I mean,
we have been in different situations
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in Anabaptist churches
where we've been hurt.
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But we if we really believe this
and we do,
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we there's no, we're going to be
in an Anabaptist church somewhere
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because our doctrine
and our beliefs are Anabaptist.
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And so I think that's been part
of the longevity of our journey, is that
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we felt like we're going to make it work
because this is what we believe.
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Jeff and
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Deana, welcome
to the Anabaptist Perspectives podcast.
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This is this is interesting.
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So I really enjoy getting people's
stories, on this podcast.
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And I know you all have quite the story
of different
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church backgrounds and religious settings,
and it's, yeah,
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we're going to capture some of that today
and, and see if there's some lessons
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we can learn and pieces that I think
will be helpful to our audience as well.
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So let me just start
with the first question.
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Tell me about your religious upbringing.
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Were either of ya’ll part of a church
growing up.
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I grew up methodist.
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And,
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was probably there until we got married.
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And so
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I was sprinkled as an infant.
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And then in the sixth grade,
I went through a confirmation class
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and, I'm pretty sure I heard the gospel
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there, and I was encouraged
to read the Bible.
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So I started reading the Bible
through, in about the sixth grade.
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I feel like, in my upbringing,
it was nominal.
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I feel like it was a nominal
Christian home.
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I have wonderful parents,
and they were a blessing to me,
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but I think it was pretty much for us
as a family.
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A Sunday thing.
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I do remember
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feeling like as a child I knew God
and I knew Christ before I was saved
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and, had a true relationship
as a child would.
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And, I became saved in high school,
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I realized that I needed to ask God
to save me through Christ.
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And as I said, we were
I was Methodist until we got married.
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And then for a while.
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Yeah. And what about you, Deana?
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I would have grown up
Catholic, and I would have been
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baptized and sprinkled and confirmed
and confessed and everything.
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And I'm very thankful.
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It was a good background.
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I appreciated that respect
that I learned there.
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And I'm so thankful
that my parents took us to church,
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when I would have gotten to be around
college, my parents would have switched
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to a more of an evangelical background,
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and I would have delved into that a bit.
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And then before we were married,
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I would have started to
I got a new job and moved to a new city.
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And I found, a good church there.
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It was a kind of like a Southern Baptist
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church, and I would have been baptized
as an adult there.
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So we we both would have grown up
in Christian homes.
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I would have heard the gospel
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from my mother actually, very clearly
when I was, I think about seven years old.
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Okay. So so both of y'all would you.
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So you're saying coming to faith,
you said in high school, right.
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And then you'd been,
maybe a little later.
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You're saying it's something like that.
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Okay, so when we'd been
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talking before we, we'd scheduled this,
I was getting a little bit of your story.
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And the piece that stuck out to me is.
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It sounds like you spent a lot of time
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investigating different denominations
or different church,
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environments that you were part of.
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And, like,
I like to hear some of that journey.
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I know it's a
there's probably a lot of pieces there.
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So whatever you, you would,
you'd care to share.
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But, one of the things with this podcast
is we hear from a lot of people,
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you know, from around the world,
and a lot of them are on a journey.
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You know, I'm trying to find a community
to connect with,
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and I'm trying to figure out this thing,
this, this church thing.
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How do I find like minded believers?
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And that's a real challenge.
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You know, that that can
that can be difficult.
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And so, yeah.
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What was your
experience with that process?
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So I, I loved the Methodist Church.
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I still have fond memories of it.
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I felt in college
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like the Methodist Church as a whole
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was embracing some things
that I didn't think were biblical.
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I was not super pious.
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I think I'm still not super pious.
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There was just things
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that they were doing that
I thought were where I was at that point.
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Like I said, unbiblical
and I was unsure of the direction.
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in the Methodist church
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and were there for a few years
after marriage,
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and it just didn't seem like for
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us, a sustainable setting.
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evangelical type of churches.
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I think we would have gone back and forth
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between Baptists
and just evangelical non-denom churches.
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And when I was getting my master's
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and our background, everything
so much around our professions, in Dallas,
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we found a, evangelical church
in Dallas, Texas.
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I was going to Southern Methodist
University
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to study music,
and we became members there.
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And that was where I got
my first believer's baptism, was there.
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probably for 15 years after that,
in those kind of settings.
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We spent some time,
quite a few years in Grand Rapids,
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Michigan, which and we moved there
for professional reasons.
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In a GARB church, what is that,
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General Assembly of regular
Baptist churches is what that was.
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And we loved it.
It was quite conservative.
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And, it was a blessing,
you know, for us for that time. So
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so, Jeff, you're
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describing like these different parts
of the journey and different places.
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You know, it sounds like
y'all moved around some, so yeah.
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What what was some of your journey through
that, through that process as well?
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Like what
were you experiencing in this time?
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Well, first of all,
it's like seven years of stuff.
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And so I don't even know where to kind
of start wading through it, but I'll try,
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I think when we were homeschooling.
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And so part of it
was, I remember we were reading one time
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about other cultures and, it was these
people in Africa I believe it was anyway.
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But they like, you know, put the things
with their ears, like hung down really low
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and they put all the beads and, like,
stretched their necks and everything.
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you know, they're beautiful parts
of all the different cultures anyway.
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But I just said I thought something
like, well, that's really barbaric,
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you know, that to, you know, to do that,
that, you know, that's their culture.
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I've got metal hanging out of my ears
and I've got necklaces and things.
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And so just kind of like, honestly,
just from that chapter
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we read in the social studies
book, whatever,
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I just kind of start thinking about, well,
maybe I don't want to do this anymore.
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I don't know, it just started like
in a lot of little ways like that.
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We were in church one Sunday and,
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an American flag and the, you know,
rifles and sabers, the swords and guns
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and things, came down and we all sang
Battle Hymn of the Republic, I think.
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And then, a woman
whose father was a veteran.
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We love our country.
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We're very thankful
for all the sacrifices that people made.
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But there was a, you know, everybody
clap for the veterans and whatever.
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I came to church to worship God.
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I didn't come here to worship my country.
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I'm very thankful for my country.
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But that's not why I'm in church.
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That was part of it.
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dear friends, a couple of em
actually got divorced and remarried.
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we were searching the scriptures,
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asking our ministers, like,
what's the doctrine with this?
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Because it just seemed
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just didn't seem right. And,
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they ended up like coming to church
with their other spouses,
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and it just
it just seemed so mixed up and weird.
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It does feel kind of bizarre.
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So we we were just
we were searching the scriptures
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and trying to figure out what what does
God's Word say about this
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And if you could summarize
through this process,
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what did you all feel like
you were searching for.
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I feel, to be totally honest,
maybe we weren't searching that.
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Maybe God was leading,
many of these convictions,
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including the veiling
that you had talked about were,
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shamefully to me, Deena
was having the convictions before I was.
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And so I don't feel like we were purposely
saying we need to search for something.
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I feel like God was showing Deena things
before me.
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And, one of those things,
the veiling frustrated me.
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I wasn't convicted of it at all.
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But we would ask our people,
and a lot of them were very educated.
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We were close to a,
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high profile
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seminary, and so they were very well
versed in the scriptures.
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And I ask a about the
the First Corinthians,
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you know, talking about the veiling.
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And I got the answer
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about the the prostitutes in Corinth,
and they really couldn't say why
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we don't do it except for the that answer
that it was a cultural thing back then.
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And, I later found out that that
that reason and that that story
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about the prostitutes in Corinth
actually is nowhere
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recorded in a secular way
or in a historic way.
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Anyway, it's something that they said
and that frustrated me
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that they couldn't give a good answer
even though I wasn't there yet.
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So what do you think about searching?
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Were you searching?
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One of our ministers
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one time said, like you were walking
in all the light that you had.
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And I did feel that way,
that whenever we would read something else
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or study something else and think, well,
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maybe we think this or whatever,
I think that was.
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Yeah, I wouldn't say
we were necessarily searching.
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We were just kind of starting to feel like
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our beliefs
aren't fitting in quite as well anymore.
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The more we learned
and researched and studied and.
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Yeah, So maybe searching
may not be quite the right word but,
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but journey definitely
seems like the word right where you're,
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like you said walking in,
but at least the light you have
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at the moment, you know,
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and you're and you're learning more
and you're asking questions and things.
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so through this process.
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So it sounds like there was
a number of things happening to here.
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I mean, you're you're in various
different churches.
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You mentioned some things
that were painful and like, oh, I'm
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not sure about that, you know,
and then the part on the, head covering,
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at what point do the Anabaptists
come into the picture here?
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Like, where did you hear about most,
you know, Amish or Mennonites, whatever.
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You know, it's easy.
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I guess you can bump into that
different places.
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But where did that enter the story?
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I think at first all we knew
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were Amish, like, you know, you've seen
pictures of them or books or something.
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And I think we like,
I know looked at like that one time, like
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not not because of we never thought
we would ever be anything like this.
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We just and it was like, oh,
they speak German.
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Well, we're out there, you know, and,
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you know, how could anybody ever go
be a part of that?
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You have to learn
a whole different language or whatever.
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And that was like, oh, they drive
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horse and buggies and and Jeff's
allergic to horses, so we can't hear.
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so this was not going to be
much of an option.
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And I and I'm like
I can't live without air conditioning.
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But just out of kind of
just out of curiosity and honestly,
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it was like a vacation thing, like, it's
we had young children.
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There was nothing offensive, you know,
you can like, whatever.
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Go and and,
I think we went down to Goshen to go.
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We had an antique mall,
to be fair to our people,
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I mean, we just did go down to Goshen,
Indiana to look at the Amish that.
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when these people drive so slow
and they want to look at the Amish,
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and we've seen comments on social media
about how somebody saw
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an Amish person's laundry
and you know, how mystical that is.
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And so it really was us.
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And we love the Anabaptists
and what it stands for.
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But we were totally those people
that would go down to Indiana
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to look at Amish, kind of that
almost like intrigued, touristy type
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or, as a curiosity maybe Yeah.
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But I do think there was an attraction
to something that was to
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us looked more biblical.
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Not as you know, that
they were doing things that we weren't.
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Why did they do them and
what was the reasoning behind all of that?
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And again, not necessarily
that we were just searching.
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It was just like, well, what is this
and what is this?
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And feeling a little bit pushed out?
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Maybe we don't fit as well here anymore.
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Where would we fit?
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You know,
just kind of looking around a little bit,
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again, kind of that journey of trying
to find a, a place,
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you know, a place to plug into, perhaps
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not yet.
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Not yet.
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You have to tell them about the
the homeschool show.
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A big part of our journey was
we were homeschooling.
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And so through that, we came into contact
with a lot of wonderful people.
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And so one of the band groups
I was teaching,
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we had homeschool band
with like a thousand people in it,
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and we were performing
at a homeschool convention thing.
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And so I was there and I would always go
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look at the books and all that
because I was homeschooling,
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but there was a family there,
and they were selling harps,
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and I played harp some in college,
but I did not own a big harp.
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So they had these smaller harps,
and I was like,
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oh, well, maybe
I could get one of those or whatever.
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So I picked up a little pamphlet thing,
and honestly, I stuck it in a drawer
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for five years.
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It was seriously,
it was just sitting there for five years.
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and again, we did this whole long process.
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So I think it was five years later,
Jeff decided that he
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he was working at a school,
spending a lot of hours.
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I was home homeschooling five children.
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He was working 70, 80, 80 hours a week.
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And we were like,
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this is not this is not, you know,
we have two different lifestyles.
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And we didn't want our family to be that.
We wanted to be closer.
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And so, he resigned from his teaching
position and we moved to be the family.
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We moved out of state just to be
with our family and kind of regroup.
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And so when we were going through
that process is when I decided
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I'm going to order a harp.
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So I pulled the thing out of the drawer
after five years, and I ordered a harp.
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So we moved down there.
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And at that point, we were just visiting
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any kind of a church
that we thought might work.
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We tried everything.
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I mean, we were we were pretty convinced
that it was in North Carolina.
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That's where I was born.
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And we had always wanted to live there.
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And, we were sure we were going to find a
just this awesome Bible Belt
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Southern Baptist Church
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with the children's ministries
and great music and so,
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just to interject that we weren't sure
we were going to be able to be plugged
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in quickly with another church,
you know, of that brand that fit
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a little bit more
where we were now with our convictions
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and so we couldn't.
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And in the meantime,
I called this family to tell them,
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my harp wasn't quite ready yet,
but it was almost ready.
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So I said, oh, well, hey,
when you send it,
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please send it to this new address
because we moved.
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And then the the dad that made the harp
sort of said, well do you have
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oh you moved, do you have a church
down there that was like, no.
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Like what on earth would he know about?
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You know, he's five states away
and he just said, oh, I know of a a
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I said, we're looking for something
a little bit more conservative.
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We aren't really sure, but
and I didn't know what they were.
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I knew they had something on their heads,
but I didn't know what they were.
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We had seen a picture of the family
and we were educated enough.
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At this point.
We were like, well, they're not Amish,
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and apparently
they're not Mennonite either.
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And we were just like,
so I don't know what what they are.
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Yeah. anyway?
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So he said, oh, well, I know of a church.
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It was about an hour and a half away.
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And so Jeff called
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the minister and he ended up actually
calling back when Jeff was gone.
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So I had to talk to him.
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And I think I said something like,
what am I supposed to wear something?
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Because we were by then, we,
we were dressing a little different.
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And we were we were getting closer
to this end of things slowly.
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And he said, no.
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He said, you just come as you are.
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And that was really,
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was just what we needed to hear.
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Like, just come as you are.
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We don't expect anything.
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And that's so that was neat. So we
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we went there, we visited.
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That would have been our first Anabaptist
church.
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that's the first time
you actually went to a service
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like a Mennonite or Anabaptist,
whatever you want to call service.
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That's interesting
because this is like a multi-year process.
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Then you know it didn't happen super fast.
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I guess.
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Okay.
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So you're,
you go through that and then at what,
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what are the things that started
attracting you then more specifically
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to the Anabaptist, like,
you're on this journey,
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you're going
you're meeting some of these people.
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Go visit this church.
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Yeah.
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Speak into that a bit, what were you
seeing there that that attracted you?
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I mean, I think at that point
and even till now,
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what attracted us in and attracts us,
obviously
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there's always the lifestyle thing
that our people from our background see,
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I mean, we just have to be honest,
it is there.
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But in the end, it's the
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the adherence to the scriptures
to us was just awesome.
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And we were trying to get answers
in our former settings.
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And sometimes they had some
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and sometimes, you know,
they didn't like with the veiling.
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And it was so nice to be in a church
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where we could just sit down and ask
questions, and they would give us answers.
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And the teachings were there.
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They were wonderful tracts
that would go through all these
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doctrinal things and,
that blessed us as well.
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we found out quickly
that first Sunday we were there.
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We understood community in a way.
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I think that that we never did.
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So, as soon as the church meeting
was done,
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I was rather surrounded by men,
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talking to me and and being kind to me.
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And that really is a blessing.
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It's awkward when you visit a church,
obviously, and nobody talks to you.
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And I thought, I thought, this is awesome.
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I don't know where
my wife is in the church right now
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in the church building.
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And I thought, if if I go find my wife
and the women are talking to her,
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with the enthusiasm that the men
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are talking to me,
then this might just have to be it.
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I mean, I was shocked,
and so I went and found Deena,
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and sure enough,
she was surrounded by women
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and they were talking to her
and welcoming her.
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And so that was a huge thing.
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So the so still to us today, the doctrine
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and the community
that we have is such a blessing.
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And so, we went home
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and I honestly think we didn't talk much
about the church for a week.
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I don't know why,
because we talk about everything.
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And so at the end of the week,
I think Deena brought it up.
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She said, what do you think, Jeff?
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And I said, we have to go back.
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You know, I said, what do you think?
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And she said, yeah, we have to go back.
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And so that was it.
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We were on the journey now.
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Yeah.
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The the community aspect is an interesting
piece you're pulling out there
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that really stuck out to you
then in that process there's nothing
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like nothing that I found.
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I don't want to overstate
our experiences, are our experiences.
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And I don't want to make it
like we've lived everything.
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But in my experience, in our background,
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there's nothing like
the community of the Anabaptist.
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I think the Amish have us all,
just to be fair
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on really, really, really close community.
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I teach, singing to the Amish,
and so we've gotten to rub
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shoulders with them,
and I think they have us all,
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but all the rest of the Anabaptist
groups were we still are
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so much closer than I felt like
we were in our former background.
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I am a music teacher and doing that.
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Choir tours are just part of life,
and this thing where we can call a church
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or multiple churches in multiple cities
and say, we're bringing
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60 people to your church, will you host
us, will you feed us three times
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and will you get housing for all of us
and the church,
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usually to say, if they're not busy,
of course we would, and make it work.
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That is the most amazing community.
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I had never seen anything like that
until we were part of this,
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these settings.
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And so it just thrills me and I,
we still go to churches.
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Some are new to me
and some are not around the country.
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And for them to plan these things
and be that welcoming
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obviously to people that they do know,
some of them, because, you know,
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a lot of our people are related,
even across state lines.
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But, it just thrills me.
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And, it is a huge deal.
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So in this part of the story
then you're starting
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to get connected
more with the Anabaptist community.
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You're mentioning things
like hospitality.
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I guess you could say. All right.
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That would be one way to describe it
that really stuck out to you.
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But what was the process itself
like joining the Anabaptists?
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As you
said, you knew there was already sort of,
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you know, years before you ever went
to an Anabaptist church that was starting,
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but then actually joining process.
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What was that like?
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I would say that because
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of the seven years of
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just slow curiosity reading,
you know, scripture reading doctrine
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and studying everything and, and again,
not being set
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on, we're going to go be this
we had no idea we were going to be this.
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We were just looking for something that
fit more with the doctrine that we were
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convicted of at that time.
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So that by the time
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we walked in the door again
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just to visit this Anabaptist church
that we'd heard about,
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I think I was probably 90,
maybe 95% there.
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And you were about what?
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63%. I would say 75 or 80.
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But we were
we had taken our time for so long
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and then look at again,
just looking for a place
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where we would fit in better
with what we already believed.
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But it it made it much easier
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as far as what we believed culturally,
it was much harder.
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There were a lot of things that we and
it wasn't necessarily anything biblical,
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but just cultural things
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that we didn't understand or comprehend
or have any framework for at all.
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That was really,
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I don't know, like getting thrown
into ice water or something in some ways.
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And we felt like we had so many things
in common doctrinally,
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but yet culturally totally different.
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That was hard. That's.
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That's it.
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That's an important piece
that I don't want to rush past.
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I'd like to drill into that a bit more.
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As much as you care to share, I don't want
to press on it too much, but it
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the doctrine alignment is one thing.
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But then there's the cultural element,
and it's easier.
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It's easy to kind of
catch one or the other, but not really
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notice both if you know what I mean?
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Like you were saying, how it's easy
for people to oh, look at the Amish and,
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you know, kind of the Amish tourism,
whatever you
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that's kind of looking
at the cultural side.
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Whoa, that's really interesting.
They do it this way.
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But then there's also the doctrinal side,
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you know, and sometimes you have people
attracted to one of those or the other.
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Right.
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And so you understand in our case
that there's some doctrinal alignment.
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Then the cultural process, is
maybe is a lot.
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And I think it's important
that we're honest about that, you know,
469
00:24:00,313 --> 00:24:01,189
yeah.
470
00:24:01,189 --> 00:24:02,649
Talk me through that process a bit.
471
00:24:02,649 --> 00:24:05,652
As, as much as I'd like to share.
472
00:24:05,694 --> 00:24:09,030
So I don't think we realize,
since we're all neighbors
473
00:24:09,531 --> 00:24:12,534
in the United States
to some point in Canada,
474
00:24:13,160 --> 00:24:16,163
how much of a different culture
it is socially
475
00:24:16,705 --> 00:24:18,331
than it is in.
476
00:24:18,331 --> 00:24:22,461
I mean, in so many ways
we look the same besides dress things.
477
00:24:22,669 --> 00:24:26,256
And so there are lots of little innuendos,
is that the right term,
478
00:24:26,798 --> 00:24:30,552
and nuances socially though.
479
00:24:30,886 --> 00:24:32,929
I mean, we're still figuring out,
480
00:24:32,929 --> 00:24:36,516
I mean, I teach music to kindergarten
through 12th grade.
481
00:24:36,725 --> 00:24:41,271
Sometimes I think to the five year olds
I teach understand their culture
482
00:24:41,271 --> 00:24:41,938
better than I do.
483
00:24:41,938 --> 00:24:46,067
And this is about our 19th year,
with the Anabaptists.
484
00:24:46,067 --> 00:24:47,652
That's incredible.
485
00:24:47,652 --> 00:24:51,364
And so and it's just tiny little things,
you know, some things are just,
486
00:24:51,531 --> 00:24:54,034
some things that we would say
487
00:24:54,034 --> 00:24:55,911
we'd be told,
you know, that's actually inappropriate.
488
00:24:55,911 --> 00:24:58,246
And I'd be like, wow, I feel so bad.
489
00:24:58,246 --> 00:25:01,583
And then sometimes, you know,
the Anabaptists would use a phrase
490
00:25:01,583 --> 00:25:06,046
and I'd be like, oh, that's
kind of irreverent and it went both ways.
491
00:25:06,379 --> 00:25:09,382
And, and it's just frustrating,
you know, to be
492
00:25:09,382 --> 00:25:12,385
in your 30s
and 40s and be learning things like that.
493
00:25:12,511 --> 00:25:14,429
And then, I mean, some of it's
494
00:25:14,429 --> 00:25:16,890
lighthearted, like,
I remember the first time
495
00:25:16,890 --> 00:25:18,475
somebody said, we're having haystacks.
496
00:25:18,475 --> 00:25:20,018
And I thought, okay, haystacks.
497
00:25:20,018 --> 00:25:23,522
And then I noticed that it looks
sort of like Mexican food
498
00:25:23,522 --> 00:25:26,733
because Deana is from Texas
and we love good Mexican food.
499
00:25:27,025 --> 00:25:29,361
And so they put all of it in a pile.
500
00:25:29,361 --> 00:25:32,113
And I thought,
oh, that's, that's irreverent.
501
00:25:32,113 --> 00:25:32,989
And then
502
00:25:32,989 --> 00:25:36,076
and then they got the ranch dressing out
and put it all over and I'm like, okay,
503
00:25:36,076 --> 00:25:37,118
this is wrong.
504
00:25:38,119 --> 00:25:38,912
And so
505
00:25:38,912 --> 00:25:42,123
I'm still not sure
if it's supposed to be sort of Mexican
506
00:25:42,123 --> 00:25:45,252
or if it's just a meal
with Mexican ingredients.
507
00:25:45,252 --> 00:25:46,795
I don't know, I've, I've
508
00:25:46,795 --> 00:25:50,632
honestly not figured it out either myself,
but I've never thought of that before.
509
00:25:50,674 --> 00:25:51,758
That's actually kind of hilarious.
510
00:25:51,758 --> 00:25:53,218
And so that's a happy
511
00:25:53,218 --> 00:25:57,097
a funny way to look at,
you know, culture shock, in a subtle way.
512
00:25:57,556 --> 00:26:00,809
That's interesting
that you use the phrase culture shock.
513
00:26:02,686 --> 00:26:04,354
Yeah. Is that kind of what it felt like.
514
00:26:04,354 --> 00:26:07,357
It Well, it was spurts of culture shock.
515
00:26:07,357 --> 00:26:09,484
It wasn't like suddenly, wow.
516
00:26:09,484 --> 00:26:10,735
Because we had watched it.
517
00:26:10,735 --> 00:26:13,738
I would say that they were very
518
00:26:15,115 --> 00:26:18,368
open in patient and answered our
they were very approachable.
519
00:26:18,660 --> 00:26:19,286
Yeah.
520
00:26:19,286 --> 00:26:21,913
I wonder sometimes, are we approachable?
521
00:26:21,913 --> 00:26:23,873
You know,
and if they were very approachable
522
00:26:23,873 --> 00:26:25,542
they would answer our questions.
523
00:26:25,542 --> 00:26:27,544
They were very accepting of us.
524
00:26:28,795 --> 00:26:30,964
But yeah, I just
525
00:26:30,964 --> 00:26:33,842
I don't know why the food thing comes up,
but I the first time
526
00:26:33,842 --> 00:26:37,012
we went through the food line, whatever,
I and I looked and I was like, oh.
527
00:26:37,220 --> 00:26:40,849
And I said, Jeff,
they make their own little Debbie's.
528
00:26:40,890 --> 00:26:43,143
They were little whoopie
pies like wrapped up.
529
00:26:43,143 --> 00:26:46,771
And I was like, oh, they make their own
little Debbie's like so that but again,
530
00:26:46,980 --> 00:26:51,359
those things have nothing to do
with doctrine or anything biblical.
531
00:26:51,693 --> 00:26:53,653
They're funny and they're little quirks.
532
00:26:53,653 --> 00:26:56,990
And I think that was important
for us was to separate, you know?
533
00:26:56,990 --> 00:26:58,950
Okay, I don't make Little Debbie.
534
00:26:58,950 --> 00:27:00,994
I'm sorry, don't make whoopie pies.
535
00:27:00,994 --> 00:27:03,747
But that has nothing to do with what
536
00:27:03,747 --> 00:27:06,750
I believe about these doctrinal issues.
537
00:27:06,833 --> 00:27:10,503
And I think that helped us a lot to
was just to, to appreciate the differences
538
00:27:10,503 --> 00:27:12,005
and just say, well,
I didn't grow up like that.
539
00:27:12,005 --> 00:27:13,798
My mom didn't
teach me how to make whoopie pies,
540
00:27:13,798 --> 00:27:17,093
but that doesn't mean I'm
less of a homemaker or less of a Christian
541
00:27:17,093 --> 00:27:20,221
or something,
because it's not a doctrinal issue.
542
00:27:20,722 --> 00:27:23,725
but at the same time, the culture element
543
00:27:23,933 --> 00:27:26,936
can result in a lot of confusion
and disorientation.
544
00:27:26,936 --> 00:27:28,647
Right. It was huge.
545
00:27:28,647 --> 00:27:29,230
It was huge.
546
00:27:29,230 --> 00:27:32,525
It was very like you said,
especially we were in our 40s, 30s, 40s.
547
00:27:32,525 --> 00:27:32,984
And it was,
548
00:27:34,527 --> 00:27:36,988
you feel like by that
point you've got a few things figured out,
549
00:27:36,988 --> 00:27:39,282
and then all of a sudden
you think maybe we don't.
550
00:27:39,282 --> 00:27:40,116
Yeah, yeah.
551
00:27:40,116 --> 00:27:41,826
Again, just it feels, in my mind.
552
00:27:41,826 --> 00:27:43,411
The word it keeps coming up is.
553
00:27:43,411 --> 00:27:44,287
Yeah, disorienting.
554
00:27:44,287 --> 00:27:45,830
You know, you've lived this,
555
00:27:45,830 --> 00:27:48,958
this portion of your life and, like, okay,
you know, kind of know how things work.
556
00:27:48,958 --> 00:27:49,167
And then.
557
00:27:49,167 --> 00:27:50,377
So then you're in an environment
558
00:27:50,377 --> 00:27:53,630
where you keep getting hit with random
surprises, where it's like, whoa,
559
00:27:54,756 --> 00:27:57,634
how did you how did you work through that?
560
00:27:57,634 --> 00:28:01,262
I think we get asked
not often, but enough.
561
00:28:01,596 --> 00:28:05,058
What can the Anabaptists do to, make it
562
00:28:05,058 --> 00:28:08,311
so that all the people from our background
will come into the churches and stay?
563
00:28:08,311 --> 00:28:12,899
And I think they want this list of,
horrible things that the Anabaptists
564
00:28:12,899 --> 00:28:15,360
are doing to offend the people
from our background that they leave.
565
00:28:15,360 --> 00:28:19,739
And I think we've decided
that there's nothing like that at all.
566
00:28:20,448 --> 00:28:22,742
It tends to be it.
567
00:28:22,742 --> 00:28:22,951
Well,
568
00:28:22,951 --> 00:28:25,954
it tends to be people who decide that it's
just not worth the cost, for one thing.
569
00:28:26,246 --> 00:28:31,292
But for this specific conversation,
there are misunderstandings.
570
00:28:31,292 --> 00:28:34,003
I think that all that happen,
the Anabaptists do
571
00:28:34,003 --> 00:28:37,924
have a social worldview,
as do the non Anabaptists.
572
00:28:38,258 --> 00:28:42,095
And so I think sometimes
we mind read each other incorrectly
573
00:28:42,554 --> 00:28:47,016
and and since we're in an Anabaptist
setting,
574
00:28:47,225 --> 00:28:50,562
you know, their mind reading
is going to be more valid to some point
575
00:28:50,770 --> 00:28:54,149
because it's the predominating worldview
of the of their church.
576
00:28:54,566 --> 00:28:57,944
And so we're the ones that can feel
kind of silly, you know, and be left out.
577
00:28:58,236 --> 00:29:00,280
And so I like animals.
578
00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:03,616
And so, we had some friends
and they almost adopted
579
00:29:03,616 --> 00:29:06,119
as they were so wonderful to us
when we first came to the Anabaptist.
580
00:29:06,119 --> 00:29:09,122
And so I would just go out
and pet their cow and talk to it.
581
00:29:09,164 --> 00:29:12,417
And they told me after, a year
or so they said,
582
00:29:12,417 --> 00:29:15,920
we thought that you were not a Christian
because you, like, worshiped animals.
583
00:29:16,296 --> 00:29:17,672
And I was I was like,
584
00:29:18,882 --> 00:29:20,341
oh, okay.
585
00:29:20,341 --> 00:29:21,760
Interesting. Right.
586
00:29:21,760 --> 00:29:25,472
And so, you know, they said like,
you know, he's to eat or whatever.
587
00:29:25,889 --> 00:29:28,558
And I probably said,
you know, don't, don't eat them.
588
00:29:28,558 --> 00:29:30,059
And I mean, anyways.
589
00:29:30,059 --> 00:29:31,519
And so they're like, yeah.
590
00:29:31,519 --> 00:29:34,606
And so things like that,
I just think, you know, they're thinking,
591
00:29:34,814 --> 00:29:37,025
wow, this guy really is kind of messed up.
592
00:29:37,025 --> 00:29:37,901
He worships animals.
593
00:29:37,901 --> 00:29:41,571
And I was just like,
I just like to pet animals, anyways.
594
00:29:41,571 --> 00:29:45,366
So some things like that, ya’ll are
looking at me like that is kind of weird.
595
00:29:45,366 --> 00:29:48,036
Jeff. Anyways.
596
00:29:48,036 --> 00:29:51,456
Well but I think this is,
this is kind of like
597
00:29:51,956 --> 00:29:55,043
a fish in water doesn't, doesn't
realize there's water around it, you know,
598
00:29:55,043 --> 00:29:57,629
like that's how it is with the cultures
that we, that we live in.
599
00:29:57,629 --> 00:29:59,464
Sometimes it's immersive.
600
00:29:59,464 --> 00:30:02,217
And then when someone tries
to break into that space,
601
00:30:02,217 --> 00:30:05,804
it can just be complicated,
I guess is the word that comes to mind.
602
00:30:06,471 --> 00:30:08,556
I think preconceived notions,
603
00:30:09,557 --> 00:30:11,726
are really not helpful either.
604
00:30:11,726 --> 00:30:17,690
I know one time I sewed
some dresses and I had taken Home EC,
605
00:30:17,816 --> 00:30:21,277
I don't know why or whatever,
and I knew how to sew anyway, so I'd sewn
606
00:30:22,487 --> 00:30:25,073
some dresses for my my daughters and I,
607
00:30:25,073 --> 00:30:27,325
and we went to church
the next day or whatever.
608
00:30:27,325 --> 00:30:30,703
And somebody said to me,
oh, you have a new dress.
609
00:30:30,703 --> 00:30:31,788
And I said, yeah.
610
00:30:31,788 --> 00:30:34,791
And they said, well, who sewed it for you?
611
00:30:35,792 --> 00:30:37,794
And I said, I sewed them.
612
00:30:37,794 --> 00:30:40,255
And they were like, oh, you sew?
613
00:30:40,255 --> 00:30:44,592
And it was like,
yeah, like my mom sewed my grandmother.
614
00:30:44,592 --> 00:30:46,052
So like, what's the big deal?
615
00:30:46,052 --> 00:30:49,055
You can only sew
if you're an Anabaptist or something.
616
00:30:49,514 --> 00:30:50,723
So things like that.
617
00:30:50,723 --> 00:30:53,059
I think we're a little like that
618
00:30:53,059 --> 00:30:56,062
because you, you want to fit in
like from our standpoint,
619
00:30:56,312 --> 00:30:58,314
there are so many similarities
doctrinally.
620
00:30:58,314 --> 00:30:58,982
We just want to
621
00:31:00,358 --> 00:31:01,734
feel a part of it.
622
00:31:01,734 --> 00:31:05,196
And I think when we felt singled out like,
oh, you're so different,
623
00:31:05,655 --> 00:31:09,158
we didn't necessarily and we felt it some,
but it was like, oh,
624
00:31:09,158 --> 00:31:12,620
thanks for drawing attention to the fact
that, you know, that
625
00:31:12,620 --> 00:31:15,957
you think I'm really different and weird,
even though on that issue I wasn't
626
00:31:16,416 --> 00:31:20,211
that was kind of,
But I think it was misunderstandings.
627
00:31:20,211 --> 00:31:23,214
I don't think they meant it
to be as hurtful as it was.
628
00:31:23,256 --> 00:31:29,095
I was at a brothers meeting once
and I've lovely people and we were
629
00:31:29,095 --> 00:31:32,098
talking about, passing out turkeys
630
00:31:32,098 --> 00:31:34,934
at, Thanksgiving to the community.
631
00:31:34,934 --> 00:31:36,936
You know, it's
just to be a blessing as a church.
632
00:31:36,936 --> 00:31:38,479
And one of the people said, well,
633
00:31:38,479 --> 00:31:41,482
do you think the people in the community
will know how to cook the turkeys?
634
00:31:41,774 --> 00:31:44,777
And I was just thinking, okay,
you just said that in front of me.
635
00:31:44,819 --> 00:31:46,613
You know, I came from North Carolina,
636
00:31:46,613 --> 00:31:50,199
and, us hillbillies could make the most
wonderful food in the world.
637
00:31:50,199 --> 00:31:52,577
And every one of us knows
how to make a turkey.
638
00:31:52,577 --> 00:31:54,329
And so some things like that,
639
00:31:54,329 --> 00:31:58,541
it comes across as hurtful,
but it wasn't really meant to be that way.
640
00:31:58,541 --> 00:31:59,292
And I don't think they thought
641
00:31:59,292 --> 00:32:03,254
I was even in the room
as a non Anabaptist background person.
642
00:32:03,254 --> 00:32:05,173
So there is that.
643
00:32:05,173 --> 00:32:05,965
But it's so easy.
644
00:32:05,965 --> 00:32:10,261
Just have these assumptions that there's
kind of happen, you know what I mean?
645
00:32:10,261 --> 00:32:11,054
And that's.
646
00:32:12,597 --> 00:32:15,642
I can see
some of this as, as definitely a process.
647
00:32:15,642 --> 00:32:19,520
You know, as y'all are entering this
and trying to find your way and I think
648
00:32:20,355 --> 00:32:22,857
back to some of the things
you were saying, you know,
649
00:32:22,857 --> 00:32:25,944
we all want to have a place like
we want to feel like we belong somewhere.
650
00:32:26,235 --> 00:32:28,821
It feels like that's that's a theme
that's coming through this episode.
651
00:32:28,821 --> 00:32:29,197
Right?
652
00:32:29,197 --> 00:32:33,451
Is you're searching, you know, you've been
in these different church situations
653
00:32:33,451 --> 00:32:35,286
and you're trying to find, okay,
where do we belong?
654
00:32:35,286 --> 00:32:38,289
Where can we join
a community of believers, where we
655
00:32:38,581 --> 00:32:42,794
where we feel like,
yeah, we're a part, you know, we fit here.
656
00:32:43,044 --> 00:32:46,255
And in a way,
I think everybody's looking for that.
657
00:32:46,965 --> 00:32:49,092
You know?
658
00:32:49,092 --> 00:32:51,427
So this is maybe backing up a little bit,
659
00:32:51,427 --> 00:32:53,346
but I want to make sure we, we,
we catch this here.
660
00:32:53,346 --> 00:32:55,056
What were the main points
661
00:32:56,099 --> 00:32:59,602
that convinced you that you wanted to join
the Anabaptist?
662
00:33:00,645 --> 00:33:02,021
You were hitting
some of the cultural things,
663
00:33:02,021 --> 00:33:05,650
but it'd be interesting to catch
some of the doctrinal, elements as well.
664
00:33:06,442 --> 00:33:08,027
I think it was.
665
00:33:08,027 --> 00:33:12,615
And I don't know when this became
the defining point, but I feel like that
666
00:33:13,366 --> 00:33:16,619
in all the things that we've seen
and we haven't seen
667
00:33:17,120 --> 00:33:19,789
every situation, obviously, in the world,
668
00:33:19,789 --> 00:33:24,252
that the Anabaptist approach
to Christianity
669
00:33:24,252 --> 00:33:28,548
is the most biblical
and that's not to run anyone down.
670
00:33:28,756 --> 00:33:30,341
I don't know what you know.
671
00:33:30,341 --> 00:33:32,510
The underground church in China does.
672
00:33:32,510 --> 00:33:33,970
I have respect for it.
673
00:33:33,970 --> 00:33:37,932
I don't know what indigenous peoples, do
674
00:33:38,474 --> 00:33:43,021
that are evangelized and come to Christ,
but I feel like what I know of North
675
00:33:43,021 --> 00:33:46,274
American culture, it's the best example
I've seen.
676
00:33:46,649 --> 00:33:50,486
Of listening to the teachings of the Bible
and reading them and doing them,
677
00:33:50,820 --> 00:33:53,823
and more specific, the teachings of Christ
678
00:33:53,865 --> 00:33:56,409
and, of the sermon on the Mount.
679
00:33:56,409 --> 00:33:59,829
And it's hard for me to think,
and I don't want to be arrogant and say,
680
00:33:59,829 --> 00:34:01,456
well, I will never leave.
681
00:34:01,456 --> 00:34:05,376
We're here by God's grace, and I hope
that we will stay by God's grace,
682
00:34:06,210 --> 00:34:09,589
what is dear to us is, again,
683
00:34:09,797 --> 00:34:12,759
listening to the scriptures and saying,
it says to do this.
684
00:34:12,759 --> 00:34:16,596
So we're in a church
that chooses to do those things.
685
00:34:16,804 --> 00:34:22,268
And the Anabaptists aren't perfect with
every little thing that we do, I get that,
686
00:34:22,477 --> 00:34:25,855
but I've never seen any other group
that really is this dedicated
687
00:34:26,439 --> 00:34:29,650
to to the words of Christ
and the commands, the scriptures.
688
00:34:29,901 --> 00:34:33,780
And, it would be hard to go back and say,
you know, we still have these beliefs.
689
00:34:34,697 --> 00:34:37,450
Well,
I don't want to be negative or anything.
690
00:34:37,450 --> 00:34:42,038
You know, and run anybody down,
but I feel like this is the best example.
691
00:34:43,873 --> 00:34:44,290
Yeah.
692
00:34:44,290 --> 00:34:46,084
What would you say.
693
00:34:46,084 --> 00:34:46,918
That's it.
694
00:34:46,918 --> 00:34:49,921
I mean,
we have been in different situations
695
00:34:50,296 --> 00:34:53,299
in Anabaptist churches
where we've been hurt.
696
00:34:53,883 --> 00:34:57,095
But we if we really believe this
and we do,
697
00:34:57,553 --> 00:35:00,807
we there's no, we're going to be
in an Anabaptist church somewhere
698
00:35:00,807 --> 00:35:04,852
because our doctrine
and our beliefs are Anabaptist.
699
00:35:05,978 --> 00:35:09,565
And so I think that's been part
of the longevity of our journey, is that
700
00:35:09,565 --> 00:35:13,903
we felt like we're going to make it work
because this is what we believe.
701
00:35:15,279 --> 00:35:19,534
Well and that's another thread too that's
coming through is perseverance right.
702
00:35:20,118 --> 00:35:23,121
Is that is that capture it correctly.
703
00:35:24,872 --> 00:35:27,458
Do you want to say
anything more on on that point
704
00:35:27,458 --> 00:35:31,254
I think I mean to people
that would be searching and considering
705
00:35:32,797 --> 00:35:36,175
to consider it carefully
and think about it for a long time
706
00:35:37,176 --> 00:35:41,639
and to jump in and to do it in the end
707
00:35:42,223 --> 00:35:45,226
for obedience to God and Christ,
708
00:35:46,310 --> 00:35:50,022
even if the hurts come because you know,
I want to do
709
00:35:50,022 --> 00:35:53,025
what God would have us to do and
710
00:35:53,526 --> 00:35:55,862
maybe not be a fundamentalist,
711
00:35:55,862 --> 00:35:59,240
however do to obey
Christ and His commands.
712
00:36:00,032 --> 00:36:03,035
And so, like Deana said, we have been hurt
713
00:36:03,161 --> 00:36:04,162
and people have...
714
00:36:04,162 --> 00:36:05,121
And I feel like we feel it
715
00:36:05,121 --> 00:36:09,041
more since we don't always feel
like we are in as a part of the culture.
716
00:36:09,041 --> 00:36:10,960
I think our children do.
717
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:14,964
So, yeah, the perseverance
for the sake of following Christ
718
00:36:15,506 --> 00:36:18,509
and being in the community of people
that follow Christ,
719
00:36:18,843 --> 00:36:20,720
Perseverance for the right reasons.
720
00:36:20,720 --> 00:36:21,888
That’s what I was about to say.
721
00:36:21,888 --> 00:36:25,892
Yeah, because there's so many bad reasons
that people could do things.
722
00:36:26,309 --> 00:36:30,980
And I feel like for us it was that was
what ultimately that's what mattered.
723
00:36:30,980 --> 00:36:36,319
That's more important than relationships
or being misunderstood or whatever.
724
00:36:36,611 --> 00:36:38,321
It's our beliefs.
725
00:36:38,321 --> 00:36:39,530
So we had we had to
726
00:36:39,530 --> 00:36:41,741
I remember one time we said, well,
where else are we going to go?
727
00:36:41,741 --> 00:36:42,825
What are we going to?
728
00:36:42,825 --> 00:36:44,493
We have to stick this out.
729
00:36:44,493 --> 00:36:47,121
Yeah,
because we do believe what we believe.
730
00:36:47,121 --> 00:36:50,750
So I think that the the modest clothing
731
00:36:50,875 --> 00:36:53,878
in this separation is a big draw.
732
00:36:54,170 --> 00:36:57,423
I just don't think that
that would be enough for us to stay.
733
00:36:57,632 --> 00:37:01,135
And I think maybe that's
why some people join for a while
734
00:37:01,135 --> 00:37:04,138
and then go away
and then the lifestyle as well.
735
00:37:04,138 --> 00:37:04,347
Yeah.
736
00:37:04,347 --> 00:37:06,349
I mean, along with us
737
00:37:06,349 --> 00:37:09,852
going to look at the Amish,
we tried farming and a tiny bit
738
00:37:09,852 --> 00:37:13,689
of homesteading and starting businesses
in, we failed at all of those.
739
00:37:15,191 --> 00:37:18,152
We did really we’re
740
00:37:18,152 --> 00:37:22,531
unapologetically teachers and It's what
we absolutely love to do. so.
741
00:37:22,531 --> 00:37:25,952
You don't have a little garden
and all the typical Mennonite things,
742
00:37:25,952 --> 00:37:28,955
you know, and I think I got two tomatoes
this year, right.
743
00:37:30,248 --> 00:37:33,751
Well, okay, I don't feel quite so bad
because I'm like the worst gardener
744
00:37:33,876 --> 00:37:34,585
on the planet.
745
00:37:34,585 --> 00:37:37,880
So I just kind of given up hope
that that would ever happen. So,
746
00:37:39,298 --> 00:37:41,342
you know,
and we can kind of chuckle about it, but,
747
00:37:41,342 --> 00:37:42,635
you know, like,
that's actually a thing like
748
00:37:42,635 --> 00:37:44,345
the Mennonites have their gardens
and the whatever.
749
00:37:44,345 --> 00:37:46,806
And if someone's coming in and like,
oh, okay, well, if this is like
750
00:37:46,806 --> 00:37:48,349
how we're supposed to do things and,
751
00:37:48,349 --> 00:37:51,811
and yet maybe you're don't want to do it
or don't enjoy it or something like
752
00:37:51,811 --> 00:37:56,691
that could be unnecessary pressure
that isn't really intentional.
753
00:37:56,691 --> 00:37:59,026
It just kind of happens. So
754
00:37:59,986 --> 00:38:03,155
as we pull this package together,
755
00:38:04,407 --> 00:38:09,328
what advice would you give to listeners
that are on their own journey right now
756
00:38:09,662 --> 00:38:13,791
of trying to find what church
should I plug into what
757
00:38:13,833 --> 00:38:19,046
how do I join a community
that represents the things that I value
758
00:38:19,046 --> 00:38:22,591
and that I believe God is calling me to,
and they're on that journey?
759
00:38:23,134 --> 00:38:24,719
Whichever part of the process
they may be in,
760
00:38:24,719 --> 00:38:28,180
because in your situation,
it was quite a process, right?
761
00:38:29,265 --> 00:38:31,392
What do you say to those people
they're searching,
762
00:38:31,392 --> 00:38:34,395
and what advice would you give them?
763
00:38:34,437 --> 00:38:38,149
I, I think that we should search
764
00:38:38,149 --> 00:38:41,152
for a church
that we feel very comfortable in.
765
00:38:41,444 --> 00:38:44,071
And, oftentimes
766
00:38:44,071 --> 00:38:47,825
our people come in,
they want to be extremely conservative.
767
00:38:48,242 --> 00:38:53,247
We, we want to be the most conservative
Mennonite or Amish that we can.
768
00:38:54,040 --> 00:38:56,792
And we get frustrated with the churches
769
00:38:56,792 --> 00:38:59,795
that we find because we feel like
they're not conservative enough.
770
00:38:59,879 --> 00:39:02,840
And so we want the churches
to bend a little for us.
771
00:39:02,840 --> 00:39:07,595
And then I've also seen our people come
and want to be fairly liberal
772
00:39:08,262 --> 00:39:11,015
and, and so they go to,
773
00:39:11,974 --> 00:39:14,769
a conservative church
and they want it to be more liberal.
774
00:39:14,769 --> 00:39:16,437
Am I saying this? Right?
775
00:39:16,437 --> 00:39:20,399
And so, I think it's important
to find a church that is as close
776
00:39:20,399 --> 00:39:26,072
as your belief system, including
culturally, for lack of a better term.
777
00:39:26,072 --> 00:39:29,575
Is it the right conservative
or the right liberal amount for you?
778
00:39:29,992 --> 00:39:32,995
Because it is frustrating,
because I feel like some of the
779
00:39:33,371 --> 00:39:36,040
well-meaning Anabaptist
churches will try to make things
780
00:39:36,040 --> 00:39:39,210
a little bit more liberal,
if that's what we are pushing for,
781
00:39:39,293 --> 00:39:42,963
because they want to keep us usually,
maybe not much more conservative.
782
00:39:43,422 --> 00:39:45,716
And so, I would keep going.
783
00:39:45,716 --> 00:39:49,136
If the churches are available
in the communities where you are
784
00:39:49,136 --> 00:39:52,139
from to try to find something that suits.
785
00:39:52,348 --> 00:39:54,308
And also
786
00:39:54,308 --> 00:39:57,395
our people can be pretty cynical
about the Anabaptist.
787
00:39:58,312 --> 00:39:59,397
Nuances and things.
788
00:39:59,397 --> 00:40:01,023
And I think hearts come into play.
789
00:40:01,023 --> 00:40:03,859
I think sometimes for a time
when we come in
790
00:40:03,859 --> 00:40:07,071
for the first
4 or 5 years, we kind of feel
791
00:40:08,155 --> 00:40:10,282
and it's not imposed on anyone,
792
00:40:10,282 --> 00:40:13,661
kind of self-imposed, like we don't have
anything to contribute to the community.
793
00:40:14,620 --> 00:40:18,999
And so I feel like we replace
that kind of not feeling valuable
794
00:40:19,291 --> 00:40:22,294
with some cynicism and Mennonite jokes.
795
00:40:22,503 --> 00:40:25,464
And so, I would just avoid that.
796
00:40:25,464 --> 00:40:28,467
I mean, the Mennonites
do some very charming things
797
00:40:29,093 --> 00:40:33,264
and they can be teased about occasionally,
but I just feel like,
798
00:40:34,014 --> 00:40:36,350
you know, keep the cynicism at bay and see
799
00:40:36,350 --> 00:40:39,353
the beauty of the culture
and the wonderful things.
800
00:40:40,104 --> 00:40:44,150
I would say, first of all,
and I think, again, what we're for us
801
00:40:44,150 --> 00:40:47,778
was that we already knew what we believed.
802
00:40:47,778 --> 00:40:50,906
We had read the Bible, we studied,
803
00:40:50,906 --> 00:40:54,285
we weren't following any religion
because we didn't even know it existed.
804
00:40:54,285 --> 00:40:56,328
Really? Or what knew what it was.
805
00:40:56,328 --> 00:40:59,957
And certainly
not the details about it, but
806
00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:02,960
as we grew
807
00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:06,839
spiritually, we just got to a point
where this is what we believe.
808
00:41:06,839 --> 00:41:09,925
And so we were looking for a group
that believed that.
809
00:41:10,092 --> 00:41:13,095
And we certainly never thought
it would be,
810
00:41:14,096 --> 00:41:17,099
where we ended up
when we started, for sure.
811
00:41:17,600 --> 00:41:22,313
But that way if you go in and,
oh, maybe we'll do this or they do this,
812
00:41:22,313 --> 00:41:24,523
maybe we'll do this and oh,
we don't really believe this,
813
00:41:24,523 --> 00:41:26,817
but everybody else does it,
so maybe we'll do it.
814
00:41:26,817 --> 00:41:27,818
That's not going to work.
815
00:41:27,818 --> 00:41:29,028
That's not going to last long term.
816
00:41:29,028 --> 00:41:31,030
It's not sustainable. No.
817
00:41:31,030 --> 00:41:34,200
And I feel like there are things
obviously that we can oh I haven't
818
00:41:34,200 --> 00:41:37,161
thought about that before or that might be
something really good to add in.
819
00:41:37,203 --> 00:41:42,249
But you have to really for us, we had to
really know what we believed before.
820
00:41:42,500 --> 00:41:45,419
You know I think that helped. So much.
821
00:41:45,419 --> 00:41:47,963
I had a friend, and,
822
00:41:49,423 --> 00:41:50,090
her family
823
00:41:50,090 --> 00:41:53,385
was also from non-Anabaptist background,
but we were just talking one time,
824
00:41:53,928 --> 00:41:58,015
and she said that
her mother would sit in church sometimes.
825
00:41:58,557 --> 00:42:00,226
And after church was over,
826
00:42:00,226 --> 00:42:02,770
all the ladies would,
you know, talk about whatever they were.
827
00:42:02,770 --> 00:42:05,773
And she said her mom didn't really
828
00:42:05,856 --> 00:42:08,859
feel like she fit in
or had really, you know, close friends.
829
00:42:08,984 --> 00:42:13,280
And, but her mother had said, well,
I might not completely fit
830
00:42:13,280 --> 00:42:17,368
in, you know, ever really
or feel like I do, but my children, will.
831
00:42:18,160 --> 00:42:20,913
and that was the sacrifice
that she was willing to make because her
832
00:42:20,913 --> 00:42:23,916
upbringing and background in education,
everything was so different.
833
00:42:24,291 --> 00:42:29,964
But she was willing to do that because she
felt like this will benefit my children.
834
00:42:30,548 --> 00:42:32,508
And I have felt like that sometimes.
835
00:42:32,508 --> 00:42:35,094
But I will say in my church setting now,
836
00:42:35,094 --> 00:42:38,931
I feel accepted and appreciated
837
00:42:39,682 --> 00:42:43,310
for the person I am
and whatever God's given me.
838
00:42:43,769 --> 00:42:45,104
And that's that's a good feeling.
839
00:42:45,104 --> 00:42:49,191
I haven't always felt that way, but
I do really appreciate where we are now.
840
00:42:49,191 --> 00:42:50,568
Some.
841
00:42:50,568 --> 00:42:53,904
And I think that's an important piece
that you had there
842
00:42:54,113 --> 00:42:57,449
that our churches,
when I say our churches.
843
00:42:57,449 --> 00:43:00,869
I mean the, the Anabaptist community
needs to be aware of
844
00:43:02,246 --> 00:43:02,788
is the
845
00:43:02,788 --> 00:43:06,250
and these are hard things
to know what to do with.
846
00:43:06,250 --> 00:43:09,336
But it is so easy to miss things
847
00:43:09,628 --> 00:43:13,507
because of some of the cultural dynamics
or different backgrounds.
848
00:43:13,799 --> 00:43:17,761
Sometimes there's there's gaps or we're
missing each other in the communication.
849
00:43:18,053 --> 00:43:21,348
And I don't know what the solutions are
to these things, you know,
850
00:43:21,348 --> 00:43:24,935
but hopefully we can at least put
a little more awareness out there of this.
851
00:43:25,311 --> 00:43:26,103
Maybe that will make people
852
00:43:26,103 --> 00:43:29,732
more gracious and more,
willing to learn from each other, perhaps.
853
00:43:29,982 --> 00:43:32,901
I don't even know, you know,
and but perhaps you have something
854
00:43:32,901 --> 00:43:34,111
you want to add to that.
855
00:43:34,111 --> 00:43:36,405
I was just going to say, I think
856
00:43:36,405 --> 00:43:37,489
maybe I'm wrong with the men.
857
00:43:37,489 --> 00:43:40,367
Might have an easier time of it
because they can talk about their jobs or,
858
00:43:40,367 --> 00:43:41,035
you know, whatever.
859
00:43:41,035 --> 00:43:45,664
And I think sometimes for the women,
there are bigger differences.
860
00:43:45,664 --> 00:43:49,376
In some ways, I,
I don't know, but I feel like.
861
00:43:50,502 --> 00:43:51,629
I've been in situations
862
00:43:51,629 --> 00:43:55,007
where they all grew up together,
they all went to school together.
863
00:43:55,007 --> 00:43:59,762
They all, you know,
and I just felt like, I'm so different.
864
00:43:59,762 --> 00:44:03,766
You know, I only kind of merge in here,
you know, within the past ten years or so.
865
00:44:03,974 --> 00:44:06,977
And so
866
00:44:07,811 --> 00:44:10,397
then I feel like
I'm not going to interrupt
867
00:44:10,397 --> 00:44:11,649
and say, hey, let's talk about this.
868
00:44:11,649 --> 00:44:13,609
That applies to me, you know?
869
00:44:13,609 --> 00:44:16,195
And so but I do really appreciate
870
00:44:16,195 --> 00:44:19,156
the the women that have reached out to me.
871
00:44:19,156 --> 00:44:20,866
And I don't want to be a ministry project.
872
00:44:20,866 --> 00:44:22,451
I don't want that either.
873
00:44:22,451 --> 00:44:25,788
But but but not like ministry project
but as in like
874
00:44:26,372 --> 00:44:29,583
someone that reached out and cared
about your life and just had interest in
875
00:44:29,583 --> 00:44:34,630
you and, and made an effort to, to include
you, is that, a way of saying it or.
876
00:44:34,672 --> 00:44:38,592
I don't know, because I don't
I do not want to be a ministry project.
877
00:44:38,592 --> 00:44:42,763
I think Jeff and I have always felt like
we do not want to be needy,
878
00:44:43,305 --> 00:44:46,308
because sometimes
people from our background
879
00:44:46,517 --> 00:44:50,896
can come in and they're so they need this
and they need that and they want that.
880
00:44:50,896 --> 00:44:52,106
It's like take, take, take.
881
00:44:52,106 --> 00:44:52,481
And Jeff
882
00:44:52,481 --> 00:44:55,025
and I never wanted to be like that.
We wanted to give we were,
883
00:44:55,025 --> 00:44:57,403
we were frustrated that we could’nt
give more.
884
00:44:57,403 --> 00:45:00,072
And so I never wanted to feel like that.
885
00:45:00,072 --> 00:45:02,366
But it's just it's nice when somebody
886
00:45:03,575 --> 00:45:06,745
includes you or something being included
I think.
887
00:45:06,787 --> 00:45:07,621
Yeah.
888
00:45:07,621 --> 00:45:10,958
It kind of gives a sense of,
okay, I belong here, I fit in here.
889
00:45:11,250 --> 00:45:13,043
and to be honest with you, in the churches
890
00:45:13,043 --> 00:45:16,004
where we would talk
about spiritual things,
891
00:45:16,004 --> 00:45:17,756
I felt a lot more
892
00:45:17,756 --> 00:45:20,759
that those conversations
were easy to be a part of.
893
00:45:20,843 --> 00:45:24,972
That's a that's a that's an interesting
and I think important, important piece.
894
00:45:24,972 --> 00:45:27,558
There. Yeah.
895
00:45:27,558 --> 00:45:30,561
Do you have something you'd like to add to
to what she was saying.
896
00:45:31,437 --> 00:45:35,065
we didn't talk about it much,
but that there was a, not a crisis.
897
00:45:35,232 --> 00:45:38,235
But it was hard for us for 2 or 3 years
because we really felt like
898
00:45:38,444 --> 00:45:40,279
we didn't have anything to give.
899
00:45:40,279 --> 00:45:43,699
And this is our perspective,
not necessarily everybody
900
00:45:43,699 --> 00:45:46,702
that would come from the non Mennonite
background.
901
00:45:46,744 --> 00:45:50,914
We were musicians, you know,
we had taught high school bands
902
00:45:51,206 --> 00:45:54,918
and instrumental music
was a huge part of what we did.
903
00:45:55,419 --> 00:45:58,338
And so in our first Anabaptist church,
I'm not sure
904
00:45:58,338 --> 00:46:01,633
if they actually what we're thinking,
what we thought they were thinking.
905
00:46:01,842 --> 00:46:03,552
Again, on that mind reading.
906
00:46:03,552 --> 00:46:07,347
We thought you just didn't
talk much about instruments and playing.
907
00:46:07,347 --> 00:46:10,392
And we, you know, play classical music
and other kinds of music.
908
00:46:10,726 --> 00:46:14,021
And so we really felt for a while
909
00:46:14,062 --> 00:46:17,775
like we really don't say worthless
and we didn't want to appear needy.
910
00:46:17,983 --> 00:46:19,568
Like I said, we tried the gardening.
911
00:46:19,568 --> 00:46:23,572
I tried, some construction and carpentry
was kind of fail.
912
00:46:24,072 --> 00:46:27,910
And, and so we just felt like
we had nothing to give in that particular
913
00:46:27,910 --> 00:46:30,913
setting that we were in was a homeschool
only setting.
914
00:46:31,455 --> 00:46:34,041
And so there was not
a Mennonite school there.
915
00:46:34,041 --> 00:46:37,377
And so it was pretty hard
for us to feel included.
916
00:46:37,377 --> 00:46:41,089
And I do think that's one thing for us
as Mennonites could do when people come in
917
00:46:41,298 --> 00:46:42,299
is try hard.
918
00:46:42,299 --> 00:46:44,551
And I think a lot of the churches do
919
00:46:44,551 --> 00:46:48,388
once they're church members
especially, and get them involved in,
920
00:46:48,972 --> 00:46:51,975
serving the church and in the communities,
921
00:46:52,100 --> 00:46:55,312
you know, helping them to be able
to serve in different ways there.
922
00:46:56,313 --> 00:46:57,356
I remember once there was a
923
00:46:57,356 --> 00:47:00,442
fellowship meal, and we really hadn't
been asked to do much.
924
00:47:00,859 --> 00:47:04,655
And, a family we knew walked in
and they had the spoons and forks,
925
00:47:04,655 --> 00:47:05,656
the plastic ware.
926
00:47:05,656 --> 00:47:08,659
And Deana said,
we haven't even been asked to
927
00:47:09,201 --> 00:47:11,495
provide the church
with spoons and forks yet.
928
00:47:11,495 --> 00:47:13,705
We're really at the bottom of the totem
pole.
929
00:47:13,705 --> 00:47:16,124
And so, it's a blessing.
930
00:47:16,124 --> 00:47:19,461
Anything we can do to get people
when they come in involved.
931
00:47:19,670 --> 00:47:24,091
And we're so glad that we've been able
to be for 10 or 12 years in communities
932
00:47:24,091 --> 00:47:26,385
where they have Mennonite schools,
and we can serve that way.
933
00:47:26,385 --> 00:47:29,096
And we absolutely love it
Because you're both teachers right.
934
00:47:29,096 --> 00:47:30,430
Yeah. Yeah.
935
00:47:30,430 --> 00:47:32,182
So that, that, that part is neat.
936
00:47:32,182 --> 00:47:36,728
But that again
that kind of that perseverance
937
00:47:37,396 --> 00:47:40,232
to, to kind of get through
some of those hurdles like that.
938
00:47:40,232 --> 00:47:43,110
That's hard. You know that's hard.
939
00:47:43,110 --> 00:47:44,653
I wanted to say to that what he was saying
940
00:47:44,653 --> 00:47:46,405
about like figure out
where they can fit in.
941
00:47:46,405 --> 00:47:49,116
Not right away, obviously,
but when they become members.
942
00:47:50,409 --> 00:47:50,909
Just what.
943
00:47:50,909 --> 00:47:51,952
Yeah. What are their gifts?
944
00:47:51,952 --> 00:47:54,538
What what can they
what are they comfortable contributing?
945
00:47:54,538 --> 00:47:56,123
What can they help with?
946
00:47:56,123 --> 00:47:57,583
And again, not as a ministry project.
947
00:47:57,583 --> 00:47:58,667
Well, they can't do anything else.
948
00:47:58,667 --> 00:47:59,960
So we'll let them bring the forks.
949
00:47:59,960 --> 00:48:03,338
But figure out how to help people
950
00:48:03,714 --> 00:48:06,717
plug in using the gifts
that God's given them.
951
00:48:07,509 --> 00:48:11,305
I think again the key
I keep coming back to
952
00:48:11,305 --> 00:48:15,225
or thinking through this
as a, as a process for you.
953
00:48:15,225 --> 00:48:17,895
All right. And this is not
something happens overnight.
954
00:48:17,895 --> 00:48:20,480
You know, it's not like
you woke up one day and you know,
955
00:48:20,480 --> 00:48:22,524
found a book on the Amish and you're like,
I want to be like that.
956
00:48:22,524 --> 00:48:25,235
And you join the Mennonite church
next week or so, you know it.
957
00:48:25,235 --> 00:48:26,069
That isn't,
958
00:48:27,821 --> 00:48:30,824
I definitely sounds like that's not
the vibe we're going for.
959
00:48:30,866 --> 00:48:33,952
And that these things take a long time.
960
00:48:34,202 --> 00:48:38,165
And I wonder if some of the challenge is
perhaps we try to rush things a bit.
961
00:48:38,624 --> 00:48:40,584
I don't know, I could be way off.
962
00:48:40,584 --> 00:48:43,629
But it can be a bit easy
to idealize things,
963
00:48:43,629 --> 00:48:46,840
you know, and just think this is going
to be fantastic, and everything's
964
00:48:46,840 --> 00:48:47,633
gonna be great and wonderful.
965
00:48:47,633 --> 00:48:50,886
And then suddenly the culture shock,
as you said, you know, is like the
966
00:48:51,261 --> 00:48:54,431
getting dunked in ice water or something
like, whoa, I did not expect this.
967
00:48:54,806 --> 00:48:56,683
I don't know, and I could be wrong.
968
00:48:56,683 --> 00:48:58,101
And every story is different.
969
00:48:58,101 --> 00:49:01,021
But I think with us
it was almost the opposite.
970
00:49:01,021 --> 00:49:04,483
It was like, oh dear, look
what our beliefs line up with.
971
00:49:04,858 --> 00:49:07,527
It wasn't like, oh yeah, we're going to go
play little House on the Prairie.
972
00:49:07,527 --> 00:49:10,989
It was like, oh dear, now what do we do?
973
00:49:11,031 --> 00:49:12,157
Do we want to do this?
974
00:49:12,157 --> 00:49:16,912
This is, you know, and that again,
long term that was a really good thing
975
00:49:16,912 --> 00:49:21,208
because we had to think about do we, do we
is there anywhere else we fit in?
976
00:49:21,667 --> 00:49:23,502
Is this this is what we believe.
977
00:49:23,502 --> 00:49:25,379
This is where we fit in the best.
978
00:49:25,379 --> 00:49:29,758
And that's what we took quite a while
to even once we set foot in an Anabaptist
979
00:49:29,758 --> 00:49:34,346
church to think, oh dear, are we,
are we gonna really do this thing?
980
00:49:34,596 --> 00:49:38,809
And we took a long time and read
a lot and studied a lot and prayed a lot.
981
00:49:39,184 --> 00:49:40,852
The other thing was
982
00:49:40,852 --> 00:49:44,606
that when we first walked in, I know one
of the things we loved was the the music.
983
00:49:44,606 --> 00:49:46,858
We just opened the door and we were
we were late.
984
00:49:46,858 --> 00:49:48,944
Of course,
people from our background are late,
985
00:49:48,944 --> 00:49:51,071
so we opened the door
and we just heard this.
986
00:49:51,071 --> 00:49:52,280
We loved music all our lives.
987
00:49:52,280 --> 00:49:54,616
We met in a music group. We've been
involved in music all our lives.
988
00:49:54,616 --> 00:49:56,535
We heard this beautiful four part sing.
989
00:49:56,535 --> 00:49:58,036
It was like, that is really neat.
990
00:49:58,036 --> 00:50:01,206
But we also there were some things
we noticed the first time.
991
00:50:01,206 --> 00:50:03,583
Oh, look at that, look at that.
992
00:50:03,583 --> 00:50:07,963
And we picked up very quickly
that Anabaptists are not perfect.
993
00:50:08,005 --> 00:50:10,215
None of us are. Nobody is.
994
00:50:10,215 --> 00:50:13,468
But I think some people would always say
to us in the beginning like,
995
00:50:13,468 --> 00:50:16,263
oh, you know, we're not perfect.
And we'd be like, don't worry.
996
00:50:16,263 --> 00:50:20,559
We noticed, you know, we picked that up
in the first five minutes.
997
00:50:20,559 --> 00:50:21,226
You know, we
998
00:50:22,394 --> 00:50:23,103
but again, that
999
00:50:23,103 --> 00:50:26,732
that misconception that you think,
we think that you're perfect, like.
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00:50:26,982 --> 00:50:29,985
No. Okay. Yeah.
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00:50:30,068 --> 00:50:30,652
I see what you are saying.
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00:50:30,652 --> 00:50:32,571
Yeah.
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00:50:32,571 --> 00:50:35,615
This, this is quite,
this is quite the story. And
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00:50:37,284 --> 00:50:41,580
I think hopefully the piece
that people are taking out of this is,
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00:50:41,580 --> 00:50:45,500
is the, the journey and the process,
you know, and going through
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00:50:47,252 --> 00:50:50,422
you know it takes time
and finding that place to,
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00:50:51,131 --> 00:50:55,844
to plug in what is, what is that
community of believers that you should be.
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00:50:55,844 --> 00:50:59,347
You know, I'm saying you
that audience, should join in.
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00:50:59,431 --> 00:51:01,850
What is God calling each of us to?
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00:51:01,850 --> 00:51:04,811
I think that's and that's
that's the question, you know,
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00:51:04,811 --> 00:51:08,482
and I'm sure there's a lot of variation
depending on who it is and where they are.
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00:51:08,732 --> 00:51:09,775
And that's the challenge.
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00:51:09,775 --> 00:51:13,236
And I think y'all,
you both had some pretty significant
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00:51:13,236 --> 00:51:16,573
pieces to add as far as the
you have the doctrinal side, right?
Speaker:
00:51:16,573 --> 00:51:19,576
The beliefs,
but then also the culture element too.
Speaker:
00:51:19,951 --> 00:51:23,038
And, and culture is very complex
and it's very hard
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00:51:23,038 --> 00:51:26,416
to understand all the different dynamics
and it's so multifaceted and so forth.
Speaker:
00:51:26,666 --> 00:51:30,962
But hopefully there are some pieces here
that some of the listeners look at.
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00:51:31,004 --> 00:51:33,590
Oh, yeah. Okay. I should, I should be,
I should be aware of that.
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00:51:33,590 --> 00:51:36,134
You know, so as, as we
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00:51:37,636 --> 00:51:40,305
bring this story to a close and,
and tie the,
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00:51:40,305 --> 00:51:43,725
the ribbons on the package, so to speak,
what are any closing
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00:51:43,725 --> 00:51:46,895
thoughts, words of advice
you'd want to give to the listeners?
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00:51:46,937 --> 00:51:49,481
Anything you want to leave us with?
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00:51:49,481 --> 00:51:51,191
I honestly don't think there's anything
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00:51:51,191 --> 00:51:54,194
more important than serving God
Speaker:
00:51:55,070 --> 00:51:58,240
you know, he says, if you love me,
keep my commandments.
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00:51:58,990 --> 00:52:01,660
And, you know, I had a friend once
that said, you know what?
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00:52:01,660 --> 00:52:04,454
If I found a better way than this,
I think I'd go.
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00:52:04,454 --> 00:52:05,705
And, I mean, I don't want to.
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00:52:05,705 --> 00:52:09,751
That sounds trivial, but truly,
I think we should be in churches
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00:52:10,377 --> 00:52:13,380
and in communities where that's the goal
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00:52:13,588 --> 00:52:18,093
is to, to serve God through Christ
and do what Christ says to do.
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00:52:19,344 --> 00:52:22,347
And I agree,
we just come back to that again and again.
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00:52:22,347 --> 00:52:24,599
It's obedience.
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00:52:24,599 --> 00:52:27,435
If we, if we do love God will obey him.
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00:52:27,435 --> 00:52:31,731
His word in whatever way we feel is right.
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00:52:32,065 --> 00:52:35,068
we found such joy in that,
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00:52:35,694 --> 00:52:38,613
and freedom. Wow.
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00:52:38,613 --> 00:52:43,535
Jeff, Deana, thanks for taking the time to
come on today and share your story.
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00:52:43,535 --> 00:52:47,956
I really appreciate the openness
and I feel like I learned a lot today.
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00:52:47,998 --> 00:52:50,041
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