Michelle

I was ripped out of my body, not in a painful way, but in a fast way, like bungee cord fast turned around facing my body and the ladder suspended in the air like a freeze frame in a movie.

Michelle

We know that about 80% of people who have near death experiences come back with heightened ESP, psychic abilities, mediumship.

Michelle

It's almost like you can't be that close and touch it and not come back a changed person.

Michelle

Well, you know, I like to say I think we can do things in life the easy way or the hard way.

Michelle

And for some reason I was going to do it the hard way, I guess.

Michelle

But I think the universe had been tapping me on my shoulder and wanting to get my attention for decades at that point in my life.

Michelle

We have an energy body that surrounds our physical human body.

Michelle

And as that carries that wound for decades, or however long it's been, because you've decided not to talk about it, not to address it, try to forget about it, it starts to create a physical ailment.

Michelle

Yes, your loved one is fear, but they are not sitting alone on a park bench waiting for you for the next 50 years.

Michelle

They are living, evolving, loving, laughing, and they want us to do the same thing while we're here.

Todd

Hi, welcome to the evolving potential podcast.

Todd

This is episode number 22.

Todd

Today I have on the show Michelle Claire.

Todd

Michelle has had three near death experiences that have dramatically changed her life.

Todd

She's become a highly sought out and certified medium.

Todd

An energetic healer and life coach, she does public speaking events and private readings.

Todd

Michelle helps people who have lost a loved one, helps them to find peace and understanding.

Todd

She's been validated as a high caliber medium by providing specific and accurate information, and even uses her abilities to work as a research medium for the Institute of Noetic Sciences.

Todd

So I'm very excited to interview her for multiple reasons, as you can see.

Todd

And her story will definitely astonish you as we go through it.

Todd

So thank you for being here, Michelle.

Michelle

Thank you so much for having me, Todd.

Todd

Okay, so I'm first, I kind of want to jump straight into, you know, almost the results side of things.

Todd

And so it's like, as you are communicating with people, it would be cool if you could share a story on how you've been able to really help someone overcome this, this place of grief that they might be stuck in.

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

You might be willing to share.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

You know, one of my favorite stories has to do with Mother Teresa coming in and a reading.

Michelle

And so I was reading for this rn and she was working full time, had eight children her mother was in hospice at the end of stages of life, and Mother Teresa came in, and during this reading, I was a little surprised.

Michelle

I was like, oh, Mother Teresa's here for you.

Michelle

And she said, well, I worked with her in Calcutta, so she actually had a personal relationship with her.

Michelle

And during that reading, Mother Teresa said to her, she said, I did not lose myself in the process of helping people, because if I had lost myself, I wouldn't have been able to help.

Michelle

And so it was this validation of kind of on the plane, right?

Michelle

We've got to put our oxygen mask on first.

Michelle

It was this validation about loving ourselves and taking care of ourselves, to know that there is peace on the other side and that we're still connected to our loved ones.

Michelle

I mean, that's one of my favorite stories because I feel like it spans so much information.

Michelle

But in my daily life, in my daily readings, what I love about the situations I'm encountering is I have loved ones from the other side, or life guides or angels coming in, talking to the people who I'm reading about current situations in their life, about what they were just thinking this morning as they drank their coffee, on and on and on.

Michelle

So what it's showing is that our loved ones in spirit, our angels, and our light guide, are actually connected to us right here, right now, in this very present moment.

Todd

That is crazy thoughts from this morning.

Todd

So I feel like we've all kind of seen the scenes in movies where everyone's wrapped around in a circle holding hands, and there's, like, a medium doing the reading.

Todd

And so what does that look like in the modern world and what you're doing?

Michelle

Right?

Michelle

Nothing like that at all.

Michelle

No, that's.

Michelle

That's funny.

Michelle

No, usually, most of my readings now are on Zoom, so I have clients around the world.

Michelle

So the way that this works is that actually we just log on.

Michelle

At the same time.

Michelle

I set the intention that their loved ones, their angels, their life guides are going to come through with messages from that for them, you know, and we log on to zoom, and because once we're in spirit, we are not stuck in a location like we are in our human body can only be in one place at a time.

Michelle

Their loved ones and their angels are coming through and giving messages to me and to them on the other side of the zoom screen.

Michelle

So it doesn't matter.

Michelle

There's no such thing as time and place and space when you're in the etheric realm.

Todd

No, that makes perfect sense.

Todd

And you do you find often that you struggle to get people to believe?

Michelle

Actually, no, I don't.

Michelle

You know, this is kind of how I see it.

Michelle

It's not my job to make anyone believe.

Michelle

If they come to me and they're skeptical, their loved ones, their angels, their life guides need to give them the evidence that they want or need to help them get through life.

Michelle

But, you know, I let go of the worry of convincing people of who I am years ago.

Michelle

If I had, I wouldn't be where I am today.

Michelle

So, you know, and really, most of people that come to me aren't skeptical.

Michelle

I'm a certified medium, so I've been blindly studied.

Michelle

They've tested me.

Michelle

They've scored me.

Michelle

So I know that the information that I'm getting is accurate, and my sitters do, too.

Michelle

They're really drawn to me more on the vibrational frequency of I know this is real and how can you help me with it?

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

So then what was the journey of beginning to share this and kind of dealing with some of the emotions around, you know, before you had overcome this?

Todd

I don't really care what people think.

Todd

This.

Michelle

Yeah, that.

Michelle

Well, that, you know, that was the hard part.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

Because it really came to a point where I did lose family and I did lose friends honoring my path and who I am.

Michelle

And so I had to get to the point where I was ready to come out of the closet.

Michelle

The other thing is, I don't think those people are on a wrong path.

Michelle

They're allowed to be skeptical.

Michelle

They're allowed to, like, I don't actually take it personally at all because it's really just a representation of them and their limiting belief pattern.

Michelle

It really has nothing to do with me, and that's okay.

Michelle

So it was really a challenge, though, to give myself permission to honor completely who I was.

Michelle

I was in a marriage where it wasn't really honored or thought of.

Michelle

Well, it was kind of like a secret.

Michelle

And so, you know, so my 25 year marriage ended in divorce because it really got to the point where I had to choose my marriage and him, or I had to choose honoring myself.

Todd

Wow.

Todd

And so was it the.

Todd

The third near death experience that you had was really the one that kind of allowed that to start to happen?

Todd

Allowed to, like, well, I need to come out more.

Todd

This is becoming more obvious.

Todd

This is not meshing with me to keep it a secret anymore.

Michelle

Yeah, absolutely.

Michelle

The third one, it really was.

Michelle

Do you want me to tell you about it in detail, or do you want me to?

Todd

Yeah, we can.

Todd

You can start from the first one.

Todd

Now.

Todd

I wanted to make sure.

Todd

We kind of got into like, you know, some of the stuff that you, you do, you know, so people can have some clarity before we get into things you've gone through.

Todd

But, yeah, I'd love to hear about it from the beginning, even.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

So when I was twelve, my grandfather passed away.

Michelle

And I started noticing at that point in time that he and I were still communicating.

Michelle

So I would tell my mom what he was saying and she would say, well, that's what you think he would say if he was still here.

Michelle

But I knew he was still saying it.

Michelle

So we had a communication and a relationship, but I realized nobody else in the family was doing that, so I kind of just kept it to myself.

Michelle

And then what happened was in the year of 2000.

Michelle

So in April 2000, this is my first near death experience.

Michelle

I was actually at a hospital in Tucson, Arizona, because my sister in law was giving birth.

Michelle

So I was in the hallway talking to her Rn, who was my friend from high school, as the universe sets things up like that.

Michelle

And I ended up having this massive seizure.

Michelle

And I'd never had one before.

Michelle

I've never had one since.

Michelle

But what I remember is opening my eyes and I was laying with my head in my grandma's lap.

Michelle

And I remember looking up at her.

Michelle

I remember her looking like the most young, beautiful version of her that I could remember.

Michelle

I remember feeling the timelessness, this blissful space.

Michelle

I was in no hurry to go anywhere.

Michelle

And as I was looking at my grandma, I looked up next to her and there was this beautiful twelve foot angel standing next to her.

Michelle

And I remember just being almost drawn and sucked into her energy.

Michelle

And so as I was looking at her, I thought, I want to see her feather wings.

Michelle

So, you know, I moved my eyes to see her feather wings.

Michelle

And what I found is they were actually made of light, not feathers.

Michelle

The way we envision them here on earth, they seem to just span eternity.

Michelle

With that being said, I thought, in my head, I thought, what is your name?

Michelle

And she answered me telepathically.

Michelle

She said, my name's Madeline and I'm one of your guardian angels.

Michelle

And at that moment, I was surprised because I didn't know anything about telepathic communication, but I knew she heard me.

Michelle

And I was just laying there enjoying this blissful space.

Michelle

And the next thing I know, I hear them yelling, code, code, code.

Michelle

Because I was in the hospital and I had quit breathing.

Michelle

They were calling the code team, and so they were already on their way.

Michelle

The next thing I know, I'm back in my body.

Michelle

It feels heavy.

Michelle

It feels dense.

Michelle

It feels like my arm weighs 500 pounds.

Michelle

But the reality is that situation that I experienced was more vibrant than my daily life or even this podcast that we're doing right now.

Todd

And that's so crazy to me because you mentioned timelessness, which I know this is not necessarily something you're interested in, but I'm very interested in flow state, and so that's always described as timeless.

Todd

And so it's like the spiritual experience and this timeless.

Todd

And I just thought that was, like, really cool.

Todd

And so what must.

Todd

And the same thing with psychedelics, too, being described as, like, once you're able to get past the veil, if you will, you know, it feels more vivid and more real than anything you've ever experienced.

Todd

And so you came back here, and I guess what would be the thing that would differentiate that from a dream?

Todd

I know it's a hard question to answer perhaps, but I'm curious.

Michelle

Well, it's more solid and it's more real.

Michelle

A dream has a different.

Michelle

Even, like, when you wake up in the morning, has a different energy than what you're cooking for breakfast because it feels more solid what you're making for breakfast.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

I'm getting out the pot or the pan.

Michelle

And so there's an energy around it.

Michelle

So what makes it more real than a dream?

Michelle

Because I have had dreams.

Michelle

Dreams have, what I would say, almost a distant energy to them, whereas the near death experience is all encompassing, and it's right here, right now.

Todd

Wow.

Todd

And so then you came back, and you did you feel changed already from that?

Todd

Was that like.

Todd

That was a mind blowing, I'll never be the same again type experience, or what was that like for you?

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

So, at that point in my life, I was newly married, and I didn't have kids, and I did not know the term near death experience, so I knew I had had this very vivid experience, but I didn't know exactly what it was.

Michelle

So I kind of came back.

Michelle

I took a couple weeks before I told anyone about it, and then I just kind of, like, shoved it back behind me and kept moving forward.

Michelle

I realized I now had connection with angels, that there is more.

Michelle

I knew what I had felt, but I did not have words to describe it, and I had no idea that it was a near death experience.

Todd

That's crazy.

Todd

And so then at some point.

Todd

So you're living a fairly normal life at this time.

Todd

You're not a medium yet, and then you have a second one.

Michelle

Yep.

Michelle

So by the time we.

Michelle

On my second, that one happens in May 2006.

Michelle

And at that point in time, I have three young kids.

Michelle

I'm still married.

Michelle

So I have a five year old, two and a half year old, and my infant son, who was six weeks old.

Michelle

I had had a lot of complications during his delivery, so for about four of the following six weeks after I had him, I was still in the hospital.

Michelle

And finally they decided that they wanted to do a d and c, which is a procedure where they clear out your uterus.

Michelle

And they said, you'll be fine after this.

Michelle

You'll be clear.

Michelle

You can go home.

Michelle

It's a 45 minutes outpatient procedure.

Michelle

The night before, I had this rock and this pit in my stomach, and I thought, I should not do this.

Michelle

But they told me it'd be quick and easy and I'd be done.

Michelle

So I went ahead and I went in.

Michelle

I had had anesthesia before, and whenever I've had it, it's usually just a blank.

Michelle

It's not dreaming.

Michelle

It's not memories.

Michelle

It's just a blank space.

Michelle

So this time, I remember counting backwards for the anesthesiologist.

Michelle

And the next thing I know, I look over, and my beautiful 102 pound white german shepherd, who had passed a few years ago, walked into the operating room, laid her head on my gurney, and we were gone.

Michelle

And we were on this phenomenal beach.

Michelle

And this beach has smells that we don't have here.

Michelle

It has colors that we don't have here.

Michelle

Everything is radiating light and love.

Michelle

Every drop of water, every piece of sand, every leaf, every flower.

Michelle

Literally everything is radiating light and love.

Michelle

And so I'm looking at my beautiful dog, and I'm noticing, like, she looks like she's about two.

Michelle

She's healthy, she's young.

Michelle

We're telepathically communicating.

Michelle

She's happy that I'm there, and we are just running on this beach.

Michelle

And I noticed that we run for a really long time, and we don't start to get hot or tired or thirsty.

Michelle

So I start having an awareness, right, that there's something different going on here.

Michelle

With each step and each breath that I took, there was only love.

Michelle

There was only the present moment.

Michelle

I wasn't worried about anything that had ever come before that moment, and I had no worries about anything that was ever going to come after that moment.

Michelle

It was literally the most present I have ever been.

Michelle

And as I was on the beach with her, I felt my son, who was six weeks old, and at the house with my mom calling to me.

Michelle

And so I energetically my soul, it went to him, and he was scared.

Michelle

Because he knew I was getting ready to leave.

Michelle

I remember saying to him, I'm not going to leave you.

Michelle

I will find a way to stay.

Michelle

And so I started praying, and I started saying, I need help.

Michelle

It's not my time.

Michelle

My kids still need me.

Michelle

And the next thing I know, I'm back in the operating room, and Jesus walks in.

Michelle

And Jesus comes in as my best friend.

Michelle

Not as, like, bow down to me.

Michelle

Confess your sins.

Michelle

Pray to me.

Michelle

No.

Michelle

Jesus came in as my best friend.

Michelle

I knew he was there to help me.

Michelle

The operating room lit up with this beautiful golden white light.

Michelle

And the next thing I knew, I was waking up in post op, and my 45 minutes procedure had turned into a three and a half hour emergency surgery because they had ruptured my uterus in multiple places and missed my artery by literally a millimeter.

Todd

Oh, my God.

Todd

That's insane.

Michelle

It is insane.

Michelle

And three days later, the surgeon came in and said, you shouldn't be here.

Michelle

And I knew I shouldn't be there.

Michelle

And at one point in time, once again, these are so vivid.

Michelle

They're more vivid than this conversation that you and I are having.

Michelle

I knew that I had been protected and that at some level, my soul had cried out for help, or a miracle, as we might call it, and it happened.

Todd

Do you feel now, in hindsight, that that was a part of your mission?

Todd

Because, I mean, you had mentioned that pit in your stomach leading up to that, and so if, let's say, you had trusted that intuitive, you know, message you were getting and not done the surgery, you know, would you have not had the near death experience?

Todd

I know.

Todd

Like, you don't know that.

Todd

But, I mean, now, in hindsight, does it feel like that was a part of your mission, to go through that?

Michelle

Well, you know, I like to say I think we can do things in life the easy way or the hard way.

Michelle

And for some reason, I was gonna do it the hard way, I guess.

Michelle

But I think the universe had been tapping me on my shoulder and wanting to get my attention for decades at that point in my life, from my grandparents who had passed to other messages, to my first near death experience.

Michelle

So I don't think I had to do it the hard way.

Michelle

I think had I turned and started listening to my calling, I could have probably avoided it.

Todd

And so then from.

Todd

You mentioned your first one was in 2000, your second was 2006, right?

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

And so there's, like, six years there were.

Todd

You.

Todd

Do you feel like you were getting messages that you were, like, kind of ignoring and keeping secret during the six years.

Michelle

Absolutely, absolutely.

Michelle

I lived, you know, my husband was not supportive of this and, you know, in his defense, he didn't marry a medium.

Michelle

When I was 23 and I got married, I didn't know I was a medium, you know, and so, so, yeah, there was a lot, just almost for peace and harmony that it was like, I just didn't talk about what I knew and I certainly would have never given someone a reading or a message.

Michelle

It just didn't feel safe for me at that point in time.

Todd

And so we.

Todd

Do you feel like you were getting messages that you wished you could give to people?

Todd

Anything you wish you could tell people?

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

Yes.

Michelle

There were certainly things that.

Michelle

That I had thought, oh, wouldn't it be nice if they know?

Michelle

Or if they could know, you know?

Michelle

But it was also at that point in my life, like I said, after this second near death experience, it took me four months to get back to 80%.

Michelle

My body was just destroyed, you know, after that point in time.

Michelle

And then I'm going into motherhood with three young kids not feeling well.

Michelle

So in that way, it made it easy for me to ignore it because you kinda to go, even if you're healthy and you have three kids that age are a little bit in survival mode, you know, and it was easy for me.

Michelle

Besides, also, it wasn't supported or even kind of condoned, so it was easy for me to shove it back into the closet again.

Todd

Gosh, yeah, easy, quote unquote.

Todd

I feel like it had to be emotional toll there, though, for sure.

Michelle

Yeah, absolutely.

Todd

Like a person who wants to share, like love and light and happiness and to keep that to yourself seems like a travesty, kind of, honestly.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

Yeah, I would agree.

Michelle

And that's probably why the marriage had end.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

And so then.

Todd

And so then you had a third one.

Todd

And this is kind of the catalyst to everything.

Michelle

Yep.

Michelle

This is the one where I literally.

Michelle

So on for people who like numbers.

Michelle

It's November 1, 2011.

Michelle

So eleven, 111.

Michelle

I was.

Michelle

I know, right.

Michelle

I was up on a ladder here in this house.

Michelle

It has 14 foot ceilings and about 12ft off the ground.

Michelle

I have battery operated candles.

Michelle

So I told my younger two kids that were home, they were five and eight at the time.

Michelle

My oldest was ten.

Michelle

And at school I said, after I put this candle back up, we're going to go get your sister.

Michelle

And I remember climbing up the ladder, I remember feeling it start to shift and I immediately thought, this is going to hurt.

Michelle

And the next thing I know, I was ripped out of my body, not in a painful way, but in a fast way, like bungee cord fast turned around, facing my body, and the ladder suspended in the air like a freeze frame in a movie.

Michelle

And I was standing with these three people.

Michelle

I didn't know them, but they felt like lifelong friends, family.

Michelle

I felt like I'd known them forever.

Michelle

It was an asian man, an egyptian woman, and a hawaiian man.

Michelle

And as I was standing there with them, they said to me, they said, what do you want to do?

Michelle

Do you want to stay, or do you want to go?

Michelle

And I was trying to understand how I had forever to decide what I wanted to do when I knew my body was going to hit the floor in a second and it just wasn't making sense to me.

Michelle

But I was in that timeless space.

Michelle

I was feeling that bliss.

Michelle

As I looked at my body in the ladder, I saw this angel come in, a different angel than my first near death experience.

Michelle

And this angel was dressed in red and gold.

Michelle

And the moment that I saw this angel, I knew it was here to either take me home or shift something so that I could stay.

Michelle

And then I saw my younger two kids in the kitchen.

Michelle

And when I noticed them, and when I really saw them and got pulled into them, I really understood that I needed to stay.

Michelle

But as I made that decision, I was then told, okay, but you need to go back, and you need to do your mediumship, and you need to help people in the way that you can help them.

Michelle

I mean, there were, like, conditions now for me to agree to.

Michelle

To come back.

Michelle

They told me that my marriage would most likely end in divorce and that there would be more trauma ahead.

Michelle

So I remember standing in this amazing, peaceful, loving realm getting told, like, yeah, you can go back.

Michelle

But it were there.

Michelle

There were.

Michelle

They weren't kidding.

Michelle

They weren't saying, it's gonna be rainbows and unicorns, and everything is gonna be perfect.

Michelle

They said, it's gonna be hard, and this is kind of what it's gonna look like.

Michelle

And I still remember being there and saying, okay, send me back and coming back in.

Michelle

So what happened was, I ended up falling off the ladder.

Michelle

I hit the back of my head on the corner of my granite island.

Michelle

So I had a five and a half inch.

Michelle

I had a brain bleed.

Michelle

I lost my equilibrium, my taste, my smell, and part of my hearing.

Michelle

But what happened was I literally survived the fall by half an inch because I missed my brainstem by half an inch.

Michelle

And that was how much the angel had moved my head to make the difference of me going home or staying that time.

Todd

Oh, my God.

Todd

And so you said your kids are in the kitchen and now they discovered you.

Michelle

They're the ones who they actually watched happen.

Michelle

They actually watched, man.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

My five year old said to me, I know why your head got hurt so bad, because it bounced like a basketball when you hit the floor.

Michelle

I mean, like vividly by it, you know?

Michelle

And so, so what happens is I end up getting to the hospital.

Michelle

I'm in ICU, I've got the brain bleed.

Michelle

Luckily, it stopped on its own so I didn't have to have surgery.

Michelle

I have a lot of trauma, literally traumatic brain injury.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

I get home from the hospital, so we're probably like ten days later, I'm at the house still having so many physical complications.

Michelle

So now we're in November, we get through Christmas, and then January comes and my son, who was five years old, he was really starting to get depressed because he said, we thought he had tried to call 911 and it hadn't gone through.

Michelle

But my daughter Sophie's call had gone through.

Michelle

And he starts saying, I didn't need to be there to help you.

Michelle

I didn't do anything.

Michelle

And we would say, well, Josh, you opened the door for the policeman like you did help.

Michelle

And he'd say, no, my call didn't go through.

Michelle

So the end of January 2012, my grandfather, who had passed away when I was twelve years old, came through to me in this significant visit.

Michelle

And he started talking to me about my accident and he started talking to me about my son.

Michelle

They've never walked this earth at the same time.

Michelle

And he said to me, he was talking about him being good with electronics.

Michelle

And then he said, you need to get the 911 recording.

Michelle

There's something on there you should know.

Michelle

And I was just like, I didn't even know I could get the 911 recording.

Michelle

So I went down and I ordered it.

Michelle

It took a couple weeks to come in.

Michelle

I started playing it and I heard them say, 911, what's your recording?

Michelle

And in his little broken voice, my son said, sophie, what do I say?

Michelle

And he laid the phone down.

Michelle

So for the next minute and a half, you can hear the 911 operators trying to get their attention.

Michelle

You can hear the kids talking in the background.

Michelle

My son tells my daughter, I'm going to push the house alarm panic button.

Michelle

She says, hold on, let me try calling 911.

Michelle

She hangs up the phone and she calls.

Michelle

And then there's a second call with her that went through.

Michelle

So they both ended up now had my grandfather, when you talk about life changing, right?

Michelle

That was life changing because my son was five.

Michelle

He was depressed.

Michelle

He felt like he hadn't helped me.

Michelle

I had no information on how I could help him.

Michelle

My grandfather from the other side came through and gave me life changing information for him.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

Oh, my gosh.

Todd

He said he was five.

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

Yeah, that's.

Todd

That's a seminal moment right there.

Todd

Like, that's a.

Todd

You know, a powerless.

Todd

I tried and failed.

Michelle

Oh, he was.

Michelle

And we would say, you open the door.

Michelle

Like everyone.

Michelle

We're trying so hard to lift him up.

Michelle

But literally, when he came home from kindergarten that day and I said, josh, I said, your call went through.

Michelle

Help was coming.

Michelle

It was like I lifted this 10,000 pound weight off this five year old little boy, which I had no idea how to do that without the help of my grandfather.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

Oh, my gosh.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

I don't know.

Todd

I don't know what would have.

Todd

Yeah, I mean, that would have been quite a bit of processing and, you know, maybe therapy later in life, you know?

Todd

And, man, my son, I have a nine year old, and he would never.

Todd

I don't think he'd ever forgive himself really fully, you know, with a.

Todd

You know, if that similar situation had happened to him.

Todd

That's.

Todd

That's astonishing, honestly.

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

And so.

Todd

And so now you.

Todd

Do you go to this timeless, bliss kind of spiritual place ever now again, or is that only kind of a near death experience type place?

Michelle

So think of it a little bit like the ocean.

Michelle

I don't get as deep as I did that time because I got really deep in those near death experiences.

Michelle

But with my work, I get to, you know, snorkel or scuba dive a little bit, but I don't go into the level of the depth that I really got to experience in those near death experiences.

Todd

That's.

Todd

That's a great metaphor.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

It's almost like the training.

Todd

Training yourself for that.

Todd

And that's.

Todd

And that's what's so cool about it to me, too, is because I've.

Todd

I mean, I'm more, you know, analytical and scientific, if you will.

Todd

And.

Todd

And so it's like there's a.

Todd

I don't know if you heard of Rudolph Steiner.

Todd

There's a lot of his work, and he talks about developing your spiritual senses and, you know, things like that.

Todd

And so that, to me, is, like, astonishing that you would kind of get thrust into a situation where your spiritual senses have been developed, whether you like it or not.

Michelle

Well, we know that about 80% of people who have near death experiences come back with heightened ESP, psychic abilities.

Michelle

Mediumship.

Michelle

It's just.

Michelle

It's almost like you can't be that close and touch it and not come back a changed person.

Michelle

We also know 80% of them, their marriages and in divorce, because you do come back a change person.

Michelle

And so there's a lot that goes along with this.

Michelle

And I would say most people.

Michelle

Some people come back depressed because they wanted to stay, and they were told they couldn't, and they have that.

Michelle

So we have.

Michelle

It is a beautiful opportunity.

Michelle

It also comes with some complications.

Todd

Yeah, that's.

Todd

I guess that's a perfect segue, because I am curious.

Todd

We talked about this before we started recording.

Todd

I'm curious about the idea of suicide.

Todd

And, you know, we just recently had a thing in Gilbert here, which I don't know if you are familiar with, but there was a gentleman, homeless man, apparently, who shot himself and killed himself inside of a Starbucks, right.

Todd

At 202 in Santa Ana village.

Todd

And so it's just, like, incredibly sad, you know?

Todd

And so when you.

Todd

We talk about, you know, the spiritual world, you know, people being happy when they move on, obviously something that people want to hear.

Todd

How do we kind of differentiate the fact that, like, you know, dying would be a better than living?

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

Okay, so suicide, I've had that in my life.

Michelle

A year ago, my life partner transitioned by suicide.

Michelle

So I'm very much aware of that from a personal level.

Michelle

And I had worked with clients who've had loved ones transition by that for years before that actually touched my life in that way.

Michelle

And so what I can tell you is that as far as spirit world goes, no matter how you come home, you're going to be loved and welcomed home.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

And I've never had anyone come through in a reading that was actually in their right mind and in who they are when they transition by suicide.

Michelle

What spirit world has told me is that anytime there is an opening in the soul, to get help, to have somebody open the door and smile at you, to have a kind word to receive the text, anytime there is an opening, the whole universe is working to keep you here, because they know that your soul came here with a mission, with a plan and lessons that you wanted to learn.

Michelle

So it's not that.

Michelle

It is.

Michelle

It's not the easy way out, because we've chosen issues and things we want to learn while we're here in our human life, and we still have to come back.

Michelle

We get to repeat the course at a later time.

Michelle

So it's not that the slate isn't.

Michelle

Is just complete.

Michelle

Check the box.

Michelle

You completed it.

Michelle

You did not complete it.

Michelle

But at the same time, you do get welcomed and loved into that heavenly realm with compassion and light.

Michelle

It's kind of like dropping out of high school.

Michelle

You still get to go to graduation, you still get to go to your friend's party, but you don't get the diploma, right?

Todd

Yeah, I see what you're saying.

Todd

That makes a lot of sense.

Todd

And so how has your, you've.

Todd

I'm assuming you've talked to your loved one who passed away then?

Todd

And how has potentially that conversation shifted your place of acceptance or understanding, or did you already have an acceptance and understanding of that as it was happening?

Michelle

I already knew, because I had worked as a medium for quite a few years, that if somebody transitioned that way, that they were going to be met with love and light and compassion.

Michelle

What I wasn't prepared for was actually finding out.

Michelle

I found out from him that he had transitioned, so I knew he had had depression, and there had been some periods in time where he would just turn off his phone and his computer for a couple days and sleep through it, and then kind of re emerged.

Michelle

And I had been reaching out to him, and he wasn't responding.

Michelle

I drove by his house.

Michelle

His car was parked out there.

Michelle

His older daughter was living with him.

Michelle

She didn't want to meet me, so I didn't want to knock on the door.

Michelle

But I saw his car in her car, and I said, okay, he must be okay.

Michelle

He's having one of those moments.

Michelle

And we had a party we were supposed to go to.

Michelle

He didn't go, which I wasn't surprised, because I figured he was in one of those time periods.

Michelle

But at the end of the night, when I came home, I was in my bathroom getting ready for bed, and I actually felt him come in behind me.

Michelle

I heard him say to me, you sure are beautiful, because he would always tell me that.

Michelle

And I just felt my body starting to give out, because I knew this was mediumship, and I had not been told he had transitioned at that point in time.

Michelle

I was able to make it to my bed, where I just collapsed, and I felt him lay down behind me.

Michelle

He put his arm over me, and he said, I wanted to be the one to tell you.

Michelle

And so that was how I actually found out that he had transitioned.

Michelle

By suicide.

Todd

Man.

Todd

Wow, that's deep.

Todd

That's deep.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

I couldn't imagine finding out in that way.

Todd

Thanks.

Todd

So this type of experience you're describing sounds to me, and I don't mean to.

Todd

I don't know.

Todd

This is the best terminology to use, but like a ghost.

Todd

So someone that's able to kind of, like, communicate with you and, you know, you can correct me, obviously, in a second, but I'm curious, like, is there a existence that someone has when they move on that is in that state for a while that then no longer exists in that state and kind of, like, moves on and is no longer visiting you anymore?

Todd

Or is it always available to visit?

Michelle

Yeah, so it's always available to visit.

Michelle

I wouldn't use the term ghost because to me, ghosts haven't stepped into the light yet.

Michelle

They're in between.

Michelle

They're in between earth realm and heaven realm, whereas his energy was already in the light, just like the communication from loved ones in spirit that I do during mediumship.

Michelle

So ghost doesn't accurately describe it the way that I know it.

Michelle

His spirit was already in the light and love, and he was coming back to share with me that information.

Todd

And why might someone be stuck between earth and the heavenly realm?

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

So it's really going to have to do with our human thought process and our human mindset.

Michelle

So sometimes people who are very religious get stuck because they feel like they didn't live a good enough life.

Michelle

They're going to be judged.

Michelle

They're going to get damned to hell or, you know, energy around that other times.

Michelle

Sometimes if somebody transitions, and I want to say this, it's rare to be in ghost form.

Michelle

Most people go right into the light.

Michelle

You got to think about all the people who love you, your angels, and your life, guides that are waiting right there to welcome you home.

Michelle

You know what I mean?

Michelle

And to help guide you home.

Michelle

So it's not common that that ghost type energy is very uncommon.

Michelle

But what I would say is, usually we get stuck because of fear, or people will get stuck because maybe they transition so quickly and so unexpectedly that it was almost a little disoriented orienting.

Todd

To them, and then it just kind of takes them a while.

Todd

I mean, they still have spiritual guides, right?

Todd

So, I mean, they're still going to, like, kind of get pulled out of that place at some point.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

They still have guides, loved ones, and spirit angels that are always holding the light in this space to welcome them home.

Michelle

They also still have free will, though they can choose to not walk into the light if they don't want to.

Michelle

So although they're getting coaxed and ushered and.

Michelle

And all of that, they still have some free will there.

Todd

Makes sense.

Todd

And so there's this notion that we choose our lives in the spiritual world.

Todd

Can you illuminate that a little bit.

Michelle

Yeah, absolutely.

Michelle

I actually have a pre recorded course on my website about this.

Michelle

It's about the soul plan and the soul agreement.

Michelle

So what happens is, before we come to planet Earth, we actually sit down and we choose who we want to be on our team.

Michelle

I want you to think about this as like a video game, right?

Michelle

We sit down and we say, I want to take this mission.

Michelle

I'm going to choose you as my mom, you as my brother, and we start picking out who's going in.

Michelle

We have conversations with our life guides.

Michelle

We choose who we want our life guide to be, and we pick our guardian angel.

Michelle

So we are coming in knowing on a soul level that we are wanting these missions, we are wanting these lessons.

Michelle

These are some of the experiences that we want.

Michelle

This would be the blueprint of our life.

Michelle

Now, my understanding from spirit is it's about 60% to 70% complete, and then you have 30% to 40% free will once you get here.

Michelle

So you're not ever forced to be here on a soul level.

Michelle

No one is accidentally on planet Earth.

Michelle

Even if you tell me my mom was 15 when she got pregnant with me, I'm an accident, the answer is, no, you're not.

Michelle

That's just how your soul throws to come to planet Earth.

Michelle

This time, there's no one here by accident.

Michelle

So.

Michelle

So we do have a planning, and we do have an understanding.

Michelle

I like to compare this to my third near death experience when I'm standing with my life guides.

Michelle

And they said, okay, but if you go back, your marriage is going to end in divorce, and you have more trauma coming.

Michelle

And they were trying to give me an education on what was coming, and I remember being like, okay, yeah, it'll be fine.

Michelle

Send me in.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

You know, and they were really trying to have this conversation with me.

Michelle

So there is conversation.

Michelle

There is discussion.

Michelle

There is preparedness.

Michelle

They will tell you, like, hey, this is, like, too aggressive of a plan.

Michelle

We need to scale this back, save some for the next lifetime, you know?

Michelle

But we really do come in with a blueprint for our lives and ideas.

Michelle

And people say, why would I have chosen, you know, whoever in my life?

Michelle

They've been horrible to me.

Michelle

You chose them because on a soul level, you two are actually really good friends.

Michelle

And they said, okay, I'm going to play this really hard part with you so that you can learn whatever the blank is.

Michelle

Fill in the blank.

Michelle

You can learn self love.

Michelle

You can learn your worth.

Michelle

You can learn whatever to overcome your fears, and so on a soul level, you and that person are actually always only in a place of love, but that's why they would choose to play a role in your life that would be really challenging.

Todd

And is that something that you intuitively pick up on that you're able to help people with?

Todd

Because that larger perspective of getting, like, okay, you know, why would my child come into this world and die at age eight with cancer?

Todd

You know what I mean?

Todd

Obviously, there's a lot of things that are really hard for these parents to deal with.

Todd

And I know, like I said before, that we started recording the fact that you're in front of these people, having real live conversations, helping them to see this larger perspective of how it's all okay.

Todd

And they chose this in some way.

Todd

And so, I guess, what is the larger perspective to be able to share with some people in those cases?

Michelle

Yeah, that is always the most challenging group for me, because even I will just tell you, as a parent, as a mom, I'm like, really?

Michelle

How is this okay?

Michelle

I don't think this is okay.

Michelle

I don't.

Michelle

But when I go up to the soul level and even with my life partner transition on the human level, I don't find the peace in it.

Michelle

On the soul level, I find the peace in it.

Michelle

So I want to speak to that because I can put words on that, but it's similar to how it is with everyone.

Michelle

Okay.

Michelle

So as I had to do this deep dive as to why did this happen, how could this happen?

Michelle

What I actually found out was that he stayed longer on this planet to have the opportunity to love me and for me to be able to feel that kind of love, I had never felt that kind of love in my 25 year marriage.

Michelle

And so what happened was that even though it would be in the human story, a tragic ending cut way too soon, there was a gift on a soul level that I received from him, which was a kind of love that I didn't even know existed.

Michelle

And so because of that, my soul would agree to go through this to fill that type of love.

Todd

Wow.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

Jeez.

Michelle

And so, with parents, it's different depending on.

Michelle

We don't know.

Michelle

Like, I really got to be with someone in a reading to look at the soul plan, because they're all different.

Michelle

And I know that we all have about five exit points in this life.

Michelle

So, you know, sometimes people take the first one, the middle one, the last one.

Michelle

I mean, it just.

Michelle

It depends on what's going on with your soul and the situation and which one ends up being the best one for you?

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

So I'm very curious about this thing because I've talked with Farrah about this as well.

Todd

You know, another medium that we both know, and she mentions that everyone who has ever existed still exists, basically.

Todd

And so I had this kind of distinction in my head that I was very curious about how someone's soul could exist and continue going into new personalities or bodies, if you will, but also their, like, personality.

Todd

From that, life exists separately.

Todd

Is that.

Todd

Is that, like, correct?

Michelle

Yes.

Michelle

And actually, I'm so happy you asked me that, because this is one of my very favorite questions to answer, and I love to always use this picture behind me.

Michelle

This.

Michelle

Well, you can't tell, but this actually reminds me of the light in heaven.

Michelle

It's got sparkles on it, silver and gold.

Michelle

I want you to think of this picture as your soul.

Michelle

And I want you to know that what happens is every time we decide to come back into planet Earth, our soul creates another ray of light, just like this does behind me.

Michelle

So the version of you that is existing today will exist throughout all of time and all of eternity.

Michelle

And when your soul chooses to come back in, you create a new ray of light.

Todd

Wow.

Todd

That's a really cool metaphor to think about.

Todd

They would all exist at that central point, so.

Michelle

Yes.

Todd

Wow.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

That's crazy.

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

Geez.

Todd

So I'm kind of curious about anyone who might think again.

Todd

I know you said you don't really care if people believe or not, so I'm going to kind of shift a little bit.

Todd

But I'm curious about people that might think it's scary, people that might think that, you know, what we're communicating with is not, you know, not okay.

Todd

Like, religious people, I think, would be a big, you know, big one here.

Todd

But how you might deal with anybody who's kind of scared of.

Todd

Of communicating with.

Todd

With the dead, you know?

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

Well, I mean, first of all, they're not dead.

Michelle

There's no such thing as death.

Michelle

There's just life and life and life and life, you know?

Michelle

But here's the thing.

Michelle

Everyone is allowed to.

Michelle

I just want to tell you, I value everyone's belief system.

Michelle

They're allowed to think whatever they want to think.

Michelle

They're allowed to feel that way.

Michelle

It's okay.

Michelle

I don't know their soul's plan.

Michelle

I don't know why they're choosing that belief system for this lifetime and what they want to learn from it.

Michelle

So it's never a challenge for me.

Michelle

What I will tell you, when I work, my angels are there.

Michelle

I work with Jesus, I have an intention that everything that comes through is enlightened love and for this person's highest good.

Michelle

So for me, it's never scary, because I know I'm going in with my team.

Michelle

I know that they're filtering the information.

Michelle

I think what it is is really people who are more like, their mindset is kind of stuck.

Michelle

And so here's the thing.

Michelle

Whether or not you want to connect with your loved ones in spirit, they're still connected to you, they're still loving on you, and they're still in a relationship with you.

Michelle

What you choose to do with that on this human side of it is very individual.

Michelle

So, you know, I don't find it scary, obviously, because I do this all day.

Michelle

But what I will tell you is it's not natural.

Michelle

Because it's not natural on a soul level.

Michelle

Our soul knows that we are connected to these experiences and these people, these souls, forever, literally all of eternity, and we are born.

Michelle

Every single one of us has the ability to be a psychic, a medium, and have these communications.

Michelle

It's like our natural gift of communication.

Michelle

So the idea that it's scary to me is a man made idea that was used to control people from making their own connections.

Todd

Yeah, I love that.

Todd

And so what would you do?

Todd

Have any advice on developing their abilities outside of almost dying?

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

Yes, I do.

Michelle

You know, we have different mediums that teach different courses.

Michelle

Right now I'm teaching a life guide course on how to connect with your life guide.

Michelle

So, you know, find some mediums that you like.

Michelle

Start following them.

Michelle

See if they have courses.

Michelle

I would say we, everyone does have disability.

Michelle

If you're.

Michelle

If you're scared of your connection to your loved ones still, in a way, it's almost like you're scared of yourself because they are still a part of you, and you're still part of them, even though they're not connected to their body anymore.

Todd

Yeah, that makes sense.

Todd

So we talked about creating new rays on the sunshine.

Todd

You being the sunshine, your soul in the middle creating new rays.

Todd

At what point, I guess, in this, you know, world that you have glimpsed would be what was.

Todd

What's the purpose?

Todd

What's the.

Todd

When do we finish?

Michelle

Yeah, I know.

Todd

Maybe.

Todd

Maybe finish is not the right word, but.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

Well, here's what I would say.

Michelle

It's always about the souls evolution and the soul's journey.

Michelle

So think about your favorite vacation spot, wherever that is.

Michelle

Right after being there for about 200 years or 300 years, you're probably gonna be like, is there a new beach?

Michelle

Is there a new restaurant?

Michelle

Can we do something different tonight?

Michelle

Right?

Michelle

And that's kind of this heavenly realm.

Michelle

It's perfect.

Michelle

It's amazing.

Michelle

But we.

Michelle

It doesn't have the contrast that planet Earth has.

Michelle

So we can't learn there the same way we learn here.

Michelle

It's like taking driver's ed, sitting in a simulator versus getting in a car and driving it on the freeway.

Michelle

Those are two very different things.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

And so what happens is we choose to, hey, I want to go drive the car.

Michelle

I want to have this experience of accelerating and right turns and left turns and whatever that's going to be.

Michelle

So after we've been there for a while, knowing that we are eternal beings and that this lifetime here on Earth, if you live to be 100, you're just here for the blink of an eye, we're going to say, hey, I want to go have that experience.

Michelle

It's a journey.

Michelle

It's fun, it's a lesson.

Michelle

And that's really why our souls choose to come here.

Todd

And so do people, I guess, ascend and become angels or.

Todd

How does that work?

Michelle

Yeah, I mean, our souls are always wanting to grow and evolve, right?

Michelle

So there are masters.

Michelle

There's Buddha, there's Jesus.

Michelle

I mean, on and on and on, right?

Michelle

There are souls that have had incarnations billions of times.

Michelle

So obviously they've learned more than our current.

Michelle

Than a soul that's only come in a few thousand times.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

So.

Michelle

But I don't know that there is.

Michelle

I think we're being human when we say, like, oh, I'm gonna be a master, I'm gonna be like, I think that's a human way of looking at it.

Michelle

I think a sole way of looking at it is expansiveness.

Michelle

I want to expand to be the whole universe, you know what I mean?

Michelle

But not out of a place of.

Michelle

So that you'll look at me and call me a master, but more of, like, the experience of it, so that I actually know and feel and can understand everything that there is to know and feel and understand.

Todd

So that'd be kind of almost like a moving on type experience, then would be like, expanding so much.

Todd

So to the point of being interconnected with everything, maybe.

Todd

Yeah, I can see that.

Todd

And so, will you share any more stories that you can regarding helping people?

Todd

Because this, to me, is just mind blowing.

Todd

Like, I'm gonna real quick give a side note, you know, for anybody who doesn't.

Todd

No, you know, these readings are really cool.

Todd

I just watched one, you know, over the past couple days of researching, you and watching, watching Michelle be on a call with, like, 20 different people, all grieving parents, you can see the real.

Todd

The real sad energy, you know, and her to just kind of go on, you know, this.

Todd

This run of.

Todd

Of connecting with each person, you know, and maybe not each person, but a lot of different people, and helping them to understand, you know, or just give little tips and hints and feelings and suggestions and things that might guide them in a direction towards healing.

Todd

And so, yeah, you've got to have a plethora of stories of helping people with this stuff, and it's.

Todd

I just would love to hear a few more.

Michelle

Yeah, absolutely.

Michelle

So, one of the most touching ones that really, when I'm in a reading, I don't usually get choked up.

Michelle

My job is to stay a clear channel so that I can get the best information through.

Michelle

But this was a couple years ago, and I was at someone's house.

Michelle

They had about 20 people there, and I was doing a group reading.

Michelle

And I get to this one lady, and she was an ICU nurse.

Michelle

I didn't know her.

Michelle

Her baby had transitioned at two days old, and so what happened was the baby came through, and obviously she was grieving.

Michelle

She had to make the decision to pull the life support.

Michelle

She was an ICU nurse.

Michelle

She felt like she should have been able to save this baby, make a different decision.

Michelle

And the baby came in from such a beautiful space and said, you're looking at this all wrong.

Michelle

I grew for two.

Michelle

For nine months just to have two days with you on planet Earth.

Michelle

And it changed everything, because it tells us that that baby knew it wasn't coming to live a hundred years, but it did.

Michelle

Nine months of growth and being here just to be with her for those two days.

Michelle

And when we see a story like that, it doesn't take away the grief, but it shifts the perspective.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

And so do you think that your.

Todd

The way you live your daily life has had a big, dramatic change from viewing the spiritual world and having these belief systems?

Michelle

Absolutely.

Michelle

I'm really not that.

Michelle

I don't buy into my human story.

Michelle

I do.

Michelle

I'm a mom.

Michelle

I'm, you know, like, I've got to get groceries.

Michelle

What?

Michelle

The dog's sick, whatever.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

Like, I do buy into my human stories, but the beauty of what I get to do is I, as I now regularly, can take it up to the soul level and say, why is that situation happening?

Michelle

If somebody is having a physical illness, they can say, what is the energy behind it?

Michelle

It's not random.

Michelle

There's an emotion.

Michelle

Why did they get pancreatic cancer.

Michelle

What are they so resentful about that they've never talked about?

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

So I can see the bigger picture, which actually makes navigating this life easier, because I can elevate to that frequency.

Michelle

And like I said, very often in the human form, even with my life partner's transition, I didn't ever find the peace I wanted in the fact that he transitioned by suicide.

Michelle

I don't know that that's something that human Michelle will ever be, like, peaceful with.

Michelle

But when I take it to the soul level, I can see the peace, I can see the beauty in it, and I can see that he and I are connected for eternity.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

I love the idea of kind of being forced to house both, you know, like, you have to hold.

Todd

You have to hold the pain of that a little bit.

Todd

It's part of your human mission, if you will.

Todd

But you can also kind of.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

Take it to the soul level and find a place of acceptance and kind of continue to get through each day, you know?

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

Regardless of the pain, for sure.

Michelle

I have not found a way to bypass the human grief.

Michelle

If I had, I would.

Michelle

But even with the gifts and the knowledge that I have, it's.

Michelle

You can't bypass grief.

Michelle

There's only one way through it, and that's through it.

Todd

And that's a powerful.

Todd

That's a powerful message, because I think a lot of people are looking for, you know, obviously, the quick fix and looking for the solution, looking to let go entirely.

Todd

And I don't really think that's how it works either.

Todd

You know, it's more of an integration, and if anything, you know, then shedding away, you know, emotions, you know?

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

And it doesn't mean that you can't live a full life and that you can't be happy again, you know, our loved ones in spirit.

Michelle

One of the things I can't tell you, how many clients come to me and feel like they.

Michelle

They shouldn't laugh, that they feel guilty when they're happy, that they're, you know, because their loved one passed prematurely or isn't here to experience it without, you know.

Michelle

And it's interesting to me, because their loved ones are like, are you kidding me?

Michelle

I haven't stopped living.

Michelle

I'm laughing.

Michelle

I'm doing what I want to do.

Michelle

You need to go live and laugh and do what you want to do.

Michelle

So just giving yourself permission that, yes, your loved one is spirit, but they're not sitting alone on a park bench waiting for you for the next 50 years.

Michelle

They are living, evolving, loving, laughing.

Michelle

And they want us to do the same thing while we're here.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

And that's why I think there should.

Todd

There should almost be a narrative shift because you don't even use the word death.

Todd

I've noticed you use the word transition, which is great, great.

Todd

You know what I mean?

Todd

And so there's this whole narrative shift around the fact that, like, it's not actually, you know, that bad of a thing.

Todd

It's actually.

Todd

It's actually okay.

Todd

And so, you know, not letting it get so heavy, if you will, I think is a big thing.

Michelle

Yeah, exactly.

Michelle

I think it's just what, one of the things I love to share with people is that the relationship and the communication has continued on.

Michelle

It's different.

Michelle

They're not in their body anymore, and I'm with you.

Michelle

I want them in their body.

Michelle

Like, I miss them being in their body, but it actually hasn't ended our relationship, our connection or communication.

Michelle

It's going to look different.

Michelle

We've got to learn to speak a new language.

Michelle

We've got to learn our signs.

Michelle

We've got to learn that when we feel them in the room, it's because they're really right here in the room, but they haven't been severed out of our life until we get to that heavenly realm.

Todd

And so what do you think that they.

Todd

I guess this is a tough question, but what do you think that they would want for us?

Todd

I like to think about my answer.

Todd

So this is where potential comes in.

Todd

So I'll just give a caveat real quick.

Todd

Sometimes I used to do this really big, long trail runs or, you know, you just take on a big, huge pile of work.

Todd

And I always like to think to myself, is something that empowers me, is that my ancestors, anybody who is no longer here, wants me to succeed, wants me to finish, wants me to reach my potential because they no longer have the chance to necessarily, like, they had their chance on earth, you know, now it's my here, it's my turn, and I should take full advantage of it.

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

You know, and so I'm always curious, like, what is the larger purpose?

Todd

What is the, you know, if there's any signs of.

Todd

Of what the larger purpose is, what they would want for us.

Todd

Is it happy?

Todd

I know.

Todd

Unconditional love.

Todd

It could be on that list.

Todd

Or happiness or.

Todd

Yeah, what is it?

Michelle

It's absolutely what you're feeling.

Michelle

They want us to live every moment while we're here, and they want us to live it and be in it and be present.

Michelle

And, yes, chase your dreams, chase your goals, you know, and when you're sad, feel it, because that's part of your human experience, too.

Michelle

But they are rooting us on from the other side to fulfill our missions, to learn our lessons, to be present.

Michelle

Hey, this lifetime, even if you're here a hundred years, it's fast.

Michelle

It is fast, and you don't want to miss it.

Michelle

You know, I might come back again in the future, but I'm not coming back.

Michelle

As Michelle, at this point in time, in this lifetime, it will be a different storyline.

Michelle

And so, truly, whether you believe in past lives or not, you really literally are only living this lifetime once.

Michelle

So you've got to make the most of it.

Todd

Absolutely.

Todd

And so life coach is also on your list of skills.

Todd

And so I'm curious if you have any thoughts on why people would note be reaching their potential, what might be standing in their way that you're, you're seeing come up?

Michelle

Yeah, it's.

Michelle

It's the number one human problem for everyone with everything, if false stories that we believe are true.

Michelle

So when you're not living up to your potential or even when, when people are transitioning, and I'll speak for my situation.

Michelle

When he transitioned by suicide, he was believing a story that wasn't real.

Michelle

Whatever that story was, that was speaking to him that day.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

And if I'm not going to believe and, and my potential, it's because I'm telling myself a story.

Michelle

I'm not worthy, I'm not lovable.

Michelle

I'm whatever.

Michelle

We have different stories that we like to buy into.

Michelle

The kid in third grade told me I was dumb, so I must be dumb.

Michelle

It could be a trauma, or it could be just a story someone has told you that you've bought into, but that's what limits our potential.

Michelle

It truly is the story we're telling ourselves.

Todd

I love that.

Todd

That's 100% what I agree and what I've seen talked about in several of my podcasts as well.

Todd

So that was perfect answer.

Todd

And so then I'm curious, you know, on your list, as well as intuitive healing.

Todd

So this is something that's very intriguing to me.

Todd

So then those stories would then be tied to some sort of energy, which would then potentially be tied to a physical illness.

Todd

Is that something that you are able to feel or see or how, is that something that you have a relationship with?

Todd

With?

Michelle

Yeah, absolutely.

Michelle

So all of the above.

Michelle

So what I have found is that as people manifest physical illnesses, it's not that they're not real.

Michelle

It's not that there's not something physical going on, and you don't, and you need to go to a doctor.

Michelle

Absolutely do all of those things.

Michelle

But what preceded the physical illness is an emotional thought idea, pain, trauma that was never dealt with.

Michelle

And so it started causing resentment or anger or wounding or whatever that is, is we have an energy body that surrounds our physical human body.

Michelle

And as that carries that wound for decades, or however long it's been, because you've decided not to talk about it, not to address it, try to forget about it, it starts to create a physical ailment.

Michelle

So, yes, we start having true physical issues that we need medication or whatever for, but underneath the physical is the emotional, mental, or spiritual issue that actually needs to be addressed for the true healing to occur.

Todd

And, I mean, there's probably different ways that you would go about addressing that, but what would be some kind of ways that you might help someone to gain awareness of that or let go of that?

Michelle

Yeah, so I do do healing sessions, and I do do, like, readings in that way for people.

Michelle

And really what that is, that's me tapping in with their soul, their soul team, finding kind of the issue, what is the trauma here?

Michelle

What are we looking at?

Michelle

And then start working with the healing energy.

Michelle

So I'm a channel for healing energy.

Michelle

So it'll just flow through me.

Michelle

I don't have to be in person.

Michelle

A lot of these I do over zoom, and we start doing the energy work on it.

Michelle

Now, sometimes people need medical intervention, too, because it's gotten to that point.

Michelle

The goal is to heal the emotional or mental side of it before it becomes a physical ailment.

Todd

Yeah, yeah.

Todd

That's got to be.

Todd

That's got to be tough.

Todd

I mean, so you're kind of getting a feel for this from.

Todd

From people, from their energy, like you said.

Michelle

Yeah, well, and here's the thing.

Michelle

The single most important thing we have to pay attention to is the story we're telling ourselves, because that is what creates the emotion, that creates the illness, that creates the limitation, that creates the lack of self worth.

Michelle

What story are you telling yourself?

Michelle

That is the bottom line of so many things right now on a soul level, when we choose a body.

Michelle

My mom transitioned from breast cancer, so I knew I was choosing a body that had a higher chance of breast cancer.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

Genetically, I knew.

Michelle

I mean, there are things I knew as my soul chose to come in, but we really do work in the body mind spirit category.

Michelle

And so for me coming in, I could say, okay, I might have a higher genetic disposition to this.

Michelle

But I still have my mind and my spirit.

Michelle

I can choose my thoughts.

Michelle

I can eat healthy.

Michelle

I can exercise.

Michelle

I can.

Michelle

You know, I mean, there are ways to bypass that.

Michelle

It was never etched in stone.

Michelle

It was just a possibility that was more likely for me.

Todd

Yeah, yeah, I love that.

Todd

And that's even kind of ties into, like, some of the genetic stuff where it's like, you know, genetics loads the gun, environments pulls the trigger, you know?

Todd

So it's like you come into this world with certain things that you've got that you're experiencing, but ultimately they don't have to really manifest depending on how you kind of go about living your life, the environment you create within yourself.

Michelle

Yeah.

Todd

So then that brings us to the question of past life wounds that we might bring in with us.

Todd

So I'm very interested in hypnosis and, like, past life regressions and things like that.

Todd

I don't know what sort of connection you might have to any of that stuff, but I'm curious if we do ever bring in, like, a past life fear of water because we drowned in a past life type of thing.

Todd

You know, like, anything like that.

Michelle

Yes.

Michelle

That's not uncommon to have something like that where you bring in something that you didn't have time to complete, or now you're afraid of it because on some level you remember passing that way, even though it might not be a conscious memory.

Michelle

Here's what I want to say, though.

Michelle

Our soul is always whole, so our soul is never broken.

Michelle

There's not a, you know, I hear people talk about your soul's been fragmented.

Michelle

And I'm like, what?

Michelle

What do you mean by that?

Michelle

Your soul is.

Michelle

Your soul is this sunlight behind me, this starburst?

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

It's always whole.

Michelle

There might be a little place where we can fine tune it better and make it, you know, like, dust it off, but it's not broken.

Michelle

So, yes, you could carry a fear in here of water or drowning because you drowned in a more recent life.

Michelle

But then it's your job, and you're knowing to say, like, okay, now I've got to work on that.

Michelle

Now I've got to put some energy to that, some understanding to that, so that I'm not carrying that in this lifetime.

Todd

Yeah, that's huge.

Todd

So I'm very curious about the spiritual world and this place of.

Todd

So I don't know if you're familiar with Michael Newton's work, and there's a guy who life between lives hypnosis and would take people to the spiritual world and they all would describe these incredibly similar experiences of, like, being pulled in through a tunnel.

Todd

But here's the thing, is that you mentioned as well, which was this, like, overwhelming feeling of belonging and acceptance and love.

Todd

And so, like, it's just such a curious thing to me.

Todd

Like, where.

Todd

Where are we going?

Todd

Where there's this place of overwhelming acceptance and love and belonging.

Todd

Like, I don't fully understand that.

Todd

Like, I know it's like a spiritual world that exists here, potentially overlaid over a realistic world.

Todd

And so I'm just kind of curious on your thoughts of this really strong sensation of love, belonging, acceptance, and this potentially spiritual world.

Todd

And is there anything beyond the spiritual world?

Todd

I guess there's just, like, spiritual world and reality, right?

Michelle

I think there are many dimensions.

Michelle

I think there are multiple universes.

Michelle

I think it's very limiting to think that we're either at Earth or in that heavenly realm, because that's not it.

Michelle

Our souls are having multiple existences right now, even in this.

Michelle

In this timeline.

Michelle

So here's what I will tell you.

Michelle

The majority of your soul right now is currently still in that heavenly realm.

Michelle

This part of you that is taught having this human experience in the year 2024 is literally like the size of the fingernail on your little, tiny pinky finger.

Michelle

It's like your soul is just dipping its finger in the water.

Michelle

The majority of you is still at home in that heavenly realm, but you're just like, oh, what does that feel like?

Michelle

Let me feel that.

Michelle

And so it's not that we're.

Michelle

We're.

Michelle

You know, we're going there.

Michelle

We are.

Michelle

And yet most of us is already there.

Michelle

We're just having a little taste of this earth experience so we can learn and expand on it.

Todd

So, do you feel like you've been given a.

Todd

A message on your purpose or that you have settled into this place of, like, day to day being present in the moment?

Michelle

So, for me, I mean, I know that I.

Michelle

Because I have that memory from my third near death experience, I know that there's a lot of stuff that's expected of me.

Michelle

I know that I have things to do here.

Michelle

I know that there are more things coming.

Michelle

And so, with that being said, yes, like, I know there's a lot coming, and yet all I can do is be present in the moment, because being present in the moment is actually the energy that drives our future.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

I can worry and worry about the future, and am I missing my mission or my purpose?

Michelle

But now I'm putting worry energy out there, and it's truly much more productive to be present here now focused on this interview with you and then onto my reading after this, you know, than it is for me to worry about the future.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

And so then I have to ask, I mean, I usually ask most of my guests, like, where do you see your business?

Todd

Do you see your business going?

Todd

Like, how do you.

Todd

How do you grow this?

Todd

How do you create or have the biggest impact that you could possibly have?

Todd

I guess, yeah.

Michelle

I mean, so it's really just about reaching as many people as possible so that they know they have a choice and the way they see life and view life and show up in life.

Michelle

So I have a book that I'm working on right now, some other opportunities coming out.

Michelle

I'm starting to teach.

Michelle

So I have a lifeguide course right now.

Michelle

In February, I'll be coming out with connecting with your angels course.

Michelle

So for me, it's really like driving, because what I want is for people to do this for themselves.

Michelle

I love bookings.

Michelle

I love reading one on one with people.

Michelle

I mean, yes, please do that.

Michelle

But at the same time, my goal is for you to make your own connection and to help foster that.

Todd

Is there anything you could, you could give us or glimpse us on what might be in there?

Todd

Like.

Todd

Like perhaps a meditation is something that would be helping people.

Todd

I'm just trying to think of my own, you know, my own knowledge.

Todd

I feel like meditation would be a good way to connect, potentially journaling.

Todd

Like what?

Todd

I don't want to give away all your secrets, but I'm curious.

Michelle

Those are good.

Michelle

And not just meditation, but also, I say listen to binaural beats in either theta or delta wavelength.

Michelle

In the studies that I've done, when I am getting information from spirit world, that's the brainwave that I meant, theta or delta.

Michelle

So you can go to YouTube.

Michelle

You can.

Michelle

There are thousands of them for free there.

Michelle

And just listen to it.

Michelle

Ten minutes a day.

Michelle

Ten minutes a day.

Michelle

Longer if you can.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

It's the consistency that pays off over time.

Michelle

It's more important to do it a little bit every day than to do it for 5 hours on Sunday day.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

I'm so glad you brought up theta and delta two.

Todd

I'm huge into studying brainwaves and so do you feel like, have you experienced being tired while you're down there?

Todd

Do you, are you kind of in a tired state when you're down there?

Todd

Are you able to just be perfectly cognizant in, like, a lower brainwave state?

Michelle

Yeah, I look just like I do right now.

Michelle

So the readings where I'm in theta and I'm getting all this information.

Michelle

I'm talking, I'm.

Michelle

My eyes are open.

Michelle

I'm doing all of this.

Michelle

It looks just like I do right now.

Michelle

It's just a matter of dropping my brainwaves to that frequency to get the information.

Todd

That is so cool.

Todd

So how so do you have your own breath work thing that you do to you kind of just think through it?

Todd

Is it like a sacred place you go to in your mind, or.

Michelle

Yeah, well, honestly, I've been doing this for so many years now that it's just training that it's just like.

Michelle

Like you just.

Michelle

I can just drop in.

Michelle

Drop in like that.

Michelle

And so that's really what you want to do.

Michelle

You want to practice it enough that you get to the point where you can just drop in and get the information that you need and then come back out and share.

Michelle

It's like working out.

Michelle

It's like going for a run.

Michelle

You're not going to just wake up one morning and run a marathon.

Michelle

You're going to start training.

Michelle

You're going to start watching your diet.

Michelle

You're going to start doing all sorts of things differently, if that's your goal.

Michelle

And that's kind of how mediumship, or connection with your life, guides your angels is too.

Todd

So do you have any opinions, then, on other.

Todd

Other mediums or.

Todd

We can kind of.

Todd

I saw one of your talks or post was about, like, the difference between empaths, like clairvoyant, psychic medium and stuff.

Todd

And so I'm kind of curious what your thoughts are on some of the other mediums, like Bashar or Esther Hicks or any of these people like that.

Todd

If you.

Todd

If you have any thoughts at all on that stuff, because I'm interested in that stuff.

Todd

I don't know what you think about it.

Todd

It.

Todd

And, you know, the difference between some of the reading styles that people are utilizing.

Michelle

I love all of that.

Michelle

They're basically channels.

Michelle

So they're connecting to different channels.

Michelle

They're connecting to ET channel for Bashar.

Michelle

They're connecting to higher consciousness for Abraham Hicks.

Michelle

Mediums are tending to connect to your loved ones and spirit channel.

Michelle

But, you know, we have people who channel the archangels and people.

Michelle

You can basically channel anything.

Michelle

It's all.

Michelle

It's all really mediumship.

Michelle

It's just.

Michelle

What are you focused on in the moment?

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

So then, I hate to go to a dark place, but I have to ask.

Todd

I'm curious, and do you ever think that there's any entities that anybody channels that pretends it's a different entity.

Michelle

It's possible.

Michelle

It would depend on the medium.

Michelle

It would depend on, you know, it's so unique because I think that we all work differently.

Michelle

I don't, you know, and there.

Michelle

Are.

Michelle

Are there darker energies on planet Earth?

Michelle

Absolutely.

Michelle

Look around.

Michelle

You know what I mean?

Michelle

But it's not something that I worry about or I connect with or that I've ever had the experience of.

Michelle

But do I think it's possible?

Michelle

Yes.

Todd

That's awesome.

Todd

It's awesome.

Todd

You never, never had a negative experience, like, just.

Todd

Just awesome connections with spirits that have been nice to you.

Todd

And, wow, that's honestly crazy to imagine.

Todd

Like, because even the experience you described, being in the bathroom and having your, you know, beloved come and, you know, say that to you is like, it almost gave me chills, like, imagining that actually happening in you, but you had already had that experience with knowing what a mediumship connection felt like, knowing that, like, you know, you're receiving this message and it wasn't anything harmful or scary, and, like, that's got to be something that a lot of other people wish they could have.

Todd

You know, I was watching your video, the one where you were coaching or helping the people that were all healing, and it was just like, they were all wanting so bad to, like, I couldn't imagine living my life looking for a connection, you know?

Todd

And is that something that you, like, find yourself doing still is like, you're like, connecting with your grandpa, connecting with anybody who's passed away and kind of just like.

Todd

Like having your sensory, you know, acuity set on seeing anything that might be a sign.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

I mean, it's.

Michelle

It's my life, right?

Michelle

So I.

Michelle

It's kind of, in a way, mediumship.

Michelle

It's like.

Michelle

But, you know, I don't know.

Michelle

I'm going to say being a nun or being a priest, it's just your lifestyle.

Michelle

Like, I don't, you know, probably like police officers or nurses or doctors, they don't come home and leave it at work.

Michelle

Right?

Michelle

If there was an accident, they'd probably still pull over and help, and they would, you know what I mean?

Michelle

So it's almost like, yes, it's a part of me.

Michelle

No, I'm not always walking around reading people.

Michelle

That's not how I work.

Michelle

But at the same time, I can't take that part out of me because it's like telling me, oh, I'm at the grocery store, I'm not a mom right now.

Michelle

It doesn't matter where I am.

Michelle

I'm always a mom.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

Have you ever then, actually, Farrah told me about something that she had experienced with witnessing someone's energy that seemed suicidal.

Todd

Have you ever just, like, been out and about and experienced, like, okay, I need.

Todd

I have to say this to this person, even though it might be, like, a weird, you know, scenario or, like, you know, they don't know me, and this is not exactly the setting, but I have to say this.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

Occasionally I try to steer away from that, but if I am really feeling pushed by spirit, I will do that.

Michelle

I think Farah does that a lot more often than I do.

Todd

She's crazy.

Todd

I was like, oh, my gosh.

Todd

That's, like, such an intense thing to take on.

Todd

You're just like, nope, I gotta help this person right now.

Michelle

Here's the thing.

Michelle

And when you're in that situation, don't have a choice.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

I don't want to compare it to as much, like, being in the trauma room, but when you're in the trauma room and you're a surgeon, you're gonna do what you need to do.

Michelle

And that's the same thing.

Michelle

It's like, when she's in that situation, or if I'm in that situation and push, and I get pushed by spirit, and I know this needs to happen now.

Michelle

Now it's because there's something bigger than me at work.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

Yeah.

Todd

And so what is your favorite way of delivering this helpful information to people?

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

Well, I love doing classes.

Michelle

I love my gallery.

Michelle

Readings are good because we get a lot of information that is also practical to life during that, some of it will be coming out of my book, life coaching.

Michelle

I mean, I just.

Michelle

I love the.

Michelle

I love the people connection.

Todd

I'm excited to read your book.

Todd

What do you know when that's coming out?

Michelle

I have two agents interested in it right now, so we will see where it goes.

Michelle

Hopefully, I'll have more information in the next couple months.

Todd

But that's crazy.

Todd

Are you gonna have it ghost written or you're gonna write it yourself?

Michelle

No, I've written it.

Todd

Nice.

Todd

Wow.

Michelle

Add some in there.

Michelle

I've had an editor to help me with it, but no, it's.

Michelle

It's.

Michelle

I've been doing the writing, so.

Todd

So is there any messages in there that are, like, take home messages that we haven't really touched on that you think would be great to.

Todd

To mention?

Michelle

You know, I think we should wrap up with this.

Michelle

Your perspective is everything.

Michelle

It creates your reality.

Michelle

It creates your emotion.

Michelle

It keeps you healthy, physically, mentally, spiritually.

Michelle

Right.

Michelle

And so I think that is always the I want to tell people, your perspective is your free will, right?

Michelle

You have the choice to look at the attire.

Michelle

Is it ruined your day or it saved your life or.

Michelle

I don't know what it did, but I'm fine.

Michelle

Your perception is your free will.

Michelle

And so that's your free will in action.

Michelle

And I always suggest use it to the best of your ability to cultivate the story that moves you forward.

Todd

Powerfully said.

Todd

Very powerfully said.

Todd

And that's honestly what I think is one of your superpowers as well is just delivering perspective shifts.

Todd

Delivering perspective shifts.

Todd

Constantly people get stuck in their stories.

Todd

You deliver perspective shifts, you know, whether it's through the random facts you get from your readings or just from your overall knowledge of grief and.

Todd

And spiritual, you know, purpose, if you will.

Todd

So.

Todd

So thank you.

Todd

Thank you for sharing that.

Todd

And I'm curious then, where people can find you.

Michelle

Yeah.

Michelle

On my website, Michelle Claire Clare.net, you can book readings there.

Michelle

You can see upcoming events.

Michelle

If you're in the Phoenix area, I do have local in person events.

Todd

Perfect.

Todd

And she also on YouTube has some of those gallery readings which I recommend.

Todd

So I'll leave some of those in the show notes.

Todd

Make sure people can find you.

Todd

Make sure people can see what it is you're doing.

Todd

This is something that is incredible, incredibly, incredibly awesome.

Todd

And I think just empowering.

Todd

Like I said, I was incredibly touched watching you guys don't understand what it's like watching 20 different people in grief looking to connect with their loved ones and be able to talk to Michelle and within five minutes feel, you know, even a semblance of relief, you know, some of them full relief.

Todd

It's crazy.

Todd

So thank you.

Todd

Thank you for the work you're doing.

Todd

And we'll definitely keep an eye on what you do and where your business grows and your path.

Michelle

All right, well, thank you so much.

Michelle

It's really been an honor and a pleasure to connect with you today.