You know, it's a.

Okay.

This is very controversial because a lot of.

There's a lot of pain in the world.

There's a lot of very, very traumatic, horrible, horrendous things that are happening in the world.

So this idea of like, everything happens for a reason.

Someone might say, hey, yeah, why should a child go through that in the world?

Why should there be genocide?

Right.

So I want to be very careful the way I preface that.

But everything I've been through.

Most people wouldn't trade lives with me if they ever knew my story.

But.

But I'm so grateful for all of it because I am so strong.

I'm so strong.

And I wouldn't replace any of my exes.

I wouldn't.

In hindsight, you know, I would.

All I can do now, you know, I was saying this to you the other day, and I really want people to know this.

I'm gonna work on this quote that I made and, like, finesse it.

Maybe between you, me and Dori, we can like, figure it out.

He's a wordsmith himself.

So let's do it.

Amazing.

When God gives you a.

God gives you a second chance or a new chance at something.

Let's call it a second chance.

A third chance is still a second chance on the previous chance, right?

Okay, fair.

So when God gives you a second chance.

Okay, I'll start it again.

When God gives you a second chance.

Yes, it's a chance.

You honor that by making it a true reset, a real opportunity for your life.

The chance is just a chance, right?

If you get out of an abusive relationship, he helped you get out, you prayed for it.

You figured out how to get out, right?

Yep.

But then what are you gonna do?

Are you gonna go into the same habits?

Are you gonna pick up a new vice to deal with the pain of?

And what?

And what?

And what?

What?

How will we honor that?

That is a reset.

God doesn't give you a reset.

He gives you a chance, a chance opportunity.

You make it into a reset.

Because if he gives you.

If he gives you a chance and you throw it away, then it's not really a reset, is it?

Same thing.

It's the same thing.

So I am happy for everything that happened so far because I'm learning.

But I'm not happy to make those mistakes again.

I'm not happy to make those missteps that is dishonoring your life.

You have to value the time.

We have to value the time.

I'm not saying that cuz I figured it out.

I'm saying It.

So I make this promise on your podcast to do that for myself.

We're all a work in progress, so telling you, yeah, the accountability helps.

I mean, of course, between friends, between colleagues, just putting things out there in the way that you see them and understand them in this moment is big.

And you might say something that sounds so simple for you to say now, but for someone else, it's like, I've never even considered it that way.

That's.

Yeah.

So true.

What do you think, Doriki?

Should we wordsmith it?

What's going on?

What do you think?

I think I have to distill this for a little bit, because sometimes, simmer, sometimes I.

I have to absorb and kind of receive, especially when we get deep, because I'm actually still kind of stuck on the artist.

The artists have to be careful with their message because we can.

Oh, my gosh.

That I'm stuck on there.

And so I need some time to kind of listen to this over.

But I really.

I really do think that at some.

Point in time, two things here.

First of all, I'm.

I must be.

I must be stupid for thinking that we could do this in 30 minutes with you, because none of our conversations are 30 minutes.

But also, I got to say this, too.

We.

There's always people in our lives that can, like, really just lift us up and, like, find us.

I mean, I'm a pretty positive guy.

I try to keep myself at a certain standard, but whenever we talk, it's, like, it elevates.

And because we talk, like, pretty much daily, I feel like it elevates daily.

So, like, maybe I come down a tiny bit, but I find myself higher and higher each day.

It's really interesting.

And I have a feeling, Duriki, because you've.

I mean, we're.

We come from the same place.

We've known each other forever.

So I have a feeling, even in this little snippet of attack, you probably get the same sense from her, because she's 100.

I was gonna end this person with saying we need maybe once every other month when she has time to kind of come in and drop some gems with us.

We could definitely spend some time.

I think we could.

The short distance to her, her understanding of emotions.

You know, we're gonna have to do this in parts because we're here today.

We haven't even got past the childhood, really.

We've only really focused that and some thoughts that you've formulated from experiences.

So maybe we're gonna call this part one and not try to push past that.

Because there's so much more that we have to get into.

We got to get past the age of 10, so we'll do that another day for sure.

Explore boarding school a little bit more, because that's a fascinating experience for me.

Oh, my God.

I don't think.

I rarely talk about.

About it.

And, like, people have such a misconception of it.

Absolutely.

You know, like, back in that day, it was, like, very elite to send, like, your kids to boarding school.

It was, like private school.

It was, like, in the top hundred schools in India.

Yeah.

And it was run by, you know, nuns.

And so you had, like, a very different concept of the world.

The children that were in that school had came from different parts of life and the world to be.

Even to be.

To afford to be in that school.

And then.

Not that I.

That we came from money.

My mom just figured out a way that she could send us there.

Yeah.

And then.

But so many different reasons that a child is sent to boarding school.

Like, you just lost your parent.

You might have lost both your parents.

You know, your parents can't tell you something, so you don't even know why you're there.

Right.

You know, that's true, too.

It was so many.

So many different stories, but we all found love with each other.

We found friendship with each other, you know, And I always try to think of it, like, in a good way, but, like, in hindsight, you know, who knows what my life would have been like had I, like, been raised at home.

Right.

I feel like every time I leave my parents now, my dad is 77.

Okay.

His birthday's coming up, so I think he's gonna be 78.

And so I.

Every time I leave him, like, I'm about to go take him to his doctor's appointment right after this, and I'm excited to see him.

And when I leave him, I'm gonna be sad.

Like, it's like back in the day, like, leaving him to go back to boarding school.

So I'm a little bit.

If I ever meet you, Doria, you'll know.

Like, I hug.

I hold on a little tighter for every hug, you know, it always feels like, when will I see this person again?

You know, It's a good thing to, like.

I think that goes back.

Will Smith said it.

Yeah.

Will Smith always says that, like, hold someone a little longer, you never know how it's gonna feel when they're gone.

But at the same time, like, maybe a little too much pressure, you know, Like.

Like, chill, dude.

Like.

Yeah, I gotta think of Life abundantly.

At the same time, like, choking out time like that right?

Now, you made a very important point.

Point the message to the world, right?

Yeah.

It's like, you.

You ever hear these songs about, like, suicide and things like that, right?

And I'm like, what does that leave someone?

Like, it's.

There's a.

There are some songs that are so beautiful, and it's just.

It starts with pain and ends with pain.

And I remember once I called my sister, and I'm like, I have this song.

And, like, what message am I putting out there?

Because the hook was, like, looking back, everything good and bad was meant to be for a reason, right?

I'm like, what am I saying?

Like that?

Am I, like, blaming the victim?

Or am I like.

Or, like, just what is the message?

She's like.

Of different songs.

We were, like, dissecting it, and I'm like, yeah.

She's like, talia, you cannot control what.

How people will feel.

And at the end of the day, right, there could be a song that ends up being someone's last song.

And they hurt themselves, unfortunately, because they found solace in that, and they thought, okay, this is what I do, Right?

What, are you going to blame yourself for the rest of your life?

Right.

Yeah.

Like, so it's like, there's different ways people can take your music, and I love hearing those stories.

There's a song.

So there's a record I'm about to put out.

It's called Sound of My Love.

Yep.

Can't Wait.

Which I wrote with Steve D'Angelo, like, a decade ago.

It was.

Yeah, it's gonna be, like, 2015.

And I only recently realized that it was actually the sound of God's love.

Right.

Was not the sound of my love.

And so what was it gonna say with that?

What was I talking about?

Previously, the message.

Oh, yeah.

So, okay, my sister's friend heard the song and was going through a really tough time, and she heard the whole song from a different perspective.

Okay.

So, okay, the chorus is, did you see me?

Didn't you feel me?

Did you hear the sound of my love?

Right.

Yeah.

And this says that twice, right?

And it's like, now when I look back at it, it was like I was crying in the shower the other day.

It was like, I'm like, oh, these were songs for myself.

And then I was like, oh, these were songs.

No, God was telling me, did you see me?

Did you feel me?

Did you hear the sound of my love?

I was always with you.

I was, like, chilled as I say that.

And then that just happened a few weeks ago.

Now this whole record is like, we're in the studio doing it.

It's such a beautiful process with Tom Pkai.

Big love to Tom Makai for everything he puts into a project and where he goes to respect you as a person, as an artist, and into his own spirit to create it.

So these beautiful things are happening once you get back home.

Yeah.

But this woman.

There was a woman, you know, a decade ago, lost, what, like, gave birth to a stillborn child.

And it was so hard for her, but she said it was her singing to her baby.

Did you see me?

Did you feel me and the baby singing about, did you hear the sound of my love?

I'll always be with you like, so I.

Where, where is my silly love story?

But this unrequited love I was God over.

Oh, please.

This guy doesn't love me back.

Way bigger.

Yeah, it's way bigger, you know, and if you can, your message can be the.

Your message.

God sends me messages for myself, for my future self, and then I figure out, oh, this is what it meant.

Yeah, Right.

But, like, who you work with now, who we are now, who you surround with now, these are choices we can still make.

I really wish anyone watching this that we all create love every day.

Someone told me once, like, stop saying, have a nice day.

I always tell you, Anthony, create a beautiful day.

And that way you're not like, have, oh, I'm gonna magically have a beautiful day.

This is not happening.

We are making things happen.

If we are connected to a larger source, when we are connected to the ether, when we're connected to God.

Right?

Yeah.

So what will we bring to this day?

And just people, you know, create love for others that will automatically create love for yourself, because you can only create love for others if you actually love yourself.

So it's on automation.

Some of us is on automation.

Right.

So a lot of us is on automation.

But our source.

Yeah, the signal from the source has to be so clear.

And so who do you surround yourself with?

I cut out so many people from my life.

Thank you for everything.

Thank you for the lessons.

And I never let someone go begrudgingly.

I like.

Thank you.

Sometimes I don't give them a final conversation.

So the people who never got the final conversation.

This is for you.

I was thinking about you guys last night, right?

Yeah, I was thinking about you guys.

I remember you, what you did for me.

The good times, lovingly.

But you did not deserve that final conversation because there's a maddening when someone's in a toxic state.

Yeah.

I believe that everyone's a good person.

Okay?

Every God doesn't create evil.

Okay, so we all come out good, and then broken people then hurt us, and then we, you know, act out on the trauma.

Right.

And this healing, that can bring someone from being deeply narcissistic to deeply spiritual and loving.