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And when I got to the door, he took me by

the arm, walked me around

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the corner, backed me up against the wall,

and then he just kind of leaned over me

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and he told me what you did was wrong.

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And if you're ever going to be

the kind of person

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I thought you were going to be

when you are an adult,

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you have a lot to learn about

how to relate to people

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and how to deal with problems

and what you're going to do now.

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You're going to go back in the shop,

you're going to find that shop foreman,

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you're going to apologize to him

for what you just said,

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and you're going to tell him

that you are willing to drive

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that front end loader

as long as you need to the way it is.

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And if he ever gets it into the shop

to fix it, you'll say, thank you.

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Well Merle

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Burkholder, thanks for coming on

the Anabaptist Perspectives podcast.

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You have a lot of varied life experience.

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Been in ministry

for something like 45 years.

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Served in church leadership.

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You've traveled quite a bit in ministry.

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all around the world.

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And As we were prepping for these

episodes, we were thinking, you know what?

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What are some topics we can do with you?

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And one thing I know about you

is you're a bit of a storyteller.

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and,

and people really enjoy your stories.

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And so we're like, well, it'd be great

to, to do some stories with you.

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And one of the things you've worked on

is things

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you've learned throughout your life

from these different experiences. So.

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Maybe a little different

than our typical episode,

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where I have a topic

and ask all these questions and things.

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I would like to just hear some of

those lessons and some of those stories.

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So however you'd like to begin

and wherever you'd like to go with it.

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and we'll just, see where it takes us.

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Okay. Thank you Reagan. Yeah.

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God has given me the opportunity

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to do a lot of things in life

that have been interesting, and.

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And, I am a storyteller, so

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that, is true.

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but here's some things.

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one of the things that I've learned in

life is that

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there will be misunderstandings.

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I will misunderstand other people,

and other

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people will understand

me, misunderstand me.

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And trust is so foundational to just

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trust that

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people's intentions are good and that,

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there's probably things

I just didn't, didn't understand.

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things that that, happened

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that I, I misunderstood

what was what was being said.

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I think about one time,

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in Canada, there was a man

that I would buy firewood from,

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and we lived about

ten miles outside of town.

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and he would bring my firewood out there

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and, and then we were going to move

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into town.

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And so he came, brought me a load of firewood, and we were talking and he said,

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I hear you're moving out of the country.

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And I'm thinking,

oh, he knows I'm from the United States.

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And he thinks I'm moving

back to the United States.

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And I was like,

no, I'm not moving out of the country.

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And and he was like, well,

that's what I heard.

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I heard you're moving out of the country

and it's, No, we're just moving into town.

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And he said, that's what I said.

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You're moving out of the country.

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Oh, yeah, well, yeah.

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I am moving out of the country and and,

I realize, you know, I,

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I totally misunderstood.

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I put my own assumption onto what

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he was saying.

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because I'm thinking I'm sensitive

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about being a dual citizen, sensitive

about being an American living in Canada.

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And and so I my mind immediately went to

he thinks I'm moving back

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to the, to the United States.

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another time

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I think about was,

well, we lived in Haiti

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for a year, and,

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we were, we were,

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building a church building

when we got there,

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the people knew that

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the mission had land to build a church on,

and they had the money

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to build the church.

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And so they automatically assume

that this American family's coming here.

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And so after I got enough of language

ability, people started asking me,

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when are you going to start building

the church?

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And I was like,

I don't know anything about a church.

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I'm not building a church building.

I'm not a builder.

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You don't want me to build a church

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It's not going to be good.

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And, and,

so they were, they were disappointed.

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And I was disappointed

because they were disappointed.

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And so we talked about it

and I said, well, in Canada,

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if that was the case, what we would do is

we would hire a contractor

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to supervise it, and we would get together

and we'd volunteer,

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and we would build the church building

under the supervision of a contractor.

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And and there was a man in

the church that was a mason.

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Let me talk to

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the mission and see if they'll hire him

to supervise it.

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And we could have workdays

and we could all work together

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and we could build a church building.

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And so we started

building a church building.

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It was 36 by 72.

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And we had to dig a foundation.

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We had to dig a footer, about 48in deep

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Everything was done by hand.

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after about a month,

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we were up to ground level

and and then, we went on from there.

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But every week we would have a workday,

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when everybody would come

and and work together on the church.

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There was one man in the church

that had a job.

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He had a formal job,

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he was highly respected

because he had a job.

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Most people well, he was the only one

in the church that had a job.

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And he worked from Monday to Thursday,

had off Friday,

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Saturday, Sunday

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So at the end of the service

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pastor said, okay, on Tuesday

we're going to have a work day

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and who can come raise your hand

if you can come help with the workday.

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So I noticed that Brother

Jeremy raised his hand.

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I thought, That's interesting.

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I didn't know

he could get a day off of work,

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and but apparently

he's he's going to come.

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church, I met him before he went home

and I said, okay, I'll see you on Tuesday.

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And he's like, Tuesday, Tuesday,

what's Tuesday?

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And I said, well, the workday.

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Oh, he said, I can't come, I'm working.

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And I said, well,

I saw that you raised your hand and said

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you were going to come. Oh.

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He said, well, I raised my hand

because I'm a church member

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and I should come and I want to come,

but I can't, and everybody knows I can’t.

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but I'm just saying that I would come

if I could and I'm willing to come and.

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But everybody knows I can't come.

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So that's interesting.

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So I asked the pastor,

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I saw that Brother

Jeremy raised his hand and said he's,

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you know, for the workday and, and,

but do you think he's going to come? No.

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He said he's not going to come.

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He said he works

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But he said it's really good

he raises his hand

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because then everybody knows that he would

come if he could and he wants to come.

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And then the people who can come,

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They realize, well, yeah,

he would come so I can so I should.

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So he said he gets more people's

hands up and it's good he raises his hand.

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So I was like, okay.

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So then the workday came

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and I thought,

I'm going to ask some other people.

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So I would get beside some of the men

and there's no trees there.

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We're all working in the hot sun and

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and you know, it would have been nice

to have a few more people.

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And so I'd get beside different men.

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And I would say,

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you know, this is really hard work

and, it's hot here and we could use

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more people and I'd try to get them

in a negative frame of mind.

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And then I would say, and you know what

I saw on Sunday that brother Jeremy

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raised his hand and said he was going

to come and help with the work project,

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but I haven't seen him and you know,

have you seen him?

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No, and.

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and every one of those men, without fail,

they would say to me,

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you shouldn't talk like that.

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Like he would come if he could.

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And he raises his hand

because he wants to come, but he can't.

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And I realized I was the only person

in that church that thought

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that because he raised his hand,

he was physically going to come

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and help with the work project.

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Everybody else knew

it just meant he wants to come,

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and he would if he could.

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But I didn't understand culturally.

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I didn't understand what was what

that what raising his hand really meant.

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And, you know, sometimes

we get into other cultural situations

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and we see things and we interpret it

in one way, but maybe everybody else

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interprets it a different way

and we can start saying, well, people lie.

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They say they're going to come

and then they don't come and, and,

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but maybe, maybe we didn't understand

what was really being said.

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And, and and then we lose trust.

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And when trust is lost,

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then relationships really nosedive

and things go downhill and

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and eventually

it can become almost irreconcilable.

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And so,

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communicating and finding

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out, what didn't I, where there

things here that I didn't understand

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and or did

I misunderstand what you were saying?

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And that can clear up a lot of,

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a lot of mis just misunderstandings and,

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and often the things that we think

people mean

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when it doesn't seem right

isn't what they meant at all.

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And, and communication

is the solution to that.

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And just being able to talk and just ask

people, well, what do you mean?

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What were you trying to say?

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can clear up a lot of those things.

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Like not jumping to conclusions right,

or assumptions

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or judgment of that person

until you know more, right.

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So what other lessons would you

would you have?

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Well, another one would be

that I'm not always right.

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And, I need

I need guides and I need the Holy Spirit’s

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guidance in, in my life.

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And there are times when I need people

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to tell me

when I've been, when I've been wrong.

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I grew up in a bit of a business family.

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My dad had was partners in a business,

and it was a concrete

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business.

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And so I would work in his business,

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in the summers when I wasn't in school.

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And I was probably

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the stereotypical boss's son,

I thought I had a lot more authority

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and power than I did, because after all,

I eat dinner with the boss every night.

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So maybe you should pay attention to me.

And what I say and what I think.

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And so I think I was a little arrogant

and, and,

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I had a bit of a overrated opinion

of myself.

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And one summer

I was driving front end loader

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and there was a cement salesman

that came into that business.

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He came every week

and he would sell my dad's cement.

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And when he would come in the summertime

when I was there,

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he would go in the office

and talk to my dad about buying cement,

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and then he'd come out in the plant

and find me and and,

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he would take me to the break room

and buy me a mountain dew.

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And he talked to me, and and he would

take me to places and do stuff with me.

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And I knew he didn't have to do that

to sell cement.

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I knew he

I knew he liked me for some reason.

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And I was 14 and he was 50.

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And it was just

it was a significant relationship for me.

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And so I was driving this front end loader

and there was a problem

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with the steering.

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And I had talked to the shop foreman

about fixing it and nothing was happening.

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So I was kind of frustrated about that.

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And one day the steering wheel spun around

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and there was a knob

on the steering wheel,

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and it hit me on my crazy bone

in my elbow, and I was like...

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So I jumped off of the front end

loader, went into the shop

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and I found the shop foreman and, and,

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I told him what I thought of his ability

to schedule things

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in the shop and fix things,

and I just told him how it was and

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and how or I, how I thought it was.

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And then I turned around

to go out of the shop,

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and there was Sam, this cement salesman

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standing in the doorway,

and he had seen the whole thing.

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And when I got to the door,

he took me by the arm, walked me around

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the corner, backed me up against the wall,

and then he just kind of leaned over me

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and he told me what you did was wrong.

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And if you're ever going to be

the kind of person

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I thought you were going to be

when you are an adult,

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you have a lot to learn about

how to relate to people

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and how to deal with problems

and what you're going to do now.

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You're going to go back in the shop,

you're going to find that shop foreman,

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you're going to apologize to him

for what you just said,

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and you're going to tell him

that you are willing to drive

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that front end loader

as long as you need to the way it is.

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And if he ever gets it into the shop

to fix it, you'll say, thank you.

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And he said, I'm going with you. So.

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So we went into the shop

and I found the shop foreman.

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I apologized, I told him,

I'll drive the front end loader

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as long as I need to the way it is, and

if he ever fixes it, I'll say thank you.

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And then Sam took me to the break

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room, bought me a mountain dew,

and everything was fine.

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But that was tremendously valuable.

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I hadn't seen him.

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He could have walked away and said, well,

I guess Merle's not going to be

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the kind of person

I thought he was going to be, and.

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But he cared enough about me

to take me around the corner

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and tell me what I had done wrong,

how to fix it, and then

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go with me to actually actually fix it.

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And I need people like that.

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in, in my life.

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probably another story, probably,

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25 years ago, my wife and I were in

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we were facing a decision

that she knew in 30s what we should do.

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And it took me about three months

to figure it out,

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because I felt like I was in a situation

where

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no matter what I did,

I was going to violate something

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that I really believed in

and that I tried to live by.

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And so I just couldn't.

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I couldn't make a decision.

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And I was stuck.

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And it affected our relationship.

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It was a difficult time. And,

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so during that time

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we were going to visit

a, we were came to the States

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and we were going to visit a couple that,

is about 20 years older than us. And,

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this man's been,

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you know, a man who I talked to and, like,

who I knew cared about me.

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And and so I thought,

okay, we're going to be at their house.

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I'm going to tell him

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this whole situation,

and I'm just going to do

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whatever he tells me to do,

so that's what I'm going to do.

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So we went and,

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our wives went shopping

and we're sitting in the living room.

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So I told him my whole sad story

and where it was at with this decision,

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and he just kind of leaned back in his

chair and said, well, you'll be all right.

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Like my wife and I went through

something like that

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when we were about your age,

and and, you'll be okay.

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And I thought he didn't understand

what I said, like,

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no, I'm not going to be okay, like, I need

I just need him to tell me what to do.

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And so I told him the whole thing

again. I said, so what shall I do?

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And he just kind of said, you'll be okay.

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and we went through something like that

to and and you'll be all right.

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Well, I went away from that.

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I was really frustrated.

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I was like, come on.

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Like I was going to I was ready

to do whatever he told me to do.

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And then he doesn't tell me anything.

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And, and, that wasn't helpful at all.

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And I was kind of upset about it.

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And then about three days later,

I thought, wait a minute.

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Like, what did he say?

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He said, when I was your age,

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we went through something like similar

and you'll be okay.

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So he's from his perspective now, 20 years

later, he's not even worried about me.

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And so probably 20 years from now, I'll

look back on this decision and say, well,

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it turned out all right.

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And I just needed,

I just need to make a decision.

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And, and that helped me to get off center

and get unstuck

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and feel like I can decide something.

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But it was that perspective

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from a little further down the road

that helped me to.

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So I just needed that encouragement

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and that confidence

that you're going to be okay.

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don't don't worry about it.

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and then we, we have those people

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who are influential in our lives

and who are directed to us,

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and then we also get to do that

for other people.

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and we get to,

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we get to,

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to give guidance and some input

and direction to other people

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because the whole principle,

the book of Proverbs, is that wisdom

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can be passed on from one generation

to another, and that

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but we only do that

if we're willing to invest in the lives

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of other people, and we're willing to

some of what we receive, we pass on

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to others.

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So there was a man

that there is a man that I've known for,

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probably 40 years now.

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And, when he was nine years old,

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his dad was a,

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a Mennonite pastor.

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But when he when this man was nine years

old, his dad came home,

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gave him a bag of candy and said,

I'm leaving.

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I'm never coming back.

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You're the man of the house

now and left and never came back.

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Well, this

man and I have had a lot of conversations

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about the impact of that in his life

and just living without a father, and

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how that affected, affected his ability

to make decisions and just his own sense

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of confidence and direction in life

and and the pain that he experienced as,

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a child and as a growing into adulthood

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without a father in his home. And,

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and it was just devastating for him.

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Well, almost unbelievably,

when his he had three boys

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and when his sons were about the age

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that he had been when his father left,

he left

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his wife and moved in with another woman.

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And I just couldn't hardly believe it.

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I just and his wife came to

our house with her three boys

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said she doesn't know what to do

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and she knew where he was.

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and the town

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where he was was about three hours

from where we lived.

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And she knew

he worked in the grocery store.

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Well, I,

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after a couple days,

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I decided

I'm not going to let him do that.

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Like, he he knows what his dad did.

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And I'm, I'm not going to let him

repeat that.

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So I went over. Drove over there.

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I walked into the grocery store,

and I found him there stocking shelves.

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And so I asked him,

what are you doing here?

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He said, I'm working here.

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I tell him,

well your wife and sons are at my house.

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And you know how

you felt when your dad left.

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And I don't think you want to do that

to your boys.

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it's just wrong.

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And so you need to come back with me...

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figure out whatever you need to do with

your wife and get things resolved. And

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and be with your family.

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No, he said, I'm not not going to do that.

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And, I said, well,

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you know, it's the right thing to do,

and you know, what you're doing is wrong.

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And, so why can't you come back?

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And he said, well, I'm working here.

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I have a job.

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I said, yeah.

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And up in the corner of the store

is the office.

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And two weeks ago you walked in here

and you asked that man for a job,

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and he gave you a job,

but what you did was wrong.

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And what you're going to do

now is you're going to go up to the office

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and you're going to tell that man,

you can't work here anymore

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because you're getting back together

with your wife and you're leaving town.

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And if he's any kind of a man,

he'll respect you for what you're doing.

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So. And I said, I'm going with you.

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And, so we went up to the office

and he quit his job.

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And then he said, well,

I have to go get my stuff at the house.

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And he said,

that woman's going to kill me.

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No, she's not.

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I'll run interference with her. And,

you get your stuff.

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And so we went over to the house,

got his stuff, and went back and, and,

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and he and his wife got

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together, talked about their issues, and,

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you know,

he and his wife are still together today.

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It hasn't been a

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an easy road, but.

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And he and I have talked about it

a number of times how

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his children's experience is so different

from what his was.

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And he knows his grandchildren

and he's there with his family.

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But we when people

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do things, when we experience things

and we can

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we can do those things for other people

as well, and it just becomes part of

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generationally helping each other

to to walk on

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a good path.

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But I need guides and so do others.

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And I can be part of, of,

receiving guidance

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and input and correction

and also giving it.

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Yeah.

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It's, it sounds like you were given a gift

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at one point in your life

of some correction

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when you needed it,

and then you're taking that

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on to the next in your own life

and doing that for others.

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Yeah.

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It's not easy to do to do what you did,

but it was it just

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this is the right thing to do,

and I need to stand for what's right.

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And it was also somebody that I knew

really, really well.

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so I wouldn't have done that

for just anybody.

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But yeah, I did know this man really well.

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That's powerful though.

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That's powerful though.

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yeah. What other what other lessons?

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Well, a wise man told me one time,

you'll never make yourself

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happy with your own money.

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You can make other people

happy with your money,

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but you'll never make yourself happy

with your own money.

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That's.

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Ooh, I like that.

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That's pretty profound, actually.

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And I.

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And I think that's true.

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And there are people that chase wealth

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and think that, well,

if I just have a little more.

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I have this or that than I'd be.

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Then I'd be happy.

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And, it's a false narrative.

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It's not really true.

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It's,

it's it's, it's a false dream to chase,

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to think that wealth

is going to bring bring happiness.

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of course, we spent most of

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our lives in, in ministry,

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I have never, I haven't done things

in life because of how much it pays.

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And, so, Yeah.

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Never have been,

never will be a wealthy person.

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But, when we lived in Dryden,

447

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there was a, a couple there

business couple that we related to,

448

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and it was a wealthy business couple

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and, and, he was an agnostic.

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he felt like, well, he believed that

you can't know if God exists.

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Maybe he does. Maybe he doesn't.

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And you don't find out until you die,

and then it's too late.

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So. And he and I had a lot

of conversations about it, but, anyway,

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that was he maintained that that position

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he got in his strategy was that

he would get involved in the church

456

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just enough that if he died and God

did exist, he thought he'd be okay,

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but not too much

so that if he died and God didn't exist,

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he hadn't wasted

a lot of time and money in the church.

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So that was sort of his his strategy and.

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Odd philosophy Yeah,

but it was kind of how he, he lived life.

461

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And then and we had been to

their we'd go to their house for dinner,

462

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they'd come to our house for dinner

some times and, and,

463

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and we enjoyed talking to each other and,

and then we went to Haiti.

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We lived in Haiti for a year.

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And when we came back from Haiti,

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he said, Merle, I want to

467

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have you come over to my cottage

and, and, talk about Haiti.

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So he said, I'll meet you up

by the Trans-Canada highway because it's

469

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a little challenging to find my cottage.

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And so he did,

471

00:24:04,943 --> 00:24:05,861

and it was good.

472

00:24:05,861 --> 00:24:07,571

He did, because there were a lot of turns

back,

473

00:24:07,571 --> 00:24:09,990

these little gravel roads

back to his cottage on the lake.

474

00:24:09,990 --> 00:24:13,869

And, and my problem started

when he met me by the Trans-Canada highway

475

00:24:13,869 --> 00:24:17,205

because he was driving a Jaguar,

and I was driving

476

00:24:17,205 --> 00:24:20,459

a Ford Escort station wagon

that wasn't too new. And,

477

00:24:21,668 --> 00:24:24,880

looking at his car and thinking,

you know, we parked beside him

478

00:24:24,880 --> 00:24:27,340

when we got to his cottage

and I'm looking in his car

479

00:24:27,340 --> 00:24:28,967

and thinking, that's a real car.

480

00:24:28,967 --> 00:24:31,094

And like, I wonder what wonder

what he thinks of my car.

481

00:24:31,094 --> 00:24:34,181

And I wonder what it feels like to drive

a Jaguar like that.

482

00:24:34,431 --> 00:24:35,640

That would be.

483

00:24:35,640 --> 00:24:36,850

That would really be something.

484

00:24:36,850 --> 00:24:39,311

And, then went to their cottage.

485

00:24:39,311 --> 00:24:40,812

Well,

their cottage, we'd been to their house,

486

00:24:40,812 --> 00:24:41,980

but this was their cottage,

487

00:24:41,980 --> 00:24:44,983

and their cottage was bigger

and nicer than my house and that.

488

00:24:44,983 --> 00:24:47,110

Oh, this is yeah, this is really nice.

489

00:24:47,110 --> 00:24:49,029

And then he said, well, dinner's

490

00:24:49,029 --> 00:24:52,073

not quite ready yet,

so, I'll take your family sailing.

491

00:24:52,073 --> 00:24:54,576

while we wait for dinner to be ready.

492

00:24:54,576 --> 00:24:58,371

So he had a 40ft sailboat,

and we went out on the lake sailing, and

493

00:24:59,164 --> 00:25:01,374

and I'm out on the lake with him

sailing and I’m thinking, you know,

494

00:25:01,374 --> 00:25:04,377

this is how a person ought to live.

This is.

495

00:25:04,419 --> 00:25:06,338

This is the way life should be done.

496

00:25:06,338 --> 00:25:10,300

You have the jaguar,

the cottage, the sailboat.

497

00:25:10,300 --> 00:25:13,428

And this is this is living.

498

00:25:13,428 --> 00:25:16,431

This is this is how life should be done.

499

00:25:16,932 --> 00:25:19,684

And then we go back into the dock and

500

00:25:19,684 --> 00:25:23,063

and we were going to have dinner

down on the dock and, and he said, now

501

00:25:23,063 --> 00:25:24,481

we're going to have dinner down here

on the dock.

502

00:25:24,481 --> 00:25:27,609

And, but after dinner we're going to go up

to the cottage and talk about Haiti and,

503

00:25:28,318 --> 00:25:30,237

but we have a Jacuzzi on the dock.

504

00:25:30,237 --> 00:25:32,113

And so if your children

want to go in the Jacuzzi

505

00:25:32,113 --> 00:25:33,823

while we go talk about Haiti,

they could do that.

506

00:25:33,823 --> 00:25:36,243

And I'm thinking, now,

he has a Jacuzzi, too.

507

00:25:36,243 --> 00:25:41,289

And and, so we're there, and

we had steak and baked potatoes,

508

00:25:41,289 --> 00:25:42,541

and my steak and baked

509

00:25:42,541 --> 00:25:45,585

potato didn't taste very good

because I was feeling sorry for myself.

510

00:25:45,585 --> 00:25:50,590

And I'm thinking, you know, like,

I don't have anything like he has it all.

511

00:25:50,590 --> 00:25:54,553

He has the Jaguar, the sailboat,

the cottage, the jacuzzi, and

512

00:25:55,178 --> 00:25:56,763

and I had nothing.

513

00:25:56,763 --> 00:26:00,016

And the problem is, the way

I'm living my life, I never will,

514

00:26:00,016 --> 00:26:02,394

and I even have to go to somebody else's

house to eat steak.

515

00:26:02,394 --> 00:26:05,397

And it's just like

my life is so miserable.

516

00:26:05,438 --> 00:26:07,566

And, then we get up to the cottage

517

00:26:08,733 --> 00:26:09,734

and we're talking about Haiti.

518

00:26:09,734 --> 00:26:11,987

And partway through the conversation,

519

00:26:11,987 --> 00:26:14,573

he turned to his wife and said,

you know what, Pat?

520

00:26:14,573 --> 00:26:17,576

We should have got more involved

in the church.

521

00:26:18,159 --> 00:26:20,328

because he said,

we never have done anything for anybody.

522

00:26:20,328 --> 00:26:23,290

We travel, but we just go

look at stuff and come home.

523

00:26:23,290 --> 00:26:26,167

And he said, look at the things

that Marle and his family did.

524

00:26:26,167 --> 00:26:27,627

Like, we don't know anything about that.

525

00:26:27,627 --> 00:26:29,462

Like we've never done anything like that.

526

00:26:29,462 --> 00:26:34,134

And you know, I just kind of find it

kind of felt God talking to me and saying,

527

00:26:34,134 --> 00:26:34,509

you know what?

528

00:26:34,509 --> 00:26:35,218

Like you were down there

529

00:26:35,218 --> 00:26:38,430

crying into your steak and baked potato

and feeling sorry for yourself,

530

00:26:38,430 --> 00:26:41,433

but actually, if anybody should feel

sorry for themself, it's him.

531

00:26:41,558 --> 00:26:44,978

Because, yeah, he has all the stuff.

532

00:26:45,186 --> 00:26:51,276

but he's never really done

anything of significance, for people.

533

00:26:52,694 --> 00:26:55,488

And, you know, if I get

to the end of my life and I had lived 70

534

00:26:55,488 --> 00:27:00,493

or 80 years, and all I had was a sailboat

and a Jaguar and a Jacuzzi, it's not.

535

00:27:00,910 --> 00:27:03,913

It's not enough. Like it's not worth it.

536

00:27:04,080 --> 00:27:06,708

and the world's filled with people

that are 45,

537

00:27:06,708 --> 00:27:10,420

50 years old that met

all their financial goals and are bored

538

00:27:10,754 --> 00:27:13,757

and don't know what to do

with the rest of their life. And

539

00:27:14,466 --> 00:27:18,428

so chasing wealth is just kind of a it's

a phantom

540

00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:22,932

and we'll never make ourselves happy

with with the pursuit of wealth

541

00:27:23,141 --> 00:27:28,396

and the things that make a difference for

eternity are the things that are really

542

00:27:29,105 --> 00:27:32,108

fulfilling and.

543

00:27:32,609 --> 00:27:33,652

You know, the

544

00:27:33,652 --> 00:27:38,114

the path that God takes us on is it's a,

it's a it's a life of adventure,

545

00:27:38,448 --> 00:27:41,534

because you don't know

what he has coming next.

546

00:27:41,534 --> 00:27:45,163

And we'd like to have the 20 year plan,

but he doesn't do that.

547

00:27:45,372 --> 00:27:50,085

And, and so it's it's exciting

because you never know

548

00:27:50,085 --> 00:27:54,756

what God has around next year

or that round the next bend.

549

00:27:54,756 --> 00:27:57,384

And it's also fulfilling

because you realize

550

00:27:58,343 --> 00:28:01,346

it's making a difference for for eternity.

551

00:28:01,888 --> 00:28:05,308

So, I think you had something,

552

00:28:06,309 --> 00:28:08,478

something powerful there

where you said money,

553

00:28:08,478 --> 00:28:11,981

our own money won't, won't make us happy,

but it can make other people

554

00:28:11,981 --> 00:28:17,195

happy in this sense of

you can use it in service to others.

555

00:28:17,529 --> 00:28:20,323

Do you want to elaborate on that statement

at all?

556

00:28:20,323 --> 00:28:23,618

Well, I think of, like

557

00:28:23,618 --> 00:28:27,789

when people have have needs

and we are generous and give,

558

00:28:28,415 --> 00:28:31,418

we can bless people

in their moment of need

559

00:28:32,001 --> 00:28:36,548

and what they experience is

560

00:28:36,548 --> 00:28:39,759

way beyond the joy of what

we'll experience by keeping it.

561

00:28:40,301 --> 00:28:44,055

And so it's true what Jesus said, that

562

00:28:44,055 --> 00:28:47,809

it's more blessed

to give than than to receive.

563

00:28:48,309 --> 00:28:52,814

And in the church community, that giving

and that caring for one another is

564

00:28:52,814 --> 00:28:58,236

just there's a blessing there

that that is really, really powerful.

565

00:28:59,529 --> 00:29:00,655

When we lived in Haiti.

566

00:29:00,655 --> 00:29:04,033

one Sunday morning in Sunday

567

00:29:04,033 --> 00:29:08,997

school, the lesson in Sunday school was,

I've been young and I've been old,

568

00:29:08,997 --> 00:29:12,000

but I've never seen the righteous forsaken

or his seed begging bread.

569

00:29:12,917 --> 00:29:16,337

And the people were like,

yeah, that's right, that's that's true.

570

00:29:16,546 --> 00:29:21,342

And so that afternoon

I was talking to the, the Haitian pastor,

571

00:29:21,718 --> 00:29:24,637

and I said to him

now we had that verse in Sunday School,

572

00:29:24,637 --> 00:29:25,764

I've been young and I've been old

573

00:29:25,764 --> 00:29:28,767

and I've never seen the righteous forsaken

or his seed begging bread.

574

00:29:29,225 --> 00:29:33,229

But you and I both have people coming

to our house every day asking for food.

575

00:29:33,730 --> 00:29:37,066

So? So how can you say, yeah, that's true.

576

00:29:37,734 --> 00:29:40,820

When we have people.

577

00:29:41,821 --> 00:29:44,824

coming every day asking for food.

578

00:29:44,908 --> 00:29:47,202

So they are begging bread, right?

579

00:29:47,202 --> 00:29:51,039

And he's like, no,

what you're what you're thinking is wrong.

580

00:29:51,039 --> 00:29:54,834

He was saying,

you will never see a person in our church

581

00:29:55,335 --> 00:29:58,296

at the market begging from the public.

582

00:29:58,338 --> 00:30:01,716

But we do tell each other what we need

and we give to each other

583

00:30:02,133 --> 00:30:03,343

and we help each other.

584

00:30:03,343 --> 00:30:05,470

And so you will never see

585

00:30:05,470 --> 00:30:08,765

one of our church members

begging bread from the general public.

586

00:30:08,973 --> 00:30:12,560

and there's that dignity in being able

to give to someone else

587

00:30:12,560 --> 00:30:13,645

in their time of need

588

00:30:14,854 --> 00:30:18,316

that brings joy and and, yeah.

589

00:30:19,984 --> 00:30:23,363

To both, to both us as a giver

and to the person who receives it.

590

00:30:24,239 --> 00:30:27,116

That's so powerful

because of the deception

591

00:30:27,116 --> 00:30:30,745

that comes with wealth

is, is really hard to untangle.

592

00:30:30,954 --> 00:30:31,246

Yeah.

593

00:30:31,246 --> 00:30:34,999

Because it can feel like such a solution

to life's problems.

594

00:30:34,999 --> 00:30:37,252

And maybe it's a, it's,

595

00:30:37,252 --> 00:30:39,629

I heard someone say money

doesn't solve all your problems.

596

00:30:39,629 --> 00:30:43,800

It does solve money problems, but

it doesn't solve the really deep things

597

00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:44,217

in life.

598

00:30:44,217 --> 00:30:47,762

You know, the search for joy

and meaning and fulfillment and purpose.

599

00:30:48,805 --> 00:30:49,764

wow. That's that's.

600

00:30:49,764 --> 00:30:51,391

There's a lot to unpack there.

601

00:30:51,391 --> 00:30:51,891

Yeah.

602

00:30:51,891 --> 00:30:55,687

I will say I'm glad you didn't,

go for the sailboat and the Jacuzzi

603

00:30:55,687 --> 00:30:58,147

and the cabin because I feel like. Wow.

604

00:30:58,147 --> 00:31:01,234

You know how many of these stories

that you have wouldn't even exist

605

00:31:01,359 --> 00:31:02,443

if you'd went that route?

606

00:31:02,443 --> 00:31:02,610

What other lessons do you have?

607

00:31:02,610 --> 00:31:04,279

What other lessons do you have?

608

00:31:04,279 --> 00:31:09,492

Well, I think, another one is,

there is a god, and it's not me.

609

00:31:09,826 --> 00:31:12,912

And, God is sovereign.

610

00:31:13,288 --> 00:31:15,039

He knows what he's doing.

611

00:31:15,039 --> 00:31:18,376

And the reassurance is

612

00:31:18,376 --> 00:31:22,046

not only is he sovereign,

but he's good and he loves me.

613

00:31:23,006 --> 00:31:23,798

And so

614

00:31:23,798 --> 00:31:27,427

there are things that have not gone

the way I thought they should go.

615

00:31:27,677 --> 00:31:31,306

And in Romans chapter 11

it talks about, you know, who is God's

616

00:31:31,306 --> 00:31:34,267

counselor, who's been his counselor,

or who understands the mind of God.

617

00:31:35,143 --> 00:31:38,563

Well,

I've had times when I was God's counselor.

618

00:31:38,563 --> 00:31:40,690

I told him what I thought he should do.

619

00:31:40,690 --> 00:31:42,650

And, and he doesn't...

620

00:31:42,650 --> 00:31:44,485

He doesn't always do it.

621

00:31:44,485 --> 00:31:47,322

And he doesn't do things the way

I think it should be done.

622

00:31:47,322 --> 00:31:51,284

but I rest in that

he knows what he's doing.

623

00:31:51,284 --> 00:31:52,911

I don't know what he knows.

624

00:31:52,911 --> 00:31:58,958

And,

And he he's good, and he loves me, but,

625

00:31:59,250 --> 00:32:02,629

there are things that just, didn't go

626

00:32:03,963 --> 00:32:05,632

the way I thought they.

627

00:32:05,632 --> 00:32:07,717

They should go.

And sometimes we misunderstand

628

00:32:08,676 --> 00:32:09,677

who God is.

629

00:32:09,677 --> 00:32:14,349

Back when we lived in Dryden,

630

00:32:15,183 --> 00:32:19,312

I was on the board of the food bank,

and it was just, a little.

631

00:32:19,312 --> 00:32:23,691

We rented a room

that was just a small, small room.

632

00:32:23,733 --> 00:32:26,194

And the grocery stores

donated all the food.

633

00:32:26,194 --> 00:32:29,948

And so our budget

was basically the rental of, of the room,

634

00:32:30,490 --> 00:32:34,744

but we were giving food

to between 90 and 100 families a week.

635

00:32:34,744 --> 00:32:37,789

Out of that,

out of that space that we had.

636

00:32:38,414 --> 00:32:39,290

But we had plans.

637

00:32:39,290 --> 00:32:42,669

We wanted to do Bible studies

and financial literacy classes

638

00:32:42,669 --> 00:32:45,672

and cooking classes,

but we had no room to do it.

639

00:32:46,005 --> 00:32:50,593

So we thought, well, rather than rent

a bigger space, we should buy a building,

640

00:32:51,177 --> 00:32:54,639

and then we'd be able to do all those

all those things.

641

00:32:54,639 --> 00:32:58,059

So we looked around at buildings

and, buildings the size

642

00:32:58,059 --> 00:33:01,396

we needed at

that time would have been maybe $150,000.

643

00:33:01,396 --> 00:33:04,399

So we started a building fund

and and we started talking

644

00:33:04,399 --> 00:33:07,402

to people about money

for the building fund.

645

00:33:07,568 --> 00:33:10,780

And we weren't getting very much

because people didn't

646

00:33:10,780 --> 00:33:13,866

think we were going to be able

to raise $150,000.

647

00:33:13,866 --> 00:33:18,788

So we wound up after a number of months

with maybe around $3,000.

648

00:33:18,788 --> 00:33:19,664

And,

649

00:33:20,707 --> 00:33:22,542

so we're thinking, oh, you know, the thing

650

00:33:22,542 --> 00:33:25,545

is, and there were people who would say,

well, when you get close, let me know.

651

00:33:25,545 --> 00:33:27,213

Yeah, I want to help you.

652

00:33:27,213 --> 00:33:31,759

when you get close, let me know

and I'll give you something and so.

653

00:33:31,759 --> 00:33:33,845

But they didn't want to give us

$5,000 or $10,000.

654

00:33:33,845 --> 00:33:35,471

Just have it

sit in a bank account forever.

655

00:33:35,471 --> 00:33:39,809

So, at the point where they realized

we were going to make it,

656

00:33:39,809 --> 00:33:41,644

then they were going to help us.

657

00:33:41,644 --> 00:33:42,311

So we thought, you know what?

658

00:33:42,311 --> 00:33:46,399

We need somebody

who will give us a donation of $25,000

659

00:33:46,816 --> 00:33:48,609

that will kickstart our building fund.

660

00:33:48,609 --> 00:33:50,987

And if we would have $25,000

in our building fund,

661

00:33:50,987 --> 00:33:53,740

then we could go back to all those people

and say, okay, we're

662

00:33:53,740 --> 00:33:54,532

we're going to make it.

663

00:33:54,532 --> 00:33:57,035

so this is the time to help.

664

00:33:57,035 --> 00:34:01,664

So we were praying for somebody

to give us, $25,000.

665

00:34:01,664 --> 00:34:03,833

And during that time we had a,

666

00:34:04,751 --> 00:34:04,876

there

667

00:34:04,876 --> 00:34:08,171

was a trade show in Dryden, and the food

bank had a booth at the trade show.

668

00:34:08,171 --> 00:34:12,675

And as board members, we were taking turns

manning the booth at the trade show.

669

00:34:13,426 --> 00:34:16,888

So, I was taking my turn,

670

00:34:17,263 --> 00:34:21,142

and this man came by and he looks

at the booth and goes, oh, the food bank.

671

00:34:21,559 --> 00:34:23,144

Tell me about the food bank.

672

00:34:23,144 --> 00:34:26,856

So I told him about the food bank,

and he said, what do you need?

673

00:34:27,523 --> 00:34:30,526

And I said, well, we need spaghetti.

674

00:34:30,943 --> 00:34:33,529

and he said,

how much spaghetti do you need?

675

00:34:33,529 --> 00:34:35,323

I said, I don't know,

but I'll give me your phone number

676

00:34:35,323 --> 00:34:39,410

and I'll call you and I'll find out and

I'll tell you how much spaghetti we need.

677

00:34:39,410 --> 00:34:42,163

So, okay, I'll see that

you have all the spaghetti you need.

678

00:34:42,163 --> 00:34:44,373

So he said, what else do you need?

679

00:34:44,373 --> 00:34:47,376

Well, we could use macaroni and cheese.

680

00:34:47,418 --> 00:34:49,837

And he's like, well,

how much of that do you need?

681

00:34:49,837 --> 00:34:50,129

I don't know.

682

00:34:50,129 --> 00:34:51,339

When I call you about the spaghetti,

683

00:34:51,339 --> 00:34:53,966

I'll tell you

about the macaroni and Cheese too.

684

00:34:53,966 --> 00:34:55,301

So he was like Okay.

685

00:34:55,301 --> 00:34:58,846

And, then he started walking away,

and he got maybe 20ft away.

686

00:34:58,846 --> 00:35:01,808

And then he came back and he said,

do you know who I am?

687

00:35:01,808 --> 00:35:03,643

And I was like, no, not really.

688

00:35:03,643 --> 00:35:06,437

I've seen you around town,

but I don't really know who you are.

689

00:35:06,437 --> 00:35:10,316

And he said, well,

I own a restaurant here in town,

690

00:35:10,316 --> 00:35:13,611

and my wife is a doctor,

and we've been in town about five years.

691

00:35:13,611 --> 00:35:16,656

And he said,

I'd like to give back to the community.

692

00:35:16,656 --> 00:35:20,576

And, and, I always thought the food bank

would be a great way to do it

693

00:35:20,576 --> 00:35:23,538

because I'm in the food business

and you're in the food business

694

00:35:23,538 --> 00:35:26,749

and we're Christians

and you're a Christian organization.

695

00:35:26,749 --> 00:35:28,209

And so I just thought

it was a perfect fit.

696

00:35:28,209 --> 00:35:30,378

But I never met anybody from the food bank

before.

697

00:35:30,378 --> 00:35:34,590

And and so he said,

this is the first time I've ever met

698

00:35:34,590 --> 00:35:37,051

anybody from the food bank.

And so I was interested.

699

00:35:37,051 --> 00:35:38,386

And in what do you need?

700

00:35:38,386 --> 00:35:40,805

I said, well,

do you want to know what we really need?

701

00:35:40,805 --> 00:35:42,849

And he said, yeah,

I've been trying to find out

702

00:35:42,849 --> 00:35:44,725

for the last 20 minutes

and you won't tell me.

703

00:35:44,725 --> 00:35:47,895

And so I explained

the whole building thing to him and,

704

00:35:48,437 --> 00:35:49,814

and he's like, well, what's the problem?

705

00:35:49,814 --> 00:35:52,358

And I said, well,

people don't think we're going to make it.

706

00:35:52,358 --> 00:35:54,235

And he said, well, how much do you need?

707

00:35:54,235 --> 00:35:57,155

So we need $150,000

and we have a building fund.

708

00:35:57,155 --> 00:36:00,032

But he said,

how much is in it? So we have 3000.

709

00:36:00,032 --> 00:36:02,285

And he just laughed at me and he said, so

710

00:36:02,285 --> 00:36:05,746

you're looking at $150,000 buildings

and you only have 3000.

711

00:36:05,872 --> 00:36:06,330

Yeah.

712

00:36:06,330 --> 00:36:07,999

Because we know God's

going to give us some money.

713

00:36:07,999 --> 00:36:09,041

We just don't know when.

714

00:36:09,041 --> 00:36:12,670

And we want to be ready so that when he

does, we're ready to buy a building.

715

00:36:13,838 --> 00:36:16,424

So he said, well, what's the problem?

716

00:36:16,424 --> 00:36:19,093

So I told him that people don't have

the confidence we're going to raise it.

717

00:36:19,093 --> 00:36:20,386

And we've been praying for somebody

718

00:36:20,386 --> 00:36:23,472

to give us $25,000

to kickstart our building fund.

719

00:36:24,432 --> 00:36:27,226

And he said, my wife and I will do that.

720

00:36:27,226 --> 00:36:29,103

And I said, I'm not joking.

721

00:36:29,103 --> 00:36:31,189

And he said, I'm not either.

You have my phone number, right?

722

00:36:31,189 --> 00:36:33,274

I said, yeah, he said,

call me when you're ready for the money.

723

00:36:33,274 --> 00:36:35,443

And so I did, and he gave the money.

724

00:36:35,443 --> 00:36:37,945

And today the food bank has a building.

725

00:36:37,945 --> 00:36:40,948

But, you know,

sometimes I think when we're done

726

00:36:41,032 --> 00:36:45,119

praying, God would like to turn around

and say, like, do you know who I am?

727

00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:48,873

I think we're asking for the spaghetti

728

00:36:48,873 --> 00:36:52,835

and macaroni and cheese of life,

and and God's interested in those things.

729

00:36:52,835 --> 00:36:56,923

But but we're talking to the person

who is the sovereign of the universe.

730

00:36:57,965 --> 00:36:58,925

And and

731

00:36:58,925 --> 00:37:02,553

there's things that

no human being can do for us that he can,

732

00:37:03,429 --> 00:37:05,556

and just bring those things to him

733

00:37:05,556 --> 00:37:08,184

as as the King of kings

734

00:37:08,184 --> 00:37:11,187

and Lord of lords,

the person he really is.

735

00:37:12,063 --> 00:37:14,148

but then he doesn't always do

things the way we think.

736

00:37:14,148 --> 00:37:17,902

We had, my wife and I had a,

737

00:37:18,903 --> 00:37:21,322

well, we helped with a Sunday school

on the reserve,

738

00:37:21,322 --> 00:37:24,325

and, on the reservation,

739

00:37:24,367 --> 00:37:27,828

and we tried to have, an adult Sunday

school class,

740

00:37:27,828 --> 00:37:28,829

but the only adults

741

00:37:28,829 --> 00:37:32,375

that would come were people

that would come and a few couple of ladies

742

00:37:32,375 --> 00:37:33,834

that would come

when they were intoxicated.

743

00:37:33,834 --> 00:37:39,548

So, then we went to home Bible studies,

and we started doing home Bible studies.

744

00:37:39,548 --> 00:37:41,842

And my wife had a ladies Bible study.

745

00:37:41,842 --> 00:37:46,055

There were a couple of ladies that came

to the Lord and became Christians.

746

00:37:46,055 --> 00:37:51,018

And, one of those ladies

was the daughter of one of the ladies

747

00:37:51,018 --> 00:37:53,354

who would come to Sunday school,

when she was intoxicated.

748

00:37:54,605 --> 00:37:57,400

So she

was quite concerned about her mother.

749

00:37:57,400 --> 00:38:00,361

And and we were praying

for her mother and,

750

00:38:00,903 --> 00:38:03,030

and then one day her mother was found

751

00:38:03,030 --> 00:38:07,326

passed out in a house and unresponsive,

went to the hospital

752

00:38:07,326 --> 00:38:11,706

and things just started

going downhill for her.

753

00:38:11,706 --> 00:38:13,291

And she got worse and worse.

754

00:38:13,291 --> 00:38:15,918

And, and,

755

00:38:15,918 --> 00:38:18,921

her daughter, who had become

a Christian, was quite concerned about

756

00:38:19,964 --> 00:38:21,424

her mother's eternal destiny.

757

00:38:21,424 --> 00:38:26,095

And, and her mother had gone to,

Catholic school as a child.

758

00:38:26,095 --> 00:38:29,307

She and, of course,

we had had interaction with her.

759

00:38:29,307 --> 00:38:30,599

She knew the gospel.

760

00:38:30,599 --> 00:38:35,646

And, we were, praying for her salvation.

761

00:38:35,938 --> 00:38:40,109

And I told her daughter, you know,

they say that

762

00:38:40,109 --> 00:38:43,946

when a person dies, one of the last senses

they lose is their hearing.

763

00:38:44,071 --> 00:38:46,157

And so your mother can probably hear us.

764

00:38:46,157 --> 00:38:49,160

And so we went to the hospital room

765

00:38:49,160 --> 00:38:52,330

and we talked to her, and I told her,

766

00:38:53,122 --> 00:38:56,625

you know,

you know, the way of salvation, like,

767

00:38:56,625 --> 00:39:01,964

you know about the Lord Jesus Christ,

and you can receive Christ in your mind.

768

00:39:01,964 --> 00:39:04,592

You can you can give your life to Christ.

769

00:39:04,592 --> 00:39:07,803

And you know you're not well. And

770

00:39:09,388 --> 00:39:10,431

before you die, you

771

00:39:10,431 --> 00:39:14,435

can you can be sure of where you're going

when you die.

772

00:39:14,560 --> 00:39:17,480

And,

so I said, I'm going to pray a prayer

773

00:39:17,480 --> 00:39:20,566

and you can pray the prayer with me

in your mind

774

00:39:20,775 --> 00:39:23,778

and, and receive Christ.

775

00:39:24,236 --> 00:39:27,990

So I did, and

and because there was no response.

776

00:39:27,990 --> 00:39:30,868

And then her daughter wanted to know,

777

00:39:30,868 --> 00:39:32,661

so did she do that?

778

00:39:32,661 --> 00:39:36,290

Like I,

I don't want her to die without me knowing

779

00:39:37,208 --> 00:39:41,045

where she's going and what,

where she's going to spend eternity.

780

00:39:41,045 --> 00:39:45,424

And so we were praying and I was asking

God, like, just have her become conscious

781

00:39:45,424 --> 00:39:49,887

for 30s or something

just so she can let her daughter know

782

00:39:51,514 --> 00:39:53,432

whether she

783

00:39:53,432 --> 00:39:54,767

accepted Christ or not.

784

00:39:54,767 --> 00:39:59,647

And one day we were in her room

and just telling her, like we,

785

00:39:59,939 --> 00:40:04,360

your daughter really wants to know

if you become a Christian and

786

00:40:05,361 --> 00:40:05,694

if you

787

00:40:05,694 --> 00:40:08,697

have, if you could just squeeze my hand.

788

00:40:08,906 --> 00:40:11,033

but there was nothing.

789

00:40:11,033 --> 00:40:13,911

Well, she died, and I was really mad.

790

00:40:13,911 --> 00:40:14,995

I was really angry.

791

00:40:14,995 --> 00:40:17,415

I was like, God, that was really bad.

792

00:40:17,415 --> 00:40:19,583

Here's this lady

793

00:40:19,583 --> 00:40:20,459

who is a new believer.

794

00:40:20,459 --> 00:40:24,213

All she wants to know

is where her mother is for eternity.

795

00:40:24,213 --> 00:40:26,882

You could have had her become

conscious for 30s.

796

00:40:26,882 --> 00:40:30,886

You could have had her squeeze my hand

and you didn't like that...

797

00:40:32,179 --> 00:40:33,514

That wasn't good.

798

00:40:33,514 --> 00:40:35,516

And,

799

00:40:35,516 --> 00:40:40,104

well, in their community,

after a person died

800

00:40:41,480 --> 00:40:44,483

within a week or so,

somebody would have a dream about them

801

00:40:44,525 --> 00:40:48,237

and they would say, well, I saw that

I had a dream about them last night,

802

00:40:48,237 --> 00:40:50,906

and they were in a good place.

They were happy and and,

803

00:40:51,949 --> 00:40:55,077

and so then, then people would be okay.

804

00:40:55,077 --> 00:40:57,830

So they're okay now and, and

805

00:40:57,830 --> 00:41:00,708

well,

nobody was having a dream about this lady.

806

00:41:00,708 --> 00:41:03,252

And, went a few weeks, then went a month.

807

00:41:03,252 --> 00:41:08,382

And people started to talk about it like,

why isn't anybody dreaming about her?

808

00:41:08,382 --> 00:41:10,634

What where did she go,

what happened to her?

809

00:41:10,634 --> 00:41:13,429

And and why is nobody dreaming about her?

810

00:41:13,429 --> 00:41:17,016

And then after about two months,

there was an old old man.

811

00:41:17,016 --> 00:41:19,894

And in their community,

the elders are just highly respected.

812

00:41:19,894 --> 00:41:24,857

And this very old man came to her daughter

and said, last night

813

00:41:24,857 --> 00:41:28,152

I had a dream about your mother,

and she was in a good place.

814

00:41:28,152 --> 00:41:29,695

She was happy,

815

00:41:29,695 --> 00:41:32,698

and she had one of those things on her

head that the Sunday school teachers wear.

816

00:41:33,365 --> 00:41:39,163

And, because it had become

a topic of conversation in the village

817

00:41:39,705 --> 00:41:43,959

about why nobody was having a dream

about this lady, then that story spread.

818

00:41:44,627 --> 00:41:48,422

All. Over and everybody heard it,

and everybody

819

00:41:48,964 --> 00:41:52,176

interpreted the fact

that she had that thing on her head, that

820

00:41:52,176 --> 00:41:55,596

the Sunday School teachers wear,

as she chose to go the Christian way,

821

00:41:56,263 --> 00:41:59,391

and it was just it was so powerful.

822

00:41:59,391 --> 00:42:03,979

And I was like, oh, like,

if she would have squeezed my hand

823

00:42:04,480 --> 00:42:06,315

and we would have told people

that they would have said,

824

00:42:06,315 --> 00:42:09,777

yeah, lots of people twitch when they die

and it wouldn't have

825

00:42:10,402 --> 00:42:13,906

it wouldn't have had any impact in the

in the community.

826

00:42:14,448 --> 00:42:18,786

But the way God did that,

it was like everybody,

827

00:42:19,453 --> 00:42:22,873

everybody was sure that she had chosen

828

00:42:23,832 --> 00:42:24,875

the Christian way, and it was

829

00:42:24,875 --> 00:42:28,879

just so much better than what

what I would have done.

830

00:42:29,505 --> 00:42:32,049

And then we had, well.

831

00:42:32,049 --> 00:42:35,052

We were praying for a man in the village

to become a Christian,

832

00:42:35,427 --> 00:42:37,721

and I had some guys that I thought

were pretty good prospects.

833

00:42:37,721 --> 00:42:38,681

They were pretty good people,

834

00:42:38,681 --> 00:42:42,226

and I thought it wouldn't

take much for them to get saved.

835

00:42:42,226 --> 00:42:45,104

And so I'd be fishing with them

and doing stuff with them.

836

00:42:45,104 --> 00:42:49,400

But I couldn't get them interested

in studying the Bible and, and,

837

00:42:49,984 --> 00:42:51,986

and then a man,

838

00:42:51,986 --> 00:42:55,781

came to Christ who was an alcoholic.

839

00:42:55,781 --> 00:43:00,911

He would deal drugs and, and,

he came to Christ and his wife got saved.

840

00:43:00,911 --> 00:43:03,247

And so I started doing

a Bible study with them.

841

00:43:03,247 --> 00:43:04,665

And he was the kind of person that

842

00:43:05,916 --> 00:43:07,626

nobody in the village could say, yeah,

843

00:43:07,626 --> 00:43:09,545

it'll work for him,

but it won't work for me.

844

00:43:09,545 --> 00:43:12,339

Like, it was like,

if he got saved, turned his life around.

845

00:43:12,339 --> 00:43:14,133

Anybody can.

846

00:43:14,133 --> 00:43:15,175

So we're.

847

00:43:15,175 --> 00:43:17,344

So then we said, okay,

let's put our Bible studies together.

848

00:43:17,344 --> 00:43:18,804

My wife had this ladies Bible study.

849

00:43:18,804 --> 00:43:21,807

I was doing Bible study with this couple

and let's put them together.

850

00:43:22,057 --> 00:43:24,977

So we're going to put our Bible studies

together.

851

00:43:24,977 --> 00:43:27,980

And I took out a list of Bible

study books that we had.

852

00:43:28,355 --> 00:43:30,774

And so we're going to choose a book

that we're going to do.

853

00:43:30,774 --> 00:43:34,111

And so I'm trying to direct them

to something

854

00:43:34,111 --> 00:43:37,781

in the New Testament like the Gospel

of John or something like that.

855

00:43:37,781 --> 00:43:38,574

And so we're

856

00:43:38,574 --> 00:43:42,369

going through the list and we,

we had a Bible study book on Leviticus,

857

00:43:42,995 --> 00:43:46,749

and this guy, this man was like,

so what's Leviticus about?

858

00:43:46,749 --> 00:43:51,587

And I said, it's no,

you don't want to study Leviticus.

859

00:43:51,587 --> 00:43:52,546

Well, what's it about?

860

00:43:52,546 --> 00:43:56,050

I said well, it's about sacrifices

and dietary

861

00:43:56,050 --> 00:43:59,970

rules and, and and he sounds interesting.

862

00:43:59,970 --> 00:44:03,265

I said it's not like,

believe me, it's not interesting.

863

00:44:03,849 --> 00:44:06,226

And so I'm trying to get them to

864

00:44:06,226 --> 00:44:09,229

we could do John

or we could do this or that and

865

00:44:09,313 --> 00:44:12,858

but he kept saying well, I still think

Leviticus sounds interesting.

866

00:44:12,858 --> 00:44:16,779

And then one of the ladies was like,

well I sort of think Leviticus

867

00:44:16,779 --> 00:44:17,821

would be interesting too?

868

00:44:17,821 --> 00:44:19,907

And I realized I'm going to lose this.

869

00:44:19,907 --> 00:44:23,160

And so we agreed, okay,

we're going to study Leviticus.

870

00:44:23,869 --> 00:44:26,413

And then on the way home, I told my wife,

that's a disaster.

871

00:44:26,413 --> 00:44:28,248

Like,

I don't even want to study Leviticus.

872

00:44:28,248 --> 00:44:31,752

And here these are new believers

and to study Leviticus.

873

00:44:31,752 --> 00:44:32,753

Like, why?

874

00:44:32,753 --> 00:44:35,214

Like it's it's going to fall apart.

875

00:44:35,214 --> 00:44:36,548

We're going to get two weeks into that

876

00:44:36,548 --> 00:44:38,258

and they're going to,

they're going to lose interest.

877

00:44:38,258 --> 00:44:42,721

And, but I couldn't, I couldn't

persuade them to do anything else.

878

00:44:42,721 --> 00:44:45,557

And, and so we started doing Leviticus.

879

00:44:45,557 --> 00:44:48,644

We got there the first week

and we get into Leviticus chapter one.

880

00:44:48,644 --> 00:44:50,145

And it's the sin offering.

881

00:44:50,145 --> 00:44:56,110

And it has to be a lamb a year

old without blemish and you bring it.

882

00:44:56,110 --> 00:44:59,446

And the the person who, sacrificing it,

883

00:44:59,446 --> 00:45:03,367

has put his hand on its head

and slit its throat and and all that.

884

00:45:03,367 --> 00:45:05,119

And they were like,

that's really interesting.

885

00:45:05,119 --> 00:45:07,871

Like we have a sacrifice

kind of like that.

886

00:45:07,871 --> 00:45:12,376

It's a different animal,

but it has to be, a certain age.

887

00:45:12,376 --> 00:45:14,169

It has to be without any spots.

888

00:45:14,169 --> 00:45:18,382

It and there's a procedure

you go through as to how it's killed and,

889

00:45:18,966 --> 00:45:22,803

and and it's, it's to be to atone for sin.

890

00:45:22,803 --> 00:45:25,806

It's the same for the same purpose.

891

00:45:26,014 --> 00:45:28,600

And then we got

into the, the grain offering

892

00:45:29,893 --> 00:45:30,310

and they were

893

00:45:30,310 --> 00:45:34,273

like, we have something like that

in traditional religion.

894

00:45:34,273 --> 00:45:36,859

Like there's things

you have to mix together

895

00:45:36,859 --> 00:45:41,029

and then you do it and it's, it's

very similar to, to what this is.

896

00:45:41,029 --> 00:45:45,534

And then we get into, the wave offering

where you wave the thing through the smoke

897

00:45:45,534 --> 00:45:46,577

and it's for cleansing.

898

00:45:46,577 --> 00:45:49,246

And they were like,

that's like our smudging.

899

00:45:49,246 --> 00:45:53,459

And, and you wave, the smoke over you.

900

00:45:53,459 --> 00:45:54,585

And it's for cleansing.

901

00:45:54,585 --> 00:45:56,920

The purpose of the smoke

is the same thing.

902

00:45:56,920 --> 00:46:02,551

And and then we got to,

some of the laws about personal hygiene

903

00:46:02,551 --> 00:46:05,721

and stuff and the ladies were like,

that's what our grandmas told us.

904

00:46:06,138 --> 00:46:08,140

Like they told us that stuff.

905

00:46:08,140 --> 00:46:11,477

And then we got to I think it's chapter 25

906

00:46:11,477 --> 00:46:14,897

where it says you can't own the land

because it belongs to God.

907

00:46:14,897 --> 00:46:17,274

And they were like,

we've been trying to tell you white people

908

00:46:17,274 --> 00:46:20,319

that for 500 years,

and you think you can actually own.

909

00:46:20,319 --> 00:46:23,030

And we knew it belongs to the creator.

910

00:46:23,030 --> 00:46:28,452

Then they started to say, so why is this

so similar to our traditional religion?

911

00:46:28,786 --> 00:46:31,121

Why is it so much the same?

912

00:46:31,121 --> 00:46:34,124

And we well, where did you come from?

913

00:46:34,124 --> 00:46:37,211

Like when when human beings

came off the ark, there was already

914

00:46:37,211 --> 00:46:40,589

a sacrificial system in place like,

Noah sacrificed.

915

00:46:40,589 --> 00:46:45,469

So their people left the ark

with a basic sacrificial system.

916

00:46:46,386 --> 00:46:49,389

And that sacrificial system

pointed toward Christ.

917

00:46:49,765 --> 00:46:52,768

And so just like the Jewish

sacrificial system

918

00:46:52,893 --> 00:46:55,896

that's detailed here

and in the Old Testament,

919

00:46:55,896 --> 00:46:58,899

pointed to Christ

as the ultimate sacrifice for sin.

920

00:46:59,441 --> 00:47:02,653

The sacrificial system

of traditional native religion

921

00:47:02,653 --> 00:47:06,156

points to Christ the need for a sacrifice

and points to Christ.

922

00:47:06,156 --> 00:47:09,243

So Christ is the fulfillment of your

923

00:47:09,743 --> 00:47:12,496

traditional religious practices.

924

00:47:12,496 --> 00:47:17,960

And and so this, man

that was in the Bible study said, I'm

925

00:47:17,960 --> 00:47:20,921

going down to the medicine man,

and I'm going to tell him, you think

926

00:47:21,255 --> 00:47:22,589

that this is our

927

00:47:23,549 --> 00:47:24,716

original religion, but

928

00:47:24,716 --> 00:47:27,719

what you don't know

is all this stuff comes from the Bible.

929

00:47:27,761 --> 00:47:30,764

And and it was just like it

connected with them,

930

00:47:31,181 --> 00:47:33,767

like a tendency would be for people

to think, well, Christianity,

931

00:47:33,767 --> 00:47:35,644

that's the white people's religion.

932

00:47:35,644 --> 00:47:38,856

But all of a sudden it was like,

no it's not like it's

933

00:47:39,273 --> 00:47:44,069

our religion pointed us to Christ

and we had a sacrificial system

934

00:47:44,653 --> 00:47:45,612

that pointed to Christ.

935

00:47:45,612 --> 00:47:51,493

And it it did something

just for their sense of, of inclusion

936

00:47:51,493 --> 00:47:58,292

in the story, and that the Bible story

is also about them and about their system.

937

00:47:58,292 --> 00:48:00,252

And so I just realized, you know what?

938

00:48:00,252 --> 00:48:05,382

Like I had plans and I have things

that I think ought to be, but God is

939

00:48:06,049 --> 00:48:06,675

like, he’s just.

940

00:48:06,675 --> 00:48:11,305

He knows more than I do, and he has ways

of making happen what needs to happen.

941

00:48:12,139 --> 00:48:14,850

And so I just need to rest in.

942

00:48:14,850 --> 00:48:17,853

I'm not God. I don't know what God knows.

943

00:48:17,895 --> 00:48:20,439

And I can't do the things that God can do.

944

00:48:20,439 --> 00:48:23,650

And so he is sovereign,

945

00:48:24,276 --> 00:48:26,862

but he loves me and he's good.

946

00:48:26,862 --> 00:48:32,075

And so I can rest in that even when things

don't go the way I think they should.

947

00:48:34,077 --> 00:48:35,037

That's powerful.

948

00:48:35,037 --> 00:48:39,082

And it's also hard

because we humans, humans

949

00:48:39,082 --> 00:48:42,461

like to want to be in control of things,

you know, or know what's happening.

950

00:48:42,878 --> 00:48:45,464

And,

951

00:48:45,464 --> 00:48:47,758

Yeah, be able to figure everything out.

952

00:48:47,758 --> 00:48:49,968

so learning to rest in that. Wow.

953

00:48:49,968 --> 00:48:51,261

That's a powerful lesson.

954

00:48:51,261 --> 00:48:54,222

And it's probably pretty hard to

to live out.

955

00:48:54,222 --> 00:48:55,724

It is.

956

00:48:55,724 --> 00:48:58,727

So, do you have

957

00:48:59,019 --> 00:49:02,064

more stories or anything else

you would like to add to this episode?

958

00:49:02,064 --> 00:49:03,857

I think that's that's it.

959

00:49:03,857 --> 00:49:05,525

Wow. Well, thank you for sharing.

960

00:49:05,525 --> 00:49:08,528

and I think there's

961

00:49:08,612 --> 00:49:11,907

a lot of value in people

that have had experiences like you've had

962

00:49:11,907 --> 00:49:15,827

and, and done a variety of things

and being willing to pass that on.

963

00:49:15,869 --> 00:49:19,164

so I guess that's an encouragement

for people listening.

964

00:49:19,164 --> 00:49:21,291

You know,

if they have stories of life lessons

965

00:49:21,291 --> 00:49:24,002

they can pass on to the next generation

to encourage them to do that.

966

00:49:24,002 --> 00:49:26,964

And and I thank you for,

for doing that on this episode.

967

00:49:26,964 --> 00:49:28,256

Yeah. You're welcome.

968

00:49:29,508 --> 00:49:32,511

Thank you for listening to this episode

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969

00:49:32,636 --> 00:49:35,430

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970

00:49:35,430 --> 00:49:37,808

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971

00:49:37,808 --> 00:49:38,809

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972

00:49:38,809 --> 00:49:42,562

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973

00:49:42,729 --> 00:49:46,566

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974

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975

00:49:49,736 --> 00:49:53,323

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976

00:49:53,365 --> 00:49:56,368

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977

00:49:56,576 --> 00:49:59,538

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