kevin LoweI got to go up snow skiing in Snowshoe, West Virginia.
Kevin LoweYou know, I even got to.
Kevin LoweIn middle school, we went to Alaska.
Kevin LoweWow, that's so cool.
Kevin LoweI got to see Alaska.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweGod let me see all of these things.
Kevin LoweAnd then even the little stuff like the fact that my sister Tiffany, she's five years older than me.
Kevin LoweI remember when she was in, like, her junior and senior year of high school, same high school that I would go to Seabreeze, and I hung out with Tiffany and her friends all the time.
Kevin LoweI went to all the high school parties with Tiffany.
Kevin LoweI went to all the high school football games.
Kevin LoweI went to the concerts and everything.
Kevin LoweWith all of them.
Kaylee Z.You lived large.
Kevin LoweI got to live.
Kevin LoweI got to live out my senior year.
Kevin LoweThen all of this to say God was preparing me and especially, especially prepared me when I was in.
Kevin LoweI think it was sixth grade.
Kevin LoweSo I guess I was probably 12 years old when I would go to my Nana's house every morning.
Kevin LoweMy mom would drop.
Kevin LoweDrop me off at Nana's.
Kevin LoweShe would take my sister to school, then she would go to work, and then Nana would take me to middle school and then pick me up the afternoon.
Kevin LoweIt was one morning.
Kevin LoweI had been helping my Nana with a program that she was doing through her church, through a First Baptist.
Kevin LoweAnd it was a program called Faith.
Kevin LoweAnd it was a program that she had no understanding of why in the world she would volunteer to sign up for because it was totally out of her comfort zone.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweAnd it was where, like, her and a small group would literally, like, visit people's homes and sit down and talk with them and go through this whole, like, faith program.
Kevin LoweAnd so she had to have this stuff, like, memorized.
Kevin LoweAnd so every morning she would help, like, quiz me on my stuff, and then I would quiz Nana on her little studies of the faith program.
Kaylee Z.Oh, this is so cute.
Kevin LoweYes.
Kevin LoweAnd so we would do that every morning before middle school.
Kevin LoweWell, all of a sudden, one day it was towards the end when Nana had gotten really good, had got the whole thing nailed down.
Kevin LoweSomething changed, because when she was telling it back to me, all of a sudden she was speaking to me, and she came over.
Kevin LoweShe came over.
Kevin LoweShe had been over in her recliner.
Kevin LoweI was over on the couch.
Kevin LoweAnd she came over and she knelt down in front of me and she took my hands.
Kevin LoweAnd together, I accepted Jesus into my life as my Lord and Savior.
Kevin LoweKaylee.
Kevin LoweI didn't realize that that was the greatest gift that I would ever be given until five years later when I would enter into a world of hell.
Kevin LoweAnd the only way that I would be able to make it out is through Jesus.
Kevin LoweThat was the final thing he had to do to prepare me for what was to come.
Kevin LoweAnd so today I can tell you that I believe in all my heart and all my being that God had it in his plan for me to become blind at 17 years old because he knew that I would make a greater difference in this world having gone through what I did, than if I hadn't.
Kevin LoweI have to find great honor that God chose me to be the one.
Kaylee Z.You know, I believe that.
Kaylee Z.I believe that what you're sharing is actually all of our lives.
Kaylee Z.That if any of us really took the time to look back on our lives, we would see that each step was preparing us for right now, and then for the next challenge or for the next milestone, you know, for the next stage.
Kaylee Z.Yeah, but it takes some digging, you know, that doesn't.
Kaylee Z.It doesn't come easily to most people.
Kaylee Z.What was your journey like in.
Kaylee Z.You're sharing this.
Kaylee Z.Did you.
Kaylee Z.And yet you were, you know, every night begging, you know, let me see in the morning.
Kaylee Z.When did it click for you that, oh, I was chosen.
Kevin LoweOh, good gracious.
Kevin LoweA really long time.
Kevin LoweIt took.
Kevin LoweIt took the better part of about 10 years before I even came to a place where I was finally ready to really move on with life.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweI finally realized, like I said, it took about 10 years that I didn't have to give up on my faith singing again one day.
Kevin LoweBut I realized at that moment that it probably isn't going to be till I'm in heaven.
Kevin LoweAnd so right now, I got more life to live.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.You had to just really accept it was a radical acceptance that allows you to then step into a new phase.
Kevin LoweAbsolutely.
Kevin LoweAnd it would be sometime later on when I would really come to this point.
Kevin LoweAnd honestly, it was probably a lot through this podcast when I started it back in 2020 and I got into it and I started to understand more of my superpower that God gave me, being able to turn my disability into a superpower.
Kevin LoweAnd it was really through the podcast that I got to really understand and bring me to that point of truly understanding that what a gift it is.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.I'm amazed by what you just said.
Kaylee Z.It's not that you had all that awareness before and then started a podcast about grace and inspiration.
Kaylee Z.You're saying that as the podcast unfolded, that became clearer and clearer.
Kevin LoweYes.
Kaylee Z.So why start the podcast?
Kaylee Z.What, like, that's not.
Kaylee Z.I would assume the opposite.
Kaylee Z.Like, you know, you realize, okay, this is my purpose.
Kaylee Z.You're like, no, I realize that during.
Kaylee Z.It is a superpower, by the way.
Kaylee Z.I feel so.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.Honored and blessed to call you a friend.
Kaylee Z.It is.
Kaylee Z.It's truly superpower.
Kaylee Z.And I'll try to hum.
Kaylee Z.I'll try to say this humbly.
Kaylee Z.I don't know if it'll come out this way, but, you know, a lot of people say that about me, that I'm their.
Kaylee Z.Their inspiration, that I, I find the light in the darkness and I look at you and I'm like, okay, no, if there's a person finding the light in the darkness, it's Kevin.
Kaylee Z.So I'm blown away by this, that it happened the other direction.
Kevin LoweWhat?
Kaylee Z.You're still surprising here.
Kaylee Z.Go ahead.
Kevin LoweYeah, I mean, the podcast.
Kevin LoweI always say that the podcast kind of, I think, saved my life in the fact of I had been a travel agent for seven years.
Kevin LoweSo in 2013 is when I started my own home based travel agency.
Kevin LoweAnd I did that up until 2020.
Kevin LoweAnd by that point, I mean, I knew that I was supposed to be doing something more with my life, but I didn't know what more was.
Kevin LoweAnd so then when the pandemic came and we're all stuck in quarantine and the travel agency, I always say it went from my.
Kevin LoweWhat was going to be my best year ever to the worst year ever.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweIt gave me the opportunity to try my hand at a podcast.
Kevin LoweAnd you know, Kaylee, the joke is, is that originally I was going to start a YouTube channel.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweAnd.
Kevin LoweAnd so I started.
Kevin LoweI started getting excited about that.
Kevin LoweI thought, perfect opportunity.
Kevin LoweWe're in quarantine.
Kevin LoweGreat.
Kevin LoweAnd so I start ordering stuff off Amazon.
Kevin LoweAnd then I always say it was kind of like that light bulb moment, you know?
Kevin LoweYes.
Kevin LoweAnd yes, blind people have light bulb moments, but that did not cross my mind.
Kaylee Z.Thank you for clarifying.
Kevin LoweOf course.
Kevin LoweOf course.
Kevin LoweAnd so I realized, what am I doing?
Kevin LoweI'm like, if I don't have somebody who is here to film to do all that stuff, I'm not gonna be able to do this on my own.
Kaylee Z.And I can't believe anything crossed your mind that there's something you can't do on your own.
Kaylee Z.I'm sorry, hello?
Kaylee Z.Like, you're telling me how, oh, it's so convenient that I'm really organized.
Kaylee Z.That's very helpful when being black.
Kaylee Z.I don't even know if people register what that means.
Kaylee Z.You have to figure out what color your clothes are.
Kaylee Z.Like, all that.
Kaylee Z.Then you're managing a podcast.
Kaylee Z.I mean, just for the listeners to understand this, I asked Kevin when he interviewed me, how did you.
Kaylee Z.You referenced, at some point, like, oh, yeah, I was, you know, trying to keep track of my questions.
Kaylee Z.Or we were going.
Kaylee Z.I'm thinking, I've got my notes in front of me.
Kaylee Z.I can see them.
Kaylee Z.I can see our little, you know, streamyard window.
Kaylee Z.I've got.
Kaylee Z.I can see my microphone.
Kaylee Z.I can see the cup of coffee next to me.
Kaylee Z.I was like, wait a second, how are you doing that?
Kaylee Z.And you taught me this was new information for me that you had.
Kaylee Z.It's just like when people multitask, right?
Kaylee Z.They've got like seven tabs open on, you know, a browser.
Kaylee Z.I was blown away that you could listen to the next questions coming while you're listening to me.
Kaylee Z.Totally blew me away.
Kaylee Z.So, I mean, when you say, like, wait a second, I can't, you know, make this happen, I'm like, I don't know.
Kaylee Z.You probably could.
Kaylee Z.No pressure, but if anyone could do a YouTube channel, you probably could anyways.
Kaylee Z.That's a different tangent.
Kaylee Z.Go ahead, continue.
Kevin LoweNo, no, I love it.
Kevin LoweAnd so, you know, the fact is, you're right.
Kevin LoweI probably could have.
Kaylee Z.But I'm not trying to make you feel bad that you should have done it.
Kaylee Z.I think your podcast is great.
Kevin LoweWell, trust me, the fact is, I am proudly.
Kevin LoweNow, no video.
Kevin LoweBecause I.
Kevin LoweI'm not falling victim to the sighted world wanting to see stuff all the time.
Kaylee Z.Exactly.
Kevin LoweSo I am proudly.
Kevin LoweNo, Vinny, but so What I was gonna say, though, is at this point when I'm crushed that I can't do a YouTube channel, my sister says, why don't you do a podcast?
Kaylee Z.Nice.
Kevin LoweMy answer, what the heck is a podcast?
Kaylee Z.Oh, for real?
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweFor real.
Kevin LoweAnd so I start listening to podcasts about how to create a podcast, and I realize I'm like, oh, my gosh, I just found my jam.
Kevin LoweThe World of Audio.
Kevin LoweI'm like, this is made for the blind eye.
Kaylee Z.This was made for you.
Kaylee Z.Yes, Kevin, yes.
Kevin LoweAnd so when I started the podcast, I thought I was still gonna be a travel agent.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweI always say that God hadn't cued me in on the plan yet, so I started the podc.
Kevin LoweThis podcast, if you go back to the very beginning, was called the Lowdown on Life and Travel.
Kevin LoweAnd so I was doing travel related content, sprinkling in little bits of stuff about, like, my life being blind.
Kevin LoweAnd then the podcast took over my life.
Kaylee Z.Oh, yeah.
Kevin LoweWhat happened is once I started getting into interviews and I started switching from just travel, and I started just this natural, gradual, beautiful transition into having these amazing conversations with people.
Kevin LoweAnd when we would get off the call, I would have people constantly tell me.
Kevin LoweThey're like, Kevin, they're like, you ask me questions that no one else has ever asked.
Kevin LoweOr I had one lady tell me.
Kevin LoweShe's like, you see parts of my story that no one but my therapist has ever seen before.
Kevin LoweFor me, you know, of course, Mr.
Kevin LoweFunny Guy, my response has always been, well, you should really be interviewed by more blind people, because it was quite evident, you know.
Kaylee Z.No, you really have a gift.
Kaylee Z.It's true.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.So you had it just unfolded.
Kevin LoweIt did.
Kevin LoweIt was the most natural progression in.
Kevin LoweAnd I think the most important lesson here for anybody listening is that a lot of times in life, we try to figure out if we're on the right path in life.
Kevin LoweAnd I realized then what it felt like to be on the right path.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kevin LoweIs that.
Kevin LoweFor seven years, I literally paddled and paddled and paddled upstream trying to make it work as a travel agent.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kevin LoweKaylee.
Kevin LoweWhen I started this podcast, it literally was like I was flipped over on my back floating down the lazy river.
Kaylee Z.Nice.
Kevin LoweIt was effortless.
Kaylee Z.That's how it should be.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.When you're.
Kaylee Z.When you're doing it right.
Kaylee Z.When you're.
Kaylee Z.When you're on the right track, it's.
Kaylee Z.Doors should just open.
Kaylee Z.It should be with ease.
Kaylee Z.We're not supposed to swim upstream.
Kevin LoweExactly.
Kevin LoweWe are not salmon.
Kevin LoweNo.
Kaylee Z.We are not Salmon, it's amazing, and it's so profound to see the impact that you've had and how quickly it's grown and the amount of inspiration that comes out of every conversation.
Kaylee Z.And I really.
Kaylee Z.I really value what you shared, you know, about, like, you being chosen for this and how much you've leaned into this.
Kaylee Z.I think everybody's going through something, you know, everybody's facing something.
Kaylee Z.And to be able to hear your perspective through huge challenges, you know, it's just like it could just get someone through the day, you know, it's.
Kaylee Z.It's profound how it can change a life.
Kaylee Z.One thing that I would love to know if you're open to sharing more about, you know, we're talking about your vision and being blind, and yet I know the pituitary gland was impacted.
Kaylee Z.I know this isn't the only thing going on for you.
Kaylee Z.Can you, you know, share a little bit more about what else is going on in your life?
Kaylee Z.You're inspiring others, but there's more you are navigating, right?
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweSo for a really long time, I believed in all my heart that if I could have one prayer answered, it would, of course, be that God would let me see again.
Kevin LoweIt took a really long time to get to a point when I came to understand that being labeled is panhypopit.
Kevin LoweHaving no pituitary function is actually a far greater disability than being blind.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweBeing blind, I can overcome it.
Kevin LoweI can learn tactics.
Kevin LoweI can do all this different stuff, but there's not much I can do when I wake up in the morning and I don't feel good today.
Kevin LoweThere's not much I can do when I just can't sometimes live a normal life because maybe stuff that wouldn't affect others, for me, it just wipes my body out.
Kevin LoweAnd so my life is.
Kevin LoweIt's.
Kevin LoweHonestly, it's a constant balancing act of medicines always trying to replace what the pituitary should be doing.
Kevin LoweI do that through medications.
Kevin LoweAnd I mean, thank goodness.
Kevin LoweI mean, they are what makes me still be here today.
Kevin LoweBut I always say they're no comparison to what the body should do naturally.
Kevin LoweAnd so that is definitely one thing that I have come to understand is that that condition is definitely more of a disability than being blind.
Kevin Lowe100%.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.So there's so much more that you are juggling than I think most people realize, especially when they hear your story.
Kaylee Z.I don't know that that comes up so much.
Kaylee Z.And one of the other things that, of course, stands out is, you know, you are labeled and you've also labeled yourself like this now with your podcast, but as an inspiration.
Kaylee Z.I think a misnomer of that is a lot of people think that someone who's so positive and so optimistic that somehow that's.
Kaylee Z.That they're just always happy.
Kaylee Z.They always see the glasses half full.
Kaylee Z.I would love if you could share, you know, how you actually cope and how you manage those hard days.
Kaylee Z.You know, the days when you said like, your body's just not with it.
Kaylee Z.How do you get through those moments?
Kevin LoweYeah, such a great question because you are right, you know, especially in this day and age of, of social media, the highlight reel.
Kevin LoweI mean, nobody wants to post about the boring stuff or the dull stuff or the bad stuff.
Kevin LoweWe only post about the good stuff in our lives.
Kevin LoweAnd so it's so easy to think that you're the only one not living this amazing life.
Kaylee Z.Right?
Kevin LoweWell, it's honestly the same thing about the podcast.
Kevin LoweI get on the podcast and I build up my energy.
Kevin LoweEven on days when I don't feel good, I know that I gotta, I treat it like a performance.
Kevin LoweI gotta show up, I gotta do the thing.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweNow, what's powerful about it is most of the time it.
Kevin LoweBy the end of recording an episode, I come out feeling 100% better than when I started.
Kaylee Z.The power of the mind.
Kevin LoweIt's amazing how.
Kevin LoweYes, exactly.
Kevin LoweAnd so all that to say is that, yeah, I do have bad days.
Kevin LoweI will say that I am so grateful that they don't happen very often anymore.
Kevin LoweI say that I believe it's the power of time passing is I do believe that time, time does heal and it makes things a little bit easier because, I mean, I don't know that I can remember the last time that I had a full out cry over not being able to see.
Kevin LoweBut it's more like in today's point in my life.
Kevin LoweIt's just when certain things happen and you get frustrated over something that is only frustrating because you're not able to see it's something wrong, technology wise.
Kevin LoweAnd if I could just see it, I could fix it.
Kevin LoweOr it's a fact of a loss of freedom.
Kevin LoweYeah, I have family.
Kevin LoweYes, I could call an Uber.
Kevin LoweBut it's not the same as walking out your door and get in a car and driving away.
Kevin LoweYeah, those are the kind of things that sometimes can get to you.
Kevin LoweNow, like I said, Luckily, 21 years later, rarely do I have those moments that I even think of that I just don't.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweBut I think the most important thing that I want to be able to say is that there's nothing wrong, though, that if you do.
Kevin LoweYes, there is nothing wrong with being sad, with wanting to cry, of just wanting to stay in bed all day.
Kevin LoweNow, if that turns into a week and months, yeah, then we got to do something.
Kevin LoweBut to just have a bad day, sometimes I don't think it's such a bad thing.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.It would almost be weird if you had told me you never had any bad days.
Kaylee Z.You never broke down and cried.
Kaylee Z.I would think that's just weird.
Kaylee Z.That would concern me, Kevin.
Kaylee Z.I'd be like, what?
Kaylee Z.But you shared so beautifully that, like, it took a decade to actually accept this reality.
Kaylee Z.And I think that's so powerful for people.
Kaylee Z.I think a lot of times people see people like us and think, why aren't they like that?
Kaylee Z.How come they haven't managed to be more positive or to be stronger?
Kaylee Z.Oh, maybe they're just not strong enough.
Kaylee Z.Maybe they're weak and we're the strong ones.
Kaylee Z.Like, no, there's a process here.
Kaylee Z.Some stuff we gotta get through.
Kaylee Z.And I really value you sharing so honestly about that.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweOh, absolutely.
Kevin LoweIt's been a journey.
Kevin LoweIt has been a journey.
Kevin LoweAnd I always.
Kevin LoweI always say, though, that I never, like, I never want people to think that my situation is any worse than, say, somebody else's, you know, that's always been a big thing of me, really, ever since I went blind, is wanting people to understand that their problems are just as big to them as what I'm going through.
Kevin LoweFor me, yeah, you know, it doesn't matter.
Kevin LoweWe're not supposed to compare one thing to another.
Kevin LoweThat's not what life is about.
Kaylee Z.Yes.
Kaylee Z.Yes.
Kaylee Z.I felt that so much growing up with illness.
Kaylee Z.You know, we talk about this in a different interview, but I grew up with ms, multiple sclerosis, and I always felt the same exactly how you're describing.
Kaylee Z.Like, I wouldn't have chosen some of the challenges other people were facing around me growing up.
Kaylee Z.And it really taught me that, like, you should never compare.
Kaylee Z.This was the lot I was given, and I'm learning to navigate this.
Kaylee Z.I would like to not have to figure out how to adapt to those other situations.
Kaylee Z.Everybody's facing some.
Kaylee Z.Something, you know.
Kevin LoweExactly.
Kevin LoweExactly.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.There's so much I want to ask you.
Kaylee Z.I don't even know how much time we have.
Kaylee Z.I could be here for days.
Kaylee Z.You mentioned how with something like blindness, you know, you can adapt, you can figure out workarounds.
Kaylee Z.So I would love if you could share a little bit with us about Echolocation because that blew my mind when you shared that.
Kaylee Z.I told some friends about that, and there's a long list of questions.
Kaylee Z.But can you just tell us, first of all, what is echolocation and how you learned to see again?
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweSo, yeah, echolocation is the cool tool in my toolbox.
Kevin LoweAnd it is the thing, though, that I didn't even learn about until 14 years after becoming blind.
Kevin LoweEven though I went to all these places, like, you know, blind services center for the visually impaired division, you know, of blind services, all these resources that are amazing and have helped me so much throughout the years.
Kevin LoweNobody ever mentioned anything about echolocation.
Kevin LoweAnd so when I found out about it, thank goodness, it was at the point when I was a travel agent, and one of my travel agent friends saw a YouTube video about this guy named Brian Bushway, and he was blind and he was using echolocation.
Kevin LoweAnd so fast forward through the story.
Kevin LoweI end up going out to Los Angeles, California, with my mom and sister for, oh, gosh, you think about 10 days.
Kaylee Z.Well, that's fun.
Kaylee Z.That's where I'm from.
Kaylee Z.You get.
Kevin LoweIs it okay.
Kevin LoweAmazing.
Kevin LoweSo we went out there.
Kevin LoweI think we were in Culver City.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweAnd so I got to train one on one with Brian learning echolocation.
Kevin LoweNow, it was not easy for the first three days.
Kevin LoweIt was ridiculous because here I am, you know, Brian, he's doing this clicking technique, and he's telling me, and I'm trying to learn how to do the clicking technique.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweAnd it's basically just with the.
Kevin LoweWith your tongue against the roof of your mouth.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweAnd so what happens is, is when you do that, you make that little snap with the tongue suctioned to get the roof of your mouth.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweThat is a sound that then bounces off of the objects around you in front of you.
Kevin LoweThey come back through your ears, and your brain's visual cortex learns to interpret them as images.
Kaylee Z.It's profound.
Kaylee Z.It's something you hear about or see in a movie.
Kaylee Z.It didn't just happen, though, right.
Kaylee Z.The brain had to kind of learn that that's what you were doing and then get you those images.
Kaylee Z.Like, my mind is blown.
Kaylee Z.Like, walk me through this.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweSo it was interesting.
Kevin LoweSo before I went out to California, something happened.
Kevin LoweI didn't even realize that it was echolocation kicking in, But I was walking down.
Kevin LoweI think I was with my mom, and we were at a shopping plaza, and we were walking down the sidewalk.
Kevin LoweAnd as we were walking, from the sound of our footsteps, all of a Sudden, I could tell every time we passed a column, because we'd be walking, and I'm like, there's a column.
Kevin LoweI just saw it.
Kevin LoweWhoa.
Kevin LoweYou know?
Kevin LoweBut I didn't even know what that was.
Kevin LoweSo come to find out.
Kevin LoweYeah, that was kind of a form of echolocation.
Kevin LoweAnd so it took.
Kevin LoweI think it was on day three of training, the first time that I got to see something.
Kaylee Z.It took three days.
Kaylee Z.I'm like, that's all till you could see something?
Kaylee Z.That's crazy.
Kevin LoweWell, what's crazy is I remember talking to Brian before I went out there, and I asked him, how long does it take?
Kevin LoweAnd he said, generally, about three days.
Kevin LoweAnd sure enough, I mean, it was day three of training.
Kevin LoweWe were in the Airbnb apartment that we had rented.
Kevin LoweMy mom and sister, they would go out every day doing tourist stuff.
Kevin LoweMe and Brian were working in the apartment, and we were identifying corners of the room.
Kevin LoweCause corners are kind of easy to identify.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kevin LoweAnd so he's having me make the little click, and then I'd back up and make the click.
Kevin LoweAnd all of a sudden, it was like somebody turned on a light switch.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweBecause all of a sudden, Kaylee, the wall in front of me, it turned all of a sudden.
Kevin LoweI could see it.
Kevin LoweIt was like this fuzzy gray.
Kaylee Z.Huh.
Kevin LoweBut I literally could see the whole wall.
Kevin LoweAnd to the point that I could literally walk right up to it and stop without touching it.
Kaylee Z.Whoa.
Kevin LoweAnd then I remember I kept doing the clicking technique, and I walked along the wall, and then all of a sudden, it stopped, and it was like this big, like, dark cavern.
Kevin LoweIt was the opening to the kitchen.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kaylee Z.It was like a doorway.
Kaylee Z.So when you say you could see it, can you.
Kaylee Z.Can you compare what.
Kaylee Z.What this site is like now through echolocation versus how you saw before?
Kaylee Z.Could you describe that for us?
Kevin LoweSo I've been doing that.
Kevin LoweSo I think I went out to California in.
Kevin LoweI guess that was 2017.
Kevin LoweAnd so it's what, 20, 24, so what, seven years?
Kevin LoweAnd today I can tell you.
Kevin LoweAnd it's a good way to kind of describe how it looks.
Kevin LoweAnd what I'm talking about is I will be standing, say, in my kitchen, and the faucet will be on, and maybe the water hits a dish a certain way, where all of a sudden, literally, it's like the light turns on, and I can look over and I see my mom's figure standing in the kitchen.
Kaylee Z.Whoa.
Kaylee Z.So other things trigger it.
Kevin LoweYeah, not typically.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweBut.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweAnd so it literally, I could see My mom's figure.
Kevin LoweI can see just the figures of the cabinets.
Kevin LoweIt's like a world of.
Kevin LoweOf different shades of gray and dark.
Kevin LoweAnd you can identify even, like, texture, because I always say, like, it's easy to identify, like, where a faucet is, because you'll get.
Kevin LoweI describe it as, like, a little ping off of the faucet.
Kevin LoweSo almost like you think of, like, one of the commercials for, like, glassware, and they show, like, a visible, like, little sparkle.
Kevin LoweThat's literally how it handles with the shiny metal like that versus, like, say, a couch.
Kevin LoweIt's more just like a fuzzy gray, but I see the shape of it.
Kaylee Z.That's so interesting.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweAnd so literally, it's changed my life so much that my life is no longer like it used to be.
Kevin LoweIt's no longer nothingness, but instead the world around me has shape and dimension.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kevin LoweYou know, it has been the truly the most profound thing that ever happened.
Kevin LoweAnd I'll share with you that while I was in California that day, the first day when it happened, I remember going to bed that night.
Kevin LoweI remember laying in bed, and I remember praying, and I remember saying to God.
Kevin LoweI remember smiling.
Kevin LoweIt was like, God, you let me see again just in a whole new way.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kaylee Z.You know, I'm Jewish, and every morning there's, like, a series of blessings that we say, and one of them is, you know, blessed are you, you know, master of the universe who gives the blind sight.
Kevin LoweOh, wow.
Kaylee Z.And when you were telling me that every night you went to bed asking to see.
Kaylee Z.Asking, asking to get your sight back, and I knew, of course, you and I have talked about echolocation.
Kaylee Z.I was thinking.
Kaylee Z.I was like, wow, it's like that blessing, and now you just said that, and I'm like, wow, you.
Kaylee Z.You actually got to live that.
Kaylee Z.You were given that.
Kaylee Z.I mean, I have that in a very small way.
Kaylee Z.I also.
Kaylee Z.I.
Kaylee Z.I've had a lot of vision issues, and I went blind in one eye.
Kaylee Z.So when I read that blessing, I feel like, yes, I've experienced that.
Kaylee Z.I'm like, but your brain developed, and it's.
Kaylee Z.You developed an entirely new way to see.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweIt's been the biggest life changer.
Kevin LoweHonest to goodness.
Kevin LoweI am so blessed to have gotten that opportunity to even learn about it, because I learned in the blind, like, circles of organizations and stuff, they almost view the whole echolocation thing kind of like doctors view, like, chiropractors, you know, like, they're not real.
Kevin LoweThey're not real doctors or something that's.
Kaylee Z.So, like, that's crazy.
Kaylee Z.This is so powerful.
Kevin LoweIt is crazy.
Kaylee Z.What a gift.
Kevin LoweWell, and that's what I remember when I realized it and I understood and I learned it.
Kevin LoweI remember I was so also, like, upset at the same point, thinking, I've been blind for 14 years.
Kevin LoweWhy aren't these organizations teaching this?
Kaylee Z.Yeah, why?
Kaylee Z.I'm, like, blown.
Kaylee Z.I'm so confused by what you're saying right now.
Kaylee Z.What an amazing gift.
Kevin LoweYeah, exactly.
Kevin LoweAnd it's been amazing.
Kevin LoweAnd what's cool is it blossomed into an amazing friendship that I'm still friends with.
Kevin LoweBrian Bushway.
Kevin LoweMe and him, we talk all the time.
Kevin LoweAnd just two really good friends because of that whole thing.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow, that's.
Kaylee Z.Well, I mean, he sounds like what an incredible.
Kaylee Z.What an incredible person.
Kaylee Z.I just.
Kaylee Z.I just.
Kaylee Z.For.
Kaylee Z.For technical purposes, I'm just curious.
Kaylee Z.I don't know if you've ever ridden horses, but I'm wondering if the click is similar.
Kaylee Z.Is that similar?
Kevin LoweOh, no.
Kaylee Z.Okay.
Kaylee Z.Can we hear it?
Kevin LoweI'm gonna try.
Kevin LoweMy mouth is so dry.
Kevin LoweBut so it's.
Kaylee Z.Sorry.
Kaylee Z.Sorry to put you on the spot.
Kevin LoweSo it's kind of more like a.
Kaylee Z.It's much.
Kaylee Z.It's much more subtle.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweAnd so you do it in different circumstances.
Kevin LoweYou can make it louder or quieter.
Kevin LoweAnd so.
Kevin LoweBut the whole key is when I was learning how to do it, it come out not as a click, but a cluck, because you can't have two little clicks.
Kevin LoweJust have to have one click.
Kevin LoweAnd so it took a while to figure out how to do it, to do it really good.
Kevin LoweAnd then, I mean, you know, and so, yeah, most everybody, when they try to do it, they instead make a clocking noise and they're like, yeah, no, that's not it.
Kaylee Z.Well, that's why you had to do all that training.
Kaylee Z.And I think it's so profound.
Kaylee Z.It's such an amazing example of the power of the human spirit.
Kaylee Z.You know, if you really want something, you just stay determined and dedicated and fly to the other side of the country to.
Kaylee Z.To figure it out.
Kaylee Z.And the power of the brain, you know, that that's.
Kevin LoweYes.
Kaylee Z.And I just want everyone to also hear this.
Kaylee Z.This isn't like.
Kaylee Z.This is already a brain that has been through significant damage and you still were able to develop, you know, an entirely new skill.
Kaylee Z.It's profound.
Kaylee Z.I want to ask you, sort of, maybe it's a weird question.
Kaylee Z.I don't know if.
Kaylee Z.If you could go back and the surgeon could tell you that this is what was going to Happen.
Kaylee Z.Let's say the surgeon said, look, we're going to save your life.
Kaylee Z.And this, you know, this is the only way.
Kaylee Z.We have to, we have to do the surgery.
Kaylee Z.It's what will save your life.
Kaylee Z.But you know you'll lose your sight.
Kaylee Z.What would you have done with those two weeks?
Kaylee Z.What would you have wanted to see?
Kaylee Z.What do you think you would have done?
Kaylee Z.I'm asking, you know, for others what we can do to savor the gift of sight that we have.
Kevin LoweYou know, Kaylee, the truth is that I often say that when they pushed me through the operating room doors that morning, I remember my mom and dad, they walked back with me.
Kevin LoweI said goodbye to them as they pushed me through the doors.
Kevin LoweIf I knew then that I would never get to see their faces again, I don't think I could have allowed them to push me through those doors.
Kevin LoweBecause honest to goodness, becoming blind, Kaylee, it has been the most God awful hell on earth experience I ever even knew.
Kevin LoweI didn't even know that such pain could exist on earth.
Kevin LoweAnd so I am so grateful that God did not give me that option.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow, so you're grateful you didn't know.
Kevin LoweYeah, wow.
Kevin LoweDefinitely, wow.
Kevin LoweBecause I don't think there's any way I could have prepared myself.
Kevin LoweAnd I think it's important, I guess, maybe to even note is that when a lot of people hear blindness, there's actually a very big spectrum of blindness.
Kevin LoweMatter of fact, it's a very small percentage of people who say they are blind that are completely blind.
Kevin LoweMost have some degree of sight.
Kevin LoweWhereas me, I am completely blind.
Kevin LoweAnd so I am so grateful that I did not have that option.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.I.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.I mean, I can't even imagine.
Kaylee Z.And I'll just say, like, that really hits home for me right now.
Kaylee Z.You know, as you know, I was just back in LA with my parents and we almost lost my dad.
Kaylee Z.And so as you described, that was like, wow.
Kaylee Z.Like, I'm so glad we got on a plane and thank God, thank God he's making a miraculous recovery.
Kaylee Z.But no, there were many moments of like, wow, like this.
Kaylee Z.You know, it could be it.
Kaylee Z.And it's, it's a really precious thing that you just described, like just being able to see your loved ones.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kevin LoweOh.
Kevin LoweI mean, when I would pray about getting to see again, I would also always just beg God, I would say, God, if you won't let me see anything else, just let me get to see my family.
Kevin LoweJust let me get to see my family.
Kevin LoweThat probably has been the hardest Thing.
Kevin LoweAnd even today, if I allow myself to go, there is the thought that I don't even get to know what my mom, my dad, my sister, my cousins who are young.
Kevin LoweI don't even get to know what they look like.
Kevin LoweHeck, Kaylee, I don't even know what I look like.
Kevin LoweOh, wow.
Kaylee Z.I haven't even thought about that.
Kevin LoweYou know, now, my family, they think it's amazing that I remember them how they looked 21 years ago.
Kaylee Z.They probably appreciate that you haven't seen them age.
Kevin LoweAs my sister told me one time, she's like, kevin, you would be really disappointed.
Kaylee Z.I'm glad you all have a sense of humor about this.
Kevin LoweWe do, we do.
Kevin LoweBut it's a really weird thing.
Kevin LoweAnd memory is something like remembering what things look like, especially people.
Kevin LoweIt's very interesting because when I.
Kevin LoweWhen I remember, when I, like, actually try to remember, like, what somebody looks like, I always go back to a photograph that I had seen of that person.
Kevin LoweAnd I think it's because, like, a photograph is just a snapshot of time that makes time stand still and allows you to focus on them.
Kevin LoweAnd so when I think of my Nana, I think of a photograph of her standing in her kitchen with a red shirt on and her apron on, cooking with her gold rimmed eyeglasses.
Kevin LoweI think of my mom, a picture of her.
Kevin LoweThat was her standing in our kitchen cooking.
Kevin LoweAnd it was one, like, Saturday morning.
Kevin LoweShe had, like, her white robe on, her hair pulled up with the big gold hair clip.
Kevin LoweI always said it looked like a whale's tail that she would pin up, you know, and there's different photos like that of, like, my sister or my dad.
Kevin LoweI think I always think back to a photograph because sometimes, sometimes it scares me when I start to lose that.
Kevin LoweAnd I'll go back and I'll just make myself remember that photograph.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Do you have one of you that you go back to?
Kevin LoweI do.
Kevin LoweIt was me sitting in my truck that I got when I turned 16.
Kevin LoweIt was taken outside of my nana's house, and it's a picture of me sitting in it with the door open.
Kevin LoweAnd that's the picture I remember.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.Nice.
Kaylee Z.Nice.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow, Kevin.
Kaylee Z.I mean, just talking to you is such a journey.
Kaylee Z.And.
Kaylee Z.Yeah, I've got tears streaming down my face as we talk right now.
Kaylee Z.You know, like I said, there's.
Kaylee Z.There's so much.
Kaylee Z.I've literally got a list here of just topics we didn't even cover.
Kaylee Z.And.
Kaylee Z.And yet I sort of feel.
Kaylee Z.I feel a sense of peace, I guess.
Kaylee Z.I would call it.
Kaylee Z.I think that, yeah, when we talk about, you know, today or whenever this is going to air, being, you know, close to your anniversary or on your anniversary, and you shared, you know, you were chosen.
Kaylee Z.God chose you for this.
Kaylee Z.This day.
Kaylee Z.This day was also chosen.
Kaylee Z.This anniversary was chosen.
Kaylee Z.And the day that your life was saved, in turn, became a blessing for innumerable amounts of people.
Kaylee Z.Like, we can't.
Kaylee Z.We can't even count how many people's lives you've touched.
Kaylee Z.And the way that you share, it's like.
Kaylee Z.It's, like, profound.
Kaylee Z.Like, you're so real, you're so authentic and so grounded, while also, like, silly and high in the sky.
Kaylee Z.Like, all of it, you know, so expansive, so spiritual.
Kaylee Z.It's like, it's just such a blessing.
Kaylee Z.And.
Kaylee Z.And you are such a blessing.
Kaylee Z.And I want to just say, like, I really want to ask.
Kaylee Z.I want to ask that God, you know, continues to bless you with continued miracles, and I do want to ask for your sight, you know, like, let's keep asking for that.
Kaylee Z.That it's like, you're still going to be the blessing.
Kaylee Z.You're still going to be inspiring.
Kaylee Z.I'm here, you know, to ask for that and for your health.
Kaylee Z.And more than anything, that you continue to have the energy, the desire, the willingness to keep, you know, having these conversations, inspiring others to keep showing up every day, even on the hard days.
Kaylee Z.And I just want to thank you.
Kaylee Z.It's a weird moment.
Kaylee Z.I'm like, can I thank you on behalf of, like, the thousands of people who've experienced you?
Kaylee Z.I'm going to do that.
Kaylee Z.I'm doing that.
Kaylee Z.That's.
Kaylee Z.That's my thing, you know, And I'm grateful to God for bringing you on this journey.
Kevin LoweAw.
Kevin LoweKaylee.
Kevin LoweYou know, I always say that we don't get to always choose what happens in this life, you know?
Kevin LoweYes, I know, but we.
Kevin LoweBut I think we do get to choose what we do with it.
Kevin LoweWhen I started this podcast, I had no idea that I would get to meet people like you.
Kevin LoweAnd I've come to understand that in this life, the things that matter the most are the people we meet and the experiences we have.
Kevin LoweWell, this podcast, I say it checks both of those boxes, is I get to meet people like you.
Kevin LoweI get to have an experience with you, and I can't think of a better thing to do.
Kevin LoweAnd the fact of getting to meet you, to have you do this amazing episode today on such a special occasion for me personally.
Kevin LoweIt means the world to hear you coming from the Person who you are and how highly I think of you.
Kevin LoweI thank you in the most sincere way possible.
Kaylee Z.You know, I think, Kevin, we established the last time we spoke or not the last time we spoke, the first time we spoke, clearly, we are soul family.
Kaylee Z.And what.
Kaylee Z.One of the things that I've learned through my journey is that we come here with a mission, Our souls come here with a mission, and our soul groups sort of go, okay, I'm going to help you with this.
Kaylee Z.I'm going to help you with that.
Kaylee Z.And let's hope along the way, we remind each other of our mission, of our path, and you do your best to hope that you actually, you know, live your purpose and fulfill your mission.
Kaylee Z.Maybe you even get to a part of it.
Kaylee Z.Maybe not all of it, but, okay, some of it is soul success.
Kaylee Z.And being able to know you and having this conversation with you today on your anniversary is one of those moments that makes me feel like, you know, the fact that we met, the fact that we get to have this connection to then have this conversation and inspire others is like, we must have planned this.
Kaylee Z.You know, our souls must have said, like, all right, then you're going to talk, and then you're going to do this, and you're going to do that.
Kaylee Z.And, like, it just.
Kaylee Z.That's all I feel right now.
Kaylee Z.I feel like this is a moment of confirmation that, you know, our souls are doing what we're supposed to do, that we are.
Kaylee Z.That we're showing up for the mission that we set out to do.
Kaylee Z.And it's really amazing when you get.
Kaylee Z.When you get those little glimmers and kind of, you know, can peek behind the curtain and go, like, oh, okay, yeah, this was.
Kaylee Z.That is what we wanted.
Kaylee Z.This is what I came for.
Kaylee Z.So it's really special to get to share this moment with you and everyone gets to hear us have this moment.
Kaylee Z.And if it's appropriate, you know, I want to tell you happy anniversary and.
Kevin LoweYeah.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.And what are you going to do with it for yourself, for your family?
Kaylee Z.Because I know obviously this changed your whole family's life.
Kaylee Z.How will you guys be marking this day off air?
Kevin LoweOh, my goodness.
Kevin LoweWell, first, I will say that I echo everything you say, and I believe that I put it maybe a little less elegantly than you in the fact that I believe that you're my sister from another mother, and I have to believe that it's all part of the plan and it's all working out.
Kevin LoweYep, it's all working out.
Kevin LoweFor our good for celebration.
Kevin LoweWell, we have A thing we do that we don't do it every single anniversary, but we do it a lot is we kind of go back to where it started is our family goes out to dinner at Outback Steakhouse.
Kaylee Z.I was hoping you were going to say that.
Kaylee Z.Tell me it's Outback.
Kevin LoweYep.
Kaylee Z.You got to have Outback sponsor your podcast.
Kevin LoweI should absolutely listening right now.
Kevin LoweI'll reach out to.
Kevin LoweI will definitely have to reach out.
Kevin LoweBut.
Kevin LoweBut the funny thing, Kaylee, is when we go is, you know, obviously the waiter, waitress when there's a big party.
Kevin LoweOh, what are you guys celebrating?
Kevin LoweOh, wow.
Kevin LoweThat's when it gets awkward and we're.
Kaylee Z.Like, what are you celebrating?
Kevin LoweWhat do you say?
Kaylee Z.What do you say?
Kevin LoweWell, I say it's the 21 year anniversary of Bob's death, which then they're like, what?
Kevin LoweOkay, like Bob.
Kevin LoweBob the tumor.
Kevin LoweBob the tumor.
Kaylee Z.Bob the tumor.
Kaylee Z.Okay, that's a good answer.
Kevin LoweBut no, it's, you know, as I said, the anniversary, it's a celebration.
Kevin LoweIt's a celebration of the fact that I'm still here today.
Kaylee Z.Yes.
Kevin LoweAs I said, they said I had less than six months and I would have died at 17 years old.
Kevin LoweAnd so for me, it's a celebration that I'm still here with my family.
Kevin LoweA celebration that I just still get to be here on Earth.
Kevin LoweAnd you know, Kaylee, even on the hard days, I always just want to make a difference in somebody's day.
Kevin LoweThat's the whole mission of this podcast, is to just make somebody's day a little bit better because they hear something that I say or you say, and that's what it's all about.
Kaylee Z.Oh, wow.
Kaylee Z.Amen to that.
Kaylee Z.Amen to that.
Kaylee Z.I know that that's what you are doing, and may it continue.
Kaylee Z.And for all of those listening, you know, tell Kevin, let him know the impact.
Kaylee Z.You know, you don't realize how much it means to hear these stories.
Kaylee Z.And it's, you know, he deserves to know.
Kaylee Z.He deserves to know.
Kaylee Z.So let him know.
Kaylee Z.Well, Kevin, thank you for this opportunity.
Kaylee Z.Like, I, I'm so, I'm like amazed that we got to do this.
Kaylee Z.So.
Kaylee Z.It's so special.
Kaylee Z.So special.
Kaylee Z.And the one thing I just want to say, we didn't have time to talk about your family.
Kaylee Z.You keep referencing them and, and you know, I know it goes without saying this affects everyone and I know how special they are to be on this journey with you and to also have been chosen for this journey.
Kaylee Z.So I just want to also acknowledge them also, because today also is a big day in their lives.
Kaylee Z.So I just want to take a moment.
Kaylee Z.I know that that's also important to you, so I just wanted to make sure we got that in there.
Kevin LoweOh, absolutely.
Kevin LoweAnd that kind of brings up a good point, is I will say that anybody who would love to meet my mom or to meet Nana, I'll link interviews with both of them in the show notes today that you can go listen to.
Kaylee Z.That's awesome.
Kaylee Z.Oh, that's so cool.
Kaylee Z.I'm really excited about that.
Kaylee Z.Yeah.
Kaylee Z.Your mom is so special.
Kaylee Z.I love talking to.
Kaylee Z.Loved it.
Kevin LoweYes.
Kaylee Z.Amazing.
Kaylee Z.Amazing.
Kaylee Z.Is there anything else that you would want to share, Kevin, on your anniversary before we close?
Kevin LoweI think we covered it all.
Kevin LoweI think this was amazing.
Kaylee Z.Wow.
Kaylee Z.Kevin, I feel so honored and humbled.
Kaylee Z.This has been so, so special.
Kaylee Z.I'm sure that all your listeners agree with me that you truly are a blessing.
Kaylee Z.Not just because you're always strong and optimistic, because you're real about the challenges as well.
Kaylee Z.Thank you for being you.
Kaylee Z.On behalf of all of those whose lives you've touched, we wish you a happy anniversary.
Kaylee Z.And we look forward to celebrating this anniversary in complete health and complete eyesight.
Kaylee Z.And we're always wishing you nothing but health and happiness.
Kaylee Z.Thank you so, so much for this incredible opportunity to be the host of your podcast and to share your story in this amazing space that you've created.
Kaylee Z.Kevin, you truly are the epitome of grit, grace, and inspiration.