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"You 1445 00:08:35,669 --> 00:08:35,820: have 1446 00:08:35,820 --> 00:08:35,850: a 1447 00:08:35,850 --> 00:08:36,210: secret 1448 00:08:36,210 --> 00:08:36,870: admirer," 1449 00:08:36,870 --> 00:08:37,019: he 1450 00:08:37,019 --> 00:08:37,409: says, 1451 00:08:37,409 --> 00:08:37,710: after 1452 00:08:37,710 --> 00:08:37,980: reading 1453 00:08:37,980 --> 00:08:38,100: the 1454 00:08:38,100 --> 00:08:39,330: note.

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I 1577 00:09:16,710 --> 00:09:18,240: shrug. "Some 1578 00:09:18,240 --> 00:09:18,809: fat, 1579 00:09:18,809 --> 00:09:19,289: drunken 1580 00:09:19,289 --> 00:09:19,889: ocelot, 1581 00:09:19,889 --> 00:09:20,039: for 1582 00:09:20,039 --> 00:09:20,220: all 1583 00:09:20,220 --> 00:09:20,340: I 1584 00:09:20,340 --> 00:09:20,519: know 1585 00:09:20,519 --> 00:09:20,639: or 1586 00:09:20,639 --> 00:09:21,570: care. I'm 1587 00:09:21,570 --> 00:09:21,690: not 1588 00:09:21,690 --> 00:09:22,139: ready 1589 00:09:22,139 --> 00:09:22,230: to 1590 00:09:22,230 --> 00:09:22,740: jump back 1591 00:09:22,740 --> 00:09:22,889: into 1592 00:09:22,889 --> 00:09:23,039: the 1593 00:09:23,039 --> 00:09:23,789: game; 1594 00:09:23,789 --> 00:09:24,000: I've 1595 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:24,210: been all 1596 00:09:24,210 --> 00:09:24,570: through 1597 00:09:24,570 --> 00:09:24,809: that, 1598 00:09:24,809 --> 00:09:24,899: and 1599 00:09:24,899 --> 00:09:25,049: I've 1600 00:09:25,049 --> 00:09:25,259: had 1601 00:09:25,259 --> 00:09:25,409: my 1602 00:09:25,409 --> 00:09:25,649: fill 1603 00:09:25,649 --> 00:09:25,740: of 1604 00:09:25,740 --> 00:09:25,919: that 1605 00:09:25,919 --> 00:09:26,159: kind 1606 00:09:26,159 --> 00:09:26,250: of 1607 00:09:26,250 --> 00:09:27,840: hurt."

"You 1608 00:09:27,840 --> 00:09:28,080: still 1609 00:09:28,080 --> 00:09:28,320: miss 1610 00:09:28,320 --> 00:09:28,500: him, 1611 00:09:28,500 --> 00:09:28,769: don't 1612 00:09:28,769 --> 00:09:29,610: you?" 1613 00:09:29,610 --> 00:09:29,759: My 1614 00:09:29,759 --> 00:09:30,090: hand 1615 00:09:30,090 --> 00:09:30,480: strays 1616 00:09:30,480 --> 00:09:30,570: up 1617 00:09:30,570 --> 00:09:30,690: to 1618 00:09:30,690 --> 00:09:30,779: the 1619 00:09:30,779 --> 00:09:31,080: glass 1620 00:09:31,080 --> 00:09:31,350: heart 1621 00:09:31,350 --> 00:09:31,440: I 1622 00:09:31,440 --> 00:09:31,860: wear, 1623 00:09:31,860 --> 00:09:32,009: and 1624 00:09:32,009 --> 00:09:32,129: I 1625 00:09:32,129 --> 00:09:32,970: nod, 1626 00:09:32,970 --> 00:09:33,330: feeling 1627 00:09:33,330 --> 00:09:33,629: another 1628 00:09:33,629 --> 00:09:34,110: traitor 1629 00:09:34,110 --> 00:09:34,379: tear 1630 00:09:34,379 --> 00:09:34,799: threatening 1631 00:09:34,799 --> 00:09:34,889: to 1632 00:09:34,889 --> 00:09:36,269: form. "He 1633 00:09:36,269 --> 00:09:36,539: loved 1634 00:09:36,539 --> 00:09:36,629: to 1635 00:09:36,629 --> 00:09:36,870: watch 1636 00:09:36,870 --> 00:09:36,990: you 1637 00:09:36,990 --> 00:09:37,440: dance, 1638 00:09:37,440 --> 00:09:37,649: more 1639 00:09:37,649 --> 00:09:37,799: than 1640 00:09:37,799 --> 00:09:39,539: anything."

I 1641 00:09:39,539 --> 00:09:39,960: sigh, 1642 00:09:39,960 --> 00:09:41,279: softly. "Yes, 1643 00:09:41,279 --> 00:09:41,490: he 1644 00:09:41,490 --> 00:09:41,850: really 1645 00:09:41,850 --> 00:09:42,990: did. 1646 00:09:42,990 --> 00:09:43,289: But 1647 00:09:43,289 --> 00:09:43,559: he's 1648 00:09:43,559 --> 00:09:44,279: gone, 1649 00:09:44,279 --> 00:09:44,610: and 1650 00:09:44,610 --> 00:09:45,029: nothing's 1651 00:09:45,029 --> 00:09:45,179: going 1652 00:09:45,179 --> 00:09:45,240: to 1653 00:09:45,240 --> 00:09:45,450: bring 1654 00:09:45,450 --> 00:09:45,570: him 1655 00:09:45,570 --> 00:09:47,639: back."

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He breaks 1709 00:10:04,809 --> 00:10:04,929: the 1710 00:10:04,929 --> 00:10:06,129: silence. "Its 1711 00:10:06,129 --> 00:10:06,309: been 1712 00:10:06,309 --> 00:10:06,340: a 1713 00:10:06,340 --> 00:10:06,580: long 1714 00:10:06,580 --> 00:10:07,450: time." 1715 00:10:07,450 --> 00:10:07,539: I 1716 00:10:07,539 --> 00:10:07,844: blink 1717 00:10:07,844 --> 00:10:07,928: at 1718 00:10:07,928 --> 00:10:08,139: him, 1719 00:10:08,139 --> 00:10:08,500: uncertain 1720 00:10:08,500 --> 00:10:08,889: exactly 1721 00:10:08,889 --> 00:10:09,009: what 1722 00:10:09,009 --> 00:10:09,070: he 1723 00:10:09,070 --> 00:10:10,960: means. "Since 1724 00:10:10,960 --> 00:10:12,309: Derek."

I 1725 00:10:12,309 --> 00:10:13,539: nod. "Three 1726 00:10:13,539 --> 00:10:13,840: years 1727 00:10:13,840 --> 00:10:14,110: last 1728 00:10:14,110 --> 00:10:15,820: month."

He 1729 00:10:15,820 --> 00:10:16,450: nods. 1730 00:10:16,450 --> 00:10:16,690: More 1731 00:10:16,690 --> 00:10:17,259: silence, 1732 00:10:17,259 --> 00:10:17,440: until 1733 00:10:17,440 --> 00:10:17,620: we 1734 00:10:17,620 --> 00:10:17,889: reach 1735 00:10:17,889 --> 00:10:17,980: the 1736 00:10:17,980 --> 00:10:18,279: stoop 1737 00:10:18,279 --> 00:10:18,370: of 1738 00:10:18,370 --> 00:10:18,519: my 1739 00:10:18,519 --> 00:10:19,000: apartment 1740 00:10:19,000 --> 00:10:20,649: building. "Whatever 1741 00:10:20,649 --> 00:10:20,950: happened 1742 00:10:20,950 --> 00:10:21,039: to 1743 00:10:21,039 --> 00:10:21,850: what's-his-name? 1744 00:10:21,850 --> 00:10:21,970: You 1745 00:10:21,970 --> 00:10:22,149: know, 1746 00:10:22,149 --> 00:10:22,570: that 1747 00:10:22,570 --> 00:10:22,870: cute 1748 00:10:22,870 --> 00:10:25,299: raccoon?"

"Carl?"

"Yeah, 1749 00:10:25,299 --> 00:10:26,649: him."

"We 1750 00:10:26,649 --> 00:10:26,980: broke 1751 00:10:26,980 --> 00:10:27,610: up. 1752 00:10:27,610 --> 00:10:27,909: He 1753 00:10:27,909 --> 00:10:28,149: didn't 1754 00:10:28,149 --> 00:10:28,419: like 1755 00:10:28,419 --> 00:10:28,539: it 1756 00:10:28,539 --> 00:10:28,690: when 1757 00:10:28,690 --> 00:10:28,750: I 1758 00:10:28,750 --> 00:10:29,228: refused 1759 00:10:29,228 --> 00:10:29,320: to 1760 00:10:29,320 --> 00:10:29,649: stop 1761 00:10:29,649 --> 00:10:30,070: dancing 1762 00:10:30,070 --> 00:10:30,250: for 1763 00:10:30,250 --> 00:10:31,809: him."

"Shit. 1764 00:10:31,809 --> 00:10:32,019: When 1765 00:10:32,019 --> 00:10:32,259: was 1766 00:10:32,259 --> 00:10:33,100: this?" 1767 00:10:33,100 --> 00:10:33,190: I 1768 00:10:33,190 --> 00:10:33,610: smirk 1769 00:10:33,610 --> 00:10:33,700: and 1770 00:10:33,700 --> 00:10:33,909: raise 1771 00:10:33,909 --> 00:10:34,000: an 1772 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:35,049: eyebrow.

"Two 1773 00:10:35,049 --> 00:10:35,350: months 1774 00:10:35,350 --> 00:10:36,159: ago."

"No 1775 00:10:36,159 --> 00:10:36,639: shit! 1776 00:10:36,639 --> 00:10:37,029: Really? 1777 00:10:37,029 --> 00:10:37,240: That 1778 00:10:37,240 --> 00:10:38,350: long?"

I 1779 00:10:38,350 --> 00:10:39,159: nod. "That 1780 00:10:39,159 --> 00:10:40,690: long."

"And 1781 00:10:40,690 --> 00:10:40,809: there 1782 00:10:40,809 --> 00:10:41,080: hasn't 1783 00:10:41,080 --> 00:10:41,230: been 1784 00:10:41,230 --> 00:10:41,620: anyone 1785 00:10:41,620 --> 00:10:42,789: since?"

I 1786 00:10:42,789 --> 00:10:43,149: flash 1787 00:10:43,149 --> 00:10:43,269: him 1788 00:10:43,269 --> 00:10:43,330: a 1789 00:10:43,330 --> 00:10:44,409: smile. "I'm 1790 00:10:44,409 --> 00:10:44,769: saving 1791 00:10:44,769 --> 00:10:45,158: myself 1792 00:10:45,158 --> 00:10:45,309: for 1793 00:10:45,309 --> 00:10:45,490: when 1794 00:10:45,490 --> 00:10:45,639: you 1795 00:10:45,639 --> 00:10:45,850: go 1796 00:10:45,850 --> 00:10:46,870: gay."

He 1797 00:10:46,870 --> 00:10:47,710: grins. "Well, 1798 00:10:47,710 --> 00:10:47,889: then 1799 00:10:47,889 --> 00:10:47,950: I'd 1800 00:10:47,950 --> 00:10:48,190: better 1801 00:10:48,190 --> 00:10:48,460: hurry 1802 00:10:48,460 --> 00:10:48,610: up 1803 00:10:48,610 --> 00:10:48,700: and 1804 00:10:48,700 --> 00:10:48,909: do 1805 00:10:48,909 --> 00:10:49,210: it. 1806 00:10:49,210 --> 00:10:49,419: You're 1807 00:10:49,419 --> 00:10:49,570: too 1808 00:10:49,570 --> 00:10:49,750: good 1809 00:10:49,750 --> 00:10:49,870: to 1810 00:10:49,870 --> 00:10:50,918: waste."

"You're 1811 00:10:50,918 --> 00:10:51,159: going 1812 00:10:51,159 --> 00:10:51,490: fag 1813 00:10:51,490 --> 00:10:51,789: tonight 1814 00:10:51,789 --> 00:10:51,970: then, 1815 00:10:51,970 --> 00:10:52,090: are 1816 00:10:52,090 --> 00:10:52,750: you?"

He 1817 00:10:52,750 --> 00:10:53,710: laughs. "Only 1818 00:10:53,710 --> 00:10:53,860: for 1819 00:10:53,860 --> 00:10:54,159: you, 1820 00:10:54,159 --> 00:10:54,460: sexy 1821 00:10:54,460 --> 00:10:55,120: boy. 1822 00:10:55,120 --> 00:10:55,600: Quick! 1823 00:10:55,600 --> 00:10:55,870: Invite 1824 00:10:55,870 --> 00:10:55,990: me 1825 00:10:55,990 --> 00:10:56,440: upstairs 1826 00:10:56,440 --> 00:10:56,620: before 1827 00:10:56,620 --> 00:10:56,710: I 1828 00:10:56,710 --> 00:10:56,980: change 1829 00:10:56,980 --> 00:10:57,100: my 1830 00:10:57,100 --> 00:10:58,330: mind."

I 1831 00:10:58,330 --> 00:11:00,190: smile. "Want to 1832 00:11:00,190 --> 00:11:00,309: come 1833 00:11:00,309 --> 00:11:00,730: upstairs, 1834 00:11:00,730 --> 00:11:02,080: Charlie?"

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I 2959 00:17:06,670 --> 00:17:06,902: pull 2960 00:17:06,902 --> 00:17:07,059: out 2961 00:17:07,059 --> 00:17:07,180: the 2962 00:17:07,180 --> 00:17:08,203: card. "You 2963 00:17:08,203 --> 00:17:08,349: were 2964 00:17:08,349 --> 00:17:08,650: even 2965 00:17:08,650 --> 00:17:08,829: more 2966 00:17:08,829 --> 00:17:09,490: magnificent 2967 00:17:09,490 --> 00:17:10,359: tonight. 2968 00:17:10,359 --> 00:17:10,539: Will 2969 00:17:10,539 --> 00:17:10,690: you 2970 00:17:10,690 --> 00:17:11,049: dance 2971 00:17:11,049 --> 00:17:11,140: for 2972 00:17:11,140 --> 00:17:11,289: me 2973 00:17:11,289 --> 00:17:14,769: tomorrow?"

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I 3061 00:17:43,599 --> 00:17:44,019: stop 3062 00:17:44,019 --> 00:17:44,109: and 3063 00:17:44,109 --> 00:17:44,380: shake 3064 00:17:44,380 --> 00:17:44,500: my 3065 00:17:44,500 --> 00:17:46,150: head. "Derek 3066 00:17:46,150 --> 00:17:48,069: was the one for me, Charlie. I'm not ever 3067 00:17:48,069 --> 00:17:48,220: going 3068 00:17:48,220 --> 00:17:48,279: to 3069 00:17:48,279 --> 00:17:48,490: love 3070 00:17:48,490 --> 00:17:48,819: anyone 3071 00:17:48,819 --> 00:17:49,000: like 3072 00:17:49,000 --> 00:17:49,180: that 3073 00:17:49,180 --> 00:17:49,809: again. 3074 00:17:49,809 --> 00:17:49,930: I 3075 00:17:49,930 --> 00:17:50,289: know, 3076 00:17:50,289 --> 00:17:50,440: I 3077 00:17:50,440 --> 00:17:50,799: know," 3078 00:17:50,799 --> 00:17:50,920: I 3079 00:17:50,920 --> 00:17:51,579: say, 3080 00:17:51,579 --> 00:17:52,240: forestalling 3081 00:17:52,240 --> 00:17:52,359: him 3082 00:17:52,359 --> 00:17:52,539: as 3083 00:17:52,539 --> 00:17:52,599: he 3084 00:17:52,599 --> 00:17:52,930: begins 3085 00:17:52,930 --> 00:17:53,019: to 3086 00:17:53,019 --> 00:17:54,490: protest. "Derek 3087 00:17:54,490 --> 00:17:54,730: wouldn't 3088 00:17:54,730 --> 00:17:54,910: want 3089 00:17:54,910 --> 00:17:55,000: me 3090 00:17:55,000 --> 00:17:55,089: to 3091 00:17:55,089 --> 00:17:55,210: be 3092 00:17:55,210 --> 00:17:55,660: alone, 3093 00:17:55,660 --> 00:17:55,839: and 3094 00:17:55,839 --> 00:17:55,930: he 3095 00:17:55,930 --> 00:17:56,079: would 3096 00:17:56,079 --> 00:17:56,259: want 3097 00:17:56,259 --> 00:17:56,349: me 3098 00:17:56,349 --> 00:17:56,440: to 3099 00:17:56,440 --> 00:17:56,559: be 3100 00:17:56,559 --> 00:17:57,160: happy. 3101 00:17:57,160 --> 00:17:57,339: But 3102 00:17:57,339 --> 00:17:57,400: I 3103 00:17:57,400 --> 00:17:57,759: don't 3104 00:17:57,759 --> 00:17:58,180: really 3105 00:17:58,180 --> 00:17:58,569: want 3106 00:17:58,569 --> 00:17:58,930: anyone 3107 00:17:58,930 --> 00:18:00,160: else. 3108 00:18:00,160 --> 00:18:00,579: Sure, 3109 00:18:00,579 --> 00:18:00,759: I'll 3110 00:18:00,759 --> 00:18:01,000: get 3111 00:18:01,000 --> 00:18:01,390: laid 3112 00:18:01,390 --> 00:18:01,630: from 3113 00:18:01,630 --> 00:18:01,869: time 3114 00:18:01,869 --> 00:18:02,019: to 3115 00:18:02,019 --> 00:18:02,380: time, 3116 00:18:02,380 --> 00:18:02,650: because 3117 00:18:02,650 --> 00:18:02,769: my 3118 00:18:02,769 --> 00:18:03,099: body 3119 00:18:03,099 --> 00:18:03,430: needs 3120 00:18:03,430 --> 00:18:03,579: it, 3121 00:18:03,579 --> 00:18:03,759: but 3122 00:18:03,759 --> 00:18:04,990: love? 3123 00:18:04,990 --> 00:18:05,799: No, 3124 00:18:05,799 --> 00:18:05,920: I 3125 00:18:05,920 --> 00:18:06,160: think 3126 00:18:06,160 --> 00:18:06,279: I'm 3127 00:18:06,279 --> 00:18:06,490: done 3128 00:18:06,490 --> 00:18:06,640: with 3129 00:18:06,640 --> 00:18:08,170: love."

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I 3141 00:18:12,250 --> 00:18:13,000: smile. "I 3142 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:13,210: love 3143 00:18:13,210 --> 00:18:13,420: you, 3144 00:18:13,420 --> 00:18:13,569: too, 3145 00:18:13,569 --> 00:18:14,079: Charlie, 3146 00:18:14,079 --> 00:18:14,230: but 3147 00:18:14,230 --> 00:18:14,349: you 3148 00:18:14,349 --> 00:18:14,529: know 3149 00:18:14,529 --> 00:18:14,680: what 3150 00:18:14,680 --> 00:18:14,769: I 3151 00:18:14,769 --> 00:18:16,000: mean." 3152 00:18:16,000 --> 00:18:16,089: I 3153 00:18:16,089 --> 00:18:16,450: release 3154 00:18:16,450 --> 00:18:16,599: his 3155 00:18:16,599 --> 00:18:16,990: hand, 3156 00:18:16,990 --> 00:18:17,349: gently 3157 00:18:17,349 --> 00:18:17,740: withdrawing 3158 00:18:17,740 --> 00:18:17,890: my 3159 00:18:17,890 --> 00:18:19,059: paw. "I'll 3160 00:18:19,059 --> 00:18:19,180: be 3161 00:18:19,180 --> 00:18:19,359: with 3162 00:18:19,359 --> 00:18:19,690: Derek 3163 00:18:19,690 --> 00:18:19,960: again, 3164 00:18:19,960 --> 00:18:21,160: someday. 3165 00:18:21,160 --> 00:18:21,400: Til 3166 00:18:21,400 --> 00:18:21,970: then, 3167 00:18:21,970 --> 00:18:22,119: I 3168 00:18:22,119 --> 00:18:22,269: can 3169 00:18:22,269 --> 00:18:25,000: wait."

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I 3243 00:18:49,900 --> 00:18:50,172: giggle 3244 00:18:50,172 --> 00:18:51,789: again. "Nothing."

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"No, 3273 00:19:03,490 --> 00:19:04,269: goof. 3274 00:19:04,269 --> 00:19:05,650: Dreams."

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"Who?"

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"Champagne?"

"I...certainly."

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He 3704 00:21:51,964 --> 00:21:53,015: shrugs. "That 3705 00:21:53,015 --> 00:21:53,164: is 3706 00:21:53,164 --> 00:21:54,335: inconsequential. 3707 00:21:54,335 --> 00:21:54,484: I 3708 00:21:54,484 --> 00:21:54,904: admire 3709 00:21:54,904 --> 00:21:55,085: your 3710 00:21:55,085 --> 00:21:55,654: dancing 3711 00:21:55,654 --> 00:21:55,805: and 3712 00:21:55,805 --> 00:21:56,164: desired 3713 00:21:56,164 --> 00:21:56,255: the 3714 00:21:56,255 --> 00:21:56,585: pleasure 3715 00:21:56,585 --> 00:21:56,674: of 3716 00:21:56,674 --> 00:21:56,765: your 3717 00:21:56,765 --> 00:21:57,724: company. 3718 00:21:57,724 --> 00:21:58,085: Whatever 3719 00:21:58,085 --> 00:21:58,295: else 3720 00:21:58,295 --> 00:21:58,414: will 3721 00:21:58,414 --> 00:21:58,894: happen, 3722 00:21:58,894 --> 00:21:59,045: will 3723 00:21:59,045 --> 00:21:59,734: happen. 3724 00:21:59,734 --> 00:22:00,154: I 3725 00:22:00,154 --> 00:22:00,335: do 3726 00:22:00,335 --> 00:22:00,605: find 3727 00:22:00,605 --> 00:22:00,694: you 3728 00:22:00,694 --> 00:22:00,934: very 3729 00:22:00,934 --> 00:22:02,194: attractive."

"Thank 3730 00:22:02,194 --> 00:22:03,214: you."

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He 3776 00:22:16,505 --> 00:22:18,454: smiles. "Well, 3777 00:22:18,454 --> 00:22:18,664: I'll 3778 00:22:18,664 --> 00:22:18,994: admit 3779 00:22:18,994 --> 00:22:19,144: that 3780 00:22:19,144 --> 00:22:19,204: I 3781 00:22:19,204 --> 00:22:19,444: wouldn't 3782 00:22:19,444 --> 00:22:19,805: mind 3783 00:22:19,805 --> 00:22:19,924: if 3784 00:22:19,924 --> 00:22:20,134: this 3785 00:22:20,134 --> 00:22:20,434: evening 3786 00:22:20,434 --> 00:22:20,825: ended 3787 00:22:20,825 --> 00:22:21,095: with 3788 00:22:21,095 --> 00:22:21,305: us 3789 00:22:21,305 --> 00:22:21,484: in 3790 00:22:21,484 --> 00:22:22,085: bed, 3791 00:22:22,085 --> 00:22:22,444: but 3792 00:22:22,444 --> 00:22:22,565: I 3793 00:22:22,565 --> 00:22:22,865: won't 3794 00:22:22,865 --> 00:22:24,125: beg."

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He 3807 00:22:29,255 --> 00:22:30,394: nods. "Its 3808 00:22:30,394 --> 00:22:30,664: five 3809 00:22:30,664 --> 00:22:31,144: stars at the 3810 00:22:31,144 --> 00:22:31,474: hotel 3811 00:22:31,474 --> 00:22:33,095: restaurant."

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"Does it 3945 00:23:22,444 --> 00:23:23,375: matter?"

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"Are 3964 00:23:30,694 --> 00:23:30,875: you 3965 00:23:30,875 --> 00:23:32,134: gay?"

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"I... 3983 00:23:39,515 --> 00:23:40,204: Yes. 3984 00:23:40,204 --> 00:23:41,105: Well, 3985 00:23:41,105 --> 00:23:41,615: no, 3986 00:23:41,615 --> 00:23:42,335: actually. 3987 00:23:42,335 --> 00:23:42,724: He 3988 00:23:42,724 --> 00:23:43,085: passed 3989 00:23:43,085 --> 00:23:45,335: away."

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"How 4029 00:24:02,914 --> 00:24:03,065: did 4030 00:24:03,065 --> 00:24:03,154: he 4031 00:24:03,154 --> 00:24:04,894: die?"

"Hit 4032 00:24:04,894 --> 00:24:05,015: and 4033 00:24:05,015 --> 00:24:06,335: run."

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"Sometimes, it feels like Derek's still 4924 00:29:50,285 --> 00:29:50,555: here, 4925 00:29:50,555 --> 00:29:50,765: with 4926 00:29:50,765 --> 00:29:52,115: me."

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"What 4970 00:30:06,214 --> 00:30:06,365: was 4971 00:30:06,365 --> 00:30:06,484: your 4972 00:30:06,484 --> 00:30:06,755: brother 4973 00:30:06,755 --> 00:30:08,194: like?"

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When 5088 00:30:51,400 --> 00:30:51,490: I 5089 00:30:51,490 --> 00:30:51,670: come 5090 00:30:51,670 --> 00:30:51,789: out 5091 00:30:51,789 --> 00:30:51,849: of 5092 00:30:51,849 --> 00:30:51,940: the 5093 00:30:51,940 --> 00:30:52,180: room, 5094 00:30:52,180 --> 00:30:52,240: I 5095 00:30:52,240 --> 00:30:52,450: run 5096 00:30:52,450 --> 00:30:52,660: into 5097 00:30:52,660 --> 00:30:53,109: Charlie, 5098 00:30:53,109 --> 00:30:53,440: lugging 5099 00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:53,950: CDs 5100 00:30:53,950 --> 00:30:54,039: to 5101 00:30:54,039 --> 00:30:54,160: the 5102 00:30:54,160 --> 00:30:55,150: DJ. "Hey," 5103 00:30:55,150 --> 00:30:55,299: he 5104 00:30:55,299 --> 00:30:55,990: calls, "what 5105 00:30:55,990 --> 00:30:56,049: do 5106 00:30:56,049 --> 00:30:56,109: you 5107 00:30:56,109 --> 00:30:56,230: want 5108 00:30:56,230 --> 00:30:56,289: to 5109 00:30:56,289 --> 00:30:56,559: dance 5110 00:30:56,559 --> 00:30:56,740: to 5111 00:30:56,740 --> 00:30:58,059: tonight?"

I 5112 00:30:58,059 --> 00:31:00,400: ponder. "How about B.B.Wolf 5113 00:31:00,400 --> 00:31:00,490: and 5114 00:31:00,490 --> 00:31:00,549: the 5115 00:31:00,549 --> 00:31:00,819: Midnight 5116 00:31:00,819 --> 00:31:01,480: Howlers? 5117 00:31:01,480 --> 00:31:01,720: That 5118 00:31:01,720 --> 00:31:02,019: song 5119 00:31:02,019 --> 00:31:02,230: about 5120 00:31:02,230 --> 00:31:03,549: loneliness."

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And 5387 00:32:45,970 --> 00:32:46,359: without 5388 00:32:46,359 --> 00:32:46,839: you, 5389 00:32:46,839 --> 00:32:46,990: I'll 5390 00:32:46,990 --> 00:32:47,170: be 5391 00:32:47,170 --> 00:32:49,180: only
Killing 5392 00:32:49,180 --> 00:32:50,859: time.

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Because 5445 00:33:09,369 --> 00:33:11,289: I'm...

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I 5861 00:35:33,280 --> 00:35:33,610: rip 5862 00:35:33,610 --> 00:35:33,730: the 5863 00:35:33,730 --> 00:35:34,059: thong 5864 00:35:34,059 --> 00:35:34,420: away 5865 00:35:34,420 --> 00:35:34,510: and 5866 00:35:34,510 --> 00:35:34,900: caress 5867 00:35:34,900 --> 00:35:35,320: myself 5868 00:35:35,320 --> 00:35:35,469: from 5869 00:35:35,469 --> 00:35:35,679: head 5870 00:35:35,679 --> 00:35:35,800: to 5871 00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:36,550: toe, 5872 00:35:36,550 --> 00:35:36,699: my 5873 00:35:36,699 --> 00:35:37,059: hands 5874 00:35:37,059 --> 00:35:37,389: moving 5875 00:35:37,389 --> 00:35:37,510: in 5876 00:35:37,510 --> 00:35:38,170: counterpoint 5877 00:35:38,170 --> 00:35:38,260: to 5878 00:35:38,260 --> 00:35:38,440: one 5879 00:35:38,440 --> 00:35:38,829: another 5880 00:35:38,829 --> 00:35:38,980: and 5881 00:35:38,980 --> 00:35:39,099: to 5882 00:35:39,099 --> 00:35:39,250: my 5883 00:35:39,250 --> 00:35:39,699: body 5884 00:35:39,699 --> 00:35:39,940: which 5885 00:35:39,940 --> 00:35:40,179: never 5886 00:35:40,179 --> 00:35:40,599: stops 5887 00:35:40,599 --> 00:35:41,739: dancing. 5888 00:35:41,739 --> 00:35:41,829: I 5889 00:35:41,829 --> 00:35:42,099: have 5890 00:35:42,099 --> 00:35:42,579: never 5891 00:35:42,579 --> 00:35:42,969: enjoyed 5892 00:35:42,969 --> 00:35:43,059: the 5893 00:35:43,059 --> 00:35:43,389: feeling 5894 00:35:43,389 --> 00:35:43,510: of 5895 00:35:43,510 --> 00:35:43,929: dancing 5896 00:35:43,929 --> 00:35:44,170: more 5897 00:35:44,170 --> 00:35:44,320: than 5898 00:35:44,320 --> 00:35:44,440: I 5899 00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:44,650: do 5900 00:35:44,650 --> 00:35:46,269: now.

I 5901 00:35:46,269 --> 00:35:46,690: can't 5902 00:35:46,690 --> 00:35:46,869: be 5903 00:35:46,869 --> 00:35:47,980: defeated,
And 5904 00:35:47,980 --> 00:35:48,159: this 5905 00:35:48,159 --> 00:35:48,400: won't 5906 00:35:48,400 --> 00:35:48,579: be 5907 00:35:48,579 --> 00:35:50,050: repeated,
Because 5908 00:35:50,050 --> 00:35:51,280: I'm...

I 5909 00:35:51,280 --> 00:35:51,610: fly 5910 00:35:51,610 --> 00:35:51,730: off 5911 00:35:51,730 --> 00:35:51,849: the 5912 00:35:51,849 --> 00:35:52,179: stage 5913 00:35:52,179 --> 00:35:52,329: one 5914 00:35:52,329 --> 00:35:52,480: more 5915 00:35:52,480 --> 00:35:52,840: time 5916 00:35:52,840 --> 00:35:53,050: and 5917 00:35:53,050 --> 00:35:53,469: land, 5918 00:35:53,469 --> 00:35:53,679: for 5919 00:35:53,679 --> 00:35:54,219: once, 5920 00:35:54,219 --> 00:35:54,369: in 5921 00:35:54,369 --> 00:35:54,489: the 5922 00:35:54,489 --> 00:35:55,570: audience, 5923 00:35:55,570 --> 00:35:55,989: daring 5924 00:35:55,989 --> 00:35:56,170: them 5925 00:35:56,170 --> 00:35:56,320: to 5926 00:35:56,320 --> 00:35:56,619: touch 5927 00:35:56,619 --> 00:35:57,340: me. 5928 00:35:57,340 --> 00:35:57,550: They 5929 00:35:57,550 --> 00:35:58,090: gasp, 5930 00:35:58,090 --> 00:35:58,179: and 5931 00:35:58,179 --> 00:35:58,480: Charlie 5932 00:35:58,480 --> 00:35:59,139: scrambles 5933 00:35:59,139 --> 00:35:59,230: to 5934 00:35:59,230 --> 00:35:59,530: follow 5935 00:35:59,530 --> 00:35:59,679: me 5936 00:35:59,679 --> 00:35:59,829: with 5937 00:35:59,829 --> 00:35:59,920: the 5938 00:35:59,920 --> 00:36:01,090: pin-spot. 5939 00:36:01,090 --> 00:36:01,210: I 5940 00:36:01,210 --> 00:36:01,480: move 5941 00:36:01,480 --> 00:36:01,869: amongst 5942 00:36:01,869 --> 00:36:01,989: them, 5943 00:36:01,989 --> 00:36:02,139: but 5944 00:36:02,139 --> 00:36:02,230: they 5945 00:36:02,230 --> 00:36:02,440: keep 5946 00:36:02,440 --> 00:36:02,590: their 5947 00:36:02,590 --> 00:36:02,920: hands 5948 00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:03,010: to 5949 00:36:03,010 --> 00:36:04,179: themselves. 5950 00:36:04,179 --> 00:36:04,449: Some 5951 00:36:04,449 --> 00:36:04,510: of 5952 00:36:04,510 --> 00:36:04,659: them 5953 00:36:04,659 --> 00:36:04,960: cannot 5954 00:36:04,960 --> 00:36:05,170: even 5955 00:36:05,170 --> 00:36:05,409: look 5956 00:36:05,409 --> 00:36:05,500: at 5957 00:36:05,500 --> 00:36:05,800: me, 5958 00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:05,980: but 5959 00:36:05,980 --> 00:36:06,250: one 5960 00:36:06,250 --> 00:36:07,090: does, 5961 00:36:07,090 --> 00:36:07,210: and 5962 00:36:07,210 --> 00:36:07,329: he 5963 00:36:07,329 --> 00:36:07,719: watches 5964 00:36:07,719 --> 00:36:07,840: me 5965 00:36:07,840 --> 00:36:07,989: with 5966 00:36:07,989 --> 00:36:08,050: a 5967 00:36:08,050 --> 00:36:08,409: foreign 5968 00:36:08,409 --> 00:36:08,590: look 5969 00:36:08,590 --> 00:36:08,679: in 5970 00:36:08,679 --> 00:36:08,829: his 5971 00:36:08,829 --> 00:36:10,210: eye. 5972 00:36:10,210 --> 00:36:10,449: It is 5973 00:36:10,449 --> 00:36:11,409: Charlie, 5974 00:36:11,409 --> 00:36:11,619: his 5975 00:36:11,619 --> 00:36:11,800: eyes 5976 00:36:11,800 --> 00:36:12,579: shining. 5977 00:36:12,579 --> 00:36:12,789: He 5978 00:36:12,789 --> 00:36:13,150: alone 5979 00:36:13,150 --> 00:36:13,360: is 5980 00:36:13,360 --> 00:36:13,809: really 5981 00:36:13,809 --> 00:36:14,260: watching 5982 00:36:14,260 --> 00:36:15,760: me.

Not 5983 00:36:15,760 --> 00:36:16,119: lonely 5984 00:36:16,119 --> 00:36:17,363: any more!

He 5985 00:36:17,363 --> 00:36:17,530: is 5986 00:36:17,530 --> 00:36:17,889: watching 5987 00:36:17,889 --> 00:36:18,039: me 5988 00:36:18,039 --> 00:36:18,489: dance. 5989 00:36:18,489 --> 00:36:18,730: Not 5990 00:36:18,730 --> 00:36:19,239: lusting 5991 00:36:19,239 --> 00:36:19,329: or 5992 00:36:19,329 --> 00:36:20,079: fantasizing, 5993 00:36:20,079 --> 00:36:20,230: but 5994 00:36:20,230 --> 00:36:20,559: loving 5995 00:36:20,559 --> 00:36:20,679: the 5996 00:36:20,679 --> 00:36:21,010: dance 5997 00:36:21,010 --> 00:36:22,719: itself.

Not 5998 00:36:22,719 --> 00:36:23,050: lonely 5999 00:36:23,050 --> 00:36:24,610: any more!

Like 6000 00:36:24,610 --> 00:36:24,940: Derek 6001 00:36:24,940 --> 00:36:25,179: used 6002 00:36:25,179 --> 00:36:25,269: to 6003 00:36:25,269 --> 00:36:26,920: do.

Not 6004 00:36:26,920 --> 00:36:28,929: lonely

Tonight, 6005 00:36:28,929 --> 00:36:29,019: I 6006 00:36:29,019 --> 00:36:29,320: dance 6007 00:36:29,320 --> 00:36:29,440: for 6008 00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:30,550: Charlie, 6009 00:36:30,550 --> 00:36:30,699: for 6010 00:36:30,699 --> 00:36:31,630: me, 6011 00:36:31,630 --> 00:36:31,809: and 6012 00:36:31,809 --> 00:36:31,929: to 6013 00:36:31,929 --> 00:36:32,170: lay 6014 00:36:32,170 --> 00:36:32,590: Derek's 6015 00:36:32,590 --> 00:36:32,885: ghost 6016 00:36:32,885 --> 00:36:33,010: to 6017 00:36:33,010 --> 00:36:34,090: rest. 6018 00:36:34,090 --> 00:36:34,269: The 6019 00:36:34,269 --> 00:36:34,630: rest 6020 00:36:34,630 --> 00:36:34,690: of 6021 00:36:34,690 --> 00:36:34,780: the 6022 00:36:34,780 --> 00:36:35,019: world 6023 00:36:35,019 --> 00:36:35,230: can 6024 00:36:35,230 --> 00:36:35,860: watch, 6025 00:36:35,860 --> 00:36:36,039: but 6026 00:36:36,039 --> 00:36:36,190: they're 6027 00:36:36,190 --> 00:36:39,699: unimportant.

Any…

Goodbye, 6028 00:36:39,699 --> 00:36:40,900: Derek.

6029 00:36:40,900 --> 00:36:44,079: More.


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6141 00:37:21,699 --> 00:37:21,880: Right 6142 00:37:21,880 --> 00:37:22,030: now, 6143 00:37:22,030 --> 00:37:22,119: it 6144 00:37:22,119 --> 00:37:22,360: doesn't 6145 00:37:22,360 --> 00:37:23,590: matter. 6146 00:37:23,590 --> 00:37:23,679: I 6147 00:37:23,679 --> 00:37:23,860: have 6148 00:37:23,860 --> 00:37:25,000: Charlie, 6149 00:37:25,000 --> 00:37:25,088: and 6150 00:37:25,088 --> 00:37:25,210: my 6151 00:37:25,210 --> 00:37:26,409: memories, 6152 00:37:26,409 --> 00:37:26,530: and 6153 00:37:26,530 --> 00:37:26,679: my 6154 00:37:26,679 --> 00:37:28,119: dreams. 6155 00:37:28,119 --> 00:37:28,389: And 6156 00:37:28,389 --> 00:37:28,510: my 6157 00:37:28,510 --> 00:37:30,940: dancing.

Ah, 6158 00:37:30,940 --> 00:37:31,059: the 6159 00:37:31,059 --> 00:37:33,550: dancing!

When I dance, 6160 00:37:33,550 --> 00:37:33,760: all 6161 00:37:33,760 --> 00:37:33,849: the 6162 00:37:33,849 --> 00:37:34,119: rest 6163 00:37:34,119 --> 00:37:34,210: of 6164 00:37:34,210 --> 00:37:34,329: it 6165 00:37:34,329 --> 00:37:34,750: ceases 6166 00:37:34,750 --> 00:37:34,840: to 6167 00:37:34,840 --> 00:37:35,889: matter. 6168 00:37:35,889 --> 00:37:36,099: My 6169 00:37:36,099 --> 00:37:36,429: glass 6170 00:37:36,429 --> 00:37:36,699: heart 6171 00:37:36,699 --> 00:37:36,849: could 6172 00:37:36,849 --> 00:37:37,809: shatter, 6173 00:37:37,809 --> 00:37:37,960: my 6174 00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:38,349: flying 6175 00:37:38,349 --> 00:37:38,710: dreams 6176 00:37:38,710 --> 00:37:38,860: could 6177 00:37:38,860 --> 00:37:40,030: unravel, 6178 00:37:40,030 --> 00:37:40,179: and 6179 00:37:40,179 --> 00:37:40,269: my 6180 00:37:40,269 --> 00:37:40,659: magic 6181 00:37:40,659 --> 00:37:41,079: slippers 6182 00:37:41,079 --> 00:37:41,230: could 6183 00:37:41,230 --> 00:37:41,440: rot 6184 00:37:41,440 --> 00:37:41,559: to 6185 00:37:41,559 --> 00:37:42,909: dust. 6186 00:37:42,909 --> 00:37:43,119: When 6187 00:37:43,119 --> 00:37:43,329: all 6188 00:37:43,329 --> 00:37:43,420: is 6189 00:37:43,420 --> 00:37:43,630: said 6190 00:37:43,630 --> 00:37:43,780: and 6191 00:37:43,780 --> 00:37:44,380: done, 6192 00:37:44,380 --> 00:37:44,619: I'll 6193 00:37:44,619 --> 00:37:44,920: still 6194 00:37:44,920 --> 00:37:45,039: be 6195 00:37:45,039 --> 00:37:46,989: dancing.

And 6196 00:37:46,989 --> 00:37:48,880: when I dance, 6197 00:37:48,880 --> 00:37:48,969: I 6198 00:37:48,969 --> 00:37:49,300: dance 6199 00:37:49,300 --> 00:37:53,800: alone.



This 6200 00:37:53,800 --> 00:37:54,880: was “Icarus 6201 00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:55,630: Dreams, 6202 00:37:55,630 --> 00:37:55,719: a 6203 00:37:55,719 --> 00:37:56,110: Glass 6204 00:37:56,110 --> 00:37:56,710: Heart, 6205 00:37:56,710 --> 00:37:56,920: and 6206 00:37:56,920 --> 00:37:57,460: Slippers 6207 00:37:57,460 --> 00:37:57,579: to 6208 00:37:57,579 --> 00:37:57,940: Take 6209 00:37:57,940 --> 00:37:58,150: Me 6210 00:37:58,150 --> 00:37:58,960: Home” 6211 00:37:58,960 --> 00:37:59,199: by 6212 00:37:59,199 --> 00:38:00,280: Andrew “Aethan” 6213 00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:01,389: French, 6214 00:38:01,389 --> 00:38:01,630: read 6215 00:38:01,630 --> 00:38:01,840: for you 6216 00:38:01,840 --> 00:38:01,989: by 6217 00:38:01,989 --> 00:38:02,139: the 6218 00:38:02,139 --> 00:38:03,250: Author. 6219 00:38:03,250 --> 00:38:03,400: You 6220 00:38:03,400 --> 00:38:03,550: can 6221 00:38:03,550 --> 00:38:03,880: find 6222 00:38:03,880 --> 00:38:04,119: more 6223 00:38:04,119 --> 00:38:04,599: stories 6224 00:38:04,599 --> 00:38:04,750: on 6225 00:38:04,750 --> 00:38:04,809: the 6226 00:38:04,809 --> 00:38:05,139: web 6227 00:38:05,139 --> 00:38:05,260: at 6228 00:38:05,260 --> 00:38:07,179: thevoice.dog, 6229 00:38:07,179 --> 00:38:07,420: or 6230 00:38:07,420 --> 00:38:07,719: find 6231 00:38:07,719 --> 00:38:07,780: the 6232 00:38:07,780 --> 00:38:08,079: show 6233 00:38:08,079 --> 00:38:08,380: wherever 6234 00:38:08,380 --> 00:38:08,530: you 6235 00:38:08,530 --> 00:38:09,039: get 6236 00:38:09,039 --> 00:38:09,519: your 6237 00:38:09,519 --> 00:38:11,320: podcasts. 6238 00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:11,650: Thank 6239 00:38:11,650 --> 00:38:11,769: you 6240 00:38:11,769 --> 00:38:11,920: for 6241 00:38:11,920 --> 00:38:12,940: listening 6242 00:38:12,940 --> 00:38:13,090: to 6243 00:38:13,090 --> 00:38:13,210: The 6244 00:38:13,210 --> 00:38:14,079: Voice 6245 00:38:14,079 --> 00:38:14,320: of 6246 00:38:14,320 --> 00:38:14,920: Dog.